Important themes, awkward execution
I’m not sure what to feel about this book. I can’t say I liked it, but at the same time, I think it covered really important mental health themes in a raw and honest way that isn’t often acknowledged in the urban fiction/ street lit genre. It touched on (Black) male mental health and suicidal ideation as well as (Black) female mental health and severe depression and the potential consequences of that. I thought those areas of the book were the strongest and mostly why this gets an extra star.
Admittedly, I chose to buy the extended edition for a more comprehensive story. I must say that this version is wayyyy too long- the main story is maybe 30% of this book, the remaining 70% was sex scenes interspersed with an extended epilogue for Israel and Hunter interspersed with more interesting stories that shows uld have been separated out for their own books e.g. Gavin and Trina’s story could have been really strong as a stand-alone not included in this book, and as the author hints in the Reading Guide questions at the end, Zac and Zo, and each of the parents could have had their own stories without muddying this one so much and making it so all over the place.
The premise of this story is that meta millionaire, Israel is the boss from he11 with a major attitude problem which he wreaks on his assistant Hunter. Hunter isn’t the one to be disrespected but the job pays fabulously well. When she agrees to play pretend fiancé to Israel at his family reunion, the lowkey feels between the two enemies spark and they find a deep and meaningful love that is at risk from their demons getting in the way.
I feel like even for an extended erotic edition, this was wayyy too long. In no way did this need to be over 500 pages. I didn’t really care for any of the characters- except perhaps Gavin. For the most part Israel (Issa) came across as very immature and that took away from the boss man vibe he was trying to put off, I didn’t buy it. Hunter was significantly younger and significantly more mature than him and still any rare lapses in her maturity could be explained by her age. Issa was just kind of an immature, reactive so-and-so who needed a bit more impulse control and perhaps some professional skills to cope. I don’t think Hunter being his reason was enough healing for his problems.
It was also kind of an ick to me that they were so constantly blazed (drunk and high) ALL BOOK in every situation. It was an ick that grown people near 40 drank to the puke point so regularly and then would in that drunk state get into their cars and drive crazily to wherever they were going. Issa was a judgey misogynist - he engaged in the exact same sort of behaviour that his former partners like Celine did but then he kind of was incredibly disrespectful to her in a s1ut-shamey sort of way when it was like “excuse me, who’s talking, the only difference between the two of you is that you have money.” I liked Issa and Hunter together even if they were a little wild, I think they were a cute couple more or less.
The amount of malapropisms meant I sometimes had to guess as to what the author meant. The layout also made it sometimes difficult to know what timeline we were on and/or who was talking. The insertion of other characters than the mains to have voices also complicated the whole story. Other than the honest and real coverage of the heavy themes which was done well, I didn’t really find this to be for me.