Now that he’s at TUA, Yaguchi’s got it made. He’s reached the school of his dreams and the thing he’s been striving for all this time. Like a dog chasing its tail, however, now that he’s caught it, Yaguchi is at a loss and, because he’s a human being with existential dread, this is a problem that’s going to take more than a bag of Kibbles ‘n Bits to fix.
You train hard. You practice. You hone your skills and your ability to the utmost. You scale to the top of Mount Everest, the pinnacle of the climbing world. At that precise moment of triumph, the clouds part and there is another, higher mountain right next to it and none of your equipment will avail you any more. That is the hell that is Yaguchi’s university experience.
For many, many people who think they’ve achieved a lot in life, arriving at university can be a harsh slap of reality that lets them know that other people have achieved things too and, in some cases, better things. Your accomplishments no longer exist in the small pond they once did and comparing them to others is the path of madness.
And the freedom that university offers, especially an art one like TUA, is a lot to reckon with, doubly so when the goal that drove all of the previous art that Yaguchi did is no longer in front of him, and his profs are telling the class that what they did to get here means essentially nothing.
There’s a very interesting celebration of failure in this volume, as the book makes a strong case that those who fail the entrance exams wind up better prepared for the shift to university courses and the argument is well presented. Many of us will fail at countless things in our lives and learning from that is just as important as the successes. Our hero has struggled, sure, but in the end he got what he wanted and where that leaves him is the crux of this.
Yaguchi’s problem in the moment is that he can’t actually recognize that his current failures are also part of this, entrance exam or not, and he winds up with one of the most uncomfortably realistic portrayals of imposter syndrome ever put forth in a manga.
This is easily the most depressing this series has ever been. It is a lot and it is a little too much, which is generally the point, but doesn’t make for the most enjoyable read (not that books should be buoyant joy constantly, but this one pours it on thick). It’s hard - this is great at conveying this feeling, but possibly too good at its job, which is heck of a thing to ding a story for, but this won’t be for everybody for that reason.
If anything, it feels like a soft reboot for the core concept right now as new students are introduced (the muscular girl who messed with Yaguchi by accident during his exam returns and she’s probably the best new character) and old ones slowly fade away. There’s zero Yuka in this volume and that’s a crying shame.
Still, we do get some tagalongs in the form of Takahashi, whose continued unintended attachment to Yaguchi is pretty funny, and the return of Maki (plus her sister showing up out of nowhere), who gets the most hopeful scene with Yaguchi and also uses it to push herself in a whole new direction.
It’s wrong to pick on a book for being too effective a portrait of despair, but this needs a lot more to leaven this to be more especially tolerable. For some this will be relatable, for others it could be full-on triggering. What comic relief is attempted happens to come from the worst character the series has introduced yet.
The “first-year” the guys meet winds up being the drunken prof trope from every other generic manga and while she has her moments, they also give her the ‘likes to grope the women’ trope at the same time. It’s just the biggest sour note since it introduces cliches into a series that had so far been refreshingly unreliant on them.
Her and many of the new characters being so intolerable or inscrutable just compounds poor Yaguchi’s misery. And the reader’s. Partially, this strikes excruciatingly close to home and this isn’t a period of my life I’m ever especially excited to ever revisit and that is completely affecting my reaction to what is, I assure you, a strong portrayal of what it’s going for.
4 actual stars, but, like life, this is complicated - for most of you, this is likely 4 stars and please be aware of that potentiality. For me, a storyline that just goes from unhappiness to unhappiness with nary a glimmer of hope and a really unwelcome turn to the cliché in its characters? Not my most enjoyable time with this story.