It's not a pleasant sensation, reading Lydia Davis. She writes well, she's a disciple of the "simplify, simplify" school, but.... I take my words now from the response I wrote to Break it Down for class:
There is much within-ness within Davis' work. It invites the reader to examine herself, and not in the cajoling way that some texts have of encouraging such examination, but an inescapable one that isn't necessarily optimistic or pretty. I sometimes feel as if Davis reveals more about me to myself than she reveals about Davis. To read her is to be uncomfortably introspective, and Davis' anonymous heroines, delineated only by "she"s, can easily take the form and face and shape of the reader herself. Davis' stories make me restless, and I think that I, too, am at great risk of wandering through soulless suburban spaces, a neurotic woman-writer… Her endings do not do what stories should do, they do not give closure; they are liberating, but at the cost of peace of mind, I think. Nothing Davis ends with offers the reader hope – she is not really in the business of cheering her readers up – but reveals an uneasy, insomniac, fretful examination of the self and the world that ultimately seems to yield nothing:
"Then she looks out at the smokestacks far away and nearly invisible across the sound and thinks, though, that this was not the revelation she was waiting for, either." (177)
"[…]but I kept forgetting to ask, until finally I put them away in a drawer to give her when they came out again, because by then it wasn't going to be long, and it made me tired all over again just to think of it." (164)
"[…] though her eyes rest on the darkening woods, she is not so much watching as waiting, and often, now, feels she is waiting." (152)
"[…] she remembers everything that happened and remembers, though she will have forgotten when I see her again, that she has told it to me now, though just barely." (150)
"They have never known such disappointment as I have." (148)
"I'm not the one who can answer it and anyone else who tries will come up with a different answer, though of course all the answers together may add up to the right one, if there is such a thing as a right answer to a question like that." (98)
"They have suffered for our sakes, and most often in a place where we could not see them" (80)
"They shook him out of the mattress, brushed him over the floor, wiped him off the windowpane, and never knew what they had done." (77)
"Then the poem, and she thinks she can smell something there, though she is probably smelling only the ink." (56)
Isn't this a sobering collection of last sentences? This restlessness, this feeling of having been left hanging, can be seen as positive because it invites motion, perhaps. But I could quote Davis herself in counterargument, from the final sentence of "What an Old Woman Will Wear": "And now that she had said this out loud, she thought that maybe there was no joy, after all, in even thinking about such freedom." (159) There is no joy in Davis' tales, no permission to exhale. There is only restless scrutiny. Searching for something and not finding it. Exhaustion. Waiting. The exhaustion caused by endless waiting. Unrealized futures, unanswered questions, unrecognized people and deeds.
It is an accurate if depressing picture, perhaps. We are all told to "live in the moment" and "carpe diem" this and that, but the truth is that so much of our lives revolves around waiting – always looking to some wiser, better, more incredible tomorrow, and so we stumble over today in anticipation. Retrospection or some gloomy inquisitiveness, that is how Davis' stories begin and end, and in between the two stretches the tedious now, made up of the minuteness of the everyday.