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87 pages, Kindle Edition
First published October 1, 2020
Old fashioned? Being old-fashioned isn't enough for me. I'd like to be the contemporary of Petrarch and Shakespeare. Or, even farther back, Hippocrates, the older person to appear in Threadsuns. He was obsesses with the number four, just like me. Using a marker, I wrote the four qualities warm, cold, dry, moist on the four corners of my desk. Accordingly, I always place my cup of hot coffee at the front left, cold mineral water at the back left, books at the back right, and at the front right the handkerchief for wiping my tears. I'm incapable of crying.
Off in the distance, someone is singing. It's a woman's voice, the tone quality is familiar, but the melody sounds different, in fact it's amazing Patrik can make out a melody at all. The voice hasn't soared to dizzying heights he would find overwhelming, it remains well within reach, it's just the language that evades his grasp. Where does one word end and another begin, maybe it's Czech. There's a sense of building and release in every note — even the eighth notes, possibly even the sixteenths. And so each tiny note forms a microcosm, one cosmos after another created and borne off on a great wave of breath into the future. There are no interruptions: even when a rest is indicated, you can still hear the sound of breathing.
The moon is the sole audience; it listens, inhaling every sound, growing rounder and rounder until it explodes in the night sky. Rusalka. The lunar shower of gold rains down on the singer's hair, her face is radiant, but a moment later it contorts in pain, perhaps because of the difficulty of producing notes. In a portrait, she can keep her lovely face, whereas onstage she's forced to surrender all static beauty and show this huge audience her naked, screaming musculature. A soprano's song is a cultivated scream. The singer masters the high art of controlling every strand of her vocal cords and therefore every fiber of her psyche. She can permit herself to scream from animalistic depths: the scream becomes music. She sings to the moon, for which there's no such thing as death. Patrik is only a shadow of this moon that can vanish at any moment — time need only beckon. He asks Dvořák to draw out the hour of the moon and, if possible, avoid landing on a final note. For as long as this song fills the night sky, Patrik can go on living. The moon slowly turns pale, and silence wakes the sleeper.
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