Okay, unpopular opinion time.
Warning, spoilers (and some cursing) ahead.
So, I started reading this book hoping for something a little different in the genre and after all the glowing reviews, I could barely wait to get my hands on it.
I started reading and it felt a little like getting dropped in the middle of a crosswalk in Kyoto and being told to find my way to the airport.
the story is hella confusing. I had no idea what was happening and felt like I was constantly trying to catch up with everything and everyone. it was more than a little frustrating.
Maybe a more thorough explanation of the town and the community would've made things clearer. Because I have so many questions.
For instance, why does Ryder have to hide he's a Wolfe? Why pretend to be from another family? And if it's such a small town wouldn't someone have noticed by now that his mom lives with the necromancer? Wouldn't people have put two and two together?
I pushed through my confusion, determined to get to the bottom, hopping that there would be a better explanation for things. I'll readily admit that I really enjoyed some of the characters. Ryder is by far my favorite one. Liam felt a bit one-dimensional but I still managed to like him. He was sweet and understanding of all of Ryder's secrets. But their relationship felt a little flat to me. There was no build up. One moment they are staring at each other, Liam is complaining that he only manages to pull "The Lovers" card from the deck and then in the next moment they're drinking each other's blood... I mean, this threw me for a loop a bit. If my best friend told me I could suck his blood to help him control his powers, I would at least hesitate. Especially because Liam is a white witch. Or was, at least.
At this point I was tired of trying to make heads or tails of everything that was happening but I wanted to find out what happened at the end.
I also didn't get what the big deal with Ryder losing control was. Here is where a little context would've done wonders to help me understand WHY EVERYONE WAS FREAKING OUT! It just didn't make sense to me. Not even when he was siphoning Liam 's energy, because he gave it back. And Liam himself said that he was fine before doing the magical tango with Ryder and felt even better afterwards. So what was the problem? Just because Ryder could feel his heartbeat in his palms? I mean, can't everyone do that? Doesn't every one have the potential to end a life with their bare hands? What made Ryder more dangerous than say, Christy (who could read people's minds and potentially use that for her benefit)? Ryder didn't come off as a bad person, so why was everyone so worried he would go nuts and start killing people? Couldn't he potentially learn to control it? Was it really necessary go through a traumatic ritual?
And then the ritual. Or ceremony, as I believe it's called. I'll be the first to admit that I'm not versed in the occult. And, once again, could've really used a ton of explanation here as to why, oh why, was this ceremony necessary? How is dying and resurrecting going to help him gain control of his powers? I honestly didn't see a reason for it. Maybe it's because I don't know much about paganism and all its rituals. That could be a possibility. But as a reader, wether I understand the universe fully or not, a big event such as a ceremony where someone is killed by their own sister, should have a fairly decent reason behind it.
I don't know, maybe it's just me. But it felt like the scene was for shock and awe value. Not to mention it made me feel very uncomfortable reading it. A content warning would've been appreciated. There's one lost here somewhere in between the reviews but there really should've been one in the blurb.
Ryder was clearly panicking and terrified because, hello, he was about to have his throat slit with no idea if he would come back. And none of his family members that were present, not one, comforted him. His own sister, who was the one wielding the knife, told him to he had to embrace it and couldn't fight it. A little empathy would've gone a long way. I just felt disconnected from her character, and most of his family members actually. Not to mention they had to hold him down to kill him. It was so uncomfortable it actually made me nauseous. Reading about Moon killing Percy and how it made Ryder feel only added to that.
And then he died, had a heart-to-heart with a demon and came back. Cool. So, in my humble opinion, dying is a traumatic event. And Ryder was a little too calm afterwards. He even asks "That's it"?
That's it? THAT'S IT? Motherfucker you just died! If there was ever a time to freak out and maybe act out a little bit, this is it. This part made me mad because on the beginning he clearly had a hard time controlling his emotions and then all of a sudden he can? And don't tell me it was because of the ceremony, because the ceremony is not supposed to change him. He's still supposed to be himself afterwards. So, which is it?
And he's not even allowed a refractory period? He's supposed to start studying with his psychotic sister two days after coming back from the dead? WTF? Maybe cut the guy some slack? Let him have a week or two of Netflix and chill with Liam to try and figure shit out between them. Because as far as I can tell, there was no immediate danger to the community (or, any danger at all, actually), so why rush? Why was everyone pushing him so hard? Wasn't the ceremony supposed to let him have control over his powers? Why did the Llewellyn chick say she would "keep an eye on him"? What's up with people just jumping to worst conclusions about this kid?
And then he just goes home and goes to sleep and, everything is cool? I mean, just like that? How? He doesn't have at least one freak out because he fucking died?
I think that the big problem with this book is that it was too short. There wasn't enough room or time for character development and to just let some things flow more organically. Like, for instance, Ryder's relationship with Liam. I wanted to get to know the characters better. To understand the ebb and flow of their magic and their relationship and how one complemented the other.
I wanted more of... well, everything.
After finishing this book I was left feeling bummed out and disappointed. I really wanted to like this book more, but it just didn't work for me.
The writing had some brilliant moments but it wasn't enough for me to give it more than one star. Maybe the next one will have more answears, but I'm not sure I'll stick with this series.
ps: my problem was in no way with the magical aspect of the story. I wouldn't have picked it up otherwise. I mean the tittle of the book has "witches" in it. And I knew there were many dark aspects to Ryder's magic. I also did not have a problem with that (it actually made the story seem more interesting to me). My problem is with the gore in the ceremony (even if it was mild) and the way his family members went about it and why it was necessary. The story didn't give me enough information as to why Ryder being killed and brought back was necessary for him to control his powers (which is why I mentioned I know very little about paganism and the occult, since maybe the reason could be found somewhere that wasn't readily available to me - yes, I know there's a difference between them, but some pagan religions have occult aspects, like in this book - because, to me, it was never made clear why the ceremony was necessary). And also, I love the fact that Ryder is trans. It's one of my favorite things about the book. I also love how him being trans is respected and loved. I'm queer and I love reading about queer characters written by queer writers.
Anyway, just wanted to clear that up.