3.75 stars rounded up to 4.
let me start by saying this: i love candice, love her writing, will always be a fan of hers, but i definitely have a little bit of a love hate relationship with these books. even with a badass/ strong FMC, there is just enough unconscious (and conscious) sexism that almost makes it not enjoyable- which speaks to how freaking talented the author is to pull me back in again and again- but more on this later.
im going to be completely honest- i struggled with this review a little bit- to the point where i just put it out of my mind and told myself i’d come back later- and here i am.
first, of course, i received an ARC in exchange for an honest review.
second, this book has MAJOR triggers. so please please be very careful if you have any.
third- this review is a looong one, so buckle up. ( will include a TL;DR at the end)
here’s what i did enjoy:
1.) i looooooooved how it wasn’t just an automatic bff girl party between all the Hs in the series. it’s very realistic in the sense that there is resentment, mixed feelings, anger and jealousy. it makes me SO conflicted because first, i LOVE reign. she’s my favorite h from this series & second, i absolutely feel for Ava and don’t blame her at all, which makes me experience so many different emotions. i want reign to be happy and loved but ava’s anger is real and 100% justified.
2.) this book really spoke to me in a way i wasn’t expecting. it hit home for me in a way that i don’t want to go into on GR (lol) but as a survivor of all kinds of abuse from my own father, this one was definitely a doozy. and i absolutely appreciate how candice handled Avas trauma and brought up touchy but completely realistic topics like- therapy, revenge, resentment, self sacrifice.
3.) UGH BATES. that’s it. that’s the whole thing.
4.) loved getting to see the cameos of characters from previous books, even a little one sentence reference to Viddy.
5.) as always, candice loaded this bad boy up with twists, turns, and just a punch in the jaw of an ending you never saw coming.
^ i could list more, but this is already long enough and i hit the most important marks.
i’m gonna be real with y’all- this book (and series as a whole) is not my typical style. i hate sexist Hs, and since this is a MC book, there’s definitely more sexism than my usual reads. but again, this is an MC book, so it’s to be expected.
HOWEVER- it is important to note that it’s so obvious that this is not the actual authors feelings and it is done in a.. hmm.. (i want to say natural but maybe realistic would be a better word?) way that doesn’t make me feel gross reading. although a few times there i wanted Ava to punch them in the face. but i digress.
there is something about candices book’s that bring me back in every. damn. time. and not just in a ‘oh i have nothing to read, might as well’ way, but a put it on my upcoming releases shelf and get excited way.
one thing that really irked me, though, is how badly almost everyone in the situation handled it. ava made some really dumb choices (although hers were because of the trauma) her guys were so great at first and then became idiots, saint drove me crazy, ORION MADE ME WANT TO SCREAM- ugh everyone was just so dumb and needed to get the hell over themselves, sit their asses down, and talk it out. like cmon now. y’all are smarter than this- or at least i thought you were! especially after everything you’ve been through with luna, megan & reign.
it was admittedly harder for me to connect with the Hs in this book than it has been for me with previous books in the series. i can’t deny that i had a lot of feelings reading this book, but i also can’t deny that the primary one was irritation. some of these MC boys annoyed the eff out of me- and not just the three Hs.
i wouldve liked to see a little more character development for the guys- it was almost like the author was relying on us having read the previous books and picking up their characters from there. while i personally have, some others may have not & its also hard to remember that stuff when it’s been a while between books. it wouldn’t have been a problem if i had reread or was binge reading the whole series, but i didn’t have time to do that & not everyone will.
TL;DR: this book got 3.75 stars from me because i did enjoy it overall and am looking forward to reading more in the series. i don’t think i’ll reread this particular book, but i think i’m gonna go back and read about my girl Reign again because i freaking love her. again, please be SUPER SUPER mindful of your triggers when reading this book, but i would definitely recommend the read.