Spoilers from Book 1 and Book 2
Spoilers Ahead!! You've been warned!
I rarely write reviews and once again I find myself writing a review for a book I didn't love.
So I am going to put this all out here before I get started.
First I didn't know when I started reading the series it was self published nor did I realize it was the authors 1st and 2nd books. I only found that out after reading the second book reviews.
Second I am not a YA or even a NA, thou I clearly remember being 15 and in love. And I have been a YA junkie since I was a YA.
That said I still go into every book I open with the hope of getting lost in a story and of becoming the heroine/hero. I think most readers do. Obviously I don't always agree with every thing she/he will do but I try hard to really be in her/his place.
Also I am wondering am I writing a review or a rant I don't know.
Now I am wondering am aging out of one of my favorite genres. *sigh*
I was so excited by the synopsis of book 1 The Gamble this book sounded right up my ally. I went in and within a few pages you know Kelsey is a princess. Almost from page 1 or 2 when she accepts the cookie from Rey. For her someone who had never been hungry to take anything from someone who only knows hunger. She was clueless, naive. I was set to join this girl and see her grow into a strong warrior woman. That did not happen.
Book 1
Kelsey is 18 but she was much younger maybe 14-15 in thought and actions. It wasn't her fault she was literally in prison with only so much information at hand. So sure in theory she knew what hunger was and that it wasn't a good thing, but she had never experienced hunger so she couldn't truly understand it. You can't fault her for taking the cookie. Like you can't fault her for not understanding what Rey's life was truly like. At one point she finally see's where he has lived his life, but still seeing something like that for a few hours and living it daily. Very different things. Yes she has experienced loss with her mother and her nanny, and there was some true fear of the gamble in her after all her mothers number had come up so she knew it could happen to her. There was so much life growth to experience with this girl and I loved the concept. I was with her thou Rey's death I understood her feelings and thoughts. I put myself in her place her best only friend had just been put to death her future was bleak she is a teenage girl so emotional. I understood her need to escape at any cost even if it meant certain death. I was there with her rooting her on take control of her life let no man/woman decide your future for you. Where the book started to lose me was pretty early on. Within hours of her best only friends death (since she was 6 years old) this is the person she loved most in the worlds death, and her escape from a underground prison to the outside world where she is thinking she had just committed suicide and seeing the sky, trees, colors for the first and last time ever-to noticing how hot Jax was. So ok I thought to myself at this point err well I love romance in all my books but come on dude the love of your life just died 6 hours ago but ok. Still I hung in and there were some really good parts. I loved when she got shot. She was so offended. And I thought ok here is a learning curve time to see some growth from her. But no. I liked the hate turns to love concept. That said not in 3 or 4 days and I didn't feel that a experienced leader of a group (one that had only spent minutes in Kelsey's presence prior to this) responsible for 500 peoples lives would just hand a gun to someone they thought could be a spy in the 1st week. Sorry I don't buy that it's not even in the realm of something any leader would ever do. Tell your story walking dude no sale here. There needed to be more time spent. Weeks I would go with but naw wasn't happening for me at this point. Still I stuck quit frankly because I was to lazy to browse for something else and it was getting a little late to start something new and the book wasn't horrible it wasn't good but readable. So I went with it. Almost every day something bad happened to Kelsey but you never see any growth not really but by week 2 she is in love with Jax. Thou not admitting it. By the end I was at 2 stars with book 1 and was ready to walk away. Just 1 question on my mind. How was Rey still alive. I didn't really care about Kelsey at all I liked Jax but not enough to keep reading book 2. So off to goodreads I went to see if anyone had put up a spoiler for book 2 and how/why Rey was still alive. Sadly no one had put up one of those spoilers. But I had to know was I right? Did Kelsey's father let Rey go cause he didn't want to kill the guy but he wasn't about to let him marry his daughter. Did her father offer Reys cousins a future If only Rey walked away? If so I would only need to read the first few chapters or so pat myself on the back for figuring it out and put book 2 in my dnf pile because I had no interest in anything other then finding out about Rey. So with that plan in mind off to book 2 I went.
Book 2
And was surprised the how/why question had an interesting answer that I had not seen coming and wasn't easy to predict. I was wrong and happy about it also interested drew back in. It didn't last long the whole rest of the book was who will Kelsey choose. Bad things happen to her and still the only thing she thinks about is herself there is no growth at all if anything she went backwards. She doesn't learn and doesn't listen to more experienced people trying to help her. You would think that she would at least hear and consider the people around her. I mean she's only been out of the underground 3 weeks come on there is no dishonor in saying hey I don't know what the flying fuck I am doing maybe I should ask questions learn something about my new world listen to the leader of these people (thou why anyone would follow the advise of whatever that chicks name I can't remember but she is not a good leader I don't know she is supposed to be smart but is not). I skipped many pages of Kelsey feeling sorry for herself and pissed at having to choose one guy or another and her selfishness running into danger needing rescue cause lets face it she has no training cause she's only been out of the underground 3 weeks. Honest at this point I was reading for the men in the book Jax, Rey and villain Elijah. I like both Rey and Jax and I wanted to see Elijah's comeuppance. Near the end last few chapters there was a small ray of hope. Kelsey finally chooses but not her guy she chooses who she is going to be as a person while talking to Ryder. I see this small small small growth finally it's to little to late but it's there and gone in the very next chapter where she runs alone into danger yet again thinking she can win against a psycho mass murder with zero training. Then literally throws a fit by jumping up and down and screams how unfair life is. At this point we are in the last chapter of the 2nd book this girl has been held in what basically is a prison her whole life, she been kidnapped, shot, stubbed, taken prisoner twice more and I can't even tell you what else. But now she understands life is unfair. I almost lost my freaking mind I wanted more then anything at this point for Elijah to put a bullet in her head THAT my friends would have been worth the read. Book 3 could have been about Rey and Jax becoming best friends taking revenge on Elijah and rescuing the underground for the woman they loved. There could have been spin off books where they find new loves. I could get behind that. But NO! No that did not happen. The last scene as pretty epic I will say that. This author is a genius at cliffhangers. Will I read book 3 I don't know I think not. Author tricked me with cliffhanger in book 1 shame on her if I let her do it with book 2 shame on me. She is a tricky lady and it really was a good cliffy. If book 3 followed thou on the promise of that last scene it could be amazing. But yeah tricky author...
Over all..
1. I didn't mind the love triangle simply because of the way it was written. The fact that she had grown up with Rey loved him most of her life and had that love change to a more adult love. Then after his believed death found a new love (my problem was not on the day Rey died or even 3 days later). It's not believable. To find him not dead and still love him and to have grown to love another in the mean time. That to me is acceptable.
2. I have no sympathy for a girl who runs into trouble headfirst and needs saving repeatedly. Once you learn from don't do it a second time it doesn't make you brave it make you stupid.
3. I don't mind a heroine who starts out weak as long as she grows strong that didn't happen here. Thou she may have lost her mind there at the end which I can only see as a good thing.
4. I wasn't crazy about how Jax and Rey were the same guy with different color hair. I felt Rey was supposed to be seen as the sweet girl love you grow out of and Jax was supposed to be the passionate woman love you grow into it felt like a manipulation. So people would vote team Jax.
4.1/2 It also felt like a manipulation you get a whole book getting to know Jax but just a few pages getting to know Rey.
4.3/4 Kelsey didn't spend a single thought on the 1000's of people who die every year in the gamble. Other then to tell Rey to make sure he raided the underground before the next gamble. This felt like another set up/manipulation. So when/if Rey dies she will now care about saving the underground people in the name of Rey. With Jax along.
5. I wanted a YA dystopian book with a side of love story I got a spoiled stupid selfish little girl with the unrealized possibility of a awesome YA dystopian side.
6. Author can write and has talent to draw you in and I think I would want to read later works maybe. Sadly this series is mostly a miss for me. Thou I felt some of the scenes were really really good. I just couldn't get behind the heroine. And again I loved the concept for this series.
7. I give the book 2 stars it's not good but mostly readable I say that cause I skipped/skimmed many pages star 3 is for the last scene of the book.
8. I would have liked to see a bit more of her underground life in the day to day. More world building in general.
SPOILER SPOILER SPOILER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So at the end of book 2 the author asks team Jax or team Rey. I find myself at team neither lets face it I won't believe either. And is that really what you want this to be about team wolf or team vampire or would you rather it be about team warrior woman. For me it's not a choice if it's a win by default sorry. I would have more respect if Kelsey helps save the underground and becomes a leader worth being a leader and that for me can no longer happen if she's ends up with either guy in book 3. If the series were longer and she could admit to where she made true mistakes not accept every fault just because she escaped the underground. Stops the poor me woo is me complex puts her big girl pants on learns grows and becomes. Then finds love in a later book I could get behind that.