I've known about Mattie's book for quite some time and have seen it on the shelves and finally picked it up, knowing that before the back cover closed, I would have teared up several times--grieving for this little angel named Mattie and for all the other "Jerry's kids" who suffered and continue to suffer from neuromuscular diseases--including a few I had known in my lifetime, having grown up in a world knowing children with neuromuscular disease. I started the book, I was surprised that many of the poems weren't too sad. They were sweet and cute---simply the work of a little child who is filled with a lot of love. I was surprised that I made it to page 14, without any sadness---Mattie seemed like any other kid through his poems and in many ways--and in his heartsong he was. Page 14 is the poem "Future Echo" about Mattie swinging. It ends with Mattie acknowledging that he will die. It is sad to know that a little boy of 9 lived under circumstances that caused him to ponder his mortality so thoroughly and so consistently. The poem made me sad, but the subsequent drawing by Mattie on page 15 made me smile. I could hear the children he drew singing and laughing. The poems thereafter were not too hard on my heart, Mattie wrote of pirate candy--black jelly beans, snowmen, werewolves, world peace, God and love. Page 30 quickly became a waterfest, with Mattie's poem "The Left-Over Child." In the poem Mattie writes about the fact that his parents had and buried 3 other children who also died of neuromuscular disease and so he was their "leftover" child, because he "Mattie is the left-over child, All alone with the parents of dead children." (He was 8 or 9 when he wrote this.) Page 31,32, 33, and 34 were poems about Mattie and his brother Jamie, who he was able to spend a couple of years being a living brother to. It ends with the poem "Never-ever Story" which ends "With a Jamie dying and a Mattie crying, And on and on like that Ever- and After-after." Mattie was about 3 or 4 when he worth that poem. Mattie's poetry book isn't all sad, though, it is full of hope. (Mattie was able to live longer than his siblings due to advances in medicine. I pray they continue.) Many of Mattie's poem are hopeful, like "The Holding-On Family" where Mattie states that he and his Mommy with hold on to each other forever and never let go. He sees his family as a holy family, praying together and being a holding-on family forever. What a beautiful goal to aspire to and one I will try to accomplish with my own family. This is a wonderful book, written by one of God's angels who lit up the world with his heartsong and who will continue to inspire others even as he has gone to live in Heaven with is two brothers, Jamie and Stevie and sister, Katie.
It is a very inspiring little book written by an Angel of a child, who suffered much during his time on Earth, but who never lost faith in God and love for God. Mattie is a true hero, champion, poet, peacemaker, and angel that I will never forget and that I will certainly "look up to" for guidance and strength in my own worldly trials and tribulations. *The drawing Mattie did were absolutely adorable--I really liked his traced hand and the fact that I was able to place my hand on his.