Initial thoughts:
Wow. Wow. Wow. Loved it. Loved it Loved it. Will be reading this again for sure that’s how much I loved it.
After marinating and thinking about it for awhile. Here’s a very detailed and LONG review of my thoughts and feelings on the story:
MAJOR Plot spoilers ahead. Read at your own risk.
This was even more than I was expecting going in. Oh my goodness. I loved this book so much. All I’m going to do in this review is gush, gush and gush some more because it was that good. Even with all the gushing, I don’t think I’m going to be able to gush enough because so much I could gush about. This one just deserves to be gushed about. Can you tell that a little this book a little bit?
The first thing that came to mind while reading this story was that it reminded me a lot of The McCabe trilogy by Maya Banks that I absolutely loved and adored. I think with story and The McCabe trilogy they may have taken place around the same time period, but just different locations. I don’t know if highlanders, which was The McCabe trilogy taken place was consider to be part of the Medieval time period like this story was, but it had a similar type of feel and time period to me. This one just took place in Wales while Maya Bantus trilogy took place in Scotland. Rodger was a knight while the McCabe’s were highlander brothers. They just gave me similar vibes while reading It that gave me all the warm and fuzzies. It was really atmospheric between the setting and the plot that it kept me locked in and really consumed by all the goings on that were happening, which was fantastic.
All the themes and tropes were spot on, and I really enjoyed seeing them play out within the great setup that was provided, which I absolutely loved and adored so much because they were written so well. Again I was sucked in and consumed from almost word one that continued on for the duration of the book. In fact I would say it grew and grew even great the more that I got into the book. It just made me not want to stop reading because I was so into and really invested especially with the characters of Teleri and Rodger. So, amazing.
Being that this took place in the Medieval era, there was a lot of superstitions as well as fear going on in the public because they didn’t know about science or other things that they couldn’t explain that we could today. So, there was a bit of a supernatural/paranormal vibe happening even though that wasn’t what it was, but that was feeling I got when reading it, which was interesting. Mostly that vibe surrounded Teleri because they thought she was witch and they thought she was this weird creature that they just couldn’t explain. Rather than try to understand her they bullied her by stoning her out of town so that she forced to live out in the wood by herself with only her animals as her friends. Teleri felt safest that way, which absolutely heartbreaking to see, but also amazing because of how she survived and was able to make life for herself on her own. It showed her strength even though she was deeply scarred because of those cruel taunts and actions by the others. She was content to live with her animals only and not interact with a human until she met Rodger then her world just turned upside.
It really spoke to her character though when she did decide to save Rodger after someone attempted to hang him. After all she hadn’t been able to trust anybody, yet she knew the right thing to do was help him and nurse him back to death even though he wound up chasing her right before that in order to bring her justice because he thought she stole horse. It was really impactful moment for her on so many levels, and it made me love her even more of the length she went through for him. It just touched my heart so much.
Some of my favorites moments of the story was her taking care of him while he tried to heal from his wounds. Again it wasn’t easy, but she did it. She was so very loving and gentle with him even when she had to tie him up after he accidental punched her in the eye when he was unconscious. She didn’t want to have to tie him up, but knew she had to in order to be safe as well as allow her to take care of him during that time. She did this all in sanctuary of her home with the animals that she saved watching on as she mopped his brow, fed him broth, and tended to his wound so it wouldn’t get infected. It was such a beautiful and impactful moment especially considering she didnt’ know him and still didn’t know him because he was passed out with the fever. She was just caring for him on her own. Again it showed so much of her character and just how sweet and pure of person that she truly was, and how much she truly didn’t deserve the treatment she faced at others’s hands. She needed a happily ever after.
The development between these two after he woke up was just amazing, and I loved it so much. It showed the arc of their romance that went from point A to point B very nicely yet very naturally with the pacing. I liked that they had to build trust between them first before their attraction came into the picture. As you can imagine they weren’t in place to a hundred percent trust each other right away when he woke up for a plethora of different reasons. Rodger woke up tied up, barely being able to move, barely being able to talk, and hurting all over while she didn’t people period because of what happened to her. They wary of each other. So, there was this slightly cat and mouse type of came where they tip toed around each other while she still took care of him, and he healed. They both were very stubborn too, not wanting to give into the other even if it was for the best. So, they had a little tussle. I loved the moment where he refused the medicine to help him, and she pried his mouth opened and practically shoved it down his throat. It was done and written that had me laughing out loud.
Another dynamic that really added and enhanced their romance was the fact that at first he couldn’t speak due to his wound. It made for a very interesting way for them to learn how to communicate with one another without words. They managed to find a way, and I think that made them bond more because they had to do that. They had to have patience and understanding between each other in order know what worked for each of them and what each other needed. It also just build a great amount of trust between them because they had to interact that way, and I loved that. I just showed how strong their relationship could be because they already had to overcome some obstacles together, which would later make the shift to couple easier because they had dealt with that.
The silence didn’t last long and eventually he did start speaking even if it was only in whispers. He could communicate with her that, but what was more impactful about that was that he chose to speak to her instead of remaining silent. He knew his voice wasn’t back to normal but he could say things in whispers. Even though he hated that because he thought that showed weakness and vulnerability, he did it for her because he was beginning to trust her. He let his guard down for her and showed how he was as a vulnerable man not the mighty knight that world saw. Again it showed how important their relationship had become as well as how impactful it was.
I loved seeing his progression as he started trusting her more and more. It started off in little ways, but then continued to grow and grow. The turning point for him was when he saw her with that deer and fawns who trusted her completely, letting her feed them from her hands. It was just a beautiful scene in general, but it became even more beautiful to see his reaction as he watched that scene happen before his eyes. I could that he was letting his guard down even more for her and knowing without a doubt in his mind that she would never hurt him especially after she had healed him and saved him just like she did with her plethora of animals. It was a poignant scene.
Once that trust continued to grow the more time they spent with each other, the more their attraction to one another grew. It grew in every way both physically and emotionally as they got to know each other more and more. It got pretty steamy and intense once that foundation was built between them. They just caught fire after that. It made me smile and swoon at the same time. That lake scene was something else. I wasn’t expecting it to get that steamy at that point. A passionate kiss, sure, but the caressing and the pleasuring not so much. Not that was a bad thing just I wasn’t expecting them to be all in as of yet. It was still delicious and foreshadowed what was to come. It just upped my anticipation for the love scenes between these two even more.
It wasn’t all roses though because at the lake scene he did pull away, believing what he was doing wasn’t right because he believed he was in love with someone else,which made him have some guilty moments as well as a struggle with himself of his attraction to her. That lead to some great head butting moments while both of them were dealing with these intense feelings that they had for each other. It was a struggle for both of them because they never experienced these type of feelings. These feelings caused some hurt feelings because there were fighting against them. There were some lighthearted fight moments that were very funny and humorous as they interacted with one another. But some were very serious and heartbreaking because of the misunderstandings between them that was complicated even more because of these growing feelings they had for each other. For example, the rabbit part. I know that he thought he was doing a good thing by providing her with meat and what he considered as taking care of her, but at the same time it was stupid because he didn’t realize that she was a vegetarian when he so should have especially seeing the way she lived. I even might have called him a boob as soon as he did that. I just couldn’t believe that after all they been through and that he learned about her that he didn’t realize that about her. So, that created all types of tension and friction to their relationship, which made it all the more entertaining to see them have those struggles before they fully could come together and embrace what they have with one another.
Another really tense moment between them that nearly broke them was the fact she learned that he loved someone else and he still believed he loved this other woman even though he claimed to love Teleri the night before after sharing a very steamy night together. This was right after he nearly got hypothermia, and she once again took care of him by helping him to get warm. Even using her own body heat to help get his temperature up, which how the steamy scene came about. This was directly after the whole rabbit thing, but though she was still peeved about that she didn’t want to freeze to death so she cuddled with him. It was a special moment for her as they brought each other pleasure so when she found out about this other woman it was like a slap in the fact to her. That just earned a whole host of other intense emotions going on for her with the prominent ones being hurt and betrayal. It was so heartbreaking to see happen to her because I could feel her heart breaking, thinking she found this special person that she loved and loved her in return then he just took it away from her with those simple words. It made her feel so alone again. It was a gut punch moment, which just really increased the angst to premium levels.
The next sucker punch moment was when she got stoned after Rodger left. Teleri was already in all sorts of pain due to Rodger’s betrayal then to have this abuse and assault take place directly after was just heartbreaking. So not only was she hurt on the inside, but the outside too. It broke me up and had me tearing up because the amount of suffering that she went through
But I think what broke me up the most and had more tears pooling in my eyes was when Teleri’s hawk, which didn’t fly before all this, flew to get get help for Teleri from Rodger. It was so devastating because there was such desperation with Hawk, trying to get Rodger to go back and help Teleri, but he wasn’t getting it. Hawk pecked at him, pulling the cuff of his shirt in the direction, even squawked at him to get his attention until he finally pecked at Horse’s butt in order to get Rodger to fall off him and get some sense knocked into him. It was such a powerful moment because it showed how much these animals loved her. She meant the world to them because she took care of them, heal them, gave them a safe haven, and treated them like friends. It was apparent that they felt the same way about her. It made my heart soar yet break at the same time. Not that I didn’t know this already, but showed how truly special Teleri was. That scene just really touched me on so many levels. It was an amazing scene that I loved.
After the stoning, Rodger found an unconscious Teleri in a bloody mess with severe wounds on her face. Then a role reversal took place between Rodger and Teleri where he was taking care of her and trying to heal her like she did with him. It was so beautiful and so powerful because more emotions were into play now that Rodger knew Teleri and her kind heart. It was very intense for him because he didn’t know if she was ever going to wake up or not. He was very gentle, tender, and loving while pleading for her to wake up and come back to him. His feelings were very loud and clear of what he was feeling while he was taking care of her. He was breaking down with every moment that passed by didn’t wake up, realizing that he could loose her. Just to see that devastation in him was absolutely heartbreaking to read, and I felt every part of him in those moments. It gave me a lot of feels. It was such a punch in the heart, but it made him wake up to the fact that did love her and just how much he did. It was so amazing. I absolutely loved that revelation that he had, and how he had it. It was beautiful and powerful all at the same time. Again I loved it.
When she woke up, then the game changed, and he was no longer messing around. He set about to woo her and earn her trust again after he broke it. Woo her he did, not only with his words, but his actions as well. He still took care of her because she wasn’t a 100 percent back yet while unabashedly showing his feelings for her. It was very clear. There were no games. Nothing was hidden from her eyes or ears. He very much declared his intentions for her and his unending love for her. It was so good. It gave me all the feels and made my heart filled with nothing but warm and fuzzies. It just made everything that they went through worthwhile because they had these very beautiful and powerful moments where they could bask in their love for each other. It was amazing.
The steamy scenes that followed were just amazing. They were beautiful, tender, loving, passionate, and hot both before they married and after. They were just so intense, and very much emotional as they sealed their bond. They formed this deeper connection when they came together that just consumed them both, but also cemented what they had together. They were each other’s missing piece that no one could fit but each other. It was shown very clearly in those moments. I loved those scenes because of that alone. They were so amazing and all so satisfying because of what they had to go through in order to get to this point.
The ending was a little abrupt if I had to say one thing that bothered me. There was just all this build up of who was trying to kill Rodger for a majority book to just leave it to the last two pages was weird. I even thought that the would be killer wouldn’t be revealed because it was getting to the end, but then there it was. Then kind of wasn’t ready for it, and it felt a little out of left field. I don’t think I even saw it coming of who it was, nor do I know if it made complete sense to me, because there were no clues leading in that direction. I thought there were two directions it could go, but it didn’t got either of those ways so then it just felt weird. I don’t know. But despite that little fact, the story was amazing, ad it didn’t deter me from giving this a five stars. It was that incredible of a story.
Overall this gave me all feels. It probably didn’t come across just how amazing I thought this story was with this review. I could go on and on forever about it and try to explain it further, but I don’t think I could do justice to it even still with this detailed review that I just gave. It just had good intensity and great romantic development. I loved the setup of this scarred woman, living in the woods by herself with only her animal friends save a knight from attempted hanging then falling head over heels for him as he did with her as they faced obstacles, tension, chemistry, and intense feelings along the way. It was beautiful. It was touching. It was powerful. It was heartbreaking. It gave me pretty much everything that I wanted and not even a tiny thing that bothered me could deter me from my love of this story. This story just went beyond my expectations. I literally could not put it down for a second because I was just so immersed in the world, and I didn’t want to leave it. I was in love with this story, the romance, and the characters. I was just in awe and enamored with it. As I was reading this and even before I got to the end, I pretty much knew that I was going to want to read this one again and again, reliving all the feels all again. It was that amazing for me. Because I don’t tend to reread ebook, I needed to get my hand of a physical copy of this book just so I can reread this one over and over again. I just loved it so, so much.