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Tales from Foster High #4
End of the Innocence
Kyle Stilleno is no longer the invisible boy, and he doesn’t quite know how he feels about it. On one hand, he now has a great boyfriend, Brad Greymark, and a handful of new friends, and even a new job. On the other hand, no one screamed obscenities at him in public when he was invisible.
No one expected him to become a poster boy for gay rights, either—at least not until Kyle stepped out of the closet and into the limelight. But there are only a few months of high school left, and Kyle doubts he can make a difference.
With Christmas break drawing closer, Kyle and Brad are changing their lives to include each other. While the trials are far from over, they have their relationship to lean on. Others are not so lucky. One of their classmates needs their help—but Kyle and Brad’s relationship may be too new to survive the strain.
A new edition with updated narrative and new story elements.
No one expected him to become a poster boy for gay rights, either—at least not until Kyle stepped out of the closet and into the limelight. But there are only a few months of high school left, and Kyle doubts he can make a difference.
With Christmas break drawing closer, Kyle and Brad are changing their lives to include each other. While the trials are far from over, they have their relationship to lean on. Others are not so lucky. One of their classmates needs their help—but Kyle and Brad’s relationship may be too new to survive the strain.
A new edition with updated narrative and new story elements.
287 pages, ebook
First published November 13, 2012
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John Goode
35 books668 followersJohn Goode is a member of the class of '88 from Hogwarts school of wizardry, specializing in incantations and spoken spells. At the age of 14 he proudly represented District 13 in the 65th Panem games where he was disqualified for crying uncontrollably before the competition began. After that he moved to Forks, Washington where, against all odds, dated the hot, incredibly approachable werewolf instead of the stuck up jerk of a vampire but was crushed when he found out the werewolf was actually gayer than he was. After that he turned down the mandatory operation everyone must receive at 16 to become pretty citing that everyone pretty were just too stupid to live before moving away for greener pastures. After falling down an oddly large rabbit hole he became huge when his love for cakes combined with his inability to resist what sparsely worded notes commanded and was finally kicked out when he began playing solitaire with the Red Queen's 4th armored division. By 18 he had found the land in the back of his wardrobe but decided that thinly veiled religious allegories where not the neighbors he desired. When last seen he had become obsessed with growing a pair of wings after becoming obsessed with Fang's blog and hasn't been seen since.
Or he is this guy who lives in this place and writes stuff he hopes you read.
Or he is this guy who lives in this place and writes stuff he hopes you read.
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August 4, 2016
Dear John,
I hope you (and Chris Hemworth) are very happy since you successfully broke my heart into million tiny little pieces.
Sincerely,
Ami
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I'm ready to write my thoughts down ... Unfortunately, whatever I am going to say might not even do a justice to this amazing book. And there are already so many thoughtful, coherent, and well-written reviews, that I'm just trying to keep this short.
I have been spoiled when it first published back in November 2012 (Yes, I'm a spoiler-whore) and because of that I decided to postpone reading this, preparing myself for the emotional journey. But even after that mental preparation, this book still made a wreck out of me.
This first novel-length story in the Foster series was darker, more mature, and more personal than the previous stories. Amidst the beauty of first love, including the part where Brad brought Kyle to their first date (with some scenes that felt like a nod and a wink for any John Hughes' movies), it brought up an urgent issue about bullying (real life and cyber) and teen suicide.
John Goode didn't hold back -- he wrote in a smart way, not even close to being preachy. If you read the "Author's Note" section, you would know why he thought this was important. John presented the case from both sides, forced us to think deeply, that our acts matter, our words matter, and somewhere somehow, it would help somebody who thought that the only way to get out of his/her problem was to end his/her life.
So all I can say in the end, thank you John, for keep reminding about that. Life sucks and it might takes a long time for people to change. But when there is one person who is willing to do so, there's always hope for the better...
I hope you (and Chris Hemworth) are very happy since you successfully broke my heart into million tiny little pieces.
Sincerely,
Ami
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I'm ready to write my thoughts down ... Unfortunately, whatever I am going to say might not even do a justice to this amazing book. And there are already so many thoughtful, coherent, and well-written reviews, that I'm just trying to keep this short.
I have been spoiled when it first published back in November 2012 (Yes, I'm a spoiler-whore) and because of that I decided to postpone reading this, preparing myself for the emotional journey. But even after that mental preparation, this book still made a wreck out of me.
This first novel-length story in the Foster series was darker, more mature, and more personal than the previous stories. Amidst the beauty of first love, including the part where Brad brought Kyle to their first date (with some scenes that felt like a nod and a wink for any John Hughes' movies), it brought up an urgent issue about bullying (real life and cyber) and teen suicide.
John Goode didn't hold back -- he wrote in a smart way, not even close to being preachy. If you read the "Author's Note" section, you would know why he thought this was important. John presented the case from both sides, forced us to think deeply, that our acts matter, our words matter, and somewhere somehow, it would help somebody who thought that the only way to get out of his/her problem was to end his/her life.
So all I can say in the end, thank you John, for keep reminding about that. Life sucks and it might takes a long time for people to change. But when there is one person who is willing to do so, there's always hope for the better...
November 21, 2012
***Potential spoilers***
I'm going to break my own rules here. It's my review, and it that bothers you, I am sorry. Pass this by and go read another one.
John let me read this book a few weeks ago, and I've sat on it, trying to think of a review worthy enough. My words fail me here, so please bear with me as I struggle to find something worthy of this guy's great big heart and talent. I'm not enough here, but here it goes.
"End of the Innocence" is more than a work of YA or M/M romance or fiction. It's a statement of pure love. It's an offering of life-blood. It's a cry in the dark, a soul-shattering scream, a nightmare. And it is stunningly beautiful.
There have been three prior books in the Foster High series dealing with Brad and Kyle, two high school students in a small Texas town. The series deals with their coming out, the repercussions to them personally and to the relationships that they have with their friends, families, enemies and community.
In "End of the Innocence", we finally deal with Kelly, Brad's jock friend. As we have learned, Brad and Kelly have fooled around in the past, and Kelly is struggling to reconcile his friendship and feelings towards Brad. We also, in a parallel way, explore the boys' relationship with Jennifer, Brad's ex-girlfriend. There are also other gay men in the town we meet, and they play an important role, but the focus is on these four.
I can't go deeper into the storyline without giving too much away, but the book explores the past and current implications of coming out in Foster. How some current characters on the canvas have dealt with it (or not), and the larger issue of bullying and harassment and, in some cases, outright murder involving those not like their neighbors. It looks at the unlikely friendship formed between Kyle and Kelly and between Brad and Jennifer.
Read this at your own risk, and forgive me if I give too much away, but there is another outing. It is horrible, unexpected yet completely fated to happen. And the fallout is...devastating.
I read this book through in one sitting, the words spinning a web around me with a subtle sense of foreboding and dread. No, no, I kept thinking, this can't be going there. And then I hit the last twenty percent of the book and alternated between tears and blank, honest horror. I've seen this, lived this, picked up the pieces after this book happened. I never wanted to relive it, and yet, here it was, laid out for me to bleed over again.
And damn it, I wouldn't have it any other way.
John - I cannot give him enough credit here. The writing is restrained and so very real. His sure hand is on every word, every sentence, and he deftly took me on a journey of pain and discovery, pulled the scab off every wound in that small town and led me around like one of Dickens' Ghosts.
Because what we are dealing with here, when it's all stripped away, is a very basic choice we all have to make when we come out or are outed. Deal, or don't. Stay, or run. Live, or die.
And sometimes people choose...no.
This is an important work for teens, for parents, for teachers, for anyone who has or deals with kids. Hell, it's important for everyone. There are lessons to be learned here - about life, choosing to live, how we treat out fellow companions on the road of life, and how we sometimes bury our heads in the sand. It's also about the cold, hard fact that even when we try out best, we can only save ourselves. It's about guilt, gang mentality, the abuse of power.
But let's not forget something in the midst of all this. It's about love. Because Brad and Kyle? They were outed, treated horribly, betrayed by those in power. And they still chose love.
Not everyone does. But they did.
So did John, thank god. I just wish I could do his beautiful story the justice it deserves. I hope he forgives me for not being enough, because I love him like a little brother and he seems to think my words mean something.
I want to be like him when I grow up. Thanks for sticking around.
Tom
I'm going to break my own rules here. It's my review, and it that bothers you, I am sorry. Pass this by and go read another one.
John let me read this book a few weeks ago, and I've sat on it, trying to think of a review worthy enough. My words fail me here, so please bear with me as I struggle to find something worthy of this guy's great big heart and talent. I'm not enough here, but here it goes.
"End of the Innocence" is more than a work of YA or M/M romance or fiction. It's a statement of pure love. It's an offering of life-blood. It's a cry in the dark, a soul-shattering scream, a nightmare. And it is stunningly beautiful.
There have been three prior books in the Foster High series dealing with Brad and Kyle, two high school students in a small Texas town. The series deals with their coming out, the repercussions to them personally and to the relationships that they have with their friends, families, enemies and community.
In "End of the Innocence", we finally deal with Kelly, Brad's jock friend. As we have learned, Brad and Kelly have fooled around in the past, and Kelly is struggling to reconcile his friendship and feelings towards Brad. We also, in a parallel way, explore the boys' relationship with Jennifer, Brad's ex-girlfriend. There are also other gay men in the town we meet, and they play an important role, but the focus is on these four.
I can't go deeper into the storyline without giving too much away, but the book explores the past and current implications of coming out in Foster. How some current characters on the canvas have dealt with it (or not), and the larger issue of bullying and harassment and, in some cases, outright murder involving those not like their neighbors. It looks at the unlikely friendship formed between Kyle and Kelly and between Brad and Jennifer.
Read this at your own risk, and forgive me if I give too much away, but there is another outing. It is horrible, unexpected yet completely fated to happen. And the fallout is...devastating.
I read this book through in one sitting, the words spinning a web around me with a subtle sense of foreboding and dread. No, no, I kept thinking, this can't be going there. And then I hit the last twenty percent of the book and alternated between tears and blank, honest horror. I've seen this, lived this, picked up the pieces after this book happened. I never wanted to relive it, and yet, here it was, laid out for me to bleed over again.
And damn it, I wouldn't have it any other way.
John - I cannot give him enough credit here. The writing is restrained and so very real. His sure hand is on every word, every sentence, and he deftly took me on a journey of pain and discovery, pulled the scab off every wound in that small town and led me around like one of Dickens' Ghosts.
Because what we are dealing with here, when it's all stripped away, is a very basic choice we all have to make when we come out or are outed. Deal, or don't. Stay, or run. Live, or die.
And sometimes people choose...no.
This is an important work for teens, for parents, for teachers, for anyone who has or deals with kids. Hell, it's important for everyone. There are lessons to be learned here - about life, choosing to live, how we treat out fellow companions on the road of life, and how we sometimes bury our heads in the sand. It's also about the cold, hard fact that even when we try out best, we can only save ourselves. It's about guilt, gang mentality, the abuse of power.
But let's not forget something in the midst of all this. It's about love. Because Brad and Kyle? They were outed, treated horribly, betrayed by those in power. And they still chose love.
Not everyone does. But they did.
So did John, thank god. I just wish I could do his beautiful story the justice it deserves. I hope he forgives me for not being enough, because I love him like a little brother and he seems to think my words mean something.
I want to be like him when I grow up. Thanks for sticking around.
Tom
June 4, 2016
Immensely impactful story.
I have really been enjoying this series. It is really great at making me laugh and cry. This novel was no exception.
From the title, it's pretty obvious this is not going to be a fun read and it's not. There are plenty of happy moments. Lots of laughter. But you know there is a train wreak coming and there isn't much you can do to stop it. The author really doesn't hide it. At least for me I thought it was obvious what the tragedy would be. So it wasn't a huge surprise. Normally I would be so disappointed in an author for doing this. What a way to ruin the surprise. But in this case, it's a blessing. Even knowing what's coming, it's heart wrenching experience. Damn, even now a day later and I'm still chocking up when I think about it.
I am not normally a big fan of the "relationship" or "romance" genre. They just don't hold my interest. This series has been the exception. I don't know if it's because they run so close to my own life or what but when I start reading one it's hard to put down.
June 22, 2018
5 stars
But FUCK!
Excuse me while I’m picking up my heart off the damn floor. What the hell, John Goode, Jesus Christ!
I read the first part with a heavy heart, sensing impending doom. I cried my eyes out during the last 20% and I totally lost it with the author’s afterword. Now would be the time for me to say that reading is my happy place and when shit gets too dark and depressing I’d rather not. But I’d be such a privileged little shit to bring this up here. It might have totally wrecked me in the worst possible way but I don’t regret not even one minute I spent with this book.
I will not talk about the bad thing that happened. First because I don’t like to give away plot points in my reviews and second, because you already know about it since you, unlike me, haven’t been living under a rock all this time. But it’s bad. I kept telling myself that it won’t go there. But it did.
Despite the darkness, the romance between Kyle and Brad is blooming. Their intimate moments are swoon worthy and their connection is unbreakable. Who would have expected that from our boy, Brad?
Romance aside, this is probably the greatest example of characters who, slowly but steadily, reach their full potential during the course of a story. I don’t only mean the main protagonists but the side characters as well. Jennifer is a huge surprise! I loved Robbie fiercely and I want him to get a story. Every character is so multi-dimensional, it takes mad skills to do that. Hell, I think that Foster as a whole is growing! Maybe not so hopeless after all? And while I don’t like multiple POVs, it was used in the most clever way here.
Sometimes there’s a voice whispering to me that Kyle is too much for his age. But on the other hand, the guy is crazy smart and I hate it when people say that teenagers don’t speak or think that way or another. My experience has taught me to never undermine a teenager’s insightfulness or their ability to empathize. Especially those who have been wronged by this world.
Bottom line, you need to read these books. It doesn’t matter what your favorite genre is, or what kind of reader you are. If you ‘re a teenager, a parent, a teacher, or simply a human being, you need to read these books.
-Posted on Gay Book Reviews.-
But FUCK!
Excuse me while I’m picking up my heart off the damn floor. What the hell, John Goode, Jesus Christ!
I read the first part with a heavy heart, sensing impending doom. I cried my eyes out during the last 20% and I totally lost it with the author’s afterword. Now would be the time for me to say that reading is my happy place and when shit gets too dark and depressing I’d rather not. But I’d be such a privileged little shit to bring this up here. It might have totally wrecked me in the worst possible way but I don’t regret not even one minute I spent with this book.
I will not talk about the bad thing that happened. First because I don’t like to give away plot points in my reviews and second, because you already know about it since you, unlike me, haven’t been living under a rock all this time. But it’s bad. I kept telling myself that it won’t go there. But it did.
Despite the darkness, the romance between Kyle and Brad is blooming. Their intimate moments are swoon worthy and their connection is unbreakable. Who would have expected that from our boy, Brad?
Romance aside, this is probably the greatest example of characters who, slowly but steadily, reach their full potential during the course of a story. I don’t only mean the main protagonists but the side characters as well. Jennifer is a huge surprise! I loved Robbie fiercely and I want him to get a story. Every character is so multi-dimensional, it takes mad skills to do that. Hell, I think that Foster as a whole is growing! Maybe not so hopeless after all? And while I don’t like multiple POVs, it was used in the most clever way here.
Sometimes there’s a voice whispering to me that Kyle is too much for his age. But on the other hand, the guy is crazy smart and I hate it when people say that teenagers don’t speak or think that way or another. My experience has taught me to never undermine a teenager’s insightfulness or their ability to empathize. Especially those who have been wronged by this world.
Bottom line, you need to read these books. It doesn’t matter what your favorite genre is, or what kind of reader you are. If you ‘re a teenager, a parent, a teacher, or simply a human being, you need to read these books.
-Posted on Gay Book Reviews.-
January 20, 2020
Re-read 100th time....
I just can't get enough of these boys....
Kelly, you broke me man...
And Robbie... I luuuuuuuve him.
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Continuing BR with Paul and Sonia. (re-read)
Second time around and I'm still speechless!! I quoted the shit out of this book..
So many beautiful things were said;
So many new friendships were made;
So many "ugly" people were introduced;
And so many sad things happened..
Thankfully I'm re-reading this series with my BRBuddies and so I'm able to post most of my quotes on our whatsapp-chat!! Most appreciated, guys!!
Next Tales from Foster High....
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(review 2014, August 4th)
This story blew me away!!!
A full length story of Kyle and Brad. A person can’t ask for more, can we?
It has taken me some time to write this review because quite frankly the last 20% of the story I was in absolute horror!! We all know to what extent bigotry can lead to but actually reading it, was like “living” it…. It was heartbreaking!!!
I feel this book is educating for us parents to PLEASE teach our children to love ALL our fellow man! I believe that God intended us to be just the way we ALL are and can/will not accept people saying otherwise and pulling scripture from the Bible to proove it…
I loved that Kyle was so familiar with the Bible, that he could interpertate it the way it should be…. He even stood up against a reverend!
The story:
Here we have Kyle and Brad living with being Outed, Shamed and Bullied…We also meet Jennifer again. I admired Jennifer for letting go of her anger and disappointment towards Brad . She supported the relationship between Kyle and Brad very much.
Kyle feeling better in his skin, finally getting more confidence in himself.
Kyle
Brad
We are finally dealing with Kelly, Brad's jock friend. We already know that Brad had been fooling around with Kelly in his early days. We see Kelly struggling with his feelings towards Brad.
At Kelly’s party something terrible happens…
I loved that Kyle even was able to try and be a friend to Kelly.
What happened to Kelly…. Sometimes it’s hard for people to "deal" and "stay" and they choose….
This story will stay with me FOREVER
my other reviews of the series
I just can't get enough of these boys....
Kelly, you broke me man...
And Robbie... I luuuuuuuve him.
“Why are you so nice to me?” I asked him wiping at my tears.>
He ruffled my hair and went back to putting my clothes in a bag.
“You mean you haven’t figured it out yet?”
I shook my head.
“I’m your fairy godmother, bitch. Get used to it.”
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Continuing BR with Paul and Sonia. (re-read)
Second time around and I'm still speechless!! I quoted the shit out of this book..
So many beautiful things were said;
"Greatness is always met by hatred. The true test is overcoming it."
So many new friendships were made;
I in no way want you to look at these clothes as a backhanded admission that you might have been a little right.
These clothes count as your second wish granted. The first was me agreeing to be your fairy godmother, of course.
Your third and still unspoken wish is still under consideration.
So many "ugly" people were introduced;
“I can imagine far worse things in the world to be, sir.
An intolerant, inbred, hate-spewing hillbilly comes to mind.”
And so many sad things happened..
Thankfully I'm re-reading this series with my BRBuddies and so I'm able to post most of my quotes on our whatsapp-chat!! Most appreciated, guys!!
“I was wrong. I was wrong about everything. I have six months before I leave this town and go to college.”
He paused for a moment before he asked, “How do I fix Foster?”
Next Tales from Foster High....
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(review 2014, August 4th)
This story blew me away!!!
A full length story of Kyle and Brad. A person can’t ask for more, can we?
It has taken me some time to write this review because quite frankly the last 20% of the story I was in absolute horror!! We all know to what extent bigotry can lead to but actually reading it, was like “living” it…. It was heartbreaking!!!
I feel this book is educating for us parents to PLEASE teach our children to love ALL our fellow man! I believe that God intended us to be just the way we ALL are and can/will not accept people saying otherwise and pulling scripture from the Bible to proove it…
I loved that Kyle was so familiar with the Bible, that he could interpertate it the way it should be…. He even stood up against a reverend!
The story:
Here we have Kyle and Brad living with being Outed, Shamed and Bullied…We also meet Jennifer again. I admired Jennifer for letting go of her anger and disappointment towards Brad . She supported the relationship between Kyle and Brad very much.
“You want to change this town? Show up with Kyle on your arm and force them to accept it”
Kyle feeling better in his skin, finally getting more confidence in himself.
”Gone was the shaggy-heated nerd who had stalked the halls, invisible. In his place stood a sharp-looking, vest-wearing stud who took my breath away.
Kyle
Brad
We are finally dealing with Kelly, Brad's jock friend. We already know that Brad had been fooling around with Kelly in his early days. We see Kelly struggling with his feelings towards Brad.
At Kelly’s party something terrible happens…
I loved that Kyle even was able to try and be a friend to Kelly.
What happened to Kelly…. Sometimes it’s hard for people to "deal" and "stay" and they choose….
This story will stay with me FOREVER
my other reviews of the series
August 26, 2014
***** 5 FOSTER HIGH STARS *****
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"Greatness is always met by hatred.
The true test is overcoming it."
Gayle
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YOU GO, KYLE!
"The bigots yell at us, we yell back, and all that is left after everyone takes a breath is hate. And still no one does anything to make it better."
Kyle
You've really grown into your "powers", Kyle, and you wielded them extraordinary!
I think I highlighted everyone of your comments in the last third of the book. You.are.so.right!!
The first part of this book was great!
The last part was f*cking epic! Despite that horrendous incident.
"We did the right thing," he replied. "It feels pretty fucking cool."
Brad
Brad and Kyle 4 ever!
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Quotes from Author's Note:
"But what happens next?"
"Books are safe, they are comfortable, and above all else, they are not me.
I like not being me for a little while. It's refreshing."
"For every hateful person who is trying to push you down, there are three normal people who would gladly extend a hand to help you up in a second."
"We are all people, and we are all deserving of respect. And you can't let anyone take that away from you. Ever."
"Happy ending are for people who make their own."
"You see, I wrote these books, and people like you read them (...) let me be a magic Kindle for you, if only for a few seconds. You're going to end up just fine."
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It all boils down to hope doesn't it?
And the books in the Tales from Foster High series does indeed do that.
Give hope. Through pain and happiness.
All you need islove hope.
Thank you so much, John.
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"Greatness is always met by hatred.
The true test is overcoming it."
Gayle
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YOU GO, KYLE!
"The bigots yell at us, we yell back, and all that is left after everyone takes a breath is hate. And still no one does anything to make it better."
Kyle
You've really grown into your "powers", Kyle, and you wielded them extraordinary!
I think I highlighted everyone of your comments in the last third of the book. You.are.so.right!!
The first part of this book was great!
The last part was f*cking epic! Despite that horrendous incident.
"We did the right thing," he replied. "It feels pretty fucking cool."
Brad
Brad and Kyle 4 ever! -----------------------------------------
Quotes from Author's Note:
"But what happens next?"
"Books are safe, they are comfortable, and above all else, they are not me.
I like not being me for a little while. It's refreshing."
"For every hateful person who is trying to push you down, there are three normal people who would gladly extend a hand to help you up in a second."
"We are all people, and we are all deserving of respect. And you can't let anyone take that away from you. Ever."
"Happy ending are for people who make their own."
"You see, I wrote these books, and people like you read them (...) let me be a magic Kindle for you, if only for a few seconds. You're going to end up just fine."
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It all boils down to hope doesn't it?
And the books in the Tales from Foster High series does indeed do that.
Give hope. Through pain and happiness.
All you need is
Thank you so much, John.
December 20, 2023
✰ 4.25 stars ✰
“There are more things in heaven and earth, Horatio, than are dreamt of in your philosophy.” I gave her a confused look, and she laughed.
“It’s from a play. It means there is more to life than what you expect it to be. Foster is not the world. Things out there do get better.”
It was one of those rare occasions where after I finished the first installment in this contemporary YA series, I immediately wanted to jump right into End of the Innocence to see what awaited Kyle and Brad in the future. But, my usual annoying self prevented me from continuing with the series in one go, hence, the few weeks interval in between before picking it up again. Did my anticipation diminish during that time?
Not in the slightest.
“I love you,” I said quickly. “And I am not mad at you, and you didn’t do anything wrong. I’m just broken.”
I went to slide out of the car, and he grabbed my hand. “Then be broken with me,” he pleaded.”
The tales from Foster High continue in another gut-wrenching and heart-breaking episode that left me blindsided and breathless, and totally blown away at the capacity of love and hatred that could consume one small town in Texas. The title is the most fitting that there ever could have been in terms of what took place - like an episodic reel, Brad and Kyle's journey continues - the public reaction to their relationship, the steady influx of adjusting and coping, culminating in The Party - an event that would change everyone's lives - forever. 😞 John Goode amazed me - the writing is a tour de force of emotional depth and layers of characters - each struggling to survive, each with their story to share. Fair warning, though, it is written in 2012, so times and attitudes and views were different, along with some questionable dialogue that did merit a raised eyebrow from me, from time to time, but once it only happens at the start, because then, the story really won't leave you alone.
It's how he brings these threads together - to show just how much innocence is about to be lost - the beginning of the end - that serves as a blinding bitter wake-up call to everyone involved. It was so tragic, but so brilliantly done. It's the tone that is so well-fleshed - one that seeps into your skin - the narration shifts so fluidly and seamlessly between the two protagonists that you find yourself immersed - not only into their thoughts, but their actions. 👌🏻👌🏻The emotions are so achingly raw and the characters' interactions are so intensely vivid and real and moving along, as if a tv show was taking place. It will make you feel - make you cry - make you smile - and make you a part of Foster High - whether you like it or not. 😔
“You are the only good thing that has ever happened to me. Ever. And if you can’t get it through your skull how crazy I am about you—then we are going to have problems.”
This didn’t sound like anything I had imagined.
“I love you. That isn’t a like, isn’t a puppy love, and it isn’t a crush. The moment we kissed in my room, I was yours; it just took my stupid brain time to figure it out. You are everything I need in my life, but more importantly, you are everything I will ever need.”
Gah, Kyle and Brad are everything - their love was a catalyst, but how much they care and look out for each other. The absolute sincerity and devotion of their love saw them through the sweetest of times and in the best of times and lived through the worst of times. 'I was eighteen years old, and I finally knew what the word “love” meant.' 🫶🏻🫶🏻 The emotional range of feelings of adoration and admiration and understanding and commitment - the levels of intimacy of just being so sweet and smitten with each other - openly vulnerable and unguarded, and wholly dedicated to each other. 🫂🫂
I could go on and on about these two sharing each other's breath and completing each other's thoughts and still finding it in their hearts to change and adjust and take care of one another. But, they never once doubted how much they meant to each other. It's a high school love that means so much to them - something so much more - 'because there were no words left in me, I kissed him to say “thank you” and “I love you” and a lot of other things I knew I couldn’t even begin to describe.' 🫠🫠 The exchange of their Christmas gifts - the New Year's epiphany - the adorable dinner dates - he was radiating love and I was eating up all their little intimate affections - they were just cuteness overload, at times, that not smiling was nearly impossible! 🥰
“He just looked hot. Well, hotter than normal. Hotter than I could have imagined. I must have just stood there gaping because his face got serious, and he asked in a halting voice, “You hate it, right?”
“I hate the clothes so much I want to rip them off your body,” I said, rushing toward him. “You look hot!”
I saw him blush, and I knew he liked them too but would never admit it...but I could tell the way he wore these clothes that he liked them. A lot.
“Seriously?” he asked in a warning tone. “’Cause if you’re just being nice, I swear I will get you back….”
Kyle - my knight cares with all his heart. Their conviction for being themselves, being true to each other was the driving force, the piece de resistance, this all-consuming love that they have - they really love each other. Even w Kyle was so awesome in this - he's the epitome of a challenger - a natural-born leader who won't stand down for anyone - not back down from a fight - so resilient in his beliefs and his love. 'You charged in and saved me from the monster.' 🥹 Ah, just - even whenever he's knocked down - he gets right up - never one to shy away from saying what he wants to say - and having Brad every step of the way with him was just what he needed to survive through it all. The intensity of his feelings - I could get swept away by them - he was so passionate about everything - he's someone that you can't help but admire for his resilience and determination.
Ah, Brad - you've come so far since you and Kyle began this difficult step in your lives together. But, never once does he ever flounder in his commitment, his support. I loved seeing how much he was changing as a person - becoming someone good - owning up to his past transgressions - realizing how he is capable of being better - that there is so much to him that he has to offer and how much he is so willing to give to Kyle. He became someone so mature - so openly honest and earnest in his words and his ways. 'Anyway, suddenly it hit me that, barring a huge fuck up on my part, this was the person I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. For those people out there who have not gone through that moment yet, let me assure you. When you know, you know.' 🥰
He never forced Kyle to do anything that made him feel uncomfortable - just so reassuring in everything he said and did. The epitome of this perfect, understanding and caring boyfriend - who ached to see him in pain and wanted to take away all his troubles and wash away his fears. He knows what it was like to be worshiped and revered, so to see him still fighting for his place in his team - earning his friends' trust and loyalty - rightfully - was something I really liked how it was depicted. 👍🏻
“We’ve done enough to them! Fuck, haven’t we done enough?”
He was on the verge of crying, and just seeing that freaked me out.
“What the fuck?” I asked, confused. “What are you doing?”
His eyes were as red as if he had been crying, but there were no tears yet. “I’m tired of hating you,” he said, clearly exhausted. “I’m just tired of all of it.”
And yet, just as there is the lighter side to it, this part of their lives takes a deeper-cut and viscerally dark look at the ugly side of homophobia - of coming out - of being rejected and scorned and shamed for who you are and who you love. It is relentless in its hurt and cruel in its pain - you may even feel that you walked away unscathed, when others didn't. Others couldn't. 😣 My heart hurt to see how viscerally horrid people could be - how emotionally damaging and draining and downright cruel, cruelty can be - the prejudice, the rage, the justification for it. Kyle and Brad get involved in something so painfully tragic - something so fueled by rage, that I was silently screaming - but no one can hear you. ''Because it is our history. It is part of being gay in Texas.' There is so much deep rooted hatred that has dug its way into the hearts of the town - that everyone involved is shaking and paying the price of it. 😥
One key character carried so much anger - so much hurt for what the people have made him experience - that how Kyle tried to see it from his point of view, but knew that this wasn't the way to make it right. 'I am so sorry, Kelly.' It's with this angry fit of emotions and tears that I was so enraptured in the story - not knowing what twist would happen next, how the stars would align in such a gripping manner - as if I was watching a boulder torpedo its way through - with an inevitable crash on the horizon - something I couldn't avoid, no matter how hard I tried. 💔💔💔 It's that heightened tension taut with apprehension - with a finale that has left me bracing for an impact I'm not yet ready to partake in.
I really appreciated the author's message at the end - the ending will wreck you and it's so unfair and Kyle's rage is something so palpable, that I fear what he will do with power if it was ever in his hands. But, as long as you believe 'life isn’t about what other people think of you. It’s about what you think of you... But if you like yourself despite what people around you say and don’t give into the hatred and darkness that seems to be everywhere…. You’re going to end up just fine.
Don’t give up, not yet.' ❤️🩹❤️🩹
“There are more things in heaven and earth, Horatio, than are dreamt of in your philosophy.” I gave her a confused look, and she laughed.
“It’s from a play. It means there is more to life than what you expect it to be. Foster is not the world. Things out there do get better.”
It was one of those rare occasions where after I finished the first installment in this contemporary YA series, I immediately wanted to jump right into End of the Innocence to see what awaited Kyle and Brad in the future. But, my usual annoying self prevented me from continuing with the series in one go, hence, the few weeks interval in between before picking it up again. Did my anticipation diminish during that time?
Not in the slightest.
“I love you,” I said quickly. “And I am not mad at you, and you didn’t do anything wrong. I’m just broken.”
I went to slide out of the car, and he grabbed my hand. “Then be broken with me,” he pleaded.”
The tales from Foster High continue in another gut-wrenching and heart-breaking episode that left me blindsided and breathless, and totally blown away at the capacity of love and hatred that could consume one small town in Texas. The title is the most fitting that there ever could have been in terms of what took place - like an episodic reel, Brad and Kyle's journey continues - the public reaction to their relationship, the steady influx of adjusting and coping, culminating in The Party - an event that would change everyone's lives - forever. 😞 John Goode amazed me - the writing is a tour de force of emotional depth and layers of characters - each struggling to survive, each with their story to share. Fair warning, though, it is written in 2012, so times and attitudes and views were different, along with some questionable dialogue that did merit a raised eyebrow from me, from time to time, but once it only happens at the start, because then, the story really won't leave you alone.
It's how he brings these threads together - to show just how much innocence is about to be lost - the beginning of the end - that serves as a blinding bitter wake-up call to everyone involved. It was so tragic, but so brilliantly done. It's the tone that is so well-fleshed - one that seeps into your skin - the narration shifts so fluidly and seamlessly between the two protagonists that you find yourself immersed - not only into their thoughts, but their actions. 👌🏻👌🏻The emotions are so achingly raw and the characters' interactions are so intensely vivid and real and moving along, as if a tv show was taking place. It will make you feel - make you cry - make you smile - and make you a part of Foster High - whether you like it or not. 😔
“You are the only good thing that has ever happened to me. Ever. And if you can’t get it through your skull how crazy I am about you—then we are going to have problems.”
This didn’t sound like anything I had imagined.
“I love you. That isn’t a like, isn’t a puppy love, and it isn’t a crush. The moment we kissed in my room, I was yours; it just took my stupid brain time to figure it out. You are everything I need in my life, but more importantly, you are everything I will ever need.”
Gah, Kyle and Brad are everything - their love was a catalyst, but how much they care and look out for each other. The absolute sincerity and devotion of their love saw them through the sweetest of times and in the best of times and lived through the worst of times. 'I was eighteen years old, and I finally knew what the word “love” meant.' 🫶🏻🫶🏻 The emotional range of feelings of adoration and admiration and understanding and commitment - the levels of intimacy of just being so sweet and smitten with each other - openly vulnerable and unguarded, and wholly dedicated to each other. 🫂🫂
I could go on and on about these two sharing each other's breath and completing each other's thoughts and still finding it in their hearts to change and adjust and take care of one another. But, they never once doubted how much they meant to each other. It's a high school love that means so much to them - something so much more - 'because there were no words left in me, I kissed him to say “thank you” and “I love you” and a lot of other things I knew I couldn’t even begin to describe.' 🫠🫠 The exchange of their Christmas gifts - the New Year's epiphany - the adorable dinner dates - he was radiating love and I was eating up all their little intimate affections - they were just cuteness overload, at times, that not smiling was nearly impossible! 🥰
“He just looked hot. Well, hotter than normal. Hotter than I could have imagined. I must have just stood there gaping because his face got serious, and he asked in a halting voice, “You hate it, right?”
“I hate the clothes so much I want to rip them off your body,” I said, rushing toward him. “You look hot!”
I saw him blush, and I knew he liked them too but would never admit it...but I could tell the way he wore these clothes that he liked them. A lot.
“Seriously?” he asked in a warning tone. “’Cause if you’re just being nice, I swear I will get you back….”
Kyle - my knight cares with all his heart. Their conviction for being themselves, being true to each other was the driving force, the piece de resistance, this all-consuming love that they have - they really love each other. Even w Kyle was so awesome in this - he's the epitome of a challenger - a natural-born leader who won't stand down for anyone - not back down from a fight - so resilient in his beliefs and his love. 'You charged in and saved me from the monster.' 🥹 Ah, just - even whenever he's knocked down - he gets right up - never one to shy away from saying what he wants to say - and having Brad every step of the way with him was just what he needed to survive through it all. The intensity of his feelings - I could get swept away by them - he was so passionate about everything - he's someone that you can't help but admire for his resilience and determination.
Ah, Brad - you've come so far since you and Kyle began this difficult step in your lives together. But, never once does he ever flounder in his commitment, his support. I loved seeing how much he was changing as a person - becoming someone good - owning up to his past transgressions - realizing how he is capable of being better - that there is so much to him that he has to offer and how much he is so willing to give to Kyle. He became someone so mature - so openly honest and earnest in his words and his ways. 'Anyway, suddenly it hit me that, barring a huge fuck up on my part, this was the person I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. For those people out there who have not gone through that moment yet, let me assure you. When you know, you know.' 🥰
He never forced Kyle to do anything that made him feel uncomfortable - just so reassuring in everything he said and did. The epitome of this perfect, understanding and caring boyfriend - who ached to see him in pain and wanted to take away all his troubles and wash away his fears. He knows what it was like to be worshiped and revered, so to see him still fighting for his place in his team - earning his friends' trust and loyalty - rightfully - was something I really liked how it was depicted. 👍🏻
“We’ve done enough to them! Fuck, haven’t we done enough?”
He was on the verge of crying, and just seeing that freaked me out.
“What the fuck?” I asked, confused. “What are you doing?”
His eyes were as red as if he had been crying, but there were no tears yet. “I’m tired of hating you,” he said, clearly exhausted. “I’m just tired of all of it.”
And yet, just as there is the lighter side to it, this part of their lives takes a deeper-cut and viscerally dark look at the ugly side of homophobia - of coming out - of being rejected and scorned and shamed for who you are and who you love. It is relentless in its hurt and cruel in its pain - you may even feel that you walked away unscathed, when others didn't. Others couldn't. 😣 My heart hurt to see how viscerally horrid people could be - how emotionally damaging and draining and downright cruel, cruelty can be - the prejudice, the rage, the justification for it. Kyle and Brad get involved in something so painfully tragic - something so fueled by rage, that I was silently screaming - but no one can hear you. ''Because it is our history. It is part of being gay in Texas.' There is so much deep rooted hatred that has dug its way into the hearts of the town - that everyone involved is shaking and paying the price of it. 😥
One key character carried so much anger - so much hurt for what the people have made him experience - that how Kyle tried to see it from his point of view, but knew that this wasn't the way to make it right. 'I am so sorry, Kelly.' It's with this angry fit of emotions and tears that I was so enraptured in the story - not knowing what twist would happen next, how the stars would align in such a gripping manner - as if I was watching a boulder torpedo its way through - with an inevitable crash on the horizon - something I couldn't avoid, no matter how hard I tried. 💔💔💔 It's that heightened tension taut with apprehension - with a finale that has left me bracing for an impact I'm not yet ready to partake in.
I really appreciated the author's message at the end - the ending will wreck you and it's so unfair and Kyle's rage is something so palpable, that I fear what he will do with power if it was ever in his hands. But, as long as you believe 'life isn’t about what other people think of you. It’s about what you think of you... But if you like yourself despite what people around you say and don’t give into the hatred and darkness that seems to be everywhere…. You’re going to end up just fine.
Don’t give up, not yet.' ❤️🩹❤️🩹
November 10, 2015
Honest to God, I don't know how I will write my review.
Well I think first of all, that for me, this installment is the BEST of the series so far. I LOVED everything that happened to Brad & Kyle! Them together, gaining new friends, gaining new enemies, them going out, just them together, etc. I'm now in love with these two. I'm one of those who goes "awww..." when I read about them.
And then shit went real in the book's Part 3. It was depressing. I now know how the author writes his books. In the first 3 books, he unleashed all hell from the beginning of the story and then he'll bring you to heaven after the DREADED 70%. In this book, it was the opposite. But I appreciated it. A LOT. I know those shit happens to people. And I'm glad the author shed a light on those issues.
In regards to bullying, I was bullied when I was in sixth grade. Not because of me being gay, but because I was easy to pick on. It came to a point that I didn't want to go to school (my mom knows this.) and it was horrible. Thank God my bullies transferred schools a year after that. BUT, before you guys cry out how awful what happened to me was, I have to confess that a few years after that, I TURNED INTO A BULLY. I know, it's appalling. I turned into someone that I used to hate. It happened to me. And that is one part of my life that I'm ashamed of. I know it's too late to say sorry to the guy I bullied, which I considered a friend btw (I know, I'm a douche in a way) and I'm glad we all have moved on from that. Thank God again that Cyber bullying was not even a thing around that time. So I won't preach that you should not bully anyone blah blah blah...because it would make me such a hypocrite. But I know that bullying has to stop . I don't know how but I think COMPASSION to others may be enough to make things a little better.
So there, overall, this was awesome. Perfect, perfect, perfect. Bravo Mr. Goode!
4.75 STARS!
MY OTHER REVIEWS FROM THE SERIES:
Maybe with a Chance of Certainty
End of the Beginning
Raise Your Glass
August 27, 2016
Leo Fin y no sé si he disfrutado o si he sufrido el libro, pero me ha encantado.
Cuarta entrega en la vida de Foster High y de Kyle y Brad, y con seguridad la más dura de todas, la más emotiva. Nuestra pareja sigue buscando construir una relación, el autor se mantiene totalmente fiel a los personajes en su desarrollo, nada te chirría, nada está fuera de sitio. Y en esta ocasión, están acompañados por personajes secundarios que son trascendentales para la historia y para su historia. Ellos siguen igual de adorables (siempre utilizo la misma palabra, pero no se me ocurre nada mejor), solo quiero abrazarlos y decirles que todo va a ir bien, decirle a Kyle lo valiente, listo y generoso que es, y a Brad que lo merece.
El punto fuerte del autor, para mi, es el desarrollo de los personajes, una suerte para mi porque es lo que más me influye para que un libro me guste o no. Igual que en el libros anteriores está bien escrito, hay sentido del humor, y hay una reflexión. Quizás hay cosas que no se plantean tal y como yo las veo, es una cuestión de opiniones, me parece muy interesante la cuestión en torno a Kyle y que discute varias veces con Robbie, si alguien tiene que luchar por él y por los demás, por un colectivo, aunque eso suponga para él un peligro, sin duda es algo encomiable, una obligación moral, no lo sé. Muy intersante la batalla dialéctica de los dos personajes.
El libro tiene un tono muy romántico con Brad y Kyle, muy romántico, un tono reivindicativo, y un tono muy muy triste, hay partes en las que he tenido que parar y coger un kleenex. Es una historia compleja y una historia sencilla que puede estar pasando en algún instituto ahora mismo, eso sí, el autor no se olvida de ese punto suyo un tanto hollywoodiense en alguna que otra situación.
Leo Fin y el corazón me duele de amor y de tristeza.
Muy recomendable.
Cuarta entrega en la vida de Foster High y de Kyle y Brad, y con seguridad la más dura de todas, la más emotiva. Nuestra pareja sigue buscando construir una relación, el autor se mantiene totalmente fiel a los personajes en su desarrollo, nada te chirría, nada está fuera de sitio. Y en esta ocasión, están acompañados por personajes secundarios que son trascendentales para la historia y para su historia. Ellos siguen igual de adorables (siempre utilizo la misma palabra, pero no se me ocurre nada mejor), solo quiero abrazarlos y decirles que todo va a ir bien, decirle a Kyle lo valiente, listo y generoso que es, y a Brad que lo merece.
El punto fuerte del autor, para mi, es el desarrollo de los personajes, una suerte para mi porque es lo que más me influye para que un libro me guste o no. Igual que en el libros anteriores está bien escrito, hay sentido del humor, y hay una reflexión. Quizás hay cosas que no se plantean tal y como yo las veo, es una cuestión de opiniones, me parece muy interesante la cuestión en torno a Kyle y que discute varias veces con Robbie, si alguien tiene que luchar por él y por los demás, por un colectivo, aunque eso suponga para él un peligro, sin duda es algo encomiable, una obligación moral, no lo sé. Muy intersante la batalla dialéctica de los dos personajes.
El libro tiene un tono muy romántico con Brad y Kyle, muy romántico, un tono reivindicativo, y un tono muy muy triste, hay partes en las que he tenido que parar y coger un kleenex. Es una historia compleja y una historia sencilla que puede estar pasando en algún instituto ahora mismo, eso sí, el autor no se olvida de ese punto suyo un tanto hollywoodiense en alguna que otra situación.
Leo Fin y el corazón me duele de amor y de tristeza.
Muy recomendable.
January 8, 2014
To start off with some honesty: I didn’t really love the first books of this series. I liked them fine. But, I think I described them as “middle-of –the-road” for YA books. I haven’t always been Boring Brad’s biggest fan and Kyle was hit or miss for me. But I love series in general…and I like the development of characters and relationships throughout the course. So, I knew I’d end up reading this book.
THANK FUCK FOR THAT! This book pretty much made the entire series WORTH it. It elevated it to something…important. And John Goode did some amazing stuff here.
First, he was unafraid. Yes, there are other books out there about how hard it is to be gay as a teen. But can you imagine how HARD it is to be gay as a teen in TEXAS? And then to be OUTED? And then to be SHAMED and BULLIED? No, you see…I personally can’t. Well, I mean I guess I can imagine…but I don’t know that I can fully understand. John Goode understands. And it’s clear in how he wrote this book.
Every niggle that entered my head, he cut off at the pass:
Kyle is being such a whiney brat – he responds with Kyle realizing his own emo ways…and geez…teen boys, emotional ones, introverts who’ve never had friends…they get emotional.
No way Jennifer turns 180 like this - he responds with Jennifer showing her own difficulties overcoming all her engrained, fall-back feelings about those not in her ‘group’…invited outcasts to The Party.
This bullying feels excessive and almost over-the-top – he responds with a really insightful line by Brad about Kelly’s “before” behavior bringing on the “after” responses by others
There are tons of examples, but since really only people who’ve read the book can understand, I’ll leave you with those and just say, John Goode was thoughtful and smart, and…organized…in how he wrote out this story.
There’s emotion.
There’s conflict.
There’s sap.
There’s growing up.
There’s pain.
There’s joy.
There’s comfort.
There’s courage.
There’s learning.
It’s a really amazing book.
I do think there was almost TOO much build up and back-and-forth about The Party and the general outcome felt a bit unrealistic. But, I understand why it all happened that way. I also wasn’t altogether too keen on how Kyle treated Robbie for a lot of the story, but again, I understand the why’s.
Note: If you don’t like YA, this is not a read-this-book-to-change-your-mind-about-YA kind of book. It’s typical. The basic storyline has been done. This doesn’t work as a standalone. And you’re not going to have patience with the first books of the series to get to this one.
BUT, if you do read YA, I really think you should give this series a go. The payoff by the end of this book is well worth it.
September 8, 2014
Truth be told, I don't even know where to begin or what to say about this book. It was amazing and John's writing blew me away, as always. I highlighted so many quotes that I lost count...
What I enjoyed the most about this book–apart from the MC's love story–was the message of hope it portrayed. Because among all the dark things happening to our boys, there's a strong sense of hope. It goes to show that, while the world and a lot of people may suck sometimes, there are still good people around. Most of all, it demonstrates that if just one single person takes a stand against injustice, he might be lucky enough to have people to back him up, and ultimately, he may even make a change. Because if everyone turns their head and minds their own business when they come across bullying or any kind of injustice, the world will continue to suck, and people will still suffer.
Kyle is my hero. Seriously, this guy is incredible! He won my heart from the start, but after this book, my love for him grew tenfold. He is brave, smart, sweet and compassionate, and he fights really hard for what he believes in. His view of the world somehow ended up without a scratch, despite everything he had to deal with, and he stays true to himself no matter what. Also, he's a badass when he makes up his mind and sets out to fight for a cause!
Brad is also wonderful and I adore him! He's patient with Kyle, supports him even though he sometimes disagrees with his boyfriend's ideas, and he tries to be a better man to make up for his past. He's passionate and super fucking hot and just downright awesome! Kyle & Brad fit like two pieces of a puzzle and I'm in love with both of them.
What's more, the secondary characters were great. From Jennifer, former bitch with a good heart, to Robbie, complicated wreck and fabulous guy, to badass Gayle with her no-nonsense attitude, to Tyler–I LOVED every single one of them. And last, but not least, I really felt for Kelly and I was crushed because of what happened to him. I don't care if he was a douchebag before, he did NOT deserve that.
Since I failed miserably in doing this book justice, I only have one more thing to say...
Dear John,
I was really moved by the 'Author's note' at the end of this book. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for writing these wonderful books. Even though I don't personally know you, I can say with conviction that you are a beautiful human being, and I am happy you are still here today. You're making a change, John, with these books, you're helping people and that makes this series a gift. Just... thank you so much.
Yours sincerely,
Cristina T.
Books are safe, they are comfortable, and above all else, they are not me. I like not being me for a little while. It's refreshing.
^ This. Me in a nutshell.
What I enjoyed the most about this book–apart from the MC's love story–was the message of hope it portrayed. Because among all the dark things happening to our boys, there's a strong sense of hope. It goes to show that, while the world and a lot of people may suck sometimes, there are still good people around. Most of all, it demonstrates that if just one single person takes a stand against injustice, he might be lucky enough to have people to back him up, and ultimately, he may even make a change. Because if everyone turns their head and minds their own business when they come across bullying or any kind of injustice, the world will continue to suck, and people will still suffer.
Kyle is my hero. Seriously, this guy is incredible! He won my heart from the start, but after this book, my love for him grew tenfold. He is brave, smart, sweet and compassionate, and he fights really hard for what he believes in. His view of the world somehow ended up without a scratch, despite everything he had to deal with, and he stays true to himself no matter what. Also, he's a badass when he makes up his mind and sets out to fight for a cause!
Brad is also wonderful and I adore him! He's patient with Kyle, supports him even though he sometimes disagrees with his boyfriend's ideas, and he tries to be a better man to make up for his past. He's passionate and super fucking hot and just downright awesome! Kyle & Brad fit like two pieces of a puzzle and I'm in love with both of them.
What's more, the secondary characters were great. From Jennifer, former bitch with a good heart, to Robbie, complicated wreck and fabulous guy, to badass Gayle with her no-nonsense attitude, to Tyler–I LOVED every single one of them. And last, but not least, I really felt for Kelly and I was crushed because of what happened to him. I don't care if he was a douchebag before, he did NOT deserve that.
Since I failed miserably in doing this book justice, I only have one more thing to say...
Dear John,
I was really moved by the 'Author's note' at the end of this book. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for writing these wonderful books. Even though I don't personally know you, I can say with conviction that you are a beautiful human being, and I am happy you are still here today. You're making a change, John, with these books, you're helping people and that makes this series a gift. Just... thank you so much.
Yours sincerely,
Cristina T.
Books are safe, they are comfortable, and above all else, they are not me. I like not being me for a little while. It's refreshing.
^ This. Me in a nutshell.
January 10, 2017
End of Innocence or "How John Goode destroyed me in one book"
When I started this book I knew something bad was going to happen because hell, look at the cover and title of the book! So I was nervous and for the first time in my life I didn't try to predict what was goin to happen, I just got swept by the story and I loved it.
End of innocence shows what happens in a little town where there's a lot of ignorance, ignorance leads to fear and fear leads to hate.
Brad and Kyle are dealing with the aftermath of their coming out, the school is against them, a lot of the kids in school are against them and sadly there's bad times in this story but there's a few people that have their backs, family and friends that are not perfect but are there for them.
Brad's friend, Kelli (the reason why Brad and Kyle came out) tries to make amends and this unfolds in a series of events that end in such a terrible way.
I read this book on christmas eve and I was eating tamales and reading and when the bad thing happened I was shocked, sad and I wanted it to be a dream. I actually tweeted John because I was so shocked, I wanted everything to be perfect but that's the thing about life, things are not perfect and bullying, homophobia, depression, suicide and so many other things are real and happen everyday. So I cried and kept reading and gosh, I am so happy with this story, these characters and the amazing words of John.
This book was so real and I know I'm making it sound like such a downer, It's not, Kyle is such a great character and his relationship with Brad is so beautiful and strong. I focused on what personally marked me but it's a great story, so necessary. I wish I could share it with everyone so they could understand how "harmless" words and actions can affect an individual.
Thank you John Goode for this story.
When I started this book I knew something bad was going to happen because hell, look at the cover and title of the book! So I was nervous and for the first time in my life I didn't try to predict what was goin to happen, I just got swept by the story and I loved it.
End of innocence shows what happens in a little town where there's a lot of ignorance, ignorance leads to fear and fear leads to hate.
Brad and Kyle are dealing with the aftermath of their coming out, the school is against them, a lot of the kids in school are against them and sadly there's bad times in this story but there's a few people that have their backs, family and friends that are not perfect but are there for them.
Brad's friend, Kelli (the reason why Brad and Kyle came out) tries to make amends and this unfolds in a series of events that end in such a terrible way.
I read this book on christmas eve and I was eating tamales and reading and when the bad thing happened I was shocked, sad and I wanted it to be a dream. I actually tweeted John because I was so shocked, I wanted everything to be perfect but that's the thing about life, things are not perfect and bullying, homophobia, depression, suicide and so many other things are real and happen everyday. So I cried and kept reading and gosh, I am so happy with this story, these characters and the amazing words of John.
This book was so real and I know I'm making it sound like such a downer, It's not, Kyle is such a great character and his relationship with Brad is so beautiful and strong. I focused on what personally marked me but it's a great story, so necessary. I wish I could share it with everyone so they could understand how "harmless" words and actions can affect an individual.
Thank you John Goode for this story.
November 15, 2012
There comes a time in everyone’s life where reality meets the cocoon of fantasy we have built around ourselves and the innocence we have enjoyed comes crashing down into the sometimes ugly reality of life. For some it can be as simple as finding out there is no Santa Clause (hey, some of us hinged our entire lives on him) for others…it is something much more—much more devastating—much more real.
In End of the Innocence by John Goode we are once again thrust into the lives of two young men, Kyle and Brad and their crash into reality. To highlight this book, to give you an overview of every nuance, every layer that is systematically and sometimes, painfully peeled back from the lives of Brad and Kyle is a daunting task. For this novel has so many facets—so many revelations that I was, quite frankly, just a bit breathless by the end.
In a less than adequate nutshell, the story centers on the next chapter of Brad and Kyle’s life, picking up after the infamous school board meeting where Brad essentially manned up and admitted shamefully yet boldly that he had been a bully and that he was now going to be a force for change. The two boys now have a certain edge of notoriety that causes Kyle to more than once wish for the safety of the shadows and leaves Brad often confused yet resolved. Most of this novel revolves around The Party.
Now if you have ever been in high school you will no doubt remember that kid whose parents left town every spring and the marathon illegal drinking/sex/drinking party that occurred at their house. In this case it is Kelly—remember him? Kelly was Brad’s friend who was essentially in love with Brad and hiding it deep, deep in the closet. The Party would become an opportunity for Brad and Kyle and their ragtag group of friends to essentially “make their stand”—we’re here—queer—get over it. Unfortunately, high school, social media and old hurts inflicted by uncaring people would cause this party to be the end of many things…including someone’s life.
Along the way to this stunning ending, new characters are introduces—so quirky—so fun—and yes—in their own way, so wounded. Sammy and Robbie epitomize those brash, out their friends we all have who use humor and cutting sarcasm to mask their pain—and to show the world that they survive—they not only survive, they excel at being who they are and refuse to offer excuses for it. I loved them—they were sassy and bold—and perhaps the truest most stalwart friends Kyle would ever meet.
On top of these two, Jennifer, Brad’s ex is pure revelation. Beneath the pretty high school cheerleader/popular girl beats the heart of a warrior—a faithful, trustworthy warrior who makes it her business to rise above the painful breakup with Brad and build a friendship with both him and Kyle. She takes Kyle under her protective wing and stands with both boys through all the incredible events leading up to and after the party. She is, simply put, the best friend a gay guy could have!
There was so much to this book…did I mention the breathless thing? The tears, the laughter, and the emotional high jump this novel provokes and provides? I have said before that author John Goode has this amazing ability to paint words on a page that feel as though they were taken directly from our own memories, both painful and sublime. However, this new installment in the Foster High series solidifies one thing for this reader. John Goode has created a story line that resonates beyond the page—it reaches into our lives and leaves us giddy at the idea that someone, somewhere has seen it—seen us, seen our own private journey. He turns his piercing gaze on social media and boldly makes the comment that it is a double edged sword waiting to both inform and destroy. He takes a simple cast of characters which he has so masterfully and beautifully created and shows us their lives and in doing so, shows us ourselves.
There is a line in this novel…there are so many I could quote here—but this one—well, for me it sums up the theme of this book—the hope amidst all the incredibly painful moments that are revealed. After a particularly stunning moment of having bigotry shoved in their faces, Kyle withdraws from Brad—needs a moment to weep—to come to terms with all that has happened—his new reality. He makes the comment that he is broken. And then…oh my, then Brad responds just as you would hope…”Then be broken with me.” That is the beauty of John Goode’s work. He doesn’t simply write with lyrical grace and a sharp eye…no, he says, come—join me—you can be broken with me.
I highly recommend End of the Innocence by John Goode to you. It IS a 5 star read.
In End of the Innocence by John Goode we are once again thrust into the lives of two young men, Kyle and Brad and their crash into reality. To highlight this book, to give you an overview of every nuance, every layer that is systematically and sometimes, painfully peeled back from the lives of Brad and Kyle is a daunting task. For this novel has so many facets—so many revelations that I was, quite frankly, just a bit breathless by the end.
In a less than adequate nutshell, the story centers on the next chapter of Brad and Kyle’s life, picking up after the infamous school board meeting where Brad essentially manned up and admitted shamefully yet boldly that he had been a bully and that he was now going to be a force for change. The two boys now have a certain edge of notoriety that causes Kyle to more than once wish for the safety of the shadows and leaves Brad often confused yet resolved. Most of this novel revolves around The Party.
Now if you have ever been in high school you will no doubt remember that kid whose parents left town every spring and the marathon illegal drinking/sex/drinking party that occurred at their house. In this case it is Kelly—remember him? Kelly was Brad’s friend who was essentially in love with Brad and hiding it deep, deep in the closet. The Party would become an opportunity for Brad and Kyle and their ragtag group of friends to essentially “make their stand”—we’re here—queer—get over it. Unfortunately, high school, social media and old hurts inflicted by uncaring people would cause this party to be the end of many things…including someone’s life.
Along the way to this stunning ending, new characters are introduces—so quirky—so fun—and yes—in their own way, so wounded. Sammy and Robbie epitomize those brash, out their friends we all have who use humor and cutting sarcasm to mask their pain—and to show the world that they survive—they not only survive, they excel at being who they are and refuse to offer excuses for it. I loved them—they were sassy and bold—and perhaps the truest most stalwart friends Kyle would ever meet.
On top of these two, Jennifer, Brad’s ex is pure revelation. Beneath the pretty high school cheerleader/popular girl beats the heart of a warrior—a faithful, trustworthy warrior who makes it her business to rise above the painful breakup with Brad and build a friendship with both him and Kyle. She takes Kyle under her protective wing and stands with both boys through all the incredible events leading up to and after the party. She is, simply put, the best friend a gay guy could have!
There was so much to this book…did I mention the breathless thing? The tears, the laughter, and the emotional high jump this novel provokes and provides? I have said before that author John Goode has this amazing ability to paint words on a page that feel as though they were taken directly from our own memories, both painful and sublime. However, this new installment in the Foster High series solidifies one thing for this reader. John Goode has created a story line that resonates beyond the page—it reaches into our lives and leaves us giddy at the idea that someone, somewhere has seen it—seen us, seen our own private journey. He turns his piercing gaze on social media and boldly makes the comment that it is a double edged sword waiting to both inform and destroy. He takes a simple cast of characters which he has so masterfully and beautifully created and shows us their lives and in doing so, shows us ourselves.
There is a line in this novel…there are so many I could quote here—but this one—well, for me it sums up the theme of this book—the hope amidst all the incredibly painful moments that are revealed. After a particularly stunning moment of having bigotry shoved in their faces, Kyle withdraws from Brad—needs a moment to weep—to come to terms with all that has happened—his new reality. He makes the comment that he is broken. And then…oh my, then Brad responds just as you would hope…”Then be broken with me.” That is the beauty of John Goode’s work. He doesn’t simply write with lyrical grace and a sharp eye…no, he says, come—join me—you can be broken with me.
I highly recommend End of the Innocence by John Goode to you. It IS a 5 star read.
January 13, 2017
This story wrecked me in the best kind of way. John Goode so masterfully captures the emotion and angst of high school, of being bullied, of action and consequence at a time when a lot of kids feel invulnerable in some ways and staggeringly fragile in others.
Kyle shows more of his damaged side, and Brad steps up to the plate to be the guy Kyle really needs.
“I love you. That isn’t a like, isn’t a puppy love, and it isn’t a crush. The moment we kissed in my room, I was yours; it just took my stupid brain time to figure it out. You are everything I need in my life, but more importantly, you are everything I will ever need. I am never going to break up with you. Never. If we break up, and, God, I hope that’s a gigantic ‘if’, it will be because you realized I was not the guy you thought I was and that you can do better. So no matter what happens between us, I will never break up with you. Got it?”
Kyle, I think, has the biggest growth arc in this story going from emo!Kyle to avenging!Kyle by the end...and it suits him. We see his transition to the super awesome character he is as he grows up and accepts the mantle of his responsibility.
Kyle and Brad 4eva!!
As for the narration...it was good, not overly dramatic in any way, which actually was sort of disappointing in a couple of places.
I appreciated the different character voices Ahr provides, and while I didn't care for his choice for Kyle's voice, I did love his voice for Brad, which I thought was awesome.
This was my first time listening to Michael Ahr, and, while I can't honestly say I was blown away, I can definitely see picking up another of his audios in the future.
But this book...this series...damn, it's so good. If you haven't already read it, I have to ask why? Get on that. Seriously. Everyone should read this series.
Remember: "You're going to end up just fine. Don't give up, not yet."
This review has been cross-posted at Gay Book Reviews.
August 7, 2015
1 BILLION stars! It was even better when rereading it!
I'm just gonna leave you with John's words from his author note:
I just want to say that I hope every girl or boy out there gets to read John' books, I hope that John will get to be the "magic Kindle" for every kid or adult out there that needs it.
You touch my heart, John!
Snooches
EPIC BR with Paul and Elsbeth!
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1st read August 2014
It is really necessary to explain again how much I love this series?
Yeah, didn't think so!!!
This one was bittersweet.. I loved Kyle's badassness, Brad's patience, Robbie's exuberance, Jennifer's good heart... but I was dreading the outcome regarding Kelly with all my heart; because yes, I could see it coming... *sobs*
One more thing I want to mention! The John author's note at end is what I loved the most about this book and I cried all the way through it..
I think you're wonderful John! I adored your words so, so much!
Hugs!
I'm just gonna leave you with John's words from his author note:
"For some kids out there, what is in this book is their real life.
There are kids out there right now walking around thinking about killing themselves. You may never know it, they may never even let on about it, but they are seriously thinking about it.
Your story is as, if not more, important than the one you just read. You cannot let the people whose hearts are filled with hate beat you down. You just can’t. We are all people, and we are all deserving of respect. And you can’t let anyone take that away from you. Ever.
Then let me be a magic Kindle for you, if only for a few seconds.
You’re going to end up just fine.
Don’t give up, not yet.
John Goode
Sitting by the second window at Nancy’s with my laptop open"
I just want to say that I hope every girl or boy out there gets to read John' books, I hope that John will get to be the "magic Kindle" for every kid or adult out there that needs it.
You touch my heart, John!
Snooches
EPIC BR with Paul and Elsbeth!
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1st read August 2014
It is really necessary to explain again how much I love this series?
Yeah, didn't think so!!!
This one was bittersweet.. I loved Kyle's badassness, Brad's patience, Robbie's exuberance, Jennifer's good heart... but I was dreading the outcome regarding Kelly with all my heart; because yes, I could see it coming... *sobs*
One more thing I want to mention! The John author's note at end is what I loved the most about this book and I cried all the way through it..
I think you're wonderful John! I adored your words so, so much!
Hugs!
November 10, 2014
How can I even start to describe a book that touched me so deeply? End of the Innocence is just beautiful, stunning, a scream for humanity, sad, dark, marvelous, unbelievable touching, a roller coaster of emotions...
For me Tales of Foster High is the most heartbreaking YA M/M series, a bittersweet, angsty coming of age story everyone should read. Love those guys to bits!
Highly recommended!
June 14, 2017
Just so you know, the title of this story pretty much sums things up very appropriately.
I'm not going to spoil anything except to say that this was profound and I know that the events that happened in this work of fiction has happened in real life, is happening right now, and will happen again. And it saddens me and makes me angry and puts things into perspective.
I would like to say that Kyle and Brad's life gets easier after their big reveal, but as with the first book, this continues to be a honest, difficult look at how they struggle for acceptance in their small conservative town.
Not only do they face what every teen faces - insecurity, peer pressure, dealing with raging hormones and first love - but more obstacles are thrown at them. There's new revelations and crises, along with continued bullying and the struggle to fit in. Goode also throws a wrench in things as he shows that hate and bigotry can go both ways.
What stands out for me most is Kyle. He was amazing in his quest to stop the cycle of hate on both fronts. He strives to bridge the gap through compassion and understanding, and his smarts and wit were brilliant. Brad continues to grow and evolve. He's steadfast in his feelings for Kyle, and I loved how his convictions grew stronger, cementing his happiness that he made the right choices for himself.
This was a nail biter for me - I fretted and worried over the very real situations I know LGBT teens and adults face. The haters are not going to read this and change their minds, but if someone who feels like their world is ending or knows of someone who is, this just might make a difference in knowing that they're not alone and that they matter.
I'm not going to spoil anything except to say that this was profound and I know that the events that happened in this work of fiction has happened in real life, is happening right now, and will happen again. And it saddens me and makes me angry and puts things into perspective.
I would like to say that Kyle and Brad's life gets easier after their big reveal, but as with the first book, this continues to be a honest, difficult look at how they struggle for acceptance in their small conservative town.
Not only do they face what every teen faces - insecurity, peer pressure, dealing with raging hormones and first love - but more obstacles are thrown at them. There's new revelations and crises, along with continued bullying and the struggle to fit in. Goode also throws a wrench in things as he shows that hate and bigotry can go both ways.
What stands out for me most is Kyle. He was amazing in his quest to stop the cycle of hate on both fronts. He strives to bridge the gap through compassion and understanding, and his smarts and wit were brilliant. Brad continues to grow and evolve. He's steadfast in his feelings for Kyle, and I loved how his convictions grew stronger, cementing his happiness that he made the right choices for himself.
This was a nail biter for me - I fretted and worried over the very real situations I know LGBT teens and adults face. The haters are not going to read this and change their minds, but if someone who feels like their world is ending or knows of someone who is, this just might make a difference in knowing that they're not alone and that they matter.
October 24, 2015
There’s nowhere I can get lost in like a book, not even a good book, just a book will do it for me. Books are safe, they are comfortable, and above all else, they are not me. I like not being me for a little while. It’s refreshing.
-John Goode
August 5, 2014
This was a great continuation from the first three books. This book not only focused on Brad and Kyle's relationship with each other, but on newly formed friendships with others.
First off, I love Brad's ex Jennifer. I think she rocked. Did she have a right to be pissed at Brad? I think so. He didn't try to hurt her on purpose, and she understands that now, but when things first came to light she was hurt and embarrassed. After some time passed, she came to be a pretty good friend to both Brad and Kyle.
Enter Robbie, another great character to the story. I think he was good for Kyle and I think Kyle was good for him. The dialogue between the two was awesome.
As we all know, teenagers can be assholes and can take mean to a whole new level. And sometimes actions have horrible consequences. I don't want to say anything else on this topic, but it's one of the main parts of the book and it was written quite well.
Lastly, I absolutely loved the gift that Kyle gave to Brad. So sweet!
First off, I love Brad's ex Jennifer. I think she rocked. Did she have a right to be pissed at Brad? I think so. He didn't try to hurt her on purpose, and she understands that now, but when things first came to light she was hurt and embarrassed. After some time passed, she came to be a pretty good friend to both Brad and Kyle.
Enter Robbie, another great character to the story. I think he was good for Kyle and I think Kyle was good for him. The dialogue between the two was awesome.
As we all know, teenagers can be assholes and can take mean to a whole new level. And sometimes actions have horrible consequences. I don't want to say anything else on this topic, but it's one of the main parts of the book and it was written quite well.
Lastly, I absolutely loved the gift that Kyle gave to Brad. So sweet!
August 4, 2017
5 Stars
I’m finding myself struck speechless by this story.
All of the words I’ve deliberated using here, to express the profound impact this book has had on me, fall miles short of accurately conveying my many thoughts and feelings.
I’ll simply say, I loved it...Every. Single. (Heartbreaking) Word.
I’m finding myself struck speechless by this story.
All of the words I’ve deliberated using here, to express the profound impact this book has had on me, fall miles short of accurately conveying my many thoughts and feelings.
I’ll simply say, I loved it...Every. Single. (Heartbreaking) Word.
November 22, 2012
Perfect. Maybe as perfect as Chris Hemsworth. I hope to write a better review, but I have much digesting to do.
Ok, it's been more than a few days and I think I am ready. This is the first full-length novel in the Foster High series. The first three novellas make up "Part One" and this is "Part Two". There was a sweet little short in between just to keep us happy, To Wish For Impossible Things. I loved that this was more. It gave me a deeply satisfying reading experience. The first three books, Maybe With a Chance of Certainty (who could resist that title?), End of the Beginning and Raise Your Glass were all five stars for me. If I could have given this more than five, I would have.
I love John Goode's writing style. Just a personal preference, but it is a favorite of mine. It is insightful to be able to see the events from both Kyle and Brad's perspective. I just plain love these characters. I want to hug them, smack them, kick them (a little) and just hold them and reassure them that the whole world doesn't suck.
The growth seen, especially in End of the Innocence, in the maturity and character of both boys is so realistic. As a mom with a 15 year old son, I know teenage boys a little. It warms my heart to see Kyle and Brad coming into their own, developing into the men they will become.
This installment more so than the first ones, had some gritty realism. And I mean REALISM. Not made up shit that is all hearts and roses and Hollywood endings (although there was some of that, too). It felt more mature. I know it to be realistic from personal experience. I was able to put myself into the places of several characters at different times throughout the book and feel their pain, angst, joy, grief and fear. This also caused an over abundance of tissue usage in my house while reading. I LOVE it when an author is able to take me inside a character's head and heart.
There were things left open ended. That is awesome!! That means we will be seeing more of Brad and Kyle. I would happily follow them through their college years and on to setting up house, adopting kids, getting a dog. Not that I'm trying to tell John what to write or anything ;).
Do yourself a favor and read this book. It can be read alone, but I think it is better to read the entire series in order so that you can see the character progression. Do yourself a really big favor and read the afterward that John includes. Not many authors share so openly from their hearts. It made me cry as much as the book. This is a great book by a really cool man. Must read for all m/m romance, coming-of-age fans.
And to John, thank you sir, may I have some more please?
Ok, it's been more than a few days and I think I am ready. This is the first full-length novel in the Foster High series. The first three novellas make up "Part One" and this is "Part Two". There was a sweet little short in between just to keep us happy, To Wish For Impossible Things. I loved that this was more. It gave me a deeply satisfying reading experience. The first three books, Maybe With a Chance of Certainty (who could resist that title?), End of the Beginning and Raise Your Glass were all five stars for me. If I could have given this more than five, I would have.
I love John Goode's writing style. Just a personal preference, but it is a favorite of mine. It is insightful to be able to see the events from both Kyle and Brad's perspective. I just plain love these characters. I want to hug them, smack them, kick them (a little) and just hold them and reassure them that the whole world doesn't suck.
The growth seen, especially in End of the Innocence, in the maturity and character of both boys is so realistic. As a mom with a 15 year old son, I know teenage boys a little. It warms my heart to see Kyle and Brad coming into their own, developing into the men they will become.
This installment more so than the first ones, had some gritty realism. And I mean REALISM. Not made up shit that is all hearts and roses and Hollywood endings (although there was some of that, too). It felt more mature. I know it to be realistic from personal experience. I was able to put myself into the places of several characters at different times throughout the book and feel their pain, angst, joy, grief and fear. This also caused an over abundance of tissue usage in my house while reading. I LOVE it when an author is able to take me inside a character's head and heart.
There were things left open ended. That is awesome!! That means we will be seeing more of Brad and Kyle. I would happily follow them through their college years and on to setting up house, adopting kids, getting a dog. Not that I'm trying to tell John what to write or anything ;).
Do yourself a favor and read this book. It can be read alone, but I think it is better to read the entire series in order so that you can see the character progression. Do yourself a really big favor and read the afterward that John includes. Not many authors share so openly from their hearts. It made me cry as much as the book. This is a great book by a really cool man. Must read for all m/m romance, coming-of-age fans.
And to John, thank you sir, may I have some more please?
March 27, 2013
3-3.5 stars
Sorry, but obviously I'm the only one not being a fan of this book. Up til about 50% I think the most important thing of this story was THE PARTY. Shall we attend, I want to attend, will you accompany me, no I don't want to go, you have to go to show your support for the gay rights, you have to go because I want you with me, no I don't want to go, well you need something to wear to THE PARTY! Yes, I know teenagers and they can be self-centered and a tad bit shallow, but come on - this was a bit too much.
Then of course during THE PARTY something bad happened, which then got out of proportion with a tragic ending. Over all of that development there was Kyle, knowing everything and all and of course seeing to a fitting revenge in the end. Well, rather over the top for me.
Sorry, but obviously I'm the only one not being a fan of this book. Up til about 50% I think the most important thing of this story was THE PARTY. Shall we attend, I want to attend, will you accompany me, no I don't want to go, you have to go to show your support for the gay rights, you have to go because I want you with me, no I don't want to go, well you need something to wear to THE PARTY! Yes, I know teenagers and they can be self-centered and a tad bit shallow, but come on - this was a bit too much.
Then of course during THE PARTY something bad happened, which then got out of proportion with a tragic ending. Over all of that development there was Kyle, knowing everything and all and of course seeing to a fitting revenge in the end. Well, rather over the top for me.
November 17, 2014
Wow, wow... just, wow... So beautiful, I have no words really...Real and raw, this book is an emotional punch in the gut.
This book made me laugh, rage. and broke my heart all at once.
That feeling of foreboding when it came on in the book, I was hoping I was wrong, when it happened :'(
That epilogue was just perfect and spot on and well done, I applaud you Mr. Goode. *big hugs* A huge bear hug for you <3
An amazing book I can't praise highly enough, go read it now! :)
This book made me laugh, rage. and broke my heart all at once.
That feeling of foreboding when it came on in the book, I was hoping I was wrong, when it happened :'(
That epilogue was just perfect and spot on and well done, I applaud you Mr. Goode. *big hugs* A huge bear hug for you <3
An amazing book I can't praise highly enough, go read it now! :)
November 30, 2012
I want to give this book 1000 stars.
I want every kid to read this.
I want every person who has bullied someone or even thought of bullying someone, to be hit over the head with this book until it sinks in.
I want to wrap my arms around every kid that feels scared, helpless and most of all hopeless and let them know that they are loved and not alone.
I want bullying to STOP.
I want every kid to read this.
I want every person who has bullied someone or even thought of bullying someone, to be hit over the head with this book until it sinks in.
I want to wrap my arms around every kid that feels scared, helpless and most of all hopeless and let them know that they are loved and not alone.
I want bullying to STOP.
February 12, 2013
I know this is a bit of an unorthodox way to start a review but I've got to ask the author a question. John Goode, will you marry me?! Had to ask because I've fallen in love with you for writing this book as much as I've fallen in love with the characters in the book. Ok, now that's out there lets begin.
A Superhero is born
So like the other books in this Tales from Foster High series I don't know where to start to tell you how spectacular this book was. There were just so many great things about it. Firstly, we got a full length book this time, which unfortunately still didn't seem enough, I know I'm just being greedy but if you read it you'll understand that you could just go on forever reading about these magnificent characters.
So the book, with it being longer, was a little different to the others in that it allowed a longer story development and was a bit darker then the previous ones. What this also allowed for was for us to get to know some of the supporting characters, and let me tell you they were equally as likeable and engaging as Brad and Kyle. In the previous books I simply adored Brad with his deep rooted vulnerability and his protectiveness of Kyle, how could you not fall in love with that? But in this book Kyle stunningly shines like the bright star he is. We've seen him develop through the books and gain confidence and this is totally down to the wonderful relationship that him and Brad share, they are just perfect for one another and it's just beautiful to read about. To start with Kyle was shy and withdrawn but here he has a new found confidence, which he wouldn't have were it not for Brad. This is where they are the perfect most brilliant couple, because they both bring out the best in the other. Kyle brings forth Brads vulnerability and breaks down that bravado of his. Whilst Brad brings out Kyles inner confidence and honestly makes him the stand out character in this book.
Now I completely agree with Brad here that Kyle truly is a superhero. What the author does with Kyle in this book is just.. well lets just say I was totally blown away with it. Kyle exudes three qualities that we all as human beings should strive to have, grace, compassion and forgiveness. To see Kyle in this book living these three amazing gifts was a wonder! Seriously no matter how well you think you do these things you can learn a lot from what Kyle shows by example in this book. For me this was the most important message of the book and something that will stay with me. It really is an important message that the author gets across brilliantly. That we all have prejudices, yes all of us, and not necessarily just about the gay/straight issue, its a universal problem with different issues, but we have to get over them and start showing grace, compassion and forgiveness to others no matter what, its what will make us great human beings and superhero's like Kyle.
I said this book is a little darker than the others and that's true. It deals with some very real and devastating issues that leave you truly heartbroken by the end. What is more upsetting is that this isn't simply fiction because, as the author points out in his notes at the end, the issues dealt with in this book have all actually happened to someone at some point, and this really hits home and makes this book so important in what it highlights and the message its gets across.
The book, well all the books really, completely infected me whilst reading, there's no other way to describe it, I was infected! I felt I was living and breathing these characters lives. And it was because of this, because the writing was so amazing and infecting, that I truly felt every emotion these characters had. And it completely explains why through this book my eyes were rarely dry. Every time Brad and Kyle had a moment, said I love you, even looked at each other I was bleary eyed. Yes I'm a big cry baby, but it was amazing to feel all that along with them. What I found so great was that between sobbing
like a baby I was genuinely laughing out loud too. I was constantly jumping from one emotion to the next and it takes a great writer to do that to you.I also found the authors use of pop culture references completely awesome, he is a pop culture guru! In some books I've seen authors use pop culture references and they usually make me want to scratch my eyes out, because they are usually just so irrelevant to anything. But they really work so well in this book because the characters would actually use those references, they are wholly believable for the characters and make the story contemporary and relevant, and are are usually what make the book so funny at times.
So you can can probably tell that overall I thought this book was just astoundingly fantastic. It was and I will take away so many positive things away from it as I would imagine any reader would. Thank you John Goode for writing this book, It was a pleasure, even if I did get my heart broken to pieces by the end of it. But honestly you can break my heart any day of the week if this is how you do it.
A Superhero is born
So like the other books in this Tales from Foster High series I don't know where to start to tell you how spectacular this book was. There were just so many great things about it. Firstly, we got a full length book this time, which unfortunately still didn't seem enough, I know I'm just being greedy but if you read it you'll understand that you could just go on forever reading about these magnificent characters.
So the book, with it being longer, was a little different to the others in that it allowed a longer story development and was a bit darker then the previous ones. What this also allowed for was for us to get to know some of the supporting characters, and let me tell you they were equally as likeable and engaging as Brad and Kyle. In the previous books I simply adored Brad with his deep rooted vulnerability and his protectiveness of Kyle, how could you not fall in love with that? But in this book Kyle stunningly shines like the bright star he is. We've seen him develop through the books and gain confidence and this is totally down to the wonderful relationship that him and Brad share, they are just perfect for one another and it's just beautiful to read about. To start with Kyle was shy and withdrawn but here he has a new found confidence, which he wouldn't have were it not for Brad. This is where they are the perfect most brilliant couple, because they both bring out the best in the other. Kyle brings forth Brads vulnerability and breaks down that bravado of his. Whilst Brad brings out Kyles inner confidence and honestly makes him the stand out character in this book.
Now I completely agree with Brad here that Kyle truly is a superhero. What the author does with Kyle in this book is just.. well lets just say I was totally blown away with it. Kyle exudes three qualities that we all as human beings should strive to have, grace, compassion and forgiveness. To see Kyle in this book living these three amazing gifts was a wonder! Seriously no matter how well you think you do these things you can learn a lot from what Kyle shows by example in this book. For me this was the most important message of the book and something that will stay with me. It really is an important message that the author gets across brilliantly. That we all have prejudices, yes all of us, and not necessarily just about the gay/straight issue, its a universal problem with different issues, but we have to get over them and start showing grace, compassion and forgiveness to others no matter what, its what will make us great human beings and superhero's like Kyle.
I said this book is a little darker than the others and that's true. It deals with some very real and devastating issues that leave you truly heartbroken by the end. What is more upsetting is that this isn't simply fiction because, as the author points out in his notes at the end, the issues dealt with in this book have all actually happened to someone at some point, and this really hits home and makes this book so important in what it highlights and the message its gets across.
The book, well all the books really, completely infected me whilst reading, there's no other way to describe it, I was infected! I felt I was living and breathing these characters lives. And it was because of this, because the writing was so amazing and infecting, that I truly felt every emotion these characters had. And it completely explains why through this book my eyes were rarely dry. Every time Brad and Kyle had a moment, said I love you, even looked at each other I was bleary eyed. Yes I'm a big cry baby, but it was amazing to feel all that along with them. What I found so great was that between sobbing
like a baby I was genuinely laughing out loud too. I was constantly jumping from one emotion to the next and it takes a great writer to do that to you.I also found the authors use of pop culture references completely awesome, he is a pop culture guru! In some books I've seen authors use pop culture references and they usually make me want to scratch my eyes out, because they are usually just so irrelevant to anything. But they really work so well in this book because the characters would actually use those references, they are wholly believable for the characters and make the story contemporary and relevant, and are are usually what make the book so funny at times.
So you can can probably tell that overall I thought this book was just astoundingly fantastic. It was and I will take away so many positive things away from it as I would imagine any reader would. Thank you John Goode for writing this book, It was a pleasure, even if I did get my heart broken to pieces by the end of it. But honestly you can break my heart any day of the week if this is how you do it.
June 12, 2016
I don't know if I've ever been happy that I cried. This is the weirdest combination, but that's exactly what John Goode accomplished with 'End of the Innocence' for me. I am so happy I read this wonderful and amazing book. I am so happy I cried in between and the last 15% of this book. Thank you John, for not giving up yourself and giving us Kyle's and Brad's story.
You have to understand, I hate crying (although I do it regularly). I don't read sad books. No. I love funny books and sexy books, books that make me feel good. That might be shallow, but life is exhausting and depressing enough. Still, reading this book is fabulous.
If I were reading this review, pre-reading Tales from Foster High, I would stop reading the review right now, shelve it under 'probably not' and move on. If I was to read a similar review now, I would continue reading and consider if it would be worth it anyway. So, thank you, John, for making me stop running away.
I think we have come to the conclusion that this book is sad. Because life and people suck sometimes. Because there is hate in this world, that we all don't know where it's coming from, but have to deal with anyway. Because people still hate gays and because people are blinded.
But, 'End of the Innocence' is a lot more than sad. Let me tell you all about it:
- We have the most amazing young man there is as a protagonist, Kyle. I can't emphasise enough how awesome he is. We see him grow in this book and wow, if you have a Kyle in your life, you hold on and never let go. Kyle will be there for you no matter what it takes. He will do the right thing, he will be honest and call you out on your bullshit, he will make you smile and love him. He is smart and a bit nerdy and doesn't see what others see in him. He is a hero that makes earth a better place. (He reminds me of someone, who would deny just that...)
- Kyle has the best boyfriend to rely on, Brad, who is there for him, even if he disagrees. He is loyal to no end. While I adore Kyle, I still love Brad, too! They have a beautiful relationship. They are honest with each other, they are one. They are tender and loving, and even when they argue they manage to not annoy you.
- There are some really interesting secondary characters, ahead of all Robbie. He is intriguing, because he is loveable, but also has a lot to work through and behaves like a douche a lot, too. I'm thrilled that there will be more of him.
I have but one tiny complaint. Tiny, mind you, and that's just me. I don't do the angsty writing so well. So I'd rather you not tell me beforehand how bad things are gonna get with hints every now and then.
I absolutely love this book and I can't recommend it enough!
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I read this book with my lovely friends Marco and Marte, although Marco is already finished and Marte is still on it. Thank you again, Marco, for making me wanna read about Kyle and Brad!
February 1, 2014
5 stars. Just magnificent. This series gets better and better, and I can't believe I've come to the end other than the little freebie novella 'Dear God' that is waiting patiently on the kindle. A shower of glorious glittering stars from me
So much goes on in this one, I can only implore you to read the series yourself and please read the author's heartfelt note at the end. Brad and Kyle, I won't forget you I promise.
August 8, 2014
5+++ stars!!!
What a book! And the "Author's Note"... A MUST!!
Thank you so much Mr. Goode!
John Goode have an amazing way with words. He writes brilliantly and make you fall in love with his characters in only few pages.
You can feel everything that Kyle and Brad are going through deep in your bones.
The first 3 books where short and wonderful but this one... This one was amazing in the way it dealt with all the complicity of being different in a small town (though I am sure not only in small places), about bullying and about dark, small minded people.
I laughed and I cried and I sometime laughed and cried together while reading this book...
Kyle and Brad are forever in my heart!
I think I am going to treat myself to Tyler's story now!
What a book! And the "Author's Note"... A MUST!!
Thank you so much Mr. Goode!
John Goode have an amazing way with words. He writes brilliantly and make you fall in love with his characters in only few pages.
You can feel everything that Kyle and Brad are going through deep in your bones.
The first 3 books where short and wonderful but this one... This one was amazing in the way it dealt with all the complicity of being different in a small town (though I am sure not only in small places), about bullying and about dark, small minded people.
I laughed and I cried and I sometime laughed and cried together while reading this book...
Kyle and Brad are forever in my heart!
I think I am going to treat myself to Tyler's story now!
August 18, 2015
With the title and the cover I had a feeling this read was not going to be an easy one. And when it comes to bullying and the effects of it, it never is. While I did laugh, swoon, but most of all shed quite a few tears, I wouldn't change a thing about this book. Life is not easy. There comes a point in our lives when we come to the realization that the world we live in can be a hard and cruel place. So a dose of reality is a good thing. Especially one with such an important message.
John, thank you for writing these books. Not only have you touched my heart, but have no doubt you have changed the lives of many.
John, thank you for writing these books. Not only have you touched my heart, but have no doubt you have changed the lives of many.
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