“Please, don’t kill her. I promise I won’t love her. So please… please don’t… take her away from me.”
“Rosentine. I had brought you into my life out of a momentary desire. Now, I am no longer out of your reach, and you are no longer the idol that pensively smiled like a portrait. You smile when you are happy, cry when you are sad, and you honestly reveal your anger. Out of fear and anxiety, you collapse under the weight of your emotions at times. Under that skin, there beats a heart as warm as my own. You showed me that you were the same as me, standing within an arm’s reach. How could I resist loving you?
“In a world where it’s impossible to for people to be whole, if we come to love the imperfections of another, and if even the many years spent running in circles pale in the presence of that illuminating light, would it be possible to keep oneself from being blinded by that love?”
“Now, there is only one way left… for me to protect you. If severing my feelings is the only way to keep you alive, then I will gladly tear my heart out for you, Rosentine.”
(Hope the quotes make someone pick this peak manhwa up)
I am sobbing my heart out. First thing I want to mention is simple; the art is absolutely breathtaking and gets so much better as the story progresses.
I started reading this more than a year ago but ended up dropping it because the plot was confusing. But now, having picked this up again, I realize that yes, I the story is extremely complex and hard to understand. But the story slowly unfolds itself as it goes along, so I’d recommend anyone who dropped it due to confusion to give it another shot.
Secret Lady is not a simple story about a girl being reincarnated into a different world and living happily ever after with her Prince, Duke or whatever. It’s so much deeper than that. Both the plot and the relationship between Rosentine and Charteris (our biggest yearner)
I don’t even know how to describe Charteris’ love for Rosentine because it is goes so deep. I can only say his love for him is extremely poetic. Everything he loves will be eventually be taken away from him, yet he cannot stop thinking about this young, bright girl who suddenly appeared in his life when he needed her the most.
As if subconsciously, he dumbs his feelings for this girl he met to merely a person he idolizes to keep her safe. Charteris was still a child and didn’t understand his own feelings, yet he was subconsciously protecting her. He only knew her name and face after all, right? And they’d only met once, so what if it was a hallucination? He sees Rosentine as an angel; beautiful and has a calming presence, yet not real, or so he thinks.
He’s been unconsciously yearning for her his entire life. And when a mysterious ‘old woman’ appears in his life one day, promising to protect him from his assassination attempts, he immediately knows this woman is the one he’s been waiting for to come to him on her own avail for so long.
As Roan (Rosentine) continues to make sacrifices for him despite herself not even knowing why (Gold :<), he can no longer deny his love for this woman now that she’s shown him that she too, has flaws and that she is not the perfect idol he pictured before.
Both Rosentine and Charteris have gone through so much. Rosentine could see ghosts in her past life too and that led to her being shunned by basically everyone, including her family. The one friend she gets, she loses almost immediately. She didn’t have anyone to confide in, to talk to. She lives alone with scars on both the outside and inside until she’s 20, and is killed by a car. So when she’s given a second chance with a loving family, she’ll do anything for them, the family she didn’t have in her first life.
Charteris wasn’t supposed to receive the golden blessing, since he already had an older brother. He’s young and doesn’t know about it, but he can see his parents both regret having him, since he was basically born to die. Much like Rosentine, he’s left alone, with no one to look out for him or for him to talk to. He believes everything bad that happens and the unhappiness of everyone he’s close to is his fault. He’s also physically and mentally abused by Mengher (idek if that’s how you spell it) throughout his childhood. But Gold decided to switch the blessing from Eswar to Charteris one day, and that makes Charteris’ burden even heavier. Now, he’s responsible for the inevitable death of his only brother, and everything he loves will eventually be taken from him.
I could honestly write so much about these two but I think this is enough. I hope the artist makes a full recovery and takes her time!!
Bonus: I LOVE Eswar so much. He clearly cares so much for his brother and isn’t holding the fact that he’s dying against Charteris even though Charteris has basically taken everything from Eswar. I also love Ranon, unfortunately…