(I will need time to decide whether or not I want to round this up to 4 or not) UPDATE: I decided to lower my rting from 3.5 to 3.0 because after thinking about it for a while, there is one central problem in this book that is pretty much completely ignored, never explained and it very much stains teh relationship between the two protagonists, in my opinion.
Original Review:
I have this very odd talent to pick books because they have a pretty or cute cover, expecting the story to unfold accordingly, and be utterly and completely wrong. This was one of them. Pretty cover, I thought only to realise in the first ten pages that I should have probably read at least the blurb before. Well, lesson learned, I hope.
Anyway, I have no clue how to rate this book, I seriously don’t. I was very close to DNFing the book at the start but then actually kind of likeing the end…? Now to start with, the themes this book is dealing with are (as much as I don’t like this word, for the lack of a better one) problematic at the very least. And I am used to SERIOUSLY A LOT in my books (one of my favourite books is 2ha, if you know you know). Rape (both romanticised and not romanticised, which is rare to see in the same book), suicidal thoughts, definitely a lot of mental health issues, emotional abuse, PTSD (or at least I think that was what was going on), incest (yeah, that’s the one where I wish I had read the blurb because it does say so there).
I however do want to give the book credit for being self-aware and actually addressing (most) of these issues and it does a decent job showing us the thought process and internal struggles that our protagonist faces, to the point where the author actually managed to affect my mood. I really want to give credit to the author for the writing and I am totally going to pick up another book by her (given it doesn’t revolve around an incestuous relationship) and give that a go. The imagery was beautiful, the emotions of the protagonist and the protagonist, in general, was extremely well done. Sadly, the main villain ended up becoming very textbook villain like, which I thought was a pity since the content of the book provided so many opportunities for a more interesting conflict.