Reading this book was a surreal experience. I was emotional within the first few pages, and over and over it seemed to be depicting moments ripped from my own memories. The specificity--getting up to sharpen my pencils five times in a class, scoring well on tests yet doing poorly in class, the constant foot-tapping, THE TIME BLINDNESS, daydreaming and getting lost in fictional worlds when my own world seemed ugly and violent and traumatic, and so, so much more. I'm a few years younger than Tyler Page, and our lives and backgrounds differ a bit, but still, our stories shared such a throughline that it was at times a challenge to get through the pages. Our biggest difference is, when I was diagnosed with ADD in the early nineties, the fear of Ritalin overprescribing and the stigma of ADD kids was more rampant, and so my traditional Mexican mother rejected both, and kind of just...pushed past it. Where Tyler was medicated more heavily and heavily over the years, I kind of floated around untreated, my mind splattering all over the place until my mid-2os, when I started meditating and going to therapy and really working on coping skills. I probably still need to be medicated, and will likely try it at some point? In the meantime I'm keeping a close eye on on my son, who is still young but exhibiting some of the signs, so that I can try and be aware and help him as much as possible.
As for the book itself, I think it does a wonderful job of giving a case study of ADHD and showing how it can present, evolve, and be so easily dismissed. I think another important aspect that it shows is that ADHD is often comorbid with some sort of childhood trauma, and that it is very likely hereditary, which are two things that I feel are too rarely discussed in ADHD discourse. I would have liked for the book to maybe dig into these things a bit more, to be honest. For a story that covers such serious moments, I occasionally felt that things were being breezed by. My best guess as to why is because this book is A.) an all-ages book, rather than the more complex and mature graphic memoir that I might be used to, and B.) serving as a kind of broad survey that attempted to give a broad and clinical picture of the condition over the span of 10+ years, which held it back from digging in too deep or analytically into some of the items present.
The art is accessible and fun and sometimes surprisingly expressive. It may have been pure projection, but in the first few pages young Tyler is praised for his creative merit--in this case, drawing--and there is a panel of him feeling exulted, and I was struck by how true the image was, I could feel his heart full of validation and joy and triumph all in one little image. This is juxtaposed of course by a sensory-seeking, boundary-pushing act of recklessness, and is that sequence was when I knew that this book was going to cater to me, someone who has lived those moments a hundred times in my messy, chaotic life.
So I might be fish in a barrel with this one! Part of me thinks that every educator and maybe even every parent should read it, because ADHD doesn't seem to be going anywhere, but on the contrary, it is becoming more prevalent, especially in adults like myself, to which point I hope that Tyler Page does a sequel dealing with his adult ADHD struggles! It's rare that I feel seen! I would like more, please!
4.5 stars!