Jake’s been away for eleven years. He came to town to interview not telling anyone for fear that he might not get the position. Running into Aspen, both lonely, needy, and frustrated with life… it happened.
Aspen runs a private detective firm and had been hired by the bar owner to pretend to be an employee. She was working the bar and Jake played along in the charade. Staying until closing when he was the only one left in the place, they spoke candidly. She was getting out of a relationship that had soured and all he admitted was that he’d been recently rejected. It felt true after witnessing Terra with Tom. By three in the morning they were in his motel room, exorcising their ghosts.
Drunk, he decided to use Aspen as a distraction realising he might never get a real shot at dating Terra. Yes, one way to win her affection is being with her arch nemesis.
The night of Jake’s return celebration, Terra fired Tom as her unsupportive boyfriend. The same night Aspen announced her pregnancy to Jake, telling him the paternity is uncertain, there’s a fifty-fifty chance, it’s his.
Aspen was not a likeable character, she didn’t respect a twelve-year friendship, knowingly recognising that Terra had feelings for Jake: she is also pregnant and the father is engaged.
Mixed feelings of Jake dating Aspen while lusting after Terra, he didn’t seem to demonstrate an attraction to Terra. When did his feelings develop? He dated Aspen for a year, without regret, then eleven years later he falls onto her vagina, again. (Yes, certainly unrequited love).
Aspen and Terra were once friends and Aspen out of jealousy and pique broke the girl code and went after the boy her friend crushed on. Asking Jake to the prom, he said yes. Then they started dating crushing her eighteen year-old heart.
Terra has Lupus. She needs a kidney. No one else is a viable match.
“You cared?”
“Why the hell do you think Aspen ended up wearing spaghetti?”
“Is this finally the truth?”.”
“I still had a crush on you and she asked you to prom and I wanted to kill her. I knew you’d end up dating, which you did.”
“I would never have said yes if I knew that,” if I believed Terra still had an interest in me, I wouldn’t have dated Aspen.
“You seemed to hate me so much, I figured I lost my one and only chance and that you wouldn’t care if I dated Aspen or anyone for that matter,”
“I have a chronic illness. I’m really good at pretending,” she replies
“Aspen and I have been broken up for years, and you never—”
“Set myself up to be rejected again? I know you think it’s no big deal, that stupid game from Abbott’s sixteenth birthday party, but it was everything to me at the time. I had just found out I had lupus. I felt like damaged goods on top of the regular awkward teenage girl insecurities, and it took every ounce of courage I had to say your name that night. I wanted that perfect, normal kid moment with the hottest guy in school.”
Aspen had always felt envious of Terra’s life, the unconditional affection. Terra had parents who loved her, her brothers supported, adored and protected her, a town that seemed to know who she was everywhere she went, with an outpouring of affection for her. The only person to not love Terra Hawkins, was Jake. When he turned her down in that closet. She deviously orchestrated luring the unattainable Jake.
She asked him to prom and insinuated herself into his life.
“So you were using me to hurt her?”
“No. You were hot and sweet and I was totally, honestly into you, but I knew she was into you despite pretending that she hated you, I went for you anyway. Broke the girl code. Obliterated a twelve-year friendship. And in the end, I didn’t even get the guy.”
She’s hurt herself and she knows it. I was just kind of an unwitting pawn. Man, I was stupid. “Aspen, it’s never too late to try and mend fences.”
So, the senior year food fight that ruined their friendship was not about the prom dress but the prom date. Aspen is very blasé about her actions, as though she hasn’t been hiding it from him for a decade.
Jake’s childhood was a cycle of abandonment. He feels deeply, betrayal of exclusion drove him away, his confidence shaken. He believes people desert him despite his actions or feelings. He’s disposable. Unworthy. His feelings easily dismissed.
He almost kissed Terra on the beach but then spent the next several hours spiraling over the fact that he might have impregnated her sworn enemy and his ex-girlfriend, Aspen.
It’s been ten years since they dated, He hadn’t slept with her in eight years, and never would have thought to do it again if she wasn’t working undercover in the one bar he wandered into during an emotional tailspin.
Terra capitulates to Jake and unquestionably accepts and forgives. Other than expressing minor objections, her sworn enemy and herself were holding hands at the end of the book, without reservations.
I’ve been a fan of this writer’s work since ‘One More Shot’ unfortunately this one was not a favourite. Her books regularly incorporate OW and conflict.
I thought the characters were insipid and the intimacy was disjointed. At the end of the story Aspen and Terra mend fences, revealing the father of her unborn baby.
Told in dual POV, using a combination of past and present to depict the story.