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A Hesitant Hero #1

So Not A Hero

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A reformed villain.
After serving two years in a Federal prison, Karen Hashimoto is out on parole and eager to put her criminal past behind her. No easy task, since she’s also the former supervillain known as Crushette. A chance encounter leads to an unexpected opportunity, and she is recruited as the newest member of the city’s premier team of superheroes: The Good Guys.

A new hero.
Now Karen has new teammates, a new code name, and the daunting responsibility of trying to be the hero everyone thinks she can be. Becoming a champion for Truth and Justice is going to be rough, especially for the ex-girlfriend of the notorious Doctor Maniac. Karen will have to do everything in her powers to keep her past from ruining her future.

It was so much simpler being the bad guy.

332 pages, Kindle Edition

First published May 19, 2015

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Profile Image for Gavin.
1,058 reviews445 followers
May 18, 2019
So Not a Hero turned out to be a surprisingly engaging superpowered tale of redemption. It was a single person POV story following the life of former supervillain Crushette as she tries to get her life back on track after a few years in prison. The story had a good mix of action, humour, character development, fun twists and turns, and even had a tad of romance. It also helped that Crushette was an easy character to like and that S.J.Delos had a fairly engaging writing style.

The story was a fun tale of redemption. Karen Hashimoto, the former supervillain Crushette, has spent the last 6 months on parole after serving 2 years in prison and is determined not to fall back into her old villainous life. She gets an unexpected chance to redeem herself when she stumbles into the midst of a battle between a villain and a superhero. After she helps subdue the bad guy the superhero offers her the chance to fill the vacant spot on the Good Guys superhero team!

It was a surprisingly enjoyable story. Karen's superpowers were invulnerability and super strength but they came with a few complications like having an increased density which added a fun bit of depth to the story. It was also a real benefit to the story that Karen was super easy to like and had a fun "voice". As the story progressed we learned a lot about her and why she had made the choices she had in her life. She had quite the past and was even the former lover to this worlds version of Lex Luther!

It was a typical superhero style world but I feel like Delos did a great job with the characters in this story. Karen was great but the secondary characters were also a credit to the story as the all had their own personalities and were well drawn characters in their own right.

This was one of the better superhero tales I've read of late but it did have a few noticeable flaws. The first was the fact that Delos fell into the trap of leering over the female characters in the story just a tad too much. It was a running joke that our heroine had a tendency to damage her clothes as much as her enemies. Sometimes it was funny but other times it felt a bit much. The second problem I had was the issues Karen had with her sleazy parole officer. This story did an excellent job of balancing likeable characters and fun humour with some darker and more disturbing happenings on the whole but I felt like the issue of the parole officer was the only one it really failed at. It just felt a little out of sync with the rest of the story and never really seemed to serve any actual purpose which was weird.

All in all this was a really good superhero story that I enjoyed a lot.

Rating: 4.5 stars.

Audio Note: This was narrated by Angela Brazil and she did a fantastic job with the audio. She was great with the voices and and really got the tone of the story!
Profile Image for John Longeway.
Author 2 books7 followers
June 24, 2015
TL;DR: A misogynistic tale of the world ogling a woman's boobs and butt when she is not busy shopping or worrying about men. Too much T & A. Too little super heroing.

While there is some decent writing in this book, I felt the tone was completely uneven and the novel could have used much stronger editing for content. A reformed super-villain formerly known as "Crushette" joins a super team called "The Good Guys" after we get treated to her being coerced into non-consensual sex to avoid violating her parole. Then, we get another graphic multi-page sex scene which includes her bruising the face of her intimate partner because she gets too excited when he is performing oral sex on her and loses control of her super-strength. There are also something like 5 different super battles during which our protagonist has her shirt, pants, or some other piece of clothing destroyed so various people can ogle her breasts or butt, and (of course) one scene where she strips her dress off to fight in nothing but her underwear because it was a new dress and she didn't want to ruin it, which I think is where everyone's mind is when being attacked by a maniac firing bolts of energy from their hands. Oh, and because she is female, she must go shopping. Repeatedly. And chat with one of the other female "Good Guys" about boys. Not to mention the significant discussion about how to design her uniform so she can go bra-less under it without having her nipples show. I started off giving this book 3 stars but after recalling all of the things I listed above, I have lowered it to two, which I still suspect might be too generous.
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2,066 reviews355 followers
March 24, 2016
More of a 3.5, however I was less than surprised the author is male. There's a rather large amount of sexualization and objectification of most of the females going on that at times made me uncomfortable. Though not any more or less uncomfortable as the comic EMPOWERED I suppose.

Karen's struggle is mostly what I was interested in, though what's it say when the villainous ex-boyfriend is way more interesting than most of the heroes?
Profile Image for Robert 'Rev. Bob'.
191 reviews20 followers
April 9, 2017
This is a rough book to rate.

On the one hand, I really liked the characters and worldbuilding; I thought those were done exceptionally well, with a couple of snags. I enjoyed the story, although it was fairly standard for the genre. What I grew to despise, in part because the rest was so good, was the editing. I've seen worse, but this was right up there. Most of the issues were fairly minor, like dropped punctuation and comma splices, but there were a lot of them. In addition, there were several places where something just didn't make sense. (One example is the scene where Karen takes her ruined shirt off twice.)

To react to comments in other reviews:

- I did not find the early sexual encounter gratuitous. It establishes the main character's desperate living conditions.
- I did not find the longer sex scene in the middle of the book gratuitous, either. It establishes the physical risk the boyfriend is taking in becoming involved with a woman who has superpowers.
- The reactions to two unmade comments were annoying and illustrate the poor editing.
- One obnoxious male character's attitude is explained late in the book. The attitude is still obnoxious, but at least he came by it honestly.
- The author really needs to either figure out how Karen's "durability aura" works or explain it better. As far as I can tell from the explanation, it should have protected the pink shirt and the seat of her yoga pants, but it did not.

All in all, I'm giving this four stars for content but dinging it one for editing.

Bonus: As I start the sequel, I see that two pieces of jargon have changed between books; "dura-steel" and "In-Bee" have lost their hyphens. While I approve of the change and wish it had been extended to "opti-plex," it does break continuity.
Profile Image for Erin Penn.
Author 4 books23 followers
August 13, 2017
Book overall is heavy on misogynistic male characters and actions. I recommend reading the first two chapters on Amazon before purchasing - the worst actions appear there and if you can stomach those, the rest of the book is better. The author has set things up so you don't get caught half-way through a purchased book and want to throw it away.

The overall world-building on this book kept me reading; the world is a well-layered superhero world with this particular story set in Charlotte NC (another draw for me). The throw-away side mention of "Activation Day" was perfect - at that point of the story you know exactly how devastating for the world it must of been, but it is a throw away line like someone today mentioning Pearl Harbor day. We know it happened, we know the emotional impact, but there is no need to go into details because everyone understands. Good world-building - each power has benefits and problems, some visible and some not-so-much. Not everyone is a world power, and the Good Guys team is well-balanced with powers so you see and appreciate teamwork succeeding (and failing).

The book never slows down. Going from action to character development to planning to action. A roller-coaster ride of first order.

Just wish the author did not feel the need to make the good and bad people as likable and unlikable as possible. A bad male does not need to treat every female like he is a construction worker from a horrid eighties movie. We don't need to hate the bad guys and rejoice when they fall. On the other hand, it is consistent with 4-color superhero world where many things are black and white. The more modern watercolor superhero comics no longer hang on this and with a story where a villain becomes a hero, I would have like to see more color-scale then 4-color.

I gave this book a low rating despite good world-building because as a female I found the book uncomfortable to read. And I hope most males would also be uncomfortable reading the depiction of how the men treat the women. The guys I know are much better than this.

11/12/2015 - read the book again as part of deciding whether to clean it out of my kindle. Still read it to the end, still had problems stomaching the really unlikable way men treated women. It is now going in the discard pile to make room on my shelves (memory storage) for stuff I will like having in my head. A shame the book had to be unpleasant in this manner.
Profile Image for Niall Teasdale.
Author 73 books292 followers
May 3, 2018
Maybe 2.5 stars... Mostly because the book's a mess. The story is fairly good. The lead character is fairly good, but the text... The book doesn't need a proofreader, it needs a fleet of them. I honestly find it hard to believe that the author would fail to spot most of the glaring mistakes I did and can only assume he never reread the text after finishing it. I get it, really: professional proofreaders are not cheap and it's hard to justify the cost when you're charging very little for the book. That just means you need to do a more professional job of self-checking.

I flicked through other reviews before reading the book and was told the book was full of T&A and male characters being sexist, and this was a terrible thing. I don't get it. There's actually relatively little in the way of description of the characters, male or female. There are plenty of male characters using their power (supernatural or social) to be... Let's say they act in a politically incorrect manner. Given they're clearly in the wrong, all of them, and I don't see it played for titillation, I don't see the problem. Were those reviewers thinking this kind of thing doesn't happen in real life? (MeToo would seem to indicate it does.) Do they think it does, but it's inappropriate for a male writer to write about them? (Which is sexist.) I don't get it and I didn't think the behaviour of the characters was illogical or out of place, but if you don't like misogynistic behaviour, or relatively explicit sex scenes, do not get this book.

All in all, I can't go higher than 2 stars for this, but that's a shame. There's plenty of action, solid personal development, interesting characters, and a reasonably good comic-book plot. Unfortunately, it needs a really good edit to get around being a pain to read in far too many places.
356 reviews2 followers
March 4, 2016
I was done with this by page 10. If you finish that page and still want to keep reading I wish you luck.
Profile Image for Jon Davis.
Author 4 books7 followers
May 21, 2015
An excellent book. It's well balanced between the action and emotions of the characters. Kayo is a good addition to the vast array of heroes. And S.J. Delos is a writer to look out for in the future of writing.
Profile Image for Deanna Stanley.
213 reviews6 followers
July 25, 2015
Not bad, not great. I did find the fairly explicit sex scene in the middle inappropriate, not part of the flow. The plot was a bit thin, some characters were jerks, but that's normal. There were also great people and even Dr. Maniac, the super badguy has honor.
Profile Image for Karlyn.
329 reviews
August 1, 2017
I enjoyed this unusual take at the genre. How exactly does one become a hero or villain? Can you become a hero after being a villain? I was surprised by a few of the twist which I enjoyed. I am looking forward to the next installation.
Profile Image for Koen Wellens.
133 reviews6 followers
July 24, 2018
Wow. There are many treasures in this book. Well written emotional scenes. Multiple sex scenes, some more explicit than others. And a superhero battle to lick your fingers clean. But there’s a problem. While I understand all those different scenes can be useful in a superhero book, I would expect a lot more of the superhero battles. And there is only one.

Read the full review at my blog.
Profile Image for Pippa DaCosta.
Author 79 books1,557 followers
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December 9, 2017
99p in the UK - BOOM. It's on my kindle.

I'm going to need all the help I can get if I'm going to reach my 2017 Goodreads Reading challenge goal.
Profile Image for Sean Duggan.
139 reviews2 followers
May 31, 2017
I picked this one up on an impulse after Amazon recommended it to me and I found I couldn't quite put it down. It follows one Karen Hashimoto, aka Crushette, former supervillainess in the pay of Doctor Maniac. Now, she's an ex-convict on parole, finding that her criminal past and her powers mean that she can't hold down a job, can't retain a place to live. After aiding Mister Manpower, member of the Good Guys, the local superhero team, she gets extended an offer to join them. Can a former villainess turn to the other side? Why did she pull a plea bargain against her former employer and lover? And who is the mysterious villain who seems to have a vendetta against her?

I liked this book. It has its faults — as with many new authors, there are typos that failed to be caught in editing and still have not been fixed, years later — but ultimately, it kept my interest. Karen is your basic Brick, super-strong and super-durable, but she also has learned a lot of little tricks to keep an edge over her opponents. And, despite a very bad temper and a tendency to mouth off, she really does try to be the hero that her younger brother wanted her to be. I didn't see the twist, although in retrospect, it does make sense. I'm not quite convinced enough to buy the second book yet (the first was 99 cents, but the second is a full $3.99) but I liked this one.
Profile Image for Greg Kopstein.
539 reviews7 followers
February 21, 2018
This could be straight out of a comic or a movie. Does Marvel know about Delos and this awesome first book? Engaging story, relatable characters, entertaining narrative, and a great heroine that, besides hyper-sexualization, is a strong and interesting character. I do think it's overly sexualized, but so are comics in general. This is changing though, so Delos should change and adapt with the times. If you're looking for a quick and entertaining read, you've found it. I cannot wait to read the next installment! Happy reading!
Profile Image for Ryan Mangrum.
187 reviews13 followers
August 5, 2015
I was pleasantly surprised with this book. I came into it thinking it would be yet another of the ranks of mindless crap that pollutes the urban fantasy/paranormal/superhero genre, but by the end of the first chapter you realize the protagonist isn't a carbon copy of every other female protagonist: she's had a hard life, been to prison, homeless, penniless, friendless, living down a bad reputation in a society that's hellbent on denying second chances. Due to the weight (from density, not fat) her powers force upon her, she has to be really careful where she walks, sits, goes to sleep, and how she interacts with people -- some sexual positions could end in death if she got on top.

In short, the girl has REAL problems. That, to me, is something that's sorely lacking the genre that leads to a depth of character that is rarely seen. Something else that I like is that she's not a teenager. She's young, in her mid 20's, but there's a lot of city miles in her short life.

The only thing that annoyed me was when she starting calling her friend "Lexi-chan," but I loathe manga/anime.
Profile Image for William.
298 reviews2 followers
March 30, 2016
I found this book to be a little on the juvenile side. It's more of a comic book than a superhero novel. The misogynistic rhetoric was more bearable than the manner in which the empowered female characters accepted it. Our busty, hot super heroine, kicking butt in her panties, is intelligent and strong-minded, except when it comes to men. Her relationship with her parents, especially her dying mother, was touching, and added to her character. But why are the bad guys so excessively honest when asked about their intentions, and the good guys so trusting of the answers? That's ridiculous. Also, the author introduces two shape shifters who could transform into other characters, including into a likeness of our heroine - a perfect tool for bad guys. But the author never revisits that potential. Perhaps it will be used in the sequel that I'll most likely not read. And, I am convinced the author inserted the explicit sex scene in the middle of the book for the sole purpose of utilizing the term "va jay jay." Ugh.
Profile Image for Jonathan Scotese.
358 reviews5 followers
June 26, 2016
It's about a superpowered ex-henchwoman/girlfriend of a mad scientist, trying to give up villany after getting out on parole after two years in jail, eventually joining a hero team.

I got a YA feel from the writing except for the sexual aspect. The main character is female but the writing is very male gazey. Lots of description on her breasts and she is constantly having her clothes torn/disintegrated. It starts of with her trading sex with her sleazy parole officer not to get sent back to jail for becoming homeless, but that's the grossest it gets.

The setting is kinda interesting if generic, most of the twists are obvious but one caught me by surprise.
Profile Image for Meredith.
Author 1 book15 followers
July 30, 2017
It's a story that starts out dark - a male in authority using his power to manipulate a woman into agreeing to unwanted sex over possible law enforcement consequences. The remainder of the story has a grittiness to it, but not that dark.

I was very much sucked into Karen's story - where does the motivation come from to be either do good or do bad? Can she reform? Does her anger control her or can she control it?

It is also Exhibit A in why when a guy says, .
Profile Image for Kate.
194 reviews3 followers
June 12, 2015
Really enjoyed this. A "superheros are people too, with all our petty human disagreements!!" book without, hrm, the excess of some in the genre. Really liked Karen, found her very believable and interesting.

Saw one of the plot twists coming a MILE away when but I didn't see the other!

The opening's a little rough, esp with the incredibly dubious sex that happens within a first couple pages, but it really picks up.
Profile Image for Morv.
267 reviews
March 6, 2016
It's an enjoyable yet problematic read.
The amount of sexual references during a fight doesn't need to be written particularly when it's men saying them.
Also the sex acts within the book, particularly at the very start? Really? Not a good way to make this book seem interesting, it actually made me wonder how bad this would be.

The plot was good, decent although you could see who the villain was going to be after a while. The character's were also all right, although many of them need to be established more and Kurt is just so bland and dull that it's not even funny.
Profile Image for Isaac.
80 reviews2 followers
March 20, 2016
After two years in the Max, the super villain Crushette is no more, and now Karen is trying to rebuild her life, but how can she keep from breaking her parole when she is like a trouble magnet?

Overall, an entertaining read, but it could have been better. The descent into trash romance novel territory around the middle did nothing to advance the story and could have been reduced to one or two paragraphs to convey the same idea (okay, they like each other). The book also needs a proof read because there are a lot of weird errors.
Profile Image for teacup.
19 reviews
August 3, 2015
Intriguing and interesting. I felt like it really had potential, but I'm not sure if i'll end up reading future books.

I didn't like the Nice Guy trope--I don't doubt that it exists, it just seems a little overdone for nerds, you know? I like that I wasn't sure what was going on with Martin--I can't really guess what will happen with the H's relationship with him in the future.

I think I'd def read other works by this author.
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
Profile Image for Davis Emmanuel.
151 reviews3 followers
May 8, 2016
Wow

This was an excellent read but I couldn't give full marks because of a lack of editing. For example, the protagonist's real name is revealed at on point in the novel, yet a few chapters later she is called by a different real name. There was also an instance of responses to things that weren't said. Every time that happened it pulled me right out of the story, which sucks because the story itself was great.
94 reviews2 followers
July 4, 2015
I almost didn't make it past the beginning...

I would have given this book 5 stars but the sexual event at the start was repulsive and completely unnecessary. I really enjoyed the rest of the book so it was a shame it was tainted by that.
Profile Image for J. Judkins.
Author 2 books70 followers
July 28, 2015
Very much worth reading. Finally, an explanation for the skintight costumes! I I liked the fight scenes (which were frequent) and banter between the characters, and only saw the plot twist when the main character Karen did. Recommended
Profile Image for Brent.
25 reviews1 follower
July 26, 2020
Wasn't sure, but glad I did...

Checked out the reviews for this book before I deciding to buy it. Glad I decided to give it a try and I'm very happy with my purchase. I'll definitely be picking up any follow up novels in this series!
Profile Image for Elena.
670 reviews154 followers
June 17, 2015
This was ok. Some heavy dudefic vibes and a bit uneven, but I'll pick up the sequel.
27 reviews1 follower
July 22, 2015
Loved it. Full of laughs and very entertaining. I'll definitely be reading any sequels that are released.
Profile Image for Arref Mak.
142 reviews1 follower
July 30, 2015
A good character study and fun read. I like the voices of the distinct cast.

Less satisfying are some of the threads changed or handwaved at the End.
23 reviews3 followers
July 29, 2015
Good superhero story

Good balance of fun and growth for our main character. Definitely a good read. I would recommend it for anyone interested in this genre.
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