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SHUT UP SAMANTHA
From the age of 3 to 17 years I was exposed to things that no child should ever be exposed to. Violence, neglect, theft and child sexual exploitation. All my childhood I tried to expose these men that had such a hold over me, but I was always shut down. “SHUT UP SAMANTHA!”“YOU DON’T NEED TO TALK SAMANTHA!” “YOU HAVE A BIG MOUTH SAMANTHA!” I constantly felt misunderstood throughout my childhood; it was like I was talking but nothing was coming out. I would scream, shout, smash things up, fight and run away. I needed a voice! My two older brothers groomed me from a very early age. One of them controlled me through love, and the other through fear. I now know how crazy this may sound to some people, but grooming is a long process and it doesn’t just happen overnight. I saw a side to them that no one else could see. I saw them broken, beaten on the floor, I saw them cry, I saw them unloved and misunderstood. They took the blame for me, so I didn’t get punished, they stole for me, so I didn’t have to, they loved, cherished and took care of me, when no one else would.
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Published April 11, 2021
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August 26, 2023
A Must Read for surviving Abuse
Anyone who read this and is not outraged at social services, Drs, schools, police officers….the community should be ashamed. I don’t think hell is worse than what Sam went through. How she found strength solely on her own with a few good friends along they way is remarkable. Raised wonderful children broke the cycle of abuse on her own. Can find forgiveness to go on and help others. This is the most tragic yet compelling book I have ever read. I pray the rest of Sam’s life has more peace than anyone deserves. Sam truly does need peace in her mind body and soul. Thank you for sharing what must have been heartbreaking to relive and truly unselfish to help others.
Anyone who read this and is not outraged at social services, Drs, schools, police officers….the community should be ashamed. I don’t think hell is worse than what Sam went through. How she found strength solely on her own with a few good friends along they way is remarkable. Raised wonderful children broke the cycle of abuse on her own. Can find forgiveness to go on and help others. This is the most tragic yet compelling book I have ever read. I pray the rest of Sam’s life has more peace than anyone deserves. Sam truly does need peace in her mind body and soul. Thank you for sharing what must have been heartbreaking to relive and truly unselfish to help others.
March 15, 2022
This book was heartbreaking.
The lack of support and safety for a child, left me feeling really angry and upset.
I’m sorry, you had to go through all this as a child and an adult, all those missed chances. I can’t imagine how you felt! 😔
You are a very strong person and not many people I know would be able to handle things like you did. This story was hard to read, but I felt like I needed to carry on to the end for you.
The book was so well written and I loved Samantha and her strength.
You deserved better.
5 stars - 🌟
The lack of support and safety for a child, left me feeling really angry and upset.
I’m sorry, you had to go through all this as a child and an adult, all those missed chances. I can’t imagine how you felt! 😔
You are a very strong person and not many people I know would be able to handle things like you did. This story was hard to read, but I felt like I needed to carry on to the end for you.
The book was so well written and I loved Samantha and her strength.
You deserved better.
5 stars - 🌟
March 3, 2022
Congratulations on finally getting help.
I was diagnosed with many things before I finally found two trauma therapists who gave me the truth of PTSD! It is hard coming to terms with that but to then have Chronic fatigue thrown at you, yeah it isn't easy and I know because I have been diagnosed with somethings similar which have left me unable to have the life I have ddreamed about, hang in there, every day will get better.
Thank you for your courage.
KF
I was diagnosed with many things before I finally found two trauma therapists who gave me the truth of PTSD! It is hard coming to terms with that but to then have Chronic fatigue thrown at you, yeah it isn't easy and I know because I have been diagnosed with somethings similar which have left me unable to have the life I have ddreamed about, hang in there, every day will get better.
Thank you for your courage.
KF
September 13, 2022
A stolen life yet to live is the most unforgettable sin .
This book kept me in tears . Yet I could not wait to pick it up again . The strength to go day
by day and live through such terrible sexual abuse at the age of 3 . Then for it to continue to over 20 some years . So many missed opportunities for someone to help . .Sam never gave up .This story will remain with me for ever .
This book kept me in tears . Yet I could not wait to pick it up again . The strength to go day
by day and live through such terrible sexual abuse at the age of 3 . Then for it to continue to over 20 some years . So many missed opportunities for someone to help . .Sam never gave up .This story will remain with me for ever .
March 19, 2023
Great read
Its sad that children go through things like this and don't know how to tell someone especially at such a young age. But its really BAD when they do tell someone and that person does nothing to help. My wish is it never happens to another child but that's only wishful thinking. I just PRAY that if a child tells you what's happening to them you do something to help that precious child
Its sad that children go through things like this and don't know how to tell someone especially at such a young age. But its really BAD when they do tell someone and that person does nothing to help. My wish is it never happens to another child but that's only wishful thinking. I just PRAY that if a child tells you what's happening to them you do something to help that precious child
April 14, 2023
finally you got your chance to speak
I could not put this book down, I was rooting for you to find peace, happiness and speak about what happened to you.
I could relate to some of what you had written especially the part about ‘you normalise you family life’ because you think this how it is ment to be.
I am glad I read this book it gave me hope that no matter what you go through it can be overcome.
Thank you for sharing, god bless
I could not put this book down, I was rooting for you to find peace, happiness and speak about what happened to you.
I could relate to some of what you had written especially the part about ‘you normalise you family life’ because you think this how it is ment to be.
I am glad I read this book it gave me hope that no matter what you go through it can be overcome.
Thank you for sharing, god bless
April 28, 2023
Incredible story!!
This story was so moving, sad, and overwhelming at times. I am so thrilled that she is getting the help that she has needed for so long. How her own brothers could do this to an INNOCENT child is UNBELIEVABLE!!!. I think they both should have their peckers CUT OFF!!.
This story was so moving, sad, and overwhelming at times. I am so thrilled that she is getting the help that she has needed for so long. How her own brothers could do this to an INNOCENT child is UNBELIEVABLE!!!. I think they both should have their peckers CUT OFF!!.
December 3, 2022
Shut up Samantha
A powerful story . Great read . It makes me so angry to read these stories . How a family can disregard what a child is saying is unfathomable. Listen to our children ..........
A powerful story . Great read . It makes me so angry to read these stories . How a family can disregard what a child is saying is unfathomable. Listen to our children ..........
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June 10, 2023Great book
Great but difficult read at times due to situations what this courageous lady endured. I tip my hat to you for how you've turned your life around continue with the great support for fellow survivors all the best.
Great but difficult read at times due to situations what this courageous lady endured. I tip my hat to you for how you've turned your life around continue with the great support for fellow survivors all the best.
November 24, 2025
Heartbreaking
So sad, but so powerful! Sam’s strength is inspiring. I wish just one person would have listened. They had every chance to help her. Just one person could have saved her. So sad.
So sad, but so powerful! Sam’s strength is inspiring. I wish just one person would have listened. They had every chance to help her. Just one person could have saved her. So sad.
July 24, 2022
Excellent book!
The story was well written. I am sorry Samantha went through this. I highly recommend this if you can handle the content.
The story was well written. I am sorry Samantha went through this. I highly recommend this if you can handle the content.
February 11, 2023
Shocking, heartbreaking Samantha is a strong woman raped from childhood by her brothers gang raped by strangers and never believed. This book will always stay with me
June 15, 2024
Beautifully written
This book is wonderfully written and so powerful.
I'm glad Sam is in a "better" place now. Worth the read.
This book is wonderfully written and so powerful.
I'm glad Sam is in a "better" place now. Worth the read.
October 1, 2024
A must read
A book that you don't want to put down. I did cry a few times for her and that no one wanted to listen to her. That's all I'm going say so I won't give to much up.
A book that you don't want to put down. I did cry a few times for her and that no one wanted to listen to her. That's all I'm going say so I won't give to much up.
November 6, 2025
Gut wrenching
Such a sad upbringing. Breaks my heart. But your resilience and strength shine through! Nobody should have to endure that! Nobody!
Such a sad upbringing. Breaks my heart. But your resilience and strength shine through! Nobody should have to endure that! Nobody!
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