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577 pages, Kindle Edition
First published October 5, 2021
Frank and Scott went to an Indian restaurant the other night and took a picture of the menu, which offered what it called “a carnival of snackery.”
“What did people do before they took pictures of everything?” I whispered to Dawn as we accidentally invaded one photo after another. It was just as bad later on at what amounted to the Village of Yesteryear, a re-creation of a Bedouin encampment. There were a lot of Russians there, all raising their cell phones. The camera has replaced actual looking and turned life into evidence. It drives me crazy.
After wandering through bookstores yesterday, I went to the British Museum for a piece of cake. Beside me sat an English family with three children, the youngest of whom was in a wheelchair. The boy looked happy enough, but surely it was momentary. A pleasant half hour in the café and then it was back to a lifetime of being patronized and stared at. I was just admiring his bravery when his mother rolled him away from the table, and I saw that his leg was in a cast. Then I noted that the chair was a rental and put it together that he wasn’t crippled, just laid up for a few weeks. This sort of thing has happened before, and it always leaves me feeling betrayed — as if the child had intentionally aroused my pity.
At Marks and Spencer I emptied my basket onto the belt, saying, “I don’t need a bag, thank you.” Then I watched as my cashier, who wore a badge reading HEARING IMPAIRED, put my items into a bag and charged me ten p. for it. When we tell the disabled they can do anything they want in this world, don’t we mean that they can invent a new kind of alarm system or write a book about loneliness — something, well, that can be accomplished at home?
I saw in the Tribune that starting September 1, all Marriott hotels will go completely nonsmoking, meaning that I will never again stay at a Marriott. Also in the news is the continued bombing of Lebanon. Fifty children were killed on Saturday and because there’s no wood for coffins, wild dogs are eating their bodies.
I read that and thought, Really, all Marriotts will be nonsmoking?
“A man loses his soul when he has two houses or two women.” This is an old Italian proverb and though I’d love to reject it, I suspect that truer words were never spoken. It was Stefania who quoted it to me, and after it had sunk in, I asked if a man might regain his soul by having three houses.
“I don’t think it works that way,” she said.
“Four?”
I didn’t just turn older this year — I turned old. There wasn’t a specific single moment when I slipped over from middle age; rather, it was gradual, the change not so much physical as mental. There are so many things I don’t understand now. Our constant need to rebrand, for instance. Someone politely referred to me as “queer” not long ago, and I was like, Oh no, you don’t. I was queer in the 1970s, and that was enough for me.
