The book is a compilation of Connor’s personal stories, poetry, and some breathtakingly beautiful pictures. The book highlights the ups and down of Connor Franta which has been one of the most relatable books I’ve read in recent days. In its most raw form, the book talks about anxiety, emotional turmoils, nothingness, love, breakups, depression, and much more of what makes us human.
Every chapter is short (3-5 pages) which makes the book easy to read. The lyrical, poetic way of his with words makes you want to not stop reading.
How I felt about the book -
Reading every chapter made me feel some kind of solace. I am not sure why. I felt pain when Connor was describing his pain for possibly two reasons - one that it was relatable, and two because no one deserves to live with such baggage.
Before I write any further, I must say that Connor Franta is an excellent writer! He has a way with his words. Most of the chapters here in this book are heartfelt. One needs the courage to write/talk openly about such raw emotions. I say this because I don’t. I’ve never been able to write or talk about how it feels to feel void, or how it feels to feel nothing from the inside. It physically hurts. Moreover, you need some strength to openly talk about severe anxiety and depression.
Anyway, coming back to this book. The love and pain. The vulnerability. The brutal honesty.
Why would I recommend this book?
Well, Connor really shared a few really ugly days (and happy ones too) of his when he felt absolutely nowhere. I was frankly very much able to relate & understand his words, and the emotions they brought with themselves to a certain degree.
He described his happy and sad days with such beauty that for some reason felt fine. It felt bearable. It felt like there is tomorrow and today is not when the world ends.
Am I making sense here? I hope so..
Anyway, when I ponder why would Connor want to share his vulnerable details, the first thing that comes to my head is that because many (read: everyone) today need to know that they are not alone and feeling void or depressed is not the end. Reach out to someone if you need a silent company. If you are doing well, then reach out to someone who can use your help.
If you are a fan of Connor then it obviously is a must read. If you don’t really know much about him just like I didn’t before reading this book), it is a very delightful read about certain chapters about his life which he graciously has shared and invited us to read. Give it a read. You’d enjoy it.