Truthfully, even as I entered the Goodreads giveaway for a copy of Mattie Jackson Selecman's "Lemons on Friday: Trusting God Through My Greatest Heartbreak," I wasn't quite sure this would be a book that would completely resonate with me.
First, I'm somewhat embarrassed to admit, I tend to shy away from literary efforts by celebs, relatives of celebs, and/or people who've simply succeeded on a level, at least financially, far greater than I'm ever likely to experience. While I have no issues with someone's hard-earned successes, financial rewards, or privilege I've simply found the approach to "self-help" tends to ring hollow and occasionally condescending.
Secondly, while I completely resonate with faith-based writing my sense was that I would have some theological differences that would negatively impact my appreciation for the book.
Now then, let me first acknowledge that both concerns were unwarranted.
Okay. Okay. I'll just say it. I was wrong.
If there's one gift that Mattie Jackson Selecman has as a writer it's in transcending any sense of "difference" in favor of the universality of grief and the reality that we all, regardless of our paths in life, come face-to-face with losses and challenges and obstacles that can simply devastate us.
"Lemons on Friday" is grounded within Mattie Jackson Selecman's devastating loss of her husband of less than one year following a devastating traumatic brain injury. Mattie, daughter of country music legend Alan Jackson, was a mere 28-years-old when her husband Ben passed away 12 days after obtaining the TBI as a result of a fall and a mere three weeks before the two would celebrate their first anniversary.
"Lemons on Friday" is grounded even more deeply in Mattie's faith, a faith that was admittedly challenged by this tragic loss but also a faith that sustained her when it seemed as if not even the love of her family and friends possibly could. At the young age of 28, Mattie was faced with owning the word "widow," a word that even biblically conjures up visions of elderly women wearing black and having lived long lives of love.
For Mattie and Ben, however, that life had just begun.
It seemed so unfair. It was so unfair.
"Lemons on Friday" is, indeed, a book in which scripture is quoted often and faith is spoken of freely and with great passion. There were, in fact, some theological differences apparent between my own beliefs and those of Mattie's. However, there was so much common ground that it was barely noticeable.
Utilizing a foundation of faith, "Lemons on Friday" both shares Mattie's story and weaves together a tapestry recognizing the fluid nature of grief and its various stages. While she was given much credit for her strength by loved ones, Mattie openly confesses that things certainly weren't always perfect and she has made her share of ill-advised choices along the way toward a healing that recognizes the grief will always be present but that somehow her life will continue having been irrevocably changed by her loss.
"Lemons on Friday," somewhat surprisingly, dwells very little on the tragedy itself and more time on learning how to trust God amidst it all. One gets the sense that Mattie, quite intentionally, still sees Ben even amidst her grief as the man she married and she focuses "Lemons on Friday" less on the loss and more on the hopefulness. The loss is palpable, don't get me wrong, but If I were to say that one feeling dominates "Lemons on Friday" it would be love.
I have a feeling that's as Mattie intended. I also have a feeling that's how she wants Ben to be remembered.
"Lemons on Friday" is a relatively short, inspirational, and immersive read in which Mattie embraces the richness of humanity and seems to gain an even deeper understanding of the common ground that exists between so many of us. Contemporary Christianity desperately needs Mattie's story, a story grounded in honesty, transparency, and vulnerability yet also in faithfulness, surrender, and community. Even the wisdom of sharing the legitimacy of therapy is so welcome given that Christians can, at times, be dismissive of these vital ways that we are to love another.
I was concerned, to be honest, that "Lemons on Friday" would come off as precious or privileged. Instead, Mattie managed to both present herself accurately and honestly while also finding common ground with the wide array of readers who will take in her words. She manages to deeply appreciate her friends and family, honor her truths, and find those spaces and places where we all ultimately become children of God.
As I noted, there are times when I stumbled upon theological differences. For example, I don't believe that God "takes away" anyone. Instead, I would be more likely to believe that death happens as a result of imperfect lives and God is present and loving us through it all. Both ways of understanding God are common and the point that works for me here is that you can see how Mattie's understanding of God has served as a companion through her own experiences.
"Lemons on Friday" explores the various stages of grief and the tiptoeing toward something resembling normalcy when nothing feels normal. It was just before her 30th birthday when Mattie would gently move toward potentially dating again, a gentle movement that continues and that is portrayed with amazing sensitivity and intelligence here.
So, while I had my reservations I must acknowledge that I tremendously appreciated "Lemons on Friday," a book that explores faith and the ways in which it can help us survive our losses and traumatic events in life. As a person who was widowed in my early 20's as well, I appreciated Mattie's wisdom, insights, lessons, and quietly compassionate presence.
"Lemons on Friday" is most likely to resonate with those who identify as Christian with an emphasis on evangelical Christianity given its frequent use of scripture and biblical teachings along with Mattie's own exploration of her faith amidst it all.