I was inspired to pick up The Secret Gospel of Mark after I read All Down Darkness Wide, a memoir by poet Sean Hewitt that contains similar themes to those presented in Reese’s book. This is a lengthy review, but in short, if you have even an inkling of interest in poetry, I highly recommend this one.
In this memoir, Reese recounts a meandering, somewhat troubled life: a tumultuous childhood in the Midwest rung by the clamor of his parents’ constant arguing, crippling spells of self-sabotage and alcoholism in college, and the through-line of shame that accompanies existing as a closeted gay man. Although Reese ultimately becomes an Episcopal priest, it is poetry, rather than the church, in which Reese finds salvation. Reese reflects on the poetry of several prominent poets whose work has commanded his attention from his early adulthood into his fifties. These poets range from Plath to Bishop to Strand, several of whom were strongly rumored to be or were openly queer. As Reese discusses his evolving relationship with these poets and recounts the arc of his life, his emotive writing sparkles, employing striking metaphors to great effect, the way only a poet writing prose could.
I’ve enjoyed poetry since high school, and that affinity has, upon reflection, proven somewhat intelligible: poetry’s eloquence and frills, synonymous in character with the extravagance and flamboyance that animate queer people’s existence. With that said, this memoir helped me appreciate poetry in ways I hadn’t before. In its close, almost psychic reading of his heroes’ poems, I learned to scrutinize poems for things I’ve never thought to look for before. Toward the end of the book, Reese also states, “Reading poems helped me when I could barely blunder on with shame that crippled me.” Although poetry’s effusiveness frustrates some, that same opacity and indirectness operates as its own form of shelter, allowing Hopkins, Bishop, and other poets to furtively yet cathartically allude to their same-sex attractions in their art. By illustrating poetry’s unique ability to both hold space for and dilute the effects of shame, Reese’s love for poetry only strengthened my own.
All told, Reese’s effective argument in favor of the necessity of poetry, along with his eloquent yet honest writing, resonated strongly with me. My only minor critiques are that: (1) the memoir could have arguably been 50-100 pages shorter, and (2) as an individual who’s shed the faith I was raised with, some of the (admittedly sparing) religious metaphors fell a bit flat for me, although you absolutely do not need to be religious to appreciate what this book accomplishes.