White Cloud Mountain is my SingLit book for this year. It follows thirty-something civil servant Audrey who nabs a place at the artistic getaway that is Toji in Wonju, South Korea. At her local writer friend Lauren's urging, Audrey goes on a thirty day getaway there where she steps out of her hectic, pencil-pushing life back home and experiences the tranquility and calmness of the Korean countryside with other Korean artists. However, Audrey isn't professionally a writer or any type of artist like the rest of Toji's occupants, and suffers from imposter syndrome and a lack of inspiration as she tries to produce any kind of work during her stay.
White Cloud Mountain is author Grace Chia's semi-fictional account of her own stay in Toji. It is essentially a travel journal of sorts about the various experiences she had and sights she saw in Wonju. That isn't necessarily bad but it's just... boring. Chia is talented at writing scenery but content wise the book is unimpressive. Nothing is particularly unique or intriguing. Audrey's inner thoughts are trite and unoriginal. There's a lot of typical talk about how her 9-to-5 civil service work is stable but boring, how she doesn't feel like she's making any kind of impact and simply survives instead of living, how life on holiday in the Korean countryside is so amazing when she has no work to do... There's nothing particularly new here. Her view of her life in Singapore is so one-sided, very much the usual complaint about the monotonous rat race culture. On the other hand, she idealises pretty much everything she sees on her trip from the countryside life to the farmers who sell their goods at the market to the various artists she mingles with. She doesn't understand the language when other writers or poets present their work, choosing to assign whatever meaning or theme she assumes they are making and then revels in said interpretation of their foreign work. For a writing retreat, there's awfully little mention of writing as well. To be fair, that's a central issue at the heart of the book where Audrey struggles to recapture the same spirit she had in writing during her school days and suffers from writer's block. However, it's only halfway through the book where Audrey suddenly remembers the point of coming to Toji and starts any attempt to create content. It's a pity that Audrey's travel entries take precedent over her own struggle to create art because that would have made for a more interesting and self-reflective read.
I would say the first two thirds of the book were boring but okay. The last third of the book really took a tumble in my opinion. Audrey's adventures become almost like a fever dream of sorts, from getting knocked out by a deer and awoken by stray dogs to falling asleep in the hollow of a tree and causing an impromptu search party for her as a result. The crazy thing is that these events somehow act as a catalyst for Audrey to suddenly remember past trauma from her youth in the form of an attempted rape by her cousin Sean. I'm so sorry if this was based on some kind of real trauma from the author's life but this incident was borderline ridiculous. Sean and Audrey had embarked on some Pulau Ubin trip on a weekday afternoon as teenagers with dreams of adventure and ended up being attacked by a wild boar. They hid in tree hollows and the wild boar eventually left them. This incident somehow inexplicably triggered Sean to attempt to rape his cousin (despite the wild boar in the vicinity) and when Audrey manages to fight him off, the aforementioned wild boar turned up again and bit Sean in the leg before goring him to death. What??? And then that's it. Sean or this entire incident is barely mentioned again. This memory is so brutal but utterly out-of-place in the entire book.
The book and Audrey's stay at Toji ends in a somewhat cringe manner. The final community sharing which Audrey kept worrying about throughout the book takes place and Audrey delivers a speech about how she's a civil servant who feels like life isn't fair because she was taught that rules mattered in the system but there's corruption, cheating and whatnot taking place. Her hard work isn't rewarded but those who play the political game and pursue their selfish agendas are. Again, it's very trite material but it is met with great applause from the Toji community. Audrey then returns to Singapore and starts rejecting the civil service lifestyle by wearing singlets and sleeping during meetings. It's supposed to be inspiring or daring but it just feels kind of cringeworthy when a one month vacation has supposedly changed your life view so much. She eventually quits her job and starts taking care of herself mentally, which is commendable. She then joins a writing club and with the help of her local celebrity writer friend Lauren starts writing a story which she calls White Cloud Mountain.
White Cloud Mountain was underwhelming at times and kind of uninspiring, with bewildering moments here and there. I just wish there were more original, well-rounded takes and more self-reflection compared to the usual material that we are so used to seeing. 2/5