This continues to be excessively, delightfully sweet, and I look forward to reading more.
The author's note at the end made me a little sad, though; he describes how he came out to his mother between the publication of the first and second volumes, since he was writing under a pen name and she kept asking concerned, very motherly questions about his work. (Is it paying you enough to live on? It's nothing shady, right?) While it sounds as though the conversation went fairly well, he says he's not entirely sure whether his mother really "got it." She supports him and cares about him, but has she read the manga? Does she fully understand what he was trying to tell her?
It makes this sweet, comforting, extremely uplifting series - told from the point of view of a mother who knows her son is gay and wants him to be fully himself and happy - seem almost wistful. Maybe Okura dreamed about having that kind of youth, where everything was gentle and optimistic and kind and he had at least one parent (his father isn't mentioned in the coming-out conversation) who supported and encouraged him for exactly who he was.
I'm reading into it, probably, but the anonymity and the inclusion of the coming out story adds another layer to this series. It's an aspirational manga. This is what it should be like for gay kids, for people who grow up knowing that they're "different" from what society traditionally values and accepts.
And the truth is, even this feel-good manga is still fairly realistic. Hiroki's dad continues to be very traditional in his views of masculinity (men don't scream or cry at scary video games) and of what his son should do in school (study science, not the humanities) and with his future (get a solid, good-paying job like he did). Hiroki's mother gently turns the conversations where she can, doing her best to encourage her son to look past the limitations his father is constructing around him, but it's distressing that she has to keep paving the way through such subtle methods. Hiroki's father is a good man, but at the end of the day, he's pretty homophobic, and Hiroki is quite aware of this - and patterning his behavior after his father's expectations. That's why the title has "I think" in it - Hiroki's very obviously gay, but because he doesn't feel like he can live that openly, his mother has to pick up all the hints she can, from the things he's not telling her.
There isn't really a full narrative to this manga; it's told in a series of short bursts, with snapshots of their lives that mostly follow a linear format and sometimes dip into flashbacks. I don't always find that type of construction as readable or satisfying, but in this case, it works really well, particularly because the point of view is coming from a character who isn't central to the action - so you can't really get the full love story between Hiroki and Daigo (Daigo's feelings and sexuality still undetermined, although Hiroki's mother is hopeful). It also means there's room for chapters that pull back the camera even more, to show different perspectives on Hiroki's situation.
I continue to really like his little brother, Yuri, who gets a chapter to himself this time, with some fun musings on what love is, or should be. Yuri is popular with girls but is pretty uninterested in them - either because he's ace or just because he's not ready for romance at his age. Either way, watching his brother fumble through his gay crushes gives him a better understanding of love than anything from his own experience - which, not to overuse the word, is so friggin' sweet. I love how Yuri and his mom are Hiroki's support system and cheerleaders, in very different ways that fit each of their personalities.
Then there's one of the most interesting sections thus far: chapters showing Hiroki's mom at work, where she finds out that her coworker (boss?) is most likely gay, and in a committed relationship with a handsome older man. Although she's very proud of herself for figuring out that her son is gay, she doesn't have the same level of gaydar elsewhere; she only finds out about Tono because another coworker is a fervent BL reader who saw him with his partner and is ready to spot the signs.
If I had time, I'd write a mini essay about the role of BL and other gay media in increasing awareness, improving tolerance, and giving readers a chance to see positive representations of themselves or their loved ones.
It's not a perfect medium, and the BL-loving coworker is unfortunately more excited about the idea than the reality of someone else's life - Hiroki's mom has to point out that she probably shouldn't be outing him to everyone they know... - but it's a start. The manga Hiroki's mom borrows, then leaves out for her son to find (and encourages him to read), has a fictional depiction of two guys finding happiness in a way that hasn't always been portrayed in mainstream, very straight media. Maybe it's not super realistic, but it's providing a different view of different possibilities...and that kind of thing can be so important. It helps Hiroki, and it helps his mother, and maybe if his dad would be willing to try something "weird" like that instead of prejudging it, he'd be able to understand his son a little better, too.
In this case, though, the lesson is still centered around Hiroki's mom, who stands up to another coworker who thinks Tono being gay is "a waste." A waste for whom? she asks. Isn't it his life to lead? If he's happy, isn't that the most important thing? Why does he need to be happy with a woman? Why do you think your values matter more than his?
There are some pretty hard-hitting, thought-provoking elements in a manga that's overall pretty heavily focused on the positive. It's such a good balance - and approachable in a way that could help mothers like Okura's to understand their children better, if they were willing to sit down and read it.
This manga is a bright, hopeful light in a world that seems particularly dark lately - I'm glad Okura's writing it, and I certainly look forward to continuing the journey with Hiroki and his family.