oh. my. zeal.
listen, i came straight to goodreads after flipping through the last page of The Ways We Betray and having my mouth drop open in complete shock because the book was over. i didn't want it to end. i hoped it wouldn't end, even though this book wasn't my favorite out of the series for a few reasons, which i'll get into in a second.
i'd like to start of this review by explicitly stating that this series is one, if not the, best reverse harem series i've ever read. Hannaford Prep will always hold an extremely special place in my heart, having been the first true dark RH book i had ever read with a complete morally-grey badass heroine.
but this. freaking. series.
it's the constant attention to detail. the way Hadley curves the love stories around the little things rather than large, boasting displays of romance. the characters are so real, so heartbreakingly beautiful, so fervent in their love and so free in their passion that you, as the reader, can't help but root for them. the continous theme of family, of love, of communication between partners, of accepting your mistakes and working towards them together because they are weaker apart - all of that and more make this series and this book oh-so-close to my soul. these moments, which by no means did Hadley spare, are what made this and her previous books so special.
nonetheless, I would like to touch base on a few other points. certain situations were not written, from a personal standpoint, they should've been written, and it especially put me off reading near the end of the novel. that, however, is a personal preference, and so is my slight aversion to Hadley's writing style. i'm fairly certain that this series is written some time in the late 19th to early 20th century, and that yes, people spoke differently in comparison to modern times. i think what made the writing so off-putting - especially in this book - was how at some points it felt like the scene was written from someone born in the 21st century and vice versa. Hadley has had this problem a few times before in some of her earlier novels but i think this in combination with some purple prose is the true driving force behind me not being able to truly connect with this particular novel. my perspective might change after a reread, so i'll make sure to update this review in case my opinion of this novel does change.
there were also a few grammatical and general editorial errors i caught that i usually don't see in most of Hadley's novels. perhaps they were simply mistakes on her editor's part or issues they simply didn't see, but whatever reason it might be, there are not nearly enough errors to take away from the beauty of Hadley's writing.
i also wish that more happened in this novel. i won't go into detail so i can keep this review as spoiler-free as possible, but given the title and the general direction we know the novels are pushing towards, i was expecting this story to be more eventful. the last book and a half or so were fast-paced and full to the brim of either constant action or constant stress, which added to the building tension. while those were long, i truly felt the length of the novel here, yet i was too invested in the characters to pull away even though the plot seemed slightly monotonous. i also wish there were more interactions in the political and high-society setting. knowing that Nari and Ela have learnt how to navigate social situations, developed the ability to think quickly on their feet, and/or say exactly the right thing to put a person at ease, i would've liked to see more of this ability displayed as the novel went on.
reminder: this is all my personal preference. as a person who is extremely impatient and can barely keep herself from pressing the forward button in action movies to see what happens next, you can imagine how difficult it is for me to read a 600+ page novel, written beautifully and eloquently, filled with sweet, happy, almost domestic scenes with a tinge of darkness? my poor, cynical little heart knows the other shoe is about to drop, but Hadley's overextended use of holding out the tension for so long made it lose a large amount of its effect.
perhaps this was Hadley's intention. much of the way this book is set up is as "the calm before the storm." things are described as wonderful in comparison to their last initiate year, everything is optimistic - then something or someone else falls apart around them and they grow even closer to take more comfort in each others' arms as the lines between their relationships blur. perhaps Hadley is using this book to really show main and secondary character growth, not that she doesn't do enough of it in her "regular" novels. perhaps Hadley is playing around with pacing and suspense and is looking for her sweet spot. perhaps, it's all three of these things and more.
it's also important to remember the contradiction from this novel to the last one. it's almost a complete 180 degree turn - from so hectic that some readers felt that it was too much to very slow-moving and bittersweet. i think it's something to keep in mind when reading, but i'd also love to hear your thoughts and if you have any other reasons to believe Hadley chose to write The Ways We Betray this way. feel free to message me or comment.
all of these things aside, i still fucking loved this book. zeal's growth as a god? scrumptious. the way anver slowly is pulling out of his toxic cycle of self-hate and stopping his fear of rejection and unwantedness? pulled at my heartstrings and really elevated his character, in my point of view. maela's growth and ascension as a female in an almost entirely male-dominated society that treats women like they were to be used and thrown away in all aspects? probably one of my favorite parts of the book, along with her taking a stand on many issues that don't affect her but do mess with those she considers family. ela's acceptance and continued, complete control over his "monster"? hell. yes. give me it all, baby.
nari wasn't really the true star of this novel for me, at least not like the last book, even though i'm a cisgender heterosexual female who would be the first in line to date that woman if she was real (come on, don't lie to me, I think we all would.) i can't exactly pinpoint who at this exact moment is my favorite - evidenced by my slight fangirling in the paragraph above - but what i can say is that i have a feeling this book is going to be the most controversial out of the four, simply because of it's "filler-like" plot movement and tension.
if you've made it this far, thank you for taking the time to read this review. tt means a lot to me that you were interested enough in my casual opinion of this story to continue reading. love you all, please stay safe, happy, and healthy.