5 amazing stars
My trash bin is now overflowing with kleenex as I sob my heart out. Seriously, this book had me weeping from about the 60% mark when he wrote his first poem until the end. I absolutely fell in love with Cash, Delaney, Pawpaw, Mawmaw, Alex, Vi, and Bree. I was a bit concerned when I read that this was a Boarding School story because I was expecting a story full of rich entitled jerks, and although there are at least three of them in this story, this story was so much more! We are introduced to Cash and Delaney in their hometown of Sawyer, and although drug addiction is a real problem and more than a few families are struggling just to make ends meet, the author does an amazing job showing us what they both love so much about their hometown, even if their own personal experiences with their family were traumatic with addicted mothers and disappearing fathers. The sources of hope in both of their lives come from Mawmaw and Pawpaw (Cash's grandparents) and their own friendship. The book slowly moves them to the boarding school where they are both in total culture shock and not sure if they should be there. And yes, Cash's roommate is an entitled jerk, and that could be the crux of his boarding school experience. But that's not what this book is about and Cash quickly finds his squad in Alex, Vi, and of course Delaney. There are others at the school who are really cool as well, but throughout, Cash (and Delaney) struggle with taking advantage of this opportunity for them to live their best selves, but also being worried about Pawpaw's failing health.
This pacing of this book is just perfect, in my opinion, with parts of it capturing the stillness and peace of Sawyer, and parts of it capturing the energy and speed of New York City. Throughout the latter half of the book, poetry is used as a way to help Cash find himself, and from the moment he wrote his first words, I was completely captured. I am not a poetry person normally, but I looked forward to reading every single poem, slowly and repeatedly. Every single verse he wrote left me in tears. This book was truly a coming of age for both Cash and Delaney, but it was also about grief and celebration, trauma and healing, friendship and family. I loved all the different kinds of love that the author included in this book, including many of the deep friendships that developed in this book, both romantic and platonic.
I initially intended to read this book over several days, and I even put it down a couple of times intending to call it a night. But the book kept calling me and so here I sit after midnight just soaking in this book. Sometimes a book just speaks to you and for me, this was one of those.
I am so grateful I was able to receive an advance review copy from NetGalley, and I am leaving this review voluntarily.