Die Welt voller Wunder

by Pearl S. Buck

A recently discovered novel written by Pearl S. Buck at the end of her life in 1973, The Eternal Wonder tells the coming-of-age story of Randolph Colfax (Rann for short), an extraordinarily gifted young man whose search for meaning and purpose leads him to New York, England, Paris, on a mission patrolling the DMZ in Korea that will change his life forever—and, ultimately, to love.

Rann falls for the beautiful and equally brilliant Stephanie Kung, who lives in Paris with her Chinese father and has not seen her American mother since she abandoned the family when Stephanie was six years old. Both Rann and Stephanie yearn for a sense of genuine identity. Rann feels plagued by his voracious intellectual curiosity and strives to integrate his life of the mind with his experience in the world. Stephanie struggles to reconcile the Chinese part of herself with her American and French selves. Separated for long periods of time, their final reunion leads to a conclusion that even Rann, in all his hard-earned wisdom, could never have imagined.

A moving and mesmerizing fictional exploration of the themes that meant so much to Pearl S. Buck in her life, this final work is perhaps her most personal and passionate, and will no doubt appeal to the millions of readers who have treasured her novels for generations. 

Genres: Fiction, Historical Fiction, Classics, Literature, Coming Of Age, Book Club, Literary Fiction

Paperback

First published January 1, 2013

About the author

Pearl Comfort Sydenstricker Buck was an American writer and novelist. She is best known for The Good Earth, the best-selling novel in the United States in 1931 and 1932 and which won her the Pulitzer Prize in 1932. In 1938, Buck became the first American woman to win the Nobel Prize in Literature "for her rich and truly epic descriptions of peasant life in China" and for her "masterpieces", two memoir-biographies of her missionary parents.
Buck was born in West Virginia, but in October 1892, her parents took their 4-month-old baby to China. As the daughter of missionaries and later as a missionary herself, Buck spent most of her life before 1934 in Zhenjiang, with her parents, and in Nanjing, with her first husband. She and her parents spent their summers in a villa in Kuling, Mount Lu, Jiujiang, and it was during this annual pilgrimage that the young girl decided to become a writer. She graduated from Randolph-Macon Woman's College in Lynchburg, Virginia, then returned to China. From 1914 to 1932, after marrying John Lossing Buck she served as a Presbyterian missionary, but she came to doubt the need for foreign missions. Her views became controversial during the Fundamentalist–Modernist controversy, leading to her resignation. After returning to the United States in 1935, she married the publisher Richard J. Walsh and continued writing prolifically. She became an activist and prominent advocate of the rights of women and racial equality, and wrote widely on Chinese and Asian cultures, becoming particularly well known for her efforts on behalf of Asian and mixed-race adoption.

Reviews

[Elisa Santos · Rating 5 out of 5]

Seriam 6 estrelas se houvesse.

[Yani · Rating 2 out of 5]

Estoy casi acostumbrada a empezar a leer autores por el peor lugar, pero nunca me sentí tan literariamente estafada como en esta ocasión. Tal como comenté en un estado, opino que esta novela no debería haberse publicado porque se nota mucho que es el esqueleto de un libro y no uno ya terminado. Sin embargo, me pregunto: si el esbozo de la historia tiene esa base, ¿me hubiera gustado el libro después de sus correcciones correspondientes o se me haría más pesado de leer? Nunca lo sabré.

Esta es la historia de Rann Colfax, un niño superdotado de inteligencia que, a medida que crece, sufre problemas para encajar en el mundo y socializar. Esto ocasiona una tensión entre sus padres porque, mientras la madre se preocupa por la falta de amigos de Rann, el padre lo alienta a que siga su camino sin problemas. La escuela no sirve (siempre hay alguien que tiene ganas de dejar a los profesores como inútiles…) y las relaciones sociales tampoco, porque la gente no comprende al muchacho. Así que una de las cosas que decide hacer después de un momento bisagra en su vida es viajar.

Ya no hay mucho para contar: en este libro no pasa nada porque lo importante está en la esencia y en la escritura. Rann ingresa a la universidad siendo muy joven y luego la abandona tras una polémica que me dejó muy disgustada. Un profesor con el que establece confianza y lo deslumbra luego intenta abusarlo. Rann se enoja y cuando se lo cuenta a la madre ella justifica esa acción porque el profesor es homosexual y no tiene otra opción más que “amar” por la fuerza. Hay tantas cosas primitivas en el pensamiento de esta mujer que me dan ganas de patear cosas. Lo que sigue es un recorrido por el mundo, un intento de “asombrarse” y captar todo lo que pueda de él, todo aquello que no está en los libros. Por supuesto, al ser un adolescente tiene un despertar sexual y ahí comprenderá que no todo pasa por el saber. Uno de los que educa a Rann en esto es el padre, que en las explicaciones que le da en su niñez (todo es debatible en este libro) se olvida de las palabras “consentimiento” y “protección”. Podría seguir este párrafo pero revelaría demasiado, ya que todos dicen unas cuantas cosas horribles y dignas de cavernícolas. Todos.

Los personajes de El eterno asombro parecen extraídos de un manual. Incluso cuando algunos quieren iniciar una conversación académica y filosófica hacen agua por todas partes y quedan chatos. Por supuesto, cualquiera que lea este libro notará que la educación intelectual de Rann está a cargo de los hombres y la amorosa, de las mujeres. Rann es un chico educado al que todo el mundo quiere cuando lo conoce, convirtiéndose en el copo de nieve especial de la historia. En realidad, no lo es. El personaje femenino que en la contratapa de este libro promete convertirse en EL personaje de la novela no lo hace. Sólo está ahí para decirle a Rann lo maravilloso que es.

Es un libro que está bien escrito y tiene su encanto. Se nota el estilo de la autora pero sentí que le faltaba complejidad en las ocasiones que se requerían más detalles y más profundidad psicológica. No estoy castigando a Buck, sólo estoy señalando que este libro hubiera sido mucho mejor en otras circunstancias de publicación.

Mi experiencia fue un poco decepcionante pero no me rindo. El eterno asombro es una excepción y no seré yo quien juzgue la totalidad de la obra de una autora por un libro. La próxima vez será la vencida.

Reseña en Clásico desorden

[Ana | The Phoenix Flight · Rating 4 out of 5]

Este foi o último livro de Pearl S. Buck, que partiu antes de conseguir rever o texto, ou fazer potenciais alterações. O manuscrito esteve perdido até 2013, 40 anos após a sua morte.

Dizem que somos o produto dos nossos genes com o meio que nos rodeia, as nossas experiências, mas para quem nasce com uma curiosidade insaciável e uma sede de saber, talvez a vida não esteja tão facilitada como poderiamos julgar.

A Eterna Demanda é a história de um jovem que procura o seu lugar no mundo, que desbrava caminho à espera de encontrar o seu percurso. Sem dúvida que há certas coisas em que o melhor conselheiro é a experiência e convenhamos que Raldolph começa cedo a juntá-la, mas isso não significa necessariamente uma maior facilidade em encontrar o seu chamamento.

Como sempre, um excelente livro da Pearl S. Buck, apesar de achar que fica um pouco aquém dos outros livros que já li da autora.

Deixo a ressalva de que a única ligação à China são duas personagens que cruzam o caminho da personagem principal, portanto, a capa acaba por não ter ligação com a história.

[Lisa · Rating 1 out of 5]

I loved The Good Earth, but this book was insufferable. I know I read an unedited proof, but never have I wished for a main character, who is supposed to be a good guy, to be killed off to save the book from itself before. How awful was it? I chose to chat with the guy next to me on a nine hour flight about his pet snake rather than read this book. That bad.

[Althea Ann · Rating 2 out of 5]

I loved 'The Good Earth,' when I was a kid. For some reason I never really pursued her other novels - one of those 'always meant to, but never got around to it' things.

So - I was quite excited to get this from Goodreads' First Reads program. (Thank You!)

Unfortunately, this is not a good book.
The introduction (written by Buck's son and literary executor) makes it clear that he's aware of that. I got that feeling that,after having paid to retrieve the manuscript, which was apparently stolen from the dying Buck's bedside, or something, it was going to be published no matter what. And after all, she is a famous, Nobel-Prize-winning author, and it's good to have it available for literary completeness.

Reading this book is like listening to a well-meaning, good-hearted, but hopelessly behind-the-times elderly person ramble on. Although it was probably written in the early 1970's (Buck passed away in 1973), the 'feeling' and concerns of the book are more what I'd think of as coming from the 1940's. And - it really lacks plot structure.

It's the story of Randolph - or "Rann," who's a child prodigy/genius. But - his supposed genius IQ doesn't really inform the story in any way, which is odd. A huge chunk of the beginning of the book is devoted to his being in the womb, and being an infant - which, I suppose, gives us an insight into Pearl Buck's ideas about child development, but is extremely boring.

We move on, following Rann through life.
At an early age, his father dies, leaving him with a tragic background.

He gets molested by one of his professors, which is an opportunity for Buck to give us her rather peculiar ideas about gay people. (The ideas in this section are strikingly outdated to any modern reader).

Then he moves on to have a relationship where he gets taken advantage of by a wealthy older widow.

Then he moves on, and falls in love with a young half-Chinese woman. Buck was a huge activist for the rights of mixed-race individuals, but again, her efforts here to describe the plight of this woman and others like her is: first - overblown to a nuclear degree, and second - again, feels way out of touch with the decade that she was writing in. The events of the story don't really work, either in the way that I suspect she intended them to, or in any other way.

Then, the book ends, just sort of randomly, leaving the reader with the feeling of having been presented with a string of unrelated events, rather than a crafted story.

I'll really have to read something else by Buck.

[Sherilyn · Rating 3 out of 5]

It's so unfortunate that Pearl Buck was not able to finish editing this book. I would love to see what it would have become. As it is, I was captivated by this story of a child prodigy nurtured well by loving parents who desired for him to wonder eternally and saw him also as an eternal wonder. Unfortunately, by the time I got to the last 25 pages, my interest dropped right off. I simply did not care how it ended. I skimmed through them to be true to my having read the book, but the end was even worse than I could have imagined. It was a grave disappointment as Pearl Buck is a favorite author of mine. It saddens me to think it may have been a disappointment to her as well for it to have been published in its present form. I can't imagine her being satisfied with this.

I've given this book 3 stars because the majority of the book was enjoyable, but I couldn't recommend it.

[Sonya · Rating 4 out of 5]

خانم "پرل اس باك" نويسنده ي آمريكايي،نخستين زن آمريكايي است كه موفق به دريافت جايزه ي نوبل ادبيات شده است. وي مادر شش فرزند خوانده بوده و تا آخر عمر بيش از چهل رمان، ٢٥٠ داستان كوتاه و اثار ديگر بر جاي گذاشته است، رمان" خاك خوب" وي مشهورترين اثرش مي باشد كه برايش جوايز زيادي به ارمغان اورده است.
رمان پيش رو "پرسشهاي بي پايان" آخرين اثر اين بانو مي باشدكه چهل سال بعد مرگش پيدا سده و توسط يكي از پسرخوانده هايش به چاپ رسيده است.
اين رمان ماجراي زندگي پسري با استعداد فوق العاده و هوش سرشار مي باشد، انساني كه ازدرون رحم مادر آگاهي در او شكل گرفته و در سه سالگي خواندن را ياد مي گيرد، با بزرگ شدن رن اين سوال برايش پيش مي آيد كه وظيفه و ماموريت او در زمين چيست؟ و فردي با اين همه استعداد چه بايد بكند؟ اين كتاب توصيف افكار و تجربيات اين پسر خارق العاده مي باشد.

[Dorothy · Rating 5 out of 5]

Finally published after 40 years, this last book by award-winning author Pearl Buck (The Good Earth) is well-written. It is a study of Rann, who is extremely intellectually gifted, and how these gifts affect his life and relationships. I was drawn in from the first page.

[Victor Carson · Rating 4 out of 5]

I have read four of Pearl Buck’s most famous novels: The Good Earth, Sons, Pavilion of Women, and Peony: A Novel of China. I was very interested to learn, therefore, that another previously unknown novel, Eternal Wonder was being published, with a forward by one of the author’s adopted sons, Edgar Walsh. Pearl Buck died about 40 years ago in 1973 at age 80. Her son himself is now about 75 years old. According to Edgar, a handwritten manuscript was found in 2013, together with a typed, slightly revised draft of the book, in a storage locker in Texas. How the manuscript left the author’s possession and who stored that manuscript in Texas is not fully known, although the author’s life was chaotic at its end, when she was under the control of people who were looting her estate. Edgar states, however, that he lived in the author’s home for about 25 years, recognizes her handwriting, and is sure that the novel is genuine, although virtually unedited at the time of Pearl Buck’s death. He and the publishers completed the editing of the book and released it this year, 2013, although Edgar is sure that the author would have made many changes to the first draft had she lived.

I found the book interesting but quite different from the author’s early, best-known novels. Pearl Buck wrote a total of 43 novels. Since I have not read the author’s later novels, I can’t say if this novel is similar to the later novels. It is noteworthy, however, that Eternal Wonder is set primarily in the United States, although some sections are set in London and Paris and in Korea. Also, the book is set in roughly the 1950s and early 1960s. The novel is not exactly autobiographical, since the main character is a young man, but the story closely follows the birth, education, and early writing career of an author, whose first novel concerns a family in Korea during the years leading up to the Korean War and the division of Korea into North and South. Also, I found certain sections to be didactic, that is, written to make a statement about certain moral and political questions. The author also seemed uncharacteristically prissy and moralistic dealing with sexual matters.

A few quotations may illustrate the differences in style and content.

The mindset of an author is already forming at the time of his own father’s death: But now and then a man is born who is more than adaptive. He is creative. He may be a problem to himself, but he solves his problems through his imagination. Once his problems are solved, his mind is free to create. And the more he creates, the more free he is. . . . Of course imagination is the beginning of creation. Without imagination there can be no creation. But I’m not sure that explains art. Perhaps art is the crystallization of emotion. . . . Why did he stay here in this little town, a dot upon the map, his life buried in books, when reality waited for him everywhere in the world? Time enough for books when he grew too old to wander!

A very strong reaction, at age 15, to a homosexual incident with a teacher: He had been wounded, he had been insulted, his body violated— and he had lost the friend in whom he had believed with all his heart and soul. Moreover— and this shocked him to new knowledge of himself— his body, while he slept, had physically responded to the stimulation. He was angry with himself, too. Of course he could not continue now with college. What if Sharpe wanted to explain, apologize, try to establish some sort of relationship again? He, himself, was too embarrassed by his own response to even think of it.

An heterosexual affair with an older woman in England is both too intense and, then, too juvenile: “How quickly you learn! Oh, darling—is this wicked of me? But some woman must teach you, darling—and why not I? Eh, Rann? Why not I? You’re a man—your body a man’s body—so tall, so strong. Haven’t you—known it? Or has your head been so full of your books—” . . . Every experience is the same—it can never be repeated.” . . . Lady Mary needed a male body to stimulate and satisfy her own need. He was young, physically he was in the full fresh vigor of his sexual manhood. Into that narrow passage of her body his strong thrust excited, exalted, and satisfied her. That was all he was to her, an instrument of gratification.

The development of the author continues: His world was still not in himself. Or else, he was only a small single world, however composite, in a world of other worlds, and his undying sense of curiosity and wonder—that powerful inner force that impelled him to every adventure—made him a part of every other world. . . . Books he would always learn from, for people, great people, put the best of themselves into books. Books were a distillation of people. But people would be his teachers, and people were not in schoolrooms. People were everywhere. . . . As it was, it was a human life: birth and childhood, a woman and a man in marriage, children—one dead, one alive. Then death splitting a life in half, and now what was life for this human being except work?

The germination of the first novel. How similar to the germination of The Good Earth?: Soon after the old man began to speak in his imagination, Rann carefully wrote down everything he said. He reported every conversation exactly as he heard it, each detail in the long life of the old Korean. Page after page he wrote, night after night, until he saw in his imagination the old man as he lay dying, his two sons standing by his bed, and Rann wrote what he saw and heard. After this night the old man never came upon his imagination again, and Rann felt somehow satisfied in his knowledge of Korea, his thirst quenched for the first time in his life that he could remember.

The didactic kickers: The more intelligent and civilized members of human society, on the other hand, are using birth-control methods in their effort to control population growth and, so, are slowly breeding themselves out of existence or at least into what is already a serious minority. . . . Perhaps only the racially mixed person can understand the inborn tragedy of so being. . . . No, my dear one, my children would be racially mixed and therefore, more for me than for them— for I could not bear their pain from separation— they must never exist.

I enjoyed Eternal Wonder and recommend it to readers who know Pearl Buck’s other novels. The book is an interesting study of the formation of an author, perhaps of the formation of Pearl Buck herself. The author’s age altered her vision substantially, however, and at age 80 she is no longer the innocent observer of the 1930s. She had an addenda in writing this book and the result is closer to that of an essay than to that of a novel. In fairness, Pearl Buck also put money where she put her words. The novel recommends support for the mixed-race children we Americans have fathered during our military actions and the author provided substantial monetary support to this cause for many years. Given our newer wars, since Korea and Vietnam, we will need to give new attention to this cause.

[Maede · Rating 2 out of 5]

چهل سال بعد از مرگ باک نویسنده ی آمریکایی برنده جایزه نوبل، این کتاب به طرز عجیبی پیدا و چاپ می شود. هرچند که با خواندن مقدمه ای که پسرش بر کتاب نوشته متوجه می شوید که حتی خودشان هم از ایراد های بسیار این کتاب آگاهند.
من کتاب دیگری ای از این نویسنده سرشناس نخوندم و متاسفانه با این کتاب شروع کردم.
کتاب چیزی نیست جز کلیشه. یا کلیشه های موجود یا کلیشه هایی که خودش خلق می کند. مردان دانشمند و دنیا دیده و پولداری که همه به طرز عجیبی در راه "رن" پسر نابغه ای قرار می گیرند و همگی شیفته چین و آسیا هستند و حرف های زیادی برای گفتن دارند. بارها و بارها تکرار جملات در مورد اهمیت شناخت ادم ها هم کمکی به پر محتوا کردن کتاب نمی کند.
حتما شخصیت رن و نبوغش باید شخصیت جذابی را ایجاد می کرد ولی در عوض پسر گمشده ای را می بینید که دنیا را می گردد و تجربیاتی کسب می کند و چون ارتباطی با این کاراکتر برقرار نکردید برایتان اهمیتی ندارد. عشق یا مشکلاتش تحت تاثیر قرارم نداد و تاکید بیش از حد روی نبوغش اوضاع را بدتر کرد.
کتاب روی هم رفته داستان معمولی ای بود از زندگی یک پسر متفاوت.

[Carol Brill · Rating 3 out of 5]

I think this is my first Pearl S. Buck book. It was more accessible than I expected, not a book I would have picked if I didn't have to read for a book club, but a quick, easy read. It starts when the main character, Rannie/Rann is in the womb, which didn't immediately engage me but intrigued me enough to keep turning pages. Rann is a very curious genius always wondering and eager to learn--hence, The Eternal Wonder

[Barbara · Rating 2 out of 5]

This book is so awful that I am embarrassed for Pearl Buck. The plot hangs on so many coincidences and improbabilities, the writing is not subtle or skilled or lyrical or evocative, nothing. The characters are black or white, so in-your-face with their defining characteristic that there is no suspense or wondering left. The over-reaction of Stephanie in the closing chapters in absolutely unbelievable, perhaps the only surprise in the book, though it is without foundation. I only stuck to the end of the book as a tribute to the author.

[Sara · Rating 2 out of 5]

Well, I just can't imagine what all the 4 stars are for. Everywhere this kid goes someone is laying out silk pajamas for him, he is a genus, and quite wealthy people are also eager to give their money to him. None of this makes him interesting, he has no real internal/external struggles that make the character someone interesting. The people that enter his life are entertaining but the book itself is boring and dated in funny ways. Don't get me wrong, I love stories that have endured the ages, but that ones hits many forgettable cliches. The way the mother reacts to a gay guy treating him as a pitiful unnatural phenomenon, or the (spoiler ahead-->) half Chinese girl who refuses to marry him or have kids because life has been so cruel to her being biracial and rich, well educated, and well traveled. In fact she offs herself. It was beyond ridiculous, and I pressed on with this book because I really like Pearl S. Buck, not the book. Don't waste your time. Didn't I mention the relentless sexism? Yeah that too.
The only reason I gave 2 stars instead of one is I like Ms. Bucks writing style.

[David Kinchen · Rating 4 out of 5]

BOOK REVIEW: 'The Eternal Wonder': Pearl Buck's Last Novel Manuscript Discovered in Texas Storage Unit

REVIEWED BY DAVID M. KINCHEN
Acclaimed novelist Pearl S. Buck was the first American woman to win the Nobel Prize in Literature in 1938 for her body of work. She had previously won the Pulitzer Prize for her most famous novel, "The Good Earth," published in 1931 and a bestseller that year and in 1932 and made into a movie in 1937.

Pearl Comfort Sydenstricker was born on June 26, 1892 in Hillsboro, West Virginia to missionary parents on home leave from China. She spent many years in turbulent China, returning the States for her undergraduate and master's degrees. Buck was a prolific writer, but the discovery of her final book, "The Eternal Wonder" (Open Road Media, quality paperback, 304 pages, also available as an eBook, $16.99) sounds like an incident from a novel; the manuscript was discovered in 2012 -- almost 40 years after her death in 1973 -- in a storage unit in Fort Worth, Texas. Link to the NPR story on the discovery: http://www.npr.org/2013/05/25/1863188...

Fans of Pearl Buck will immediately detect many of the themes she wrote about in novels and nonfiction books in this coming-of-age tale of a child prodigy, Randolph (Rann) Colfax, born to an Ohio professor and his wife. Rann displays his love of reading and delight in "The Eternal Wonder" of the world as a toddler. He also discovers the wonders of the female of the species at an early age, and experiences a sexual awakening with an older (she's in her 30s) English widow named Lady Mary. But the love of his life is a Chinese-Caucasian woman named Stephanie Kung whom he meets during his stay in Paris.

Stephanie lives with her Chinese father, who sells Asian art and artifacts -- but only to people who meet his exacting standards of taste. Lacking an heir to carry on his name, Kung tries to convince two unwilling people -- Rann and Stephanie -- to marry. I won't reveal the reason why Stephanie Kung doesn't want to marry a man she clearly loves -- it's a spoiler.

Rann Colfax's experiences reminded me of those of the central figures in F. Scott Fitzgerald's "The Curious Case of Benjamin Button" (minus the aging- in-reverse McGuffin) and Winston Groom's "Forrest Gump" -- both turned into movies.

Rann experiences literary fame and its fallout after writing a best-selling book about Korea, following his service in the Army. This undoubtedly reflects the instant fame experienced by Buck after the publication of "The Good Earth." At the time Buck was married to her publisher, Richard Walsh, and the description of what happens to Rann Colfax obviously draws upon what happened to Buck, especially how she deals with the news media.

Buck was well known in humanitarian circles for seeking justice for mixed-race -- particularly Asian-Caucasian -- children. This is reflected in her wonderful portrayal of Stephanie Kung, whose American mother deserted her when she was six years old.

If you haven't read any Pearl Buck novels in a long time -- or ever -- "The Eternal Wonder" will be an excellent introduction to the much honored writer.


Publisher's website: www.openroadmedia.com

[Sofia Teixeira · Rating 4 out of 5]

Para muitos, Pearl S. Buck é uma das melhores escritoras do universo literário. Ganhou um Pulitzer, um Nobel da Literatura e a sua obra é vasta. The Eternal Wonder, ou A Eterna Demanda, é um livro que só agora é publicado pois o seu manuscrito andou perdido após a sua morte. Publicar uma obra não terminada/revista pela própria autora é sempre um risco, mas claro que os manuscritos perdidos e reencontrados décadas depois trazem sempre com eles uma aura de mistério e fascínio - seria imperdoável não dá-lo a conhecer ao público. O risco que isto acarreta é que poderá ser uma versão não final do rumo da história que a autora poderia querer dar, mas só podemos especular.

Estamos perante um livro que desde o início nos introduz ao mundo por uma perspectiva muito particular, a de Rann (Randolph). Começamos desde que este está no útero da sua mãe, com uma escrita descritiva magnífica no caminho da descoberta inocente, mas extremamente simples e directa, muito sensitiva, para uma evolução precoce no intelecto do mesmo. A sua inteligência evolui rapidamente, mas a sua sensibilidade na percepção do que o rodeia não acompanha de forma tão expedita. Rann vai crescendo dentro dos seus conceitos muito literais porém, com a ajuda do pai, a compreensão vai chegando. Aos 12 anos está já capaz de ingressar na faculdade, mas achando-o novo demais, o pai decide pegar na família e planear uma viagem pelo mundo. Só que tal nunca acontece. O pai morre, ele sente-se perdido e sem saber como lidar com a mãe, e uma série de acontecimentos fazem com que ele decida então viajar sozinho. É aqui que a verdadeira aventura começa e onde os acontecimentos de precipitam uns a seguir aos outros de forma bastante rápida.

Peço desculpa pelo pequeno spoiler acima, mas tinha de o referir se quero enaltecer a ligação que Rann e o pai tinham e a forma como essa perda acaba por influenciar o seu futuro. Houve algumas atitudes, até por parte da mãe, que me deixaram algo confusa e que vocês poderão constatar ao lerem e ao chegarem à parte em que um certo professor entra na vida de Rann. E tal como aqui, também o fim soa a algo desesperado, uma angústia que desce como um balde de água fria.

Nunca li outras obras de Pearl S. Buck, mas já sobre as mesmas. Talvez esta não seja uma obra prima, mas há muita riqueza nas palavras que são dialogadas e pensadas. As minhas partes favoritas foram, sem dúvida, as de reflexão e introspecção por parte de Rann. A descoberta de si mesmo, a constatação da diferença e do poder de fazer a diferença, conjugados com todas as possíveis inseguranças e incertezas, são tudo aspectos muito bem explorados. Compreendendo, ou não, algumas das opções, é preciso ter em mente que este é então um manuscrito que talvez possa não ter uma versão final, mas que ainda assim revela uma eloquência e uma visão das tradições e das vidas dos povos abordados muito clara e sentida. Sou da opinião que vale a pena ler.

[Lynn · Rating 4 out of 5]

"The Eternal Wonder tells the coming-of-age story of Randolph Colfax (Rann for short), an extraordinarily gifted young man whose search for meaning and purpose leads him to New York, England, Paris, a mission patrolling the DMZ in Korea that will change his life forever—and, ultimately, to love. Rann falls for the beautiful and equally brilliant Stephanie Kung, who lives in Paris with her Chinese father and has no contact with her American mother, who abandoned the family when Stephanie was six years old. Both Rann and Stephanie yearn for a sense of genuine identity. Rann feels plagued by his voracious intellectual curiosity and strives to integrate his life of the mind with his experience in the world. Stephanie feels alienated from society by her mixed heritage and struggles to resolve the culture clash of her existence. Separated for long periods of time, their final reunion leads to a conclusion that even Rann, in all his hard-earned wisdom, could never have imagined. "

"The Eternal Wonder", held so many truths that as the world matures maybe, someday soon, so will all the individuals! I was so pleased to able to obtain a copy of this book. I have always enjoyed Pearl S. Buck's writing ---- and, have sadly missed her intelligence in writing fiction that is "real" and holds so much reality! As much as I relished this book, it wasn't quite as good as a lot of older ones (but then who knows if she had truly finished this one). It also appeared to be way too short. Parts just seemed unfinished plus the ending wasn't what I desired. So good to find a long lost old friend that makes you really use your ability to think in reading her books! I will always miss her! But this book is well worth the read!

[Mindy · Rating 1 out of 5]

Major disappointment. I'm a huge Pearl Buck fan---read The Good Earth multiple times. It is very surprising that The Eternal Wonder is her last book---reads more like a first attempt at a novel---one written at age 14 when the writer is just cutting her writing teeth, lacking life experience to add depth.

The characters were flat--Rann, Stephanie,the mother, the professor--none of them had the subtle, layered paint strokes of Buck's earlier works that let you see right into the depths of characters. Whereas she accomplished that in other works almost like the spare brush strokes of Chinese artwork, this book was just clunky and mechanical. I found myself rolling my eyes a few times as Rann and his mother went on and on about his "specialness". Alright, already! Show us, don't tell us!

Also, Buck's obvious homophobia was a disappointment.

[Hope Barker · Rating 1 out of 5]

Just finished this book for tomorrow's book club. I hardly know what to say. I am stunned by how bad it is. Granted, the introduction by Pearl Buck's son warns us that it has "rough spots" and "is far from perfect" but that is putting it mildly. The whole style of writing and plot is just weird. It begins with the main character still in utero and marches us through the life of a very unrealistic person as he encounters very unrealistic situations with unrealistic outcomes. It's like a fantasy, yet it's not supposed to be a fantasy. It's didactic and arrogant, espousing very strange ideas about homosexuality, morality, "race mixing", sex, love, art, beauty and well, you get the idea...,

[Fátima Linhares · Rating 4 out of 5]

Mais uma vez Pearl S. Buck traz um livro com uma escrita envolvente e fluída. Conta-nos a demanda de um homem desde que nasceu, sobredotado e com uma mente bastante desenvolvida, até à idade adulta e a sua eterna demanda.

[Stella_bee · Rating 3 out of 5]

Baru kali ini aku kasih 3* untuk karya seorang Pearl S Buck😲😲
Biasa membaca karya beliau, paling sedikit kukasih 4*, bahkan trilogy Bumi yang Subur mendapat 5* solid dariku..
Hmmm entahlah bagiku The Eternal Wonder ini sama sekali tidak seperti karya2 Pearl S Buck yang pernah kubaca sebelumnya. Karya ini bagiku sangat minim emosi jadi tidak ada keterikatan ketika membacanya; tidak ada pula detail-detail kaya yang biasa tertuang dalam karya beliau.
Karakter-karakternya pun seperti hanya 2 dimensi, dingin, berjarak dan tidak berkembang.. Aku pun butuh 5 hari untuk menyelesaikannya karena kedistract dengan buku lain, bahkan hampir dnf🙊

[Angela Schaffer · Rating 4 out of 5]

By popular request, I have reactivated my long-unused goodreads account. You're welcome all! I thus begin my reviews with Pearl S. Buck's recently discovered novel. Just in case you didn't know, The Good Earth is my favorite novel. Therefore, I was excited to learn of this recently discovered treasure. This novel was lost for forty years and recently edited and posthumously released with the assistance of Buck's adopted son. This novels follows the life of Randolph (Rann) Colfax, an exceptionally talented and gifted young man from his moments in his mother's womb to his maturity into a man -- finding love and knowing heartache. Along the way, though, Rann never truly discovers the meaning of life -- and it is thus life itself which remains the eternal wonder. Buck's representatives did a wonderful job of editing this lost manuscript in her absence. Although I did not enjoy this quite as much as The Good Earth, I still found this to be a worth-while read. Buck's language is, as always, compelling. I particularly enjoyed the recommendation to "take each day as a separate page, to be read carefully, savoring all the details."

[Judith · Rating 2 out of 5]

Pearl Buck is one of my favorite authors so when I read that a manuscript of hers had recently surfaced some 40 years after her death, I was naturally curious. The book is readable and I don't question its authenticity because I have no expertise in that area. However, I will never think of this book in the same category as "The Good Earth" or "Fighting Angel", if indeed I think of the book at all.

And for me, that says it all: Pearl Buck's books are unforgettable and this one is not. It is a small story of a boy genius and how he thrives very successfully in the world. That's about it.

[Peggy · Rating 3 out of 5]

In the foreword, mention is made that this book could have been improved with some editing and re-writing and I agree. The beginning was too long, the ending was too short. It is classic Buck though and well worth reading.

I felt a connection between Rann's personality and Buck herself--she was a woman of great intelligence. Her explanation of Rann's compulsion to write was revealing. This book takes you on a journey to several countries and Buck provides superb descriptions of the cities Rann visits--you feel you were there with him.

[Esther Bos · Rating 1 out of 5]

This book was a disappointment to me. Published posthumously, Pearl Buck hadn't revised and fully prepared this novel for publishing. Hopefully, she would have done it differently. After reading and re-reading and enjoying The Good Earth years after it was published, I was hoping to get another good book from this author, but it didn't happen. The characters were not compelling and the story line was weak.

Pearl Buck's son wrote up the story of her life and of the discovery of this nearly finished novel. This little essay was interesting.

[Mafalda Gomes · Rating 5 out of 5]

jesus fucking christ please read it its so worth it, at least for us intellectuals who live in our own heads, we can relate so much with this

[Stacy culler · Rating 5 out of 5]

First, the no spoiler part:

This book is about the joy of learning, the loneliness of genius, the power of curiosity (wonder) and the need to create. It is about coming of age intellectually, spiritually and sexually. It is about learning how to move about in a world where one does not always fit, it is about family bonds, legacy, and cultural heritage.

Rann/Rannie/Randolph is born extraordinarily gifted, and his parents recognize this quickly. His father believes that his intellect must be nurtured and given the freedom to grow. From an early age, they customize his educational opportunities and give Rann the tools to qexplore his own self-directed interests. His mother fears that Rann’s intellect will keep keep him lonely…she wants him to have a friend, relationships, peers. Together, the parents decide that this loneliness will be inevitable for Rann, but that his potential cannot be wasted in order to keep him in socially expected age categories, or traditional educational settings. They teach him to seek knowledge independently, and his father founds a school based on this philosophy, accepting and retaining only students who possess both intellectual ability and a passion to discover.

Thus begins the story of Rann’s life…

I loved this book from beginning to end as my heart ached for Rann to find himself, find his purpose, and find happiness.

Side note:
The manuscript for this book was stolen, lost, rediscovered, sold to the author’s family and published after her death.

I haven’t read anything else by Pearl Buck to know how this book differs from what she herself approved for publication. (I need to now), but I am not sure how I feel in general about posthumously released works from artists/authors. What if the author didn’t release it while living because they didn’t like it? Didn’t think it represented them, or represented their best work? And their family then publishes it to make a buck? How is that fair to the author’s legacy? None of us can control from beyond the grave, I guess.

SO MANY SPOILERS AHEAD!! STOP NOW IF YOU HAVEN’T READ THE BOOK YET!

Rann has difficulty making friends, but has a brief acquaintance with Chris, a boy a few years older than him, of inferior intellect and a less than nurturing home life. Chris becomes a touch point throughout Rann’s early life. While Rann is feeding his intellect, Chris’s life takes a more practical trajectory, following his own childhood aspirations of learning the mechanic trade and taking over his Father’s garage. As Rann comes of age, he realizes that although Chris is kind, they have nothing in common.

Rann’s father is interested in the intersection of creativity and Scientific understanding, and he passes this interest on to Rann. He dies when Rann is only 12, and his dying wish to Rann is:

“Never give up wonder. Wonder (is) the beginning of all knowledge.”

To Rann’s mother, his dying wish is,
“Give our son freedom.”

Upon his early enrollment to college at the age of 13, Rann is frustrated by the slow pace of the coursework, and he is seeking inspiration. He finds a mentor in his psychology professor, Dr. Sharpe, who stresses creativity as the key to intellectual freedom. He encourages Rann to contemplate the intersection of creativity and rational thought. He says:

“Of course imagination is the beginning of creation. Without imagination there can be no creation. But I am not sure that explains art. Perhaps art is the crystallization of emotion.”
And
“…science is creativity as much as art is-the two go together-must go together, for each is basic and indispensable to human progress.”

Rann begins to question formalized learning structures:
“What was the use of learning about the past, and of studying what other people had done? Galileo, for example, had been everything-musician, painter,scientist. But has he learned all this in school or had he learned by himself and for himself?”
He longs to acquire knowledge firsthand…through travel and experiences.

As Professor Sharpe takes a personal interest in the now 15-year old Rann, Rann is confused by the feelings and attraction he has for Sharpe. Is this what it feels like to have a friend? Or are these feelings sexual in nature? His inexperience and youth leaves him powerless to decide. For his part, Sharpe grooms Rann, interspersing the intellectual stimulation and offers of friendship that Rann craves with personal questions, physical contact, and relational demands that gradually escalate.

Sharpe longs to be a creator, but is not. He seems to want to create Rann, even being the person to name him, early in their interactions, shortening his given name of Randolph, and discarding his family name of Rannie to Rann, even telling him how to spell it. He seduces him with sensual experiences: wine, bath salts, silk pajamas, a warm fire. He represents all that Rann has lost in his father…a curious mind that is focused on Rann, and an experience with the larger world. Rann is stimulated intellectually by his relationship with Sharpe and begins to refine his desire to create in the idea that he wishes to create books based on his own life experiences. When Sharpe attempts to move their relationship to the sexual realm, Rann rebuffs him strongly and Sharpe accuses him of being childish and unsophisticated. Rann feels confused, betrayed, ashamed and guilty after the encounter. He has difficulty reconciling his admiration for Sharpe with his horrible actions.

Rann decides to pack his bags, leave school and explore the world. Before he leaves, he confides in his mother about Sharpe, and she counsels him to pity and forgive Sharpe. He goes to New York, but takes his distrust of school and teachers with him, and decides to explore the world and be self taught rather than enrolling in school. “No one was to be trusted. He would live alone and learn.”

As he explores New York, he observes racial divisions and notes that, “The blacks were different from all the others. He felt it, he knew it. With his orderly and comprehending mind, he knew it.” Whether he realizes it or not, he is living out the guidance of both his father and Sharpe, both of whom encouraged first-hand experience as necessary for intellectual growth and food for the creative process. He flits about New York like the hummingbird from Sharpe’s lecture…taking little tastes of anything that interests him in the New York landscape.

“He did not miss friends now, for he never had them, his thoughts always far beyond theirs.”

Sexuality seems to be a bit of a mystery to Rann for much of the book. He questions his father as a child and is given an honest, if scientific answer. He explores body parts with a young girl in first grade, and is fascinated on a cognitive level, but not particularly interested. Sex is presented by his family as a male/female event, but he is introduced to the idea of homosexuality by Sharpe and by a street urchin in New York. He seems to be interested in, confused about and fearful of homosexuality, and his mother presents homosexuality to him as unnatural and unfulfilling.

Upon meeting his maternal grandfather for the first time, Rann is given this advice: “Never plan, please. Just do the next thing that happens. You can always go your way.”

And then his grandfather tells him, “I see dead people,” tells him he will inherit the house eventually, and sends him off to explore the world, with “money waiting for him at each capital city.”

So the 16 year old is sent to explore the world, alone, again. And again, he is taken in by an adult, this time a beautiful older woman, Lady Mary who lures him by offering him a beautiful experience of travel, and a stay in a castle. He is quite enjoying the experience, and then the woman offers him a kiss, and has a sexual affair with him. He stays until he begins to feel used.

He travels abroad, to London then Paris. He decides to learn about life through people. He collects knowledge by observing and conversing with people. In Paris he meets an girl of mixed Chinese descent at a cafe. Her name is Stephanie. He feels an instant connection to her, and is invited to stay with her in her Grandfather’s home.

“He lived intensely in the moment, in every day as it came, without planning or preparation.”

On Americans:
“Are not Americans something of everything?”
“Historically, yes, individually, no. Each of us belongs, beyond family, to his own region, his own state, and to the conglomerate, the nation. We are a new people, but we have our own country.”

In Stephanie, he finds his counterpart. “It was the first time in his life that he really wished to explain himself to someone else.” (Isn’t this what it is like when you meet the one you will eventually fall in love with? Suddenly you want them to know you, and you want to know them. But they are young and unsure of their paths. Stephanie does not wish to marry, ever.

Advice from Rann’s father:
“The world is made up of many different kinds of human beings, son, and while you, yourself, and only you, can be responsible for the kind of person you are to be, you must, however, get to know as many different types as you can, for these are the basic components of life as we know it today. Because there are thieves does not mean that you must steal. Because there are cannibals and prostitutes does not mean it’s alright for you to eat human flesh or to sell your own body, but the fact that it is not right for you need not stop you from knowing those who do or from trying to understand why they do so. You will be many times hurt, for you have a deep appreciation of beauty and order in all that you do and people, alas, are not always beautiful and orderly. They will not always be what you would have them to be, so be content if at least they can at least be honest with you and you can learn to understand them as they are. You must hold yourself apart and be the kind of person you want to be.”

MY THOUGHTS:
I immediately loved Rann for all the ways that he reminds me of Bryan…the curiosity, the precocious nature of his intellect, the early experience of not fitting in with his peers.

When Rann’s father says, “In fact, he will never be as lonely as he will be with other people.” And his mother replies, “Oh, why do you say that? You break my heart!” My mother’s heart breaks with her! I remember having this fear when Bryan was little and wasn’t able to find a peer. He was so sociable, but other children are didn’t understand his adult way of interacting, and he couldn’t relate to their play as “fun.” It was a great relief to me that he found ways to forge friendships on other levels. As Rann’s mom expressed, “He must be able to live with other people, enjoying other people even if they can’t be on his level.” A mother knows that a person cannot completely thrive in a purely academic existence! A person needs relationship, connection!

I was infuriated with Dr. Sharpe for taking advantage of Rann’s loneliness and betraying his trust. He could have been a beautiful father figure for Rann, but instead, he confused and damaged him! I am also unsure why the author chose to have Rann continue to have Dr. Sharpe in Rann’s life, particularly after his betrayal of Rann. I could understand this if Sharpe truly was a father to Rann, but I felt that Sharpe had nothing left to offer and should have been avoided after this. Perhaps this was a lack of understanding on Pearl Bucks part, viewing Sharpe as a homosexual instead of a pedophile. When Sharpe tells Rann, “I reacted to you as any man in my position would have…” I want to kill him!! No! An honorable man would have reacted to 15 year old Rann as a boy in need of a father figure, guidance and mentorship…not as an opportunity to take advantage of an innocent! I love that Rann tells him he needs to remember the facts of the situation. And even at the end, Sharpe is STILL trying to use Rann to get published! Sharpe is a slimeball.

As this is a coming of age book, Rann spends a significant amount of time separating from his mother. Her intentions towards him are honorable, and she attempts, against her nature, to allow him Freedom to explore. Rann pushes again against any attempt she makes to direct his actions, but returns to her in times of need. This is a beautiful and accurate portrayal of the child/parent relationship. At one point, he says, “He knew he would continue as he was even if she disapproved, but it was good to have her approval.” As children become adults, they have to make their own choices, but they still appreciate the approval of their parents. He also says of her at one point, “She was a dear person, but he no longer needed her.” This is as it should be…a successfully launched adult should no longer need his mother…but I would hope that occasionally my children will still “want” me, and still know that I am a touchpoint that they can return to at any time.

“The distance between them was composed of time. She belonged to his past and even to his present but his future was as yet his own.”

Pg. 100 Rand goes to New York and the landlord mentions a tree that nobody planted that grows out of the sidewalk…is this homage to “A Tree Grows in Brooklyn?”

Of his racial observations in New York: what is Pearl Buck saying about Blacks? Racist? I feel that she would have revised this prior to publication if she had had a say.

I am jealous of Rann’s solitary experience in New York…and throughout the book as he explores the world. what a luxury to pursue whatever one is interested in, not tied down to compromising with others or bogged down by many practical responsibilities, such as money. He says, “…that’s my way of learning: first I see, then I wonder, then I know.”

By the second time that Rann is approached sexually by an adult, I am asking myself “why nobody is protecting this child?” Even though Rann is portrayed as willing and less conflicted about his relationship with Lady Mary, it is still a violation of his innocence! Just because he physically looks like a man, and has the intelligence of a genius, does not mean that he has the emotional capacity to handle sex as an adult. And he does, indeed, begin to feel used and lonely in his experience with Mary. He proclaims that his body is his own and leaves. I remember this experience myself, as a young teen, needing to anounce, “I am not YOURS! I am my OWN person!” You can see the damage later in his relationships with Stephanie. “The months with Lady Mary, a bondage exciting at first and ending in repulsion, had put a shadow…

When Rann learns that Stephanie she has a diverse heritage, between her ethnicity and her life experience, he asks her, “But what do you feel you are, inside of yourself?” I think this is a very polite way of asking this question that honors the individual’s ability to define themselves if they so choose. This book had to be written, at the latest, in the early 70’s, but this type of question is still posed constantly to those of “mixed race,” in sometimes harsher phrasing. (But what ARE you?!)

“My father loves his gardens,” (Stephanie) said. “Not flowers…only trees and rocks and water…flowers are for pots and vases in the house.” (This is the kind of garden I would want for myself! I love rocks and trees and water!)

I also relate to Rann’s tendency to want to hole up and be an introvert at first…living in books and houses even in a new place, before venturing out to explore firsthand.

I was devastated by Stephanie’s decision not to have children because of her pain in being racially mixed, and even more devastated that this decision prevented her from marrying Rann! They loved each other, and their marriage would provide peace and happiness to her dying Grandfather, regardless of how patriarchal his thought processes were! Her insistence that Rann needed to have many children based on her ideas about eugenics and world population…ugh!! And then she DIES???! Nooooooooo!!! I am devastated!!!

Rann seems to finally be deciding who he wants to be at the end of the book, “To take each day as a separate page, to be read carefully, savoring all the details, this is best for me, I think.”

Side note:
I haven’t read anything else by Pearl Buck to know how this book differs from what she herself approved for publication. (I need to now), but I am not sure how I feel in general about posthumously released works from artists/authors. What if the author didn’t release it while living because they didn’t like it? Didn’t think it represented them, or represented their best work? And their family then publishes it to make a buck? How is that fair to the author’s legacy? None of us can control from beyond the grave, I guess.

[Katherine 黄爱芬 · Rating 3 out of 5]

Setelah nyaris 2 thn gak baca buku beliau, baru saya baca buku beliau lagi gara-gara liat di book sale tapi ragu utk membelinya. Untung keputusan saya benar utk tidak membeli buku ini.

Buku ini boleh dibilang seperti biografi Randolph "Rann" Colfax alias Rannie sbg pemeran utamanya. Dari dia masih fetus hingga ending cerita yg mengenaskan, walau bukan Rann secara langsung yg sial. Terlahir sbg org jenius, Rann selalu mempertanyakan segala sesuatu termasuk seksualitasnya. Setelah kematian ayah kandungnya, Rann berpetualang utk mencari jati dirinya hingga menyeberangi benua dimana dia bertemu dgn Lady Mary yg memperkenalkan padanya ttg seks dan Stephanie Kung, gadis blasteran yg punya pola pikir unik.

Miss Kung ini tidak mau menikah tetapi ayahnya sangat mengharapkan Rann. Saat itu Rann masih muda dan juga tidak terpikir utk menikah. Sekembalinya dari Perang Korea dan menjadi pengarang terkenal, Rann bertemu kembali dgn Miss Kung, apakah cinta mereka akan bersemi kembali?

Sayang sekali padahal isu rasial pd diri Miss Kung ini bisa dikaji lebih jauh ketimbang dgn finalisasi nyelekit di novel ini. Saya punya beberapa teman yg berdarah campuran Tionghoa dan tahu bhw hidup mereka tidaklah nyaman, mereka tidak diterima secara tulus di kedua tempat darah mereka bercampur. Sejak era Orba yg mendiskriminasi keturunan Tionghoa, membuat mereka semakin eksklusif dan celakanya kebanyakan menjadi kurang bisa toleran juga. Seandainya Miss Kung lebih membuka cakrawala pandangannya mungkin tragedi itu tidak akan terjadi. Rasa bersalah yg tidak ditelaah ini malah berbuah celaka.

Novel author biasanya sarat akan sejarah dan psikologisnya, tetapi novel ini jelas bukan tipe saya. Jujur saja, saya belum bisa menerima klimaks cerita di novel ini sebab budaya tsb bukan budaya Cina dan keturunannya. Mungkin kalau Miss Kung ini keturunan Jepang atau Korea saya bisa lebih mafhum walau tetap aja masih sulit diterima nalar saya.

[Swathi · Rating 5 out of 5]

The first five-star in a long time I could hand out without a thought.

"He knows I won't marry a Chinese- ever!"
"No?"
"No!"
"Why not"
"Because there's too much in me that's not Chinese. And yet there's too much Chinese in me to marry a Frenchman- or any white man. So- I won't marry"

The message behind this quote is only one of the many revelations I had reading it. Exploring the genius, wisdom, and the wise; exploring social construct, fame, and humanity, this book truly brought out my eternal wonder. I picked it up having no idea what to expect and began simply by enjoying the brilliant writing and concepts. But now finishing it, I know that my outlook on a lot of things has changed. And for anyone else sitting in an emotional, intellectual, spiritual, or just reader's RUT, trust me when I say this is the book to read.

[Cheryl · Rating 4 out of 5]

I thoroughly enjoyed this story. While it wasn't a book like any other by Pearl Buck, it was such a different approach to begin from the perspective of the fetus in the womb and proceed and build a story based on the brilliance of the mind of Rann, the central character. His need to learn drives his quest for constant new knowledge. His imagination is endless and his experiences with people and relationships build on his knowledge base. When my book club discussed it this week, people's opinions ranged from loving the book to hating it. One member didn't like the main character so his story was not as interesting to her. Several people didn't like the ending. I found the characters attempt to deal with life from an intellectual perspective very interesting.

[Mona · Rating 2 out of 5]

کتاب شروع متفاوتی دارد ،نگریستن جهان از چشم نوزادی خاص .فصل یک بهتر از فصل دو است .بااین حال کتاب در حد یک کتاب از پرفروش های نیویورک تایمز است .پرل اس باک پیشتر به خاطر کتاب "خاک خوب"مشهور شده و برنده‌ی جایزه‌ی نوبل ادبیات نیز هست .اجمالا بخواهم بگویم "به دل ننشست ."