So for the first time in my life, I decided to go into a book completely blind. None of my GR friends had read this and I didn’t read any other reviews. This book just goes to show-for me- EXACTLY why I do not and will not ever do it again.
*THIS REVIEW WILL CONTAIN MAJOR SPOILERS! DO NOT READ IT IF YOU DONT WANT THE BOOK TO BE SPOILED!!*
This book started off ok for me, I didn’t feel any real connection to the characters. The only thing I could feel between them was lust. Especially with the H’s CONSTANT pushing away. There’s like maybe two chapters in the book where he gives in to his feelings before he’s right back to pushing away until the end. Besides that though I was thinking this was going to be an ok maybe four star read. Boy was I wrong.
So, we know that the H had his heart completely broken by Anna, the most amazing beautiful woman in the world, sarcasm intended. We know this from the multiple flashbacks of how much he loved her and the experiences they had together. She cheated on him and he found out when he was proposing. While I didn’t like these, I put up with them because it was obviously in the past.
Well, because the H is a big baby he is ruined for all other women except for one night stands. He meets the h, they go back and forth for a while and like I said before I only felt lust between them I could’ve put up with that if the H would’ve just stopped pushing her away and being a major asshole. The H’s niece was the only character I really liked in this story. We also get the meet the h’s bff, Bree who is the h’s ex-husbands stepsister. She has a disease and is very sick. We get a lot of scenes where the h is checking up on her, and I truly felt bad for her and she was becoming a character I was rooting for. She was always rooting the h to find love and be patient with the H.
Anyways, after a really long time the H gives into his feelings, declares his love for the h, wants her to move in, and tells her he wants to have babies with her. It was all well and good until the h gets a phone call in the middle of the night after the baby convo I believe. Bree had taken a turn for the worst and is in the hospital on machines. Well our amazing H, is obviously going to be the most amazing boyfriend ever and drive her to the hospital without a second thought. The h is so upset that her bff didn’t get to meet the H. Well she needn’t have worried!! They’ve already met. It turns out Bree, is Anna!
I don’t know if anybody else who read this expected this, but I 100% did not see that coming. I guess props to the authors for that, but it was NOT a happy surprise.
Back to the story though, the H is shocked that HIS Anna is dying. He had no idea, and is very regretful. After this shock, he drops the h off, tells her he’s going home and somehow winds up at the hospital holding Anna’s hand absolutely distraught. Other things happen, and of course as you would expect, the H pushes the h away AGAIN. After Bree/Anna (Brianna!) dies, he cries at the loss of the girl he LOVES! He gives a speech at her funeral, which tbh I didn’t even read bc I was pissed. When they go home, he drops the h off at her house and goes back to his house to “think”. What does he need to think about?? No clue.
I pretty much skimmed the rest of the book, but I got all the “good” parts in. I will tell you right now, the rest of the book revolves around Anna. Even the epilogue, just wait for what I have to say about that. The H and h both come to the realization that he will always love Anna and as the H so eloquently puts it, before the h she was the love of his life. Wonderful. Just what I wanted to read. Anna’s dad brings the h and H both a letter from Anna. We never get to read the h’s (I think. I might have skimmed over that part if we did get to read it) but of course we get to read the H’s. turns out she never cheated on him!! Isn’t that amazing! Of course this makes the H feel incredibly guilty about “loving” the h. How could he do that to her? Love someone else while she dies loving him?? We also learn that Bree/Anna is the reason the h and H met! She just knew they would be prefect together.
More stupid shit happens in the H’s head, when suddenly he sees a rainbow and knows it’s “his beautiful girl”. Of course she’s giving her blessing to love the girl he already supposedly loved and he doesn’t feel guilty anymore! Awesome!!
Immediately after the conflict we get the “epilogue”. They are married and have a baby. And yep. You guessed it, their son is named after Anna. Unfortunately it was a boy, so they had to go with her last name Benson, but how heartwarming is it that the h and H name their baby after the H’s ex! I know it really warmed my heart...not! The final nail in my one star coffin was the last line of the book, which was in the H’s POV “I hope Anna was looking down right now and laughing her ass off” because her bird that he kept said something funny. The same bird who always says “Anna’s home”. Wonderful way to end a love story.
This is the longest review I’ve ever written, but I seriously had to get this off my chest. I should’ve know something like this would happen with these authors bc I’ve heard of them doing something similar before, but I guess I didn’t learn my lesson. I can rest assured now that the lesson has definitely been learned. Always read reviews before reading a book!
IMO, the h is 100000% second best to the ex. I feel like if she hadn’t died, and had recovered the H would’ve broken up with the h to be with her.
SAFETY INFO: if you still want to read this after the major ex drama, this wasn’t that unsafe to me before the ex drama. Obviously the H was hung up on the ex and pushed the h away throughout the whole book. On one occasion, he decides to fuck her out of his system, and invites a woman over to his place. Of course the h forgot her phone there, so she walks in while they were drinking wine and the H is a major ass to her. I think the woman left while they were arguing, but I’m pretty sure nothing happened between them. The h later goes on a date with a sweet and funny man who I liked better in his short appearance in the book than I did the H, nothing happens with him. The H ruins her date the first time they go out, and the second time she does it bc she knows it will make the H mad.
Other than that stuff, no scenes with ow/om besides kissing and dirty talk in flashbacks between Anna and the H.