While I'm not an official member of the Renovare Book Club, this season, I have chosen to read their book selections. This was the third book of their four for this season, and by far the best one, yet. I am so glad I read this book.
In Prayer in the Night, Tish Harrison Warren takes one of the prayers used for Compline (the fixed-hour prayer to be prayed before going to sleep each night), and breaks it down for us, phrase by phrase. The prayer goes like this: “Keep watch, dear Lord, with those who work, or watch, or weep this night, and give your angels charge over those who sleep. Tend the sick, Lord Christ; give rest to the weary, bless the dying, soothe the suffering, pity the afflicted, shield the joyous; all for your love’s sake. Amen.”
There is so much good stuff in this book, I could write a book-length review of it. Fortunately, I don't have that much time.
The book is, to a great degree, about vulnerability. Because we are more vulnerable at night. Night takes a toll on all of us; if we are sick, we feel worse at night. And the effect of darkness on us . . . can be, at best, depressing, and, at worst, debilitating. Ironically, while I was reading this book, the entire state of Texas wound up in a winter storm warning. We, along with millions of others, were without electricity for almost 35 hours. It was dark by 6:00 PM on the night that fell in the middle of that powerless time. I felt the weight of darkness that night.
The Compline prayer takes us through chaos and pain, and helps us find God in the midst of it. We find a reality that is "larger and more enduring than" whatever we feel in the moment. And I can certainly empathize with Tish when she says that every prayer she has ever prayed is a variant of the prayer prayed by the father of the child in Mark 9:24: "I believe; help my unbelief!" I have prayed that prayer, myself, so many times.
Growing up Southern Baptist, I never was exposed to pre-written prayers. That is regretful. Because when we don't know what to pray, the Church, throughout history has given us wonderful prayers to pray. It's like the Church says to us: "Here are some words. Pray them. They are strong enough to hold you. These will help your unbelief."
Early on, Tish says, "Faith, I've come to believe, is more craft than feeling. and prayer is our chief practice in the craft." This is sort of a touch stone for the whole book, as well as her statement that God cannot be trusted to keep bad things from happening to us. This statement would, of course, make some people furious. But not me. I get it. God cannot be trusted to keep bad things from happening to use because God never promised to keep bad things from happening to us. He allows us to remain vulnerable.
"God did not keep bad things from happening to God himself."
This is also a book about "theodicy," which is defined as "the vindication of divine goodness and providence in view of the existence of evil." Tish describes it as "an existential knife-fight between the reality of our own quaking vulnerability and our hope for a God who can be trusted." Of theodicy, Flannery O'Conner said "It is not 'a problem to be solved, but a mystery to be endured.'"
This book is relevant to our time. It takes a prayer that has existed for, perhaps, centuries, and pulls into 2021, applying to all of the pain and chaos that takes place in our modern world. More irony . . . when Ms. Warren began writing this book she had no idea that we would be in a global pandemic for over twelve months.
This book offers hope. "The hope God offers us is this: he will keep close to us, even in darkness, in doubt, in fear and vulnerability. He does not promise to keep bad things from happening. He does not promise that night will not come, or that it will not be terrifying, or that we will immediately be tugged to shore.
"He promises that we will not be left alone. He will keep watch with us in the night."
This book deals with grief, something that even the Church doesn't do well with, at times. As a people, at least in the Western world, we try to avoid grief. We try to control it. But, she says, " We control it as much as we control the weather."
"As a church, we must learn to slow down and let emptiness remain unfilled. We must make time for grief."
Tish spends a lot of time in the Psalms, here. And that's good, because almost every emotion known to man can be found in the Psalms. It happens to be my personal favorite book of the Bible, because it is full of prayers to which I can turn when I cannot come up with words of my own. I pray something from Psalms every day. And guess what! When David and the other psalmists dared to utter harsh words to God, He did not smite them! "Through the Psalms, he dares us to speak to him bluntly."
One of my favorite quotes from the book came from a refrigerator magnet. "Everything will be okay in the end. If it's not okay, it's not the end."
Through this book, and the Compline prayer, Tish Harrison Warren takes us through grief, work, anxiety; through sleeping, sickness, weariness, and dying; through suffering and affliction, and then, finally, through joy. "And all for Your love's sake."
I absolutely love this book. I will, most definitely read it again, and probably soon. Close to the end, the author says this, and I believe it sums it up nicely: "In the end, darkness is not explained; it is defeated. Night is not justified or solved; it is endured until light overcomes it and it is no more."
Edited to include my second review. I'm not erasing the first one, because I caught different things both times.
This is my second time to read this book, and I'm pretty sure it won't be my last. I decided to add this to my Lenten season reading list, and I have to say that I got even more out of this book than I did the first time through. That could have everything to do with the way God has been working in my life over the last month or so.
In this book, Tish Harrison Warren, Anglican priest (who now lives and ministers in Austin, TX), takes the traditional Compline prayer and breaks it down. The prayer goes like this: "Keep watch, dear Lord, with those who work, or watch, or weep this night, and give your angels charge over those who sleep. Tend the sick, Lord Christ; give rest to the weary, bless the dying, soothe the suffering, pity the afflicted, shield the joyous; and all for your love's sake. Amen."
The author gets about as real as possible in this book that starts out with her covered in blood in the ER of a hospital as she is having a miscarriage. She goes through this prayer one phrase at a time, examining what each phrase means and bringing it into real life.
The most powerful statement in the book, in my opinion, is the same one that grabbed me the first time, and that is that God cannot be trusted to keep bad things from happening to us.
Now, I know there are people who would probably be offended (or at least pretend to be) by that statement, but it is 100% true. I'm sorry if you don't agree with it. Actually, no, I'm not. Because God never promised to keep bad things from happening to us, and if you read Psalm 22, you will see that God didn't even keep bad things from happening to Himself!
But this is supposed to be a book review, not a theological treatise.
She speaks of practicing joy in the face of insurmountable odds. She speaks of something called a "prayer of indifference," and I confess that I do not remember this part from the first reading. But that is essentially Mary's prayer when told that she was about to be pregnant with the Son of God. "Behold, I am the servant of the Lord; let it be to me according to your word." Says Warren, "A prayer of indifference does not deny the goodness of desire, but it is a decision - as far as we are able - to desire God more. With this prayer, we ask to want whatever God wants." So powerful, and I think, perhaps, that I have already added that to my daily prayers, because I begin every prayer session by saying, "Your kingdom come, Your will be done, on earth, in my life, and in my heart, as it is in heaven."
Life is a great mystery, and "In the end, the only way to endure this mystery is to put the whole weight of our life on the love of God."
What makes me love Tish so much is her authenticity, and her humble willingness to let us see into the humanity of herself. She relates one time when, after having smudged a cross of ashes on some children in an Ash Wednesday service, spent the rest of the service sobbing in a side room. Because Ash Wednesday reminds us that we are mortal, that we are going to die. "Remember you are dust, and to dust you will return." We don't like to think about children dying.
In a big way, this book is a defense of praying pre-written prayers. Having grown up Southern Baptist, I was taught that our prayers should be ad-libbed, created on the spot, that reciting prayers wasn't authentic. I must say that I am very, very glad that I don't believe that anymore. Because I don't always know what to pray. And when I don't know what to pray, the Church says, "Here are some words. Pray them. They are strong enough to hold you. These will help your unbelief."
They are. And they do.
I recommend this book for anyone who wants to pray better, for anyone who wants to believe harder. And for anyone who is not afraid to be reduced to tears while reading a book. Thank you, Tish Harrison Warren, for writing this!