So... I've been reading a lot and somehow this seems to be the end of the road. I'm not done reading, but somehow I feel like it's the bottom of the barrel with these kinds of subjects. Like Camus said about the only philosophical issue: "Do I kill myself or have a cup of coffee?", this seems to take it even further by asking if it would've been actually be better never having to be existed at all in the first place. The graph here is absolutely hilarious: "Existing: suffering (bad), pleasure (good) + Not existing: no suffering (good), no pleasures (not bad)", but still asking very good questions in my opinion. It's basically about bringing kids into this world. And I've been hearing all my life "this world is so bad, I don't want to bring kids to it", thinking it's a sort of lazy approach... but now I feel a bit differently. Because I've been thinking about kids so much. This world, the end of times. We don't really understand how bad things are, really. We don't. We really really don't. And how much people are suffering as we speak, how absolutely horrendous everything is and how there is no hope. And on top of it the most simplest of pleasures are also depraved, we have been hijacked by screens and amusing ourselves to death, comparing each other and having major mental issues and things are not becoming any better. It's absolutely clear that the peak of humanity and the human experience has passed. And this book does a really good job telling that. Also about all kinds of suffering that goes on, absolute horrors regarding the human condition. And we have to consider illness too, all the possibilities. And as Schopenhauer said about pleasure: it's only negative suffering. I think about it a lot. Wow, I'm sounding pretty pessimistic now.
But, okay, let's get back to this book. Because by the end it becomes softer, more diplomatic: it finds possibilities for existing to be worth it. It's not easy. But it just might be worth it.
I'm still not sure what to think of this, but this was definitely worth looking into. You can read about the basic issues just by looking up some videos essays on "anti-natalism" on YouTube instead of reading this. Because this might do you permanent damage.
Everybody who has seen me with this book (mostly parents or expecting parents) have asked me if it's worth it, I've been replying by saying "I'm not sure, still reading it" and now that I have read it I still have no idea.
I'd love to be a dad though.