What the actual crap was that? How is thing so highly rated? Just...HOW? Good gawd. This has got to be one of the most [insert negative adjective of choice here] books I've read in a long time. It was dreadful. Awful. Laughable (and not in a good way). It was on a whole 'nother level of CRINGE, thanks to the ridiculous manner of dialogue amongst characters. Not to mention the extremely poorly-done development of literally ANY character, including the main one Ian Bragg. I wanted to like him, but his personality felt way too unnatural and unrealistic. His dialogue, forced and awkward. Just...UGH.
I don't really wanna talk about it much, not even to rant (like I tend to do for 1-star ratings), though I'm sure as I spew it's gonna turn into a rant. It has no worth to me. Writing style is atrocious. It's too jilted, written mostly in tiny, disjointed sentences that made things feel so chaotic and out of order. Spasms of words. So many things felt randomly thrown in. I lost track of what the hell was going on way too much. Stopped caring too. Premise seemed intriguing, which is why I even bothered. Put extremely simply, we've got a hitman with a conscience. Heart of gold, I guess. He only kills what he perceives as bad guys, and his contracts coincidentally have allowed for that. Until the latest contract surfaces, calling for a seemingly "good guy" to be killed. Hitman is conflicted. Hitman pontificates. Hitman has doubts. Hitman doesn't wanna play anymore. Hitman is sometimes interesting when implementing his methods, but overall, Hitman is boring even in his gentlemanly ways, or sometimes even creepy, depending on your perspective. Et cetera.
Despite the super unpleasant writing style, the premise might have actually worked better if it wasn't for the damn rushed and tacky "romance" subplot. It was the most horribly realized romance I've ever read. EVER. And that's saying something, because I've read plenty of both romance books and non-romantic ones with love stories in the background. But this thing? This strange mutated thing being passed off as "romantic" subplot? I've never gagged and rolled my eyes so much. I highlighted one example of such nauseating dialogue shared between these characters. I understand the need to introduce love as further motivation for Ian to rethink his career as a Hitman but my god, at least ATTEMPT to make it believable and convincing. Perhaps I'm just not accustomed to male authors trying to write this stuff? Some folks got it, and some don't. Unfortunately, this author does NOT have it.
You can't just shove characters together and make them love each other just because you don't want to put effort to get deeper. You have to DEVELOP them. But no, instead they are thrown into an infatuated, sexual relationship the first day they meet. Literally. Day one. Mere hours after meeting, and it's a mega sex-romp. Then days later it's Hitman having zero issues dumping his Hitman ways onto woman's plate, declarations of "falling in love" being the reason to quit, and then it's on to an actual marriage. All in two weeks time. Seriously? Head over heels in two weeks? No. I don't buy it. I'm not saying it's impossible to buy, things like this can happen even in real life, but in THIS presentation where it's important to connect readers with characters? No. Just no. The author took obvious, blatant shortcuts while still wanting to add depth and new desires for Ian to latch onto (I guess?), but it failed miserably in my eyes. Just too damn laughable.
Another disastrous read for yours truly. Another book I had to escape from into other books before I dragged myself back in to finish it. I will NOT be continuing this series. Keep it.