Plot 1/5 ⭐️
Spice 0.5/5🌶️
Vibes 1/5 👏🏻
1st person POV - Jenna (FMC)
TLDR 3 word review: should have DNFd🥰
Full review: If you are the author or someone who really enjoyed this book, maybe skip this review. It might hurt your feelings. To avoid spending an hour on this review, I'm going to try to limit myself to bullet points... let's see how that works out lol. Spoiler warning for the entire book. If you don't want spoilers, don't read this review (though you may get a kick out of my rambling lol). Okay, here we go:
1) The first 45% is our FMC in the abusive relationship. I actually think the author did a great job painting the scene of a relationship still in the honeymoon phase and how hard it is to reconcile the first abusive action with the entire history of a good relationship. Jenna's determination to leave Colton, followed by his attempts at apologies and then emotional manipulation felt very realistic. The lying to yourself, lying to your friends, denying what's happening because you just can't believe it... that part was done very well I think.
We could work on it together. Hadn’t I spent the last several years swearing true love could overcome anything? If anything could help Colton conquer his demons, it was our love. And if, after a valiant effort, it still didn’t work, we’d be in no worse place than we were right now. Right?
2) HOWEVER, after Miss Jenna gets out (after, you know, he tries to kill her), she is brutally struck by DBS: Dumb Bitch Syndrome. Why do FMCs in stories like this always refuse logical and necessary help? She wanted to stay in her apartment, her brother and the MMC (Damian) rightfully said no, so she starts staying with both of them and switching her routine up. After a FEW DAYS of this, she starts to ponder how it's a prison sentence. I'm sorry, your actual life and wellbeing is at stake and you're worried about your schedule being disrupted for a little while? I absolutely hate when FMCs are like this. Take the help. Stay alive. It's that fucking simple.
“He violated the last restraining order when he came near you.”
“And he went on the record that he has a gun, so now he really has to relinquish it.”
“Which, as of today, he still hasn’t done.”
I sighed. “Damian, he was arrested. What more do you want?” (uh IDK, maybe for him to ACTUALLY be in jail still??)
3) And piggybacking off the previous point, this woman is 23 and so yes she's going to be naive in some ways, but I swear she got more and more stupid as the book went on. Running into the woods by herself when she's already in a secluded area (where tf did you think you could go??), believing a restraining order would keep Colton away from her even though he made bail and has a gun and still going out for GNO, trying to offer herself as bait, etc. She was honestly TSTL. I was rolling my eyes so hard and was so frustrated with her. Unfortunately, this did not let up for the rest of the book.
I hadn’t told Justin or Damian that I thought I saw Colton yesterday. (GIRLIE POP WHY TF NOT?!)
4) The transition from Jenna and Damian being acquaintances, to friends, to living together for her protection and therefore spending every moment together, to an actual relationship was weird. They spend time together but it doesn't feel like there's much dialogue between them. It seems like she likes him and then all of the sudden she's so in love with him and he's the other half of her soul. Girl, what?? When tf did that happen? Off-page somewhere clearly because we didn't see shit.
My love for Damian would shatter any record. I wasn’t just in love with him; he was my soul’s other half, and without him, I’d never be whole. (girl bffr)
5) Next - the author actually kills off Jenna's brother. Colton snaps completely, paralyzes him by cutting his spinal cord, and shoots out the glass floor that he's on, causing him to hang on the ledge next to Jenna, only to fall over 100 stories to his death. WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK. For the most part, yes this has some heavy tones and sensitive subject matter, but why the fuck did the brother have to die? Jenna was pulled up moments later. THEN, afterwards Jenna is thinking about the media coverage and how it wouldn't have been as noteworthy if they both had lived. And how there were so many donations being made to DV shelters, etc. Are you fucking kidding me?? Overall this has a happy ending so why tf did the brother have to die?! He could've been severely hurt but expected to make a full recovery but noooo, he just had to die. I'm honestly really mad about that.
I was told that had Justin not died, the event would not have gotten the coverage it did because an almost-tragedy isn’t the same as a real tragedy. (FUCK OFF)
6) Now because of her brothers death, Jenna is despondent and doesn't leave her bed for 2 months. She's traumatized, depressed, and still healing from her several injuries sustained during that fight - and rightfully so. Damian decides she needs help and he takes her to a psychiatrist to see about getting on some meds. But it turns out she can't take the meds becaaauuuse: (would anyone care to take a guess??) if you guess she's pregnant, you'd be right! And suddenly, Jenna's will to live is back and they have sex for the first time in months. To recap, she was barely able to function, had to be brought food to her bed and forced to shower for 2 months, and the day she finds out she's preggo, she's jumping his pants because she's got a will to live again? Fuck off right fucking now. I don't mind a surprise pregnancy during or at the end of the book, but for this to insinuate that she's good to go now because she's got the babe to look forward to?? Be so for real.
I could tell he was trying to gauge how I felt about all this. Making out was one thing—a wonderfully good thing—but he didn’t presume it would lead to anything else. And for that, my love for him swelled even more. I unbuttoned his jeans... (girl 🤦🏼♀️🤦🏼♀️🤦🏼♀️)
7) Lastly, the entire "epilogue" is just 2 paragraphs teasing the next book for a side character. Fuck off. That's not an epilogue. No quote needed lol.
Anyways, turns out it still took me an hour to write this but I wish I had DNFd and can only hope I can spare at least 1 person from having to read this. If you'd like more of a laugh, feel free to check out my highlights. :)