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560 pages, Hardcover
First published November 23, 2021
“Old men always think they know better than everyone else, even when the world has long since changed around them.”
“A coward is not a man who feels fear. A coward is one who would volunteer others for suffering he would not take on himself.”

“I’m learning to. What’s the point of having power if we can’t use it to help people? The farmers, the gutter orphans – they’re no different than you or me.”
“It wasn’t fair that Jovis should have the love and adoration of the Empire’s people, and I had to fight for even a modicum of respect.”
“One thing the monks taught me was that history is not a line; it is a spiral. We don’t repeat moments in time, but we come back around, echoing them.”
“When you’re young, you think you can change the world. You think you can bend it to your will. When you’re old, you learn to change your small corner of it and live with the rest.”
“A coward is not a man who feels fear. A coward is one who would volunteer others for the suffering he would not take on himself,” Phalue said.
“Watching my father and reading and listening to you … if there’s one thing it’s all taught me it’s that if I try too hard to hold on to power at the expense of everything else, in the end that’s all I’ll have: power.”
“But that’s like winning the battle and losing the war.”
“I have to stand by my convictions. I won’t pick and choose when it’s convenient for me […]”
“Her fingers curled into claws. “They want me to abdicate. They want to have no Emperor at all.”
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Unthinkable, I say. Unthinkable. *eyeroll*
“The Empire expected a monster? She would be the monster.”
I loved my father, but he didn’t love me. In the end, I wanted to live more than I wanted him to love me.
"Watching my father and reading and listening to you... if there's one thing it's all taught me it's that if I try too hard to hold on to power at the expense of everything else, in the end that's all I'll have: power."
I’d thought nothing could hurt worse than my father’s betrayal, learning that he’d never actually loved me, but merely the ghost I would never become. My heart was guarded against such things, I’d thought.
Time and experience make fools of us all.
And the worst was, I wasn’t sure what hurt more – the fact that Jovis had lied to me from the beginning, or the way the door had shut behind him, leaving me alone. Somewhere in the time we’d spent together, I’d started to feel like I could rely on him, that we had a kinship. I thought the only thing that could make me feel better was an embrace, and the only hug I could remember receiving had been from him.
Jovis was still there, Mephi next to him. He was showing the beast a deck of lacquered cards. Mephi reached out with a webbed claw and touched one.
"This one."
Jovis sighed. "No, no, no - if you play a fish on a sea serpent, that means you lose that turn."
Mephi tilted his head and sat back on his haunches. "Feed the fish to the sea serpent. Make the sea serpent your friend."
"That's not how it works."
"It worked on me."
"Are you a sea serpent?"
Mephi clacked his teeth. "Your game makes no sense."
"You said you were bored and wanted to learn," Jovis said. He started to tuck the cards back in his pocket.
Mephi's ears flattened against his skull.
"Wait. Waaaaait."

”When you’re young, you think you can change the world. You think you can bend it to your will. When you’re old, you learn to change your small corner of it and live with the rest.”
“Because even if I am the Emperor, I am still one of them.”
”A coward is not a man who feels fear. A coward is one who would volunteer others for the suffering he would not take on himself,”
“Old men always think they know better than everyone else, even when the world has long since changed around them.”
“One thing the monks taught me was that history is not a line; it is a spiral. We don’t repeat moments in time, but we come back around, echoing them.”