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The Burden of Happiness
Sarah Leeds is haunted by horrible events in her past that have left her frozen in time when it comes to connecting with other people. She would rather go through life with minimal interaction than learn to open up and trust others; keeping her emotional scars in the front of her mind so she won’t get hurt. When a visit back to her hometown doesn’t bring the answers or closure she’s yearned for, she wonders if she’ll ever be made whole again.
While in town Sarah meets Kate, a professor at the local community college. The instant connection she feels with Kate confuses and scares her, but it also gives her a glimpse of a life she wished she could have. Will Sarah finally find it within herself to conquer her fears and pursue the life she’s always wanted but thought she could never have?
Content warning: This novel deals with alcoholism and references a suicide, an abortion and a rape. They all occur off-page and are only mentioned as backstory with no graphic detail.
While in town Sarah meets Kate, a professor at the local community college. The instant connection she feels with Kate confuses and scares her, but it also gives her a glimpse of a life she wished she could have. Will Sarah finally find it within herself to conquer her fears and pursue the life she’s always wanted but thought she could never have?
Content warning: This novel deals with alcoholism and references a suicide, an abortion and a rape. They all occur off-page and are only mentioned as backstory with no graphic detail.
212 pages, Kindle Edition
First published January 22, 2021
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L. Dreamer
10 books105 followersLuc Dreamer is a transman, dad, and full-time wanderer. He writes queer stories with heart and soul.
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December 24, 2021
4.5 stars. I really like Dreamer’s writing style, I always connect to his characters and this book is such an excellent example. I was glued to this book, there are so many emotions, it’s beautiful. I have to give a warning though, this is not an easy read and will probably not be for everyone. Before reading, I recommend to have a look at the content warnings in the blurb.
Sarah is returning to the town she grew up in, the town that holds such bad memories, the memories that influenced her life to the point that she’s living but not alive. Due to what happened in her past, she’s depressed, anxious and barely functioning. She dreads going back home, but upon arrival she meets Kate and Sarah decides to take a chance. This turns out to be the beginning of a slow healing process.
The book is written in the first person from the POV of Sarah, and quite a lot of time is taken to describe Sarah’s feelings and emotional state at the beginning of the book. I was absolutely wrecked, feeling Sarah’s pain and anxiety and feeling like you’ve hit rock bottom. This was done so very well, hard as it was, and made Sarah’s road to recovery all the more special.
The structure of the book does not follow that of a standard romance, but to me this approach is what made it so believable. In fact, I would not just classify this as a romance, but also as a path to healing and self-acceptance. Asking for help can be hard, and healing does not happen overnight. This is all addressed very carefully.
Kate is sweet, but also very realistic in her approach to Sarah, due to some baggage of her own. Prominent secondary characters that I loved are Sarah’s brother and his family, showing their unconditional love and support for Sarah.
As hard as this book was at times, it did not leave me feeling depressed. It’s hopeful to see somebody come back from such a dark place and heal and find love. So, check the content warnings, get yourself a box of tissues and start this beautiful journey!
I received an ARC from the author in exchange for an honest review.
Sarah is returning to the town she grew up in, the town that holds such bad memories, the memories that influenced her life to the point that she’s living but not alive. Due to what happened in her past, she’s depressed, anxious and barely functioning. She dreads going back home, but upon arrival she meets Kate and Sarah decides to take a chance. This turns out to be the beginning of a slow healing process.
The book is written in the first person from the POV of Sarah, and quite a lot of time is taken to describe Sarah’s feelings and emotional state at the beginning of the book. I was absolutely wrecked, feeling Sarah’s pain and anxiety and feeling like you’ve hit rock bottom. This was done so very well, hard as it was, and made Sarah’s road to recovery all the more special.
The structure of the book does not follow that of a standard romance, but to me this approach is what made it so believable. In fact, I would not just classify this as a romance, but also as a path to healing and self-acceptance. Asking for help can be hard, and healing does not happen overnight. This is all addressed very carefully.
Kate is sweet, but also very realistic in her approach to Sarah, due to some baggage of her own. Prominent secondary characters that I loved are Sarah’s brother and his family, showing their unconditional love and support for Sarah.
As hard as this book was at times, it did not leave me feeling depressed. It’s hopeful to see somebody come back from such a dark place and heal and find love. So, check the content warnings, get yourself a box of tissues and start this beautiful journey!
I received an ARC from the author in exchange for an honest review.
February 6, 2021
It wasn’t an easy read, but it was an easy 5 stars.
Sarah Leeds (32) is battling a traumatic experience that has haunted her for more than half her life. She was barely living - drowning in guilt and shame, afraid of letting other people in. When her mother dies, she has to go back to where her life was ruined in order to help make arrangements for the funeral. She then meets Kate Copeland (38), a history professor who also has had an emotionally-abusive relationship in the past. Both women are not ready for a relationship, but they explore their attraction and start a friendship.
This book is not purely romance, as it also focused on Sarah’s road to healing. Initially, we are not told of what actually happened to Sarah, but there is already that inkling, and that sense of dread that builds and grows stronger as you read on. It’s never easy to tackle such issues in books, but I definitely say that Luci Dreamer handled it the best way that any writer can.
The Burden of Happiness is so emotionally-charged that you have to be mentally ready to take it on. There will be lines and scenes that will break your heart and your spirit, and you’d be left wondering why there are such horrors in the world.
As a psychologist by profession, I appreciate the care and precaution Luci Dreamer took in writing this book. I also appreciate the significance that she put on seeking professional help and in encouraging self-care. Sarah went on a journey of self-discovery and healing by her own choice. Her family and Kate were factors, she ultimately did it for herself. I liked how Sarah confronted her perpetrator. A lot of people have this mistaken notion that you need to forgive those who have harmed you in order to heal. Of course, this is not true, and I appreciate how it was tackled in the book.
Kate’s role is also significant. She teaches us that we can’t rely on other people to heal us, that it’s not our partner’s responsibility to make us whole. Throughout the book, she encourages Sarah, but she doesn’t allow herself to be abused. Their relationship took the necessary time to build.
The supporting characters such as Cole, Sarah’s brother, and his family are a joy to read. They definitely help in alleviating the emotional burden. They were wonderful sources of strength, love, and understanding.
This is an amazing book. It truly is painful to read because of the circumstances, but it will leave the readers with so much hope and wonder. It is written with so much care and love; it is truly worthy if your time if you are brave enough to read it. :)
Sarah Leeds (32) is battling a traumatic experience that has haunted her for more than half her life. She was barely living - drowning in guilt and shame, afraid of letting other people in. When her mother dies, she has to go back to where her life was ruined in order to help make arrangements for the funeral. She then meets Kate Copeland (38), a history professor who also has had an emotionally-abusive relationship in the past. Both women are not ready for a relationship, but they explore their attraction and start a friendship.
This book is not purely romance, as it also focused on Sarah’s road to healing. Initially, we are not told of what actually happened to Sarah, but there is already that inkling, and that sense of dread that builds and grows stronger as you read on. It’s never easy to tackle such issues in books, but I definitely say that Luci Dreamer handled it the best way that any writer can.
The Burden of Happiness is so emotionally-charged that you have to be mentally ready to take it on. There will be lines and scenes that will break your heart and your spirit, and you’d be left wondering why there are such horrors in the world.
As a psychologist by profession, I appreciate the care and precaution Luci Dreamer took in writing this book. I also appreciate the significance that she put on seeking professional help and in encouraging self-care. Sarah went on a journey of self-discovery and healing by her own choice. Her family and Kate were factors, she ultimately did it for herself. I liked how Sarah confronted her perpetrator. A lot of people have this mistaken notion that you need to forgive those who have harmed you in order to heal. Of course, this is not true, and I appreciate how it was tackled in the book.
Kate’s role is also significant. She teaches us that we can’t rely on other people to heal us, that it’s not our partner’s responsibility to make us whole. Throughout the book, she encourages Sarah, but she doesn’t allow herself to be abused. Their relationship took the necessary time to build.
The supporting characters such as Cole, Sarah’s brother, and his family are a joy to read. They definitely help in alleviating the emotional burden. They were wonderful sources of strength, love, and understanding.
This is an amazing book. It truly is painful to read because of the circumstances, but it will leave the readers with so much hope and wonder. It is written with so much care and love; it is truly worthy if your time if you are brave enough to read it. :)
April 10, 2022
The Burden of Happiness. I will be ruminating about the implications of this book title and the book itself for a long time coming.
Sarah Leeds suffered ongoing trauma growing up with an alcoholic mother. One day at age seventeen Sarah’s life implodes. She decides to leave her family home and ends up living on the streets of San Francisco. Sarah cuts all ties with her family and protects herself over the next fifteen years by never allowing anyone close. No friends, no coworkers, no one.
I will mention here that this book is a slow boil romance with an ending that will make your heart happy. This novel is also about traumatization to the innermost core of Sarah. It is with L. Dreamer’s deft writing that I could feel the intensity of the trauma without feeling any of the pain. I cannot determine how he accomplished this Herculean feat. He has my upmost respect for this.
We bare witness to the evolution of Sarah as she works very hard to open up her life and work towards an adult relationship. As women, we mostly know up close and personal the first half of this story. It could be our sister, best friend or ourselves. It is a blessing to be given a complete story with a happy ending.
L. Dreamer took on the mother of all traumas and delivered a beautiful, thoughtful and enlightened novel. This needs to be nominated for a Lambda Literary Award.
5⭐️
Sarah Leeds suffered ongoing trauma growing up with an alcoholic mother. One day at age seventeen Sarah’s life implodes. She decides to leave her family home and ends up living on the streets of San Francisco. Sarah cuts all ties with her family and protects herself over the next fifteen years by never allowing anyone close. No friends, no coworkers, no one.
I will mention here that this book is a slow boil romance with an ending that will make your heart happy. This novel is also about traumatization to the innermost core of Sarah. It is with L. Dreamer’s deft writing that I could feel the intensity of the trauma without feeling any of the pain. I cannot determine how he accomplished this Herculean feat. He has my upmost respect for this.
We bare witness to the evolution of Sarah as she works very hard to open up her life and work towards an adult relationship. As women, we mostly know up close and personal the first half of this story. It could be our sister, best friend or ourselves. It is a blessing to be given a complete story with a happy ending.
L. Dreamer took on the mother of all traumas and delivered a beautiful, thoughtful and enlightened novel. This needs to be nominated for a Lambda Literary Award.
5⭐️
March 11, 2022
I won’t lie, this is not an easy read. This is not a book to be taken lightly. If anyone other than Dreamer had written it, I would have dropped it like a hot charcoal at the blurb and TWs. But I didn’t.
At the beginning, Sarah is morose, trapped in the past and unable to trust anyone. The incident that caused this? Yeah, just as bad as you thought. Then Kate happens.
After Kate, we see Sarah joking with her brother for the first time. After Kate, Sarah sets events into motion that allow her to free herself from the shackles of the past.
This isn’t a romance. It’s much more than that. It isn’t about finding your “true love” but about being your true self. It’s the story of empowerment and taking control over your own life. It’s about the irredeemable and how they have to live in their own hell. It’s about how salvation comes in the forms of great sex, an understanding therapist, or a sassy gay friend who will “honey!!” the awful, awkward truth from you and make it disappear with fabulousness.
This book is about how we are all flawed and awkward and make mistakes but still manage to keep going. The first half of this book was really damn hard, but just keep going. The last half is worth it.
My rating: all of the stars. Can I do that?
I received this book from the author and am voluntarily leaving an honest review.
At the beginning, Sarah is morose, trapped in the past and unable to trust anyone. The incident that caused this? Yeah, just as bad as you thought. Then Kate happens.
After Kate, we see Sarah joking with her brother for the first time. After Kate, Sarah sets events into motion that allow her to free herself from the shackles of the past.
This isn’t a romance. It’s much more than that. It isn’t about finding your “true love” but about being your true self. It’s the story of empowerment and taking control over your own life. It’s about the irredeemable and how they have to live in their own hell. It’s about how salvation comes in the forms of great sex, an understanding therapist, or a sassy gay friend who will “honey!!” the awful, awkward truth from you and make it disappear with fabulousness.
This book is about how we are all flawed and awkward and make mistakes but still manage to keep going. The first half of this book was really damn hard, but just keep going. The last half is worth it.
My rating: all of the stars. Can I do that?
I received this book from the author and am voluntarily leaving an honest review.
January 30, 2021
A great but no easy read. I loved the way the writer handled difficult and very emotional subjects in this book. She managed to inspire hope in my heart for both main characters. In the end the book left me with a very positive feeling. Recommend, but read the blurb for the trigger warnings if you think you might need it.
May 25, 2022
This book is by no means an easy read, so if you are looking for a light romance skip this book. But be aware by skipping this you are missing out on a wonderful book.
Sarah has been dealing, or really avoiding her past for 15 odd years. She has lived her life almost like a hermit, she fled her hometown, found herself in San Francisco and all she has been doing is going to work and going home to eat her frozen dinners. That is until her brother calls her to inform her that their mother has passed. She goes back to her hometown where she is forced to deal with her past, finds that she can connect with her brother and his family and maybe even be happy herself and have a life she never thought she’d have. She finds something with Kate, something neither of them was expecting or wanting, let alone ready for. How they navigate their relationship and especially how Sarah deals with her past is beautiful and heartbreaking at the same time.
Written in first person POV from Sarah’s perspective you really get a sense of how much pain she has had and still is going through. There is this sense of helplessness, but also something hopeful, it’s very intriguing. I must put a trigger warning in here somewhere, there is talk about rape and abortion, as well as alcoholism and suicide.
The topics, the mental health part of this book, it’s really heavy, but beautifully written. I connected well with both Sarah and Kate. Even the secondary characters add so much to the story. I am all for light reads, with lots of fun, but this book has it all; it’s serious, there is great character development, it has some fun and banter, well developed characters with a good backstory all tied together by a wonderful writing style.
I just really connected with this book, it was hard to put it down because sometimes a person has to work...
Sarah has been dealing, or really avoiding her past for 15 odd years. She has lived her life almost like a hermit, she fled her hometown, found herself in San Francisco and all she has been doing is going to work and going home to eat her frozen dinners. That is until her brother calls her to inform her that their mother has passed. She goes back to her hometown where she is forced to deal with her past, finds that she can connect with her brother and his family and maybe even be happy herself and have a life she never thought she’d have. She finds something with Kate, something neither of them was expecting or wanting, let alone ready for. How they navigate their relationship and especially how Sarah deals with her past is beautiful and heartbreaking at the same time.
Written in first person POV from Sarah’s perspective you really get a sense of how much pain she has had and still is going through. There is this sense of helplessness, but also something hopeful, it’s very intriguing. I must put a trigger warning in here somewhere, there is talk about rape and abortion, as well as alcoholism and suicide.
The topics, the mental health part of this book, it’s really heavy, but beautifully written. I connected well with both Sarah and Kate. Even the secondary characters add so much to the story. I am all for light reads, with lots of fun, but this book has it all; it’s serious, there is great character development, it has some fun and banter, well developed characters with a good backstory all tied together by a wonderful writing style.
I just really connected with this book, it was hard to put it down because sometimes a person has to work...
April 13, 2022
Really well written story about abuse and how it effects the rest of your life. Excellent well rounded characters - highly recommended.
March 25, 2022
Heart wrenchingly great book by Luc. Trigger warnings are fade to black but it’s a major part of Sarah’s story.
After reading great reviews by friends, I'm glad I finally made time to read this.
After reading great reviews by friends, I'm glad I finally made time to read this.
March 21, 2024
I am giving this the 4th star for the topic this story covered. I also love it when Author's note shares something about the reasoning or emotions on what they write.
This story is about a woman taking everyday to just live sans all other things that make living worthy to be livable. Her struggles are expressed and her road to her salvation. Story is deep, can be uncomfortable, emotional and a restitution of sort to whom she should have been.
This story is about a woman taking everyday to just live sans all other things that make living worthy to be livable. Her struggles are expressed and her road to her salvation. Story is deep, can be uncomfortable, emotional and a restitution of sort to whom she should have been.
December 1, 2023
I feel like L Dreamer is under appreciated as an author. Since reading Heart of Gold I’ve been captivated by the author’s writing style. Most of his characters are so in-depth with a solid foundation and the details to the stories are so sharp like watch scenes unfold in HD.
The Burden of Happiness is heavy. It requires hefty emotional manoeuvring and so far so good I’ve come out the other side of the book. I enjoyed the belonging I felt after spending time with the characters. It’s a fulfilling read for sure.
The Burden of Happiness is heavy. It requires hefty emotional manoeuvring and so far so good I’ve come out the other side of the book. I enjoyed the belonging I felt after spending time with the characters. It’s a fulfilling read for sure.
April 10, 2021
4.25 stars.
This was a wonderful book! It wasn't a light read, but it was sensitively and well written and I enjoyed it a lot. I liked the writing style and all the characters, especially Sarah, Kate and Sarah's brother Cole. It was great to see Sarah heal from her traumatic experiences throughout the story.
You might want to check out the trigger warnings before reading.
This was a wonderful book! It wasn't a light read, but it was sensitively and well written and I enjoyed it a lot. I liked the writing style and all the characters, especially Sarah, Kate and Sarah's brother Cole. It was great to see Sarah heal from her traumatic experiences throughout the story.
You might want to check out the trigger warnings before reading.
March 25, 2022
Intense, Sarah is on a journey from bleak to blooming and I loved to follow her.
trigger warning: very intense, rape.
trigger warning: very intense, rape.
January 21, 2021
Wow just wow. I know that Luci needed more than 10 years writing this book and I’m so happy she did. This book is something she can be very proud of and I think it will also help so many people. Just like it helped me.
I love how Luci approached several tough topics and how Sarah grew during the book to the person she was at the end. The process she went through was described in the most wonderful and gentle way. Learning to trust when you never learned growing up, opening up to others and taking a risk. Personally I know how hard those things are. So I felt deeply connected to Sarah and went through all the emotions with her. And boy how much I cried during this book. It‘s not that I never cry during a book, I actually do it a lot, but it’s not often I get that emotional. Also how the relationship developed just in the right pace depending all the baggage both had. In the end I had a big smile on my face and my heart was full.
I also learned once again a few things that are very important when you’re dealing with trauma from your past. First it’s so important to forgive yourself to be able to heal and accept the person you are. Because it’s ourselves that keep us stuck in the past. And second you cannot be whole and happy FOR someone but WITH someone.
Thank you once more Luci for sharing this story. I highly recommend it and hope getting to read more stories like this in the future. Even if the topics are tough, it’s important to talk about them. 🙏
I received an advance reader copy from the author and voluntarily leaving a rewiev.
I love how Luci approached several tough topics and how Sarah grew during the book to the person she was at the end. The process she went through was described in the most wonderful and gentle way. Learning to trust when you never learned growing up, opening up to others and taking a risk. Personally I know how hard those things are. So I felt deeply connected to Sarah and went through all the emotions with her. And boy how much I cried during this book. It‘s not that I never cry during a book, I actually do it a lot, but it’s not often I get that emotional. Also how the relationship developed just in the right pace depending all the baggage both had. In the end I had a big smile on my face and my heart was full.
I also learned once again a few things that are very important when you’re dealing with trauma from your past. First it’s so important to forgive yourself to be able to heal and accept the person you are. Because it’s ourselves that keep us stuck in the past. And second you cannot be whole and happy FOR someone but WITH someone.
Thank you once more Luci for sharing this story. I highly recommend it and hope getting to read more stories like this in the future. Even if the topics are tough, it’s important to talk about them. 🙏
I received an advance reader copy from the author and voluntarily leaving a rewiev.
May 3, 2022
This is not an easy read; make sure to read the CW at the blurb before reading this book.
I’d say this book is about the long healing process, I only wish we could have some of Kate’s POV. I love how Dreamer handles this sensitive topic, and I feel like I’m holding Sarah and Kate's hands and walking through this journey.
I’d say this book is about the long healing process, I only wish we could have some of Kate’s POV. I love how Dreamer handles this sensitive topic, and I feel like I’m holding Sarah and Kate's hands and walking through this journey.
January 30, 2021
2021 seems to have started with a lot of really good, but really heavy books, and with how 2020 went, that makes sense. And this is one of the best so far.
The content warnings aren't to be taken lightly in this book, while nothing happens on page- it isn't any secret and all are brought up several times so definitely be ready for that as you read this.
This book explores the life of Sarah, who after a very traumatic adolescence, had been in a form of arrested development where she doesn't experience much of life besides work. But when her mother dies, she returns to her hometown and faces her demons of her past, and at the same time meets Kate and begins to grow.
This book isnt a standard romance, I felt like it was more an in depth and compelling look into the character of Sarah, and how trauma can haunt you for years. And at the same time it is a very sweet romance of how broken people can come together and begin to heal.
At the end Dreamer writes that this book took her over 10 years to write, and you can definitely see it displayed here. Not just in the heavy content, but the quality too. I'm gonna need some fluff back in my library after this. 5/5
The content warnings aren't to be taken lightly in this book, while nothing happens on page- it isn't any secret and all are brought up several times so definitely be ready for that as you read this.
This book explores the life of Sarah, who after a very traumatic adolescence, had been in a form of arrested development where she doesn't experience much of life besides work. But when her mother dies, she returns to her hometown and faces her demons of her past, and at the same time meets Kate and begins to grow.
This book isnt a standard romance, I felt like it was more an in depth and compelling look into the character of Sarah, and how trauma can haunt you for years. And at the same time it is a very sweet romance of how broken people can come together and begin to heal.
At the end Dreamer writes that this book took her over 10 years to write, and you can definitely see it displayed here. Not just in the heavy content, but the quality too. I'm gonna need some fluff back in my library after this. 5/5
November 17, 2021
Deep and meaningful story
Sarah can’t escape past trauma which has stopped her living her life. When Sarah meets Kate upon returning to her hometown she is confused and scared by the connection they share. Spending time with Kate gives Sarah and opportunity to complete all she has missed out on and to experience the life she has always wanted to have but her emotions and demons threaten to hold her back.
I loved this story. It was deep, meaningful, and packed with lots of emotional moments that gave me pause for thought. Sarah has had quite an experience in life, but hints of what had happened to her and the thoughts, feelings, and emotions that experience had provided her with left a lot to be related to. There were many a moment where I was saddened but completely understanding of everything Sarah was going through because it felt familiar.
Everything covered during the story, especially those that were particularly harrowing or traumatic, so at times, the subjects got quite heavy but Luci handled all of the topics with sensitivity and care. Sarah’s character was just so relatable that I felt very moved to have been able to share her story and the moments shared that helped to fully understand why she was making the choices she was.
Sarah’s connection with Kate was lovely. Kate had patience and was understanding. She really wanted to help Sarah and be there for her, whatever happened. The fact that Sarah had so much support from Kate, and her brother Cole was just lovely. The fact that Sarah had to overcome the trauma of the past, learn that things weren’t as black and white as she had perhaps thought, and learn to open up find happiness, really was only helped by Kate and Cole being there.
There were a lot of relatable emotions and feelings in this story that can apply to many situations, so for anyone reading that connection to Sarah will be established easily. I really enjoyed the story and couldn’t put it down, so highly recommend it. For all its darkness, it was truly a beautiful, encouraging, and empowering story.
Sarah can’t escape past trauma which has stopped her living her life. When Sarah meets Kate upon returning to her hometown she is confused and scared by the connection they share. Spending time with Kate gives Sarah and opportunity to complete all she has missed out on and to experience the life she has always wanted to have but her emotions and demons threaten to hold her back.
I loved this story. It was deep, meaningful, and packed with lots of emotional moments that gave me pause for thought. Sarah has had quite an experience in life, but hints of what had happened to her and the thoughts, feelings, and emotions that experience had provided her with left a lot to be related to. There were many a moment where I was saddened but completely understanding of everything Sarah was going through because it felt familiar.
Everything covered during the story, especially those that were particularly harrowing or traumatic, so at times, the subjects got quite heavy but Luci handled all of the topics with sensitivity and care. Sarah’s character was just so relatable that I felt very moved to have been able to share her story and the moments shared that helped to fully understand why she was making the choices she was.
Sarah’s connection with Kate was lovely. Kate had patience and was understanding. She really wanted to help Sarah and be there for her, whatever happened. The fact that Sarah had so much support from Kate, and her brother Cole was just lovely. The fact that Sarah had to overcome the trauma of the past, learn that things weren’t as black and white as she had perhaps thought, and learn to open up find happiness, really was only helped by Kate and Cole being there.
There were a lot of relatable emotions and feelings in this story that can apply to many situations, so for anyone reading that connection to Sarah will be established easily. I really enjoyed the story and couldn’t put it down, so highly recommend it. For all its darkness, it was truly a beautiful, encouraging, and empowering story.
January 16, 2022
Intense and rewarding
A tough book to read as this deals with some difficult issues such as trauma and addiction, but don't let that put you off. Alongside this is a beautiful and tender love story about trust, family, belonging and healing. If you like your stories all warm and fuzzy with no angst this is not the book for you, however if you enjoy well written and nuanced characters, and a journey towards healing, this is a richly rewarding read.
Luc Dreamer has moved into the 'will read anything written by them without reading the blurb' category for me. I look forward to the next book.
A tough book to read as this deals with some difficult issues such as trauma and addiction, but don't let that put you off. Alongside this is a beautiful and tender love story about trust, family, belonging and healing. If you like your stories all warm and fuzzy with no angst this is not the book for you, however if you enjoy well written and nuanced characters, and a journey towards healing, this is a richly rewarding read.
Luc Dreamer has moved into the 'will read anything written by them without reading the blurb' category for me. I look forward to the next book.
January 22, 2021
This is a sensitively written novel about the impact trauma. It is written from the point of view of Sarah, whose life was shattered by a series of events beyond her control. The story follows her search for some degree of closure and an acceptance of herself. The two main characters Sarah and Kate are both believable and likeable and their struggles feel very real. Luci Dreamer finds a delicate balance between sadness and humour, which will keep you turning the pages even in the darkest moments. Although it deals with very serious topics this book avoids the trap of becoming salacious, a “therapy guide” or overly earnest. It is both truthful and poignant, and will resonate with many readers on many levels. I found Luci’s portrayal of the central romantic relationship refreshing, especially their first night together!
This book contains some sublime writing and is clearly written from the author’s heart and soul. The following quote has haunted me since finishing the book:
“It took a long time and a lot of heartache to see that happiness was a burden she just couldn’t bear.”
In general, I am not a fan of narration in the present tense, so I cannot personally give it a 5 star rating, but it probably deserves one!!!!!!
This book contains some sublime writing and is clearly written from the author’s heart and soul. The following quote has haunted me since finishing the book:
“It took a long time and a lot of heartache to see that happiness was a burden she just couldn’t bear.”
In general, I am not a fan of narration in the present tense, so I cannot personally give it a 5 star rating, but it probably deserves one!!!!!!
February 4, 2021
As it states in the disclaimer, this book deals with some very difficult subject matter. Alcoholism, suicide and rape are not topics easily woven into a romance. However, Dreamer does it with real grace. Her tenderly crafted words flow gently onto the page, providing readers with a captivating and compelling read. Even though the backstory is emotional and heavy at times, readers are never left with a sense of oppressiveness. Her tone and style remain both hopeful and engaging, even when the scenes get intense. Cover to cover, this story is well-plotted and well-worded, making it a solid piece of storytelling.
The two lead characters are likable and appealing. They both push the story in compelling ways. Sarah has emotional baggage and Kate has commitment issues, but readers definitely see their potential as a couple. Dreamer breathes possibility into their relationship by instituting solid character development. This makes all the difference in their emotional journey. They are flawed and wounded people, each hurt deeply by past experiences, but they are both able to express themselves candidly and honestly, especially during the important moments. Their feelings aren’t forced or awkward, making their romance realistic and believable.
Final remarks…
I would absolutely recommend this touching and tender romance. Dreamer really shines with this one. The storytelling is rich and honest and the characters are dynamic and compelling. The Burden of Happiness is a complex, emotional tale well worth reading.
Strengths…
Well-written
Well-told
Tender
Touching
Believable
Engaging
The two lead characters are likable and appealing. They both push the story in compelling ways. Sarah has emotional baggage and Kate has commitment issues, but readers definitely see their potential as a couple. Dreamer breathes possibility into their relationship by instituting solid character development. This makes all the difference in their emotional journey. They are flawed and wounded people, each hurt deeply by past experiences, but they are both able to express themselves candidly and honestly, especially during the important moments. Their feelings aren’t forced or awkward, making their romance realistic and believable.
Final remarks…
I would absolutely recommend this touching and tender romance. Dreamer really shines with this one. The storytelling is rich and honest and the characters are dynamic and compelling. The Burden of Happiness is a complex, emotional tale well worth reading.
Strengths…
Well-written
Well-told
Tender
Touching
Believable
Engaging
January 26, 2021
Wow. Dreamer has delivered a hard hitting emotional wrecking ball of a story that vacillates between sweet and traumatic. The romance between Sarah and Kate is so fantastic and perfect, it is only outshined by the wonderful focus on self growth/mental health.
Sarah’s story is one that breaks your heart over and over throughout the story and I just wanted her to find happiness at the expense of all else. I enjoyed following her journey as she struggles and grows, trying to become the person she wants to be. Sarah is a remarkable character and I LOVED everything about her.
Kate is a perfect fit for Sarah and I was really happy to see her set boundaries and stand up for herself when ever she needed to. The open communication between the characters was wonderful and I loved seeing such a healthy relationship portrayed so well for these two. Both characters struggle from their pasts and even though there are many obstacles for them both to overcome I loved the strong connection that stayed true throughout. The physical chemistry between them is so great. The off the charts attraction and sweet romance balanced well with the heavier emotional elements of the story.
This book is quite draining (in a good way). So much trauma and repercussions to sift through, there is no quick fix, it is a day to day healing process and we follow Sarah through all of the ups and downs. I loved Dreamer’s open and honest portrayal of the struggle to move past such traumatic events. I felt so strongly for Sarah’s character.
Dreamer has done an exceptional job all around with this story (as I have come to expect from her). The characters, the story, the romance, The Burden of Happiness hits all the right notes and will not leave you dry eyed. A memorable experience from start to finish.
Sarah’s story is one that breaks your heart over and over throughout the story and I just wanted her to find happiness at the expense of all else. I enjoyed following her journey as she struggles and grows, trying to become the person she wants to be. Sarah is a remarkable character and I LOVED everything about her.
Kate is a perfect fit for Sarah and I was really happy to see her set boundaries and stand up for herself when ever she needed to. The open communication between the characters was wonderful and I loved seeing such a healthy relationship portrayed so well for these two. Both characters struggle from their pasts and even though there are many obstacles for them both to overcome I loved the strong connection that stayed true throughout. The physical chemistry between them is so great. The off the charts attraction and sweet romance balanced well with the heavier emotional elements of the story.
This book is quite draining (in a good way). So much trauma and repercussions to sift through, there is no quick fix, it is a day to day healing process and we follow Sarah through all of the ups and downs. I loved Dreamer’s open and honest portrayal of the struggle to move past such traumatic events. I felt so strongly for Sarah’s character.
Dreamer has done an exceptional job all around with this story (as I have come to expect from her). The characters, the story, the romance, The Burden of Happiness hits all the right notes and will not leave you dry eyed. A memorable experience from start to finish.
April 1, 2021
3.75 stars
April 11, 2022
4.5 Stars
June 10, 2021
You can't go home again
This is a really heartwarming story. Sarah has had a tough early life and that's as much drama. When Sarah's mother dies, Sarah goes home to help wind up the affairs. Sarah meet Kate at a bar and they strike up a friendship. The plot is about overcoming trauma in relationships and family and how to move forward. The characters are Great And very much opposite. I think you will enjoy the story and I recommend it for all who like love and hardship stores.
This is a really heartwarming story. Sarah has had a tough early life and that's as much drama. When Sarah's mother dies, Sarah goes home to help wind up the affairs. Sarah meet Kate at a bar and they strike up a friendship. The plot is about overcoming trauma in relationships and family and how to move forward. The characters are Great And very much opposite. I think you will enjoy the story and I recommend it for all who like love and hardship stores.
February 10, 2021
Gut Wrenching But So Worth Reading!
I think in life we have at one point or another come across someone like Sarah. A person whose life has been dictated or controlled by past traumatic experiences and not necessarily in a good way. A person who has tried to make themselves so small so that they disappear with no one noticing them but we see them. When I finished reading this, I jumped into a review which became too wordy and lengthy and revealing too much of the story. So I rewrote it to explain that despite the subject matter, this is a must read book. You will thank yourself for reading this and you will thank Luci Dreamer for writing it. This is a story for all who has lived in fear but is so ready to break through the chains that bind them and are ready to live and love and breathe again!
I think in life we have at one point or another come across someone like Sarah. A person whose life has been dictated or controlled by past traumatic experiences and not necessarily in a good way. A person who has tried to make themselves so small so that they disappear with no one noticing them but we see them. When I finished reading this, I jumped into a review which became too wordy and lengthy and revealing too much of the story. So I rewrote it to explain that despite the subject matter, this is a must read book. You will thank yourself for reading this and you will thank Luci Dreamer for writing it. This is a story for all who has lived in fear but is so ready to break through the chains that bind them and are ready to live and love and breathe again!
May 1, 2021
Burden of happiness
Lovely, painful journey that strongly resonated with me. There were times when I had to put it down to be able to breathe. Sarah found her strength within with the loving, patient help of Cole, Mary, Elise, and of course Kate. A profound piece of work that takes you through the torment of trauma and on to recovery of both women. Their happy ending isn’t guaranteed, but they are both strong and determined to live the life they deserve with each other. Beautifully written and an amazing read. I enthusiastically and unequivocally recommend this and any other works by this author. Her turn of phrases and infusion of banter between Sarah and Kate was refreshing and inspiring. Thank you Peace
Lovely, painful journey that strongly resonated with me. There were times when I had to put it down to be able to breathe. Sarah found her strength within with the loving, patient help of Cole, Mary, Elise, and of course Kate. A profound piece of work that takes you through the torment of trauma and on to recovery of both women. Their happy ending isn’t guaranteed, but they are both strong and determined to live the life they deserve with each other. Beautifully written and an amazing read. I enthusiastically and unequivocally recommend this and any other works by this author. Her turn of phrases and infusion of banter between Sarah and Kate was refreshing and inspiring. Thank you Peace
January 31, 2021
Brilliant book
This is the best book I’ve read in ages. Well written, good drama, romance and characters and a HEA what more could you want in a book. Sarah is a welder trying to survive in the present whilst trying to deal with her past traumas. Her mother dies so she goes home for the funeral. There is reacquaints herself with her brother and his family. She also meets Kate at a bar and is immediately attracted to her. This is Sarah’s story of moving on from her past and finding her future. Couldn’t put the book down, would highly recommend.
This is the best book I’ve read in ages. Well written, good drama, romance and characters and a HEA what more could you want in a book. Sarah is a welder trying to survive in the present whilst trying to deal with her past traumas. Her mother dies so she goes home for the funeral. There is reacquaints herself with her brother and his family. She also meets Kate at a bar and is immediately attracted to her. This is Sarah’s story of moving on from her past and finding her future. Couldn’t put the book down, would highly recommend.
February 18, 2021
So very good
I really got a lot out of this book. I’ve read all Luci Dreamer’s books and she is one of my favorite authors. As a survivor myself I truly was lifted up by the intelligent, loving way that overcoming ones struggles are dealt with. I was struck by the honest portrayal of loss, guilt and shame of the main character (and her struggle to overcome it). I believe that the burden of happiness is on us all. I will remember that phrase and will remind myself that my own happiness is up to me. I can’t recommend this book enough.
I really got a lot out of this book. I’ve read all Luci Dreamer’s books and she is one of my favorite authors. As a survivor myself I truly was lifted up by the intelligent, loving way that overcoming ones struggles are dealt with. I was struck by the honest portrayal of loss, guilt and shame of the main character (and her struggle to overcome it). I believe that the burden of happiness is on us all. I will remember that phrase and will remind myself that my own happiness is up to me. I can’t recommend this book enough.
February 5, 2021
Difficult subjects, great read
There are a lot of heavy and possibly triggering subjects in this novel, but the author tells the story of recovery very well. I very much like the fact that the characters weren't easily fixed by each other's love.
There are a lot of heavy and possibly triggering subjects in this novel, but the author tells the story of recovery very well. I very much like the fact that the characters weren't easily fixed by each other's love.
June 16, 2022
Well done
In his author’s notes, L. Dreamer tells us that this was a difficult book to write. I can appreciate that given the multiple tough subjects undertaken. It was a heartbreaking book to read because of the childhood trauma suffered by the main character and narrator, Sarah Leeds, a welder living in San Francisco.
The story begins with Sarah sadly celebrating her birthday alone and receiving a phone call from her much older brother Cole saying their mother has died.
Sarah has had little contact with Cole since she ran away from home at 17; he doesn’t even know the reason she left. He still lives in their hometown of Barstow, Calif., with his wife Mary and daughter, Elise.
Sarah’s trip home to help her brother sparks her realization that she’s missed him, her SIL and her niece. The joyful, nonjudgmental welcome they extend helps mitigate her stress at returning to the site of her trauma but also triggers guilt about not staying in touch.
Small cracks begin to show in Sarah’s steel exterior, first as she painfully tells Cole the truth about her past and more so after she meets Kate Copeland. Kate’s recently moved back to Barstow from San Francisco to become an adjunct professor at the local college.
Kate quips that they’re the only two lesbians in Barstow, not knowing that, although Sarah identifies as a lesbian, she’s never had F/F sex or any type of romantic or sexual relationship.
As Sarah spends two weeks helping get her mother’s home ready to sell, enjoying time with her family and Kate, cautiously, she works to move beyond her pain, shame, and rage to allow herself to feel happy.
But this isn’t a simple story. Sarah doesn’t reconnect with Cole, connect with Kate and enjoy a quick happily ever after.
She alone — and she and Kate together — have to do the work if they want to live a life well done.
In his author’s notes, L. Dreamer tells us that this was a difficult book to write. I can appreciate that given the multiple tough subjects undertaken. It was a heartbreaking book to read because of the childhood trauma suffered by the main character and narrator, Sarah Leeds, a welder living in San Francisco.
The story begins with Sarah sadly celebrating her birthday alone and receiving a phone call from her much older brother Cole saying their mother has died.
Sarah has had little contact with Cole since she ran away from home at 17; he doesn’t even know the reason she left. He still lives in their hometown of Barstow, Calif., with his wife Mary and daughter, Elise.
Sarah’s trip home to help her brother sparks her realization that she’s missed him, her SIL and her niece. The joyful, nonjudgmental welcome they extend helps mitigate her stress at returning to the site of her trauma but also triggers guilt about not staying in touch.
Small cracks begin to show in Sarah’s steel exterior, first as she painfully tells Cole the truth about her past and more so after she meets Kate Copeland. Kate’s recently moved back to Barstow from San Francisco to become an adjunct professor at the local college.
Kate quips that they’re the only two lesbians in Barstow, not knowing that, although Sarah identifies as a lesbian, she’s never had F/F sex or any type of romantic or sexual relationship.
As Sarah spends two weeks helping get her mother’s home ready to sell, enjoying time with her family and Kate, cautiously, she works to move beyond her pain, shame, and rage to allow herself to feel happy.
But this isn’t a simple story. Sarah doesn’t reconnect with Cole, connect with Kate and enjoy a quick happily ever after.
She alone — and she and Kate together — have to do the work if they want to live a life well done.
March 8, 2021
This author did an amazing job of showing a "broken" person embarking on a journey of self-discovery and learning to live in the now, instead of being condemned to endless head-tripping on a dismal past. There were some elements of "too good to be true" in the reactions of others, but I just enjoyed the fact of a lesfic book about someone growing and changing for the better on her own, without a relationship being viewed as the solution to every problem. And the relationship the MC discovers is very adult and realistic about expectations and challenges, and that was refreshing as well. Some hard topics, but well worth the read.
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