For as long as I could remember, I’d had a fear of abandonment. With the exception of my two best friends, Beckett and Ayden, I closed myself off from the world. Loving two boys unconditionally didn’t come without its problems, but my love for them never frayed. At least not until the rope we entwined for ourselves was forced to snap. We were inseparable—until we weren’t. “If love were enough it would save you in every lifetime.” Those are the words my mum lived by. In hindsight, those words were a lesson. One I’d learn much later on, when the world around me crumbled and my fear of abandonment reminded me of its existence. I made bad choices. I lost sight of who I used to be. They say there’s two sides to every story, but in this story— there’s three.
Jessica Grace is a British author of New Adult Romance. When she's not adulting, you'll find her one of two ways. With her head in a book—nursing a cup of tea, or procrastinating to songs from her youth, thinking of all the stories she wants to write but is yet to put on paper.
I think the main reason why love triangles are so brutally slaughtered is mainly bcos people ultimately judge and choose a fav. I mean, when you see your fav character ruining his life 😒 being the wasteland on a freaking desert. You know you are just wasting on your beauty sleep.
● The heroine was the epitome of what I usually ignore but this being the love triangle it was ( OR I THOUGHT) ugh.. why not give it a try. But guess what ??
wishy ~ washy. The googly eyes for one guy shit.. God, if only he would man up himself.
Side note: this book helped me to remind myself to steer clear from the similar roads ahead.
● See, I prefer men who are vocal about their feelings. and our precious hero was no where near that...
When he just disappears into thin air for 3 months with no contact. I just hated how she wallowed intoher own cocoon of misery, counting down days without him and fucking her bf, supposedly to feel something.
See, I had no problem with B being a manwhore, let him fuck anything with a skirt. But the way the girl acted like... Idk being stupidly jealousy and annoying .. lets just say I wanted her to put her big girl panties and let him just be.
● Was misleading ; thought the girl loved both of the guys like mentioned but suprise. ..Not
● i just couldn't connect with the characters. And the romantic connection to me was pretty must lost. 26 chps in and I know who the hero is. Iol, i would have to brainless not to figure this out.
●So many stupid choices, and given the fact that they were in their teens, it was very obvious. But then, I didn't wanted to compromise again when I had been doing that all along.
This book was a fucking rollercoaster, I mean it. A lot of feelings going on during the reading, but I loved it.
I'm not a big fan of love triangle and at the beginning I was afraid of it. But Jessica got through this with such a great job that I ended the book questioning myself if I really hated this trope.
I really liked that we have three points of view here, it was so good to understand what was happening and all the feelings they felt for each other.
Clementine is so strong, in ways she can't even imagine, and she have two best friends and an amazing mom that make her life better. Beckett is finding out who he want to be and how could he get through his current situation with your feelings and your family. And Ayden is a dick most of time (and sometimes I hate him because of it), and I know he have reason to be an asshole, but maybe he had given up too soon.
All three of them are teenagers with childhood traumas, and none of them had an "easy" life, the author gives us a real thing here. I connected a lot with their stories and my heart was heavy the whole book, it was a great experience! It's a story of relationships, losses and growth.
Jessica’s debut novel When I’m Gone was an absolute emotional roller coaster of a book and I found myself living for every ounce of angst, pain, and loss experienced by the characters.
While I don’t want to go into detail about this book because everything running through my mind right now is a spoiler. So instead I’ll just say that this is a Love Triangle that didn’t feel like “too much” of a love triangle.
Our heroine Clementine wasn’t flighty or manipulative as some love triangle heroines can be she was just a no nonsense girl who was unwilling to admit the way she was feeling to her best friends.
And as for our leading men I’m going to be even more vague, because again not tryin to spoil anything! B and Ayden are each so unique, but in some ways they are so similar. (Vague enough for y’all💀😂)
The three of them are as close as any friends can be, but sometimes friends don’t always stay just friends, and feelings and stress can get in the way of friendship.
Thank you Jessica for sending me an ARC! I’m thrilled to be alongside you on your author journey, I’ll be here for all the books to come! 🖤
Wow Jess really put my heart through it with this one! I wasn’t expecting to be going to Alton Towers but that was an intense rollercoaster of emotion I just endured!
Love triangle storylines send me down a long winding road of anxiety because you’re always confused who you should be rooting for, always on tender hooks, desperate to know who endgame will be. And yes, this story gave me exactly every feeling I just described but it felt SO good! I knew exactly what I wanted from this and BAM! Jessica throws a curve ball in our face fucking up the whole dynamic which took it to a whole new level, something way beyond a measly love triangle. I also went in very blind to this and it definitely made my whole reading experience!
When I said my heart went through it I truly meant it. I felt all soppy then within seconds I was FUMING. Then I was like aww cute, then I’m voice noting pure poison down the phone. My heart just could not keep up with what was being thrown at me and it felt truly heavy (in the best way).
The characters are loveable (Ayden can suck my dick a little though 👀😂) and they all have trauma that have impacted their lives but it’s shaped them to be who they are. Ayden sent me on a warpath and I disliked him more than I liked him but I could understand. Clementine was rather relatable and fuck she was drowning for so much of this story my heart strings were truly tugging for her. And Beckett.. well you can just come and live with me forever please and thank you. The plot is so character driven and it definitely makes the story so memorable!
If you’re looking for a romance that will tear your heart out, shatter it to a few pieces, set it on fire to then be extinguished for some brief moments this book is your baby! Hahahaa! Thank you so much Jess for giving me an ARC of this beauty!💕 5 ★ ★ ★ ★ ★
This book is an emotional rollercoaster, it truly is. It tugged at my heartstrings in all kinds of ways and kept breaking it piece by piece. It's a whirlwind that is so raw and real. It's heart-wrenching but absolutely beautiful. It throws curveballs at you and messes with your feelings in the process. And when you think it can't possibly get worse for these characters it just does. It hurt and my heart broke for these broken lost souls who found their way into my heart.
Clementine, Ayden and Beckett have all had at least partly a shitty childhood. Their lives haven't been easy and even now little by little life threatens to destroy them. They go through hell and back in the most heart-wrenching ways. They are such cinnamon rolls!
This is definitely character driven and it's done brilliantly. I felt for them as if they were real and cared for them so much from the very beginning. I absolutely love their dynamic and how they've grown together, always being there for each other. There's something shifting between them and their friendship, and it has slowly been happening for a while as these new feelings have risen to the surface.
I'm not one to be drawn for love triangles but wow this is exceptional. And oh boy was I conflicted throughout the whole story, never knowing who I wanted to root for, I basically changed my mind every other minute. But most of all I just wanted them all to be happy and they deserve all the happiness the world could give.
They are far from perfect and make mistakes, as does everyone, that will have you want to shake some sense into them but you can completely understand why. And also at the same time you'll just want to wrap them in your arms and reassure that they wouldn't hurt forever. They simply hit differently on the feels! And the writing is simply so damn beautiful and poetic.
This is a tear-jerker for sure. I had moments where I literally had to stop reading because I couldn't see the words in front of me behind the tears. And that ending had me with tears rolling down my cheeks and at the same time a smile on my lips. I was a hot mess. And just wow, what an incredible journey.
When I'm Gone is an astonishing story that you can truly feel deep in your heart and soul!
"I knew the extent of us and everything we endured. We were made for each other. In love and unafraid."
*I received this ARC from the author but the thoughts are completely my own.*
When I'm Gone is Jessica Grace's debut novel and it's also one of my anticipated reads for this month. I absolutely loved reading this one! And I can easily say that, When I'm Gone happens to be one of my favorite April reads. Normally, I'm not a huge fan of multiple POVs (more than two-three) I find it a bit tiring to keep up. However, in this storyline it was definitely needed and Jessica Grace did a fantastic job in executing this plot. I'm happy that I had an insight from these characters, to see it from their perspectives. A read that would get you hooked from the very first page; a storyline that unfolds phenomenally in front of your very eyes. A whirlwind of emotions; Jessica Grace's writing technique heightens all your senses and emotions. I felt like I was right there in that exact moment. A character driven book; an emotional journey of three best friends. A heart felt read; a page turner that will keep you wanting to read more. I highly recommend this book!
In a way, When I'm Gone could be seen as a love triangle. It's multiple POV, narrated from Clementine's, Beckett's and Ayden's perspective. Three best friends, two friends who deeply care about Clementine, but their feelings are more than platonic. And as they grew older, this caused a strain on Beckett and Ayden's friendship. Of course, Clementine isn't aware of this, thinking that it has to do with something else. Clementine was harboring feelings for Beckett for so many years, yet neither of them had made a move, until now. Ayden can see that Clementine and Beckett have feelings for each other, but that doesn't stop his feelings for Clementine. He is hoping that one day she could feel the same way about him. Ayden and Beckett come from different walks of life, yet they can easily relate to one another. Their home living environment is less than perfect. Both of them don't have a great relationship with their fathers and they find solace in Clementine's presence. Clementine has trust and abandonment issues; she doesn't show this very often, when she does this Clementine see it as a sign of vulnerability. Hence besides Ayden and Beckett she doesn't really have any other friends. I don't want to give too many spoilers away, but towards the second half of the book, the turn of events drastically changes Clementine's life. However, you could say that all them were experiencing hardships in their own ways. She turns to Ayden, while she's longing Beckett to be there for her. You'll see a couple of plot twists. Looking forward to reading Addison's (Beckett's sister) book! Cannot wait to read more work from this amazing author!
Three best friends: Clementine, Ayden and Beckett grew up together. They live in the same area, yet Beckett's life is completely different from Clementine's and Ayden's, social status. Yet this doesn't stop them from being good friends. Ayden and Beckett don't really get along with each other. You could say that the main reason they put up with each other is for Clementine sake. Two young man who are deeply in love Clementine. She deeply cares for both of them, yet her heart beats for one; she yearns for his affection.
**I received an ARC in exchange for my honest review
When I’m Gone by Jessica Grace is a love triangle between a group of three best friends. Clementine, Beckett. and Ayden who grew up together. While Clementine and Ayden belong to similar social status, Beckett does not which should put a damper on their friendship, but they are still pretty good friends. As all three grow up, Ayden and Beckett come to realize they have feelings for Clementine which strains their relationship. Both love Clementines, but she has only had eyes for one.
When I’m Gone is a fabulous debut! This is a heartbreaking, tear-jerking, and intense roller coaster of emotions. These characters have had traumatic paths which have molded them into the people they are. As a reader, you’ll feel every single one of these character’s emotions and it may have you bawling at times. This story deals with some very real and important topics and it’s not just a love story. This book tells the evolution of these characters through their point of view. I really enjoyed reading this well-written novel which features realistically flawed characters you will find relatable. I’m anxiously awaiting more from this author!
I wasn't sure a live triangle was going to be my cup of tea but buy did I eat this one up!
The writing pulls you in and takes your heart. I can not believe this is this authors debut! I loved getting each characters POV, I like feeling all their emotions.
I can't wait to read more from this author and if you haven't yet you abso-freaking-lutely must read this!!
This was such an incredible, heart-wrenching read. The author portrayed the characters and their flaws beautifully. It explored some deep and heavy themes, but was done so well, with care and detail. I couldn't put it down and am still thinking about it days later.
This is the most real thing I've read in a long while. My heart is in shreds and I feel like I'm a teen navigating the world again with every constraint pulling at me.
Until I'm gone follows a trio of friends united by memories that keep them glued together, because other than their hometown they have little in common, and yet this is was draws them to one another. They all have struggles and are fighting to battle those as they become lost to hormones, love, life and the actions of their parents.
This story deals and highlights very real issues such as drug abuse and family issues. It is written from multiple POV’s allowing you to get it the head of each character. We witness their progress, their downfalls and my heart felt it all.
I didn't want it to end and at times I didn't want to read on too cut up by emotion.
A fantastic debut, I can't wait for more from this author
I was super excited to read Jessica’s story since she was one of the first accounts that I became mutuals with when I made my bookish account Instagram last year. And I have to say that I’m glad I’m here now talking about her debut book because she really is the talent.
The story was so amazing and I couldn’t put the book down because I just had to know what was about to happen next. It was definitely darker than I imagined but that’s why I loved it so much. I was also a little afraid of this being the typical love triangle that would make me frustrated but it wasn’t like that. It was all about emotions and unspoken feelings and all of it was perfectly written.
As I don’t want to give out spoilers, I will just say that each character is very special and the book would be nothing if any of them wasn’t there. Beckett, Ayden and Clementine seemed to be similar on the outside, yet inside they were different and I enjoyed to see how it started standing in their friendship. I never saw anything coming and I really enjoyed their journey. I particularly liked to see the change in Beckett because I’m always obsessed with character’s growth in books.
I definitely recommend reading this without knowing much (of course, keep the triggers in mind). It’s honestly such a great story and I can’t wait to read more from Jessica.
I picked this book up after the author posted a quote on Tiktok and I figure why not, I was in the mood for a book that was realistic and i actually got a book the was deeply relatable as well as realistic growing up seeing instances of the characters lives around me made the book flow easily.
When I'm Gone circle's around the main character Clementine, we see so much development and it is heart breaking to read and feel all that emotion through the pages. I'm glad the way it ended and would have been diasapointed if it ended any other way. A great first read from this author.
This book contains some triggers but nothing too bad in my opinion.
When I'm Gone was a brilliant debut novel. A love triangle full of heartbreak, angst and explosive passion.
Clementine, Beckett and Ayden are all broken in their own way.
There is alot going on in this story. Abandonment issues, drug addiction and toxic home lives.
They are just three innocent children who form a firm friendship early on in life.
But as they get older, jealousy soon becomes an issue and tensions arise between the boys.
How does that old saying go? 'Twos company, three's a crowd? ' Yep, that defiantly became apparent as they all tried to understand their complicated relationship and feelings.
How long would it take for the tide to take me away? How many stairs was it to heaven? Clementine was a lost soul at times. As her life started to unravel, I could do nothing but watch as she went on a downward spiral.
Ayden loved her. But he was no good for her.
Beckett loved her. But he could never quite find the courage to admit how he felt.
A bond that would inevitably break at some point. And when it all goes down, wow! The anguish and pain could be felt from all three. The love and toxicity was a force to be reckoned with! And I couldn't get enough!
I'm glad there's going to be another book in the future as although this doesn't end on a cliffhanger as such, I think there is so much more to explore with all three of these characters. I will be keeping my eyes peeled for the follow up to this intense love story!
I highly enjoyed Jessica Grace’s debut novel! I’m such a sucker for a really honest, well-told, realistic love triangle and this one had me anxiously turning the pages (digitally!) to see what would happen next! Clementine, Ayden, and Beck’s twisted story was so well done, the passion and love between the guys and her was easily felt through the pages. I loved the author's writing style and will definitely be reading more by her.
Everything I thought I knew was wrong. Everything I thought I could fix, I couldn’t.
What an amazing - and I can not stress this enough - AMAZING debut from Jessica Grace. I was really apprehensive going into this one, stressing right away from page one, but as I read, I realized that this isn’t your typical love triangle story, and so I was extremely glad I read this cause it was everything and more.
These characters are so much more than they seem, so much more than the others even realize. In When I’m Gone, we meet Clementine, Beckett, and Ayden; three best friends who are struggling to not become the products of their own environment and surviving because they have one another. These characters owned my heart from the beginning and will most likely own yours right away as well. There were moments when a certain character annoyed me a bit more than others, but I still felt for him all the same. You really see true struggles in this book. These characters are so relatable, cause they don’t act perfect, nor do they think so.
These are childhood friends turned to lovers. At no point was this ever MFM, it was solely MF, and the slow burn leading up to it all made it feel so right. There’s the conflict of self doubt, self worth, manipulation, hatred and hurt. It’s so extremely hard to write this review, because this is one book that you just need to go in completely blind.
In the book, there’s talk about the five stages of grief: denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and acceptance. Those stages alone fit this book and these characters to a ‘T’.
When I’m Gone is raw and real. It’s extremely angsty and so beautifully written for a debut. I was hooked from the start and I’m hooked for the next book. When I’m Gone doesn’t necessarily end in a cliffhanger, since it ends with an HEA of two of the characters, but one of the boy’s stories does continue and I cannot wait to read his.
I enjoyed this book immensely. Fans of Molly McAdams will likely love this. I felt mad, happy, angry and fed up. Some things could have been explained better between the characters but all in all it was well worth the read. Definitely not YA.
"Sometimes love isn't enough for people to stay. Life isn't as easy as loving someone and everything else working out the way you want it to."
Not gonna lie, I was scared of reading this one since I'm not the biggest fan of the trope but boy was I glad I gave it a shot. This book was nothing like I thought it was going to be. It was so much more than just a love triangle story and I loved it! And even though I was unsure about starting this book, after a couple of chapters I was so into it that I didn't want it to end.
"This place was killing me. Slowly. One day at a fuckin' time."
When I'm Gone hurts, it's not an easy story, it's painful, heartbreaking but also oh so fulfilling. It brings to light some heavy and important topics that really need to be talked more about. Life is not perfect, it's challenging, it's painful, it's hard. People make mistakes as a way to cope with things or because that is all they really know and I loved that this book didn't shy away from showing us that. Life can get ugly but it's never too late to turn it into something beautiful.
"People tend to be the way they were because they fell short of any other option."
Here our main characters are 3 friends. Clementine, Ayden and Beckett. They are all well developed characters that play a huge role in this story. In different ways they all come from messed up childhoods that really molded them into who they are in the present. It's hard to fight back against all you have ever known, it's difficult and they did struggle. In all honesty they all frustrated me at different points in the story but I could always see where they were coming from and that's the beauty of it. They are raw, they are real and so relatable. They spend a good part of the book at their lowest but the good thing about that is that you have more space to grow and do better and they did that. After finishing the book I can truly say I liked all three of them and was really happy how it all played out.
"It seems the three of us were good at making bad choices."
I don't want to give anything away because with this book it's really best to go in blind so you can really feel all the emotions that come with it like I did. But what I will say is that even though I don't usually like love triangles I loved this book, so if you are like me do give it a try anyways. Maybe it will convert you like it did me lol. Lastly I want to say that Jessica's writing was amazing, I can't believe it was her debut novel. I'm looking forward to more of her book and hopefully a certain someone's story soon.
This one will definitely pull at your heart strings. A love triangle romance between life long best friends. Clem, Beckett & Ayden were bonded at a young age, but as they grow their dynamic changes and evolves around them, none of them sure how best to handle it.
Each of them are broken in their own way, their sharp edges causing pain to each other without intention. I felt their pain, could see their coping mechanisms for what they were and wanted to shake each of them whenever they reacted in ways I knew would backfire.
This isn't a light read, there are difficult topics handled in this story. But it is a page turner and will have you hooked from the very start. Jessica's writing is amazing, especially considering this is her debut and she will have you feeling so many mixed emotions throughout this.
The story is light on steam, but it doesn't need it. Its just right for the characters and in its place it is full of tension, angst and chemistry 🔥 They say bad luck comes in threes, well bad luck (and in some cases bad decisions) hit all three of our best friends at the same time, crashing their worlds and their relationships into uncertainty. When everything's changed and everyone's broken, can they find something to hold on to and help them heal or will they be fractured beyond repair?
When I’m Gone follows Clementine and her two best friends, Ayden and Beckett. Having partially grown up together, nearly their whole lives, they are extremely close knit. Family. But there’s this tug creeping in the background—for all of them. A love that isn’t easily tossed to the side, forming a triangle that gets messy and more complicated over time. • Wow. I mean, that’s really all I can come up with. This book put me through the ringer. The constant back and forth of my emotions. I absolutely loved every minute reading this debut novel from @jessicagraceauthor! I enjoyed her writing style, and how she brought life to her characters and the world around them. At times, I forgot I that I was reading a book and not going into my own memories.
Clem and her boys have imprinted heavily on my heart. I truly felt the push and pull between them. The bond and the love they shared. Their love is true, unbreakable—no matter what. And it shows. Beckett and Ayden both stole my heart for different reasons. I loved them both. Each in their own ways. I can’t wait to hear how the story continues!
Who doesn't love a good love triangle, but holy heck my heart has been through the ringer. A beautiful and heart wrenching journey all with pasts that haunt them!
Clementine is a soul to be wreckened with. She is completely different to any female character I've read before and you really connect with her and feel every damn emotional. B & Ayden are both similar yet indifferent, i can't choose honestly there both swoonworthy material.
There relationship and dymanics leave you being pulled in a billion directions and HOT DAMN twists and turns I never saw coming...but my lips are sealed!
My jaw was firmly hanging wide open and i am emotionally and physically left speechless. This is a must read on your list!!
This book has been on my TBR FOREVER and I am kicking myself for not reading it sooner. It was so good. I loved every page and couldn’t read it quick enough!
It follows Clementine, Beckett & Ayden. Three people who have been friends since childhood. They have all had vastly different upbringings but their friendship has remained a constant throughout, although as they get older the evidence and consequences of those childhood differences play out.
There is a lot of complicated emotions in this book and it’s definitely a hard read at times. It deals with grief, death, drug abuse, suicidal thoughts & more. It’s written so well and told in such a beautiful way.
Clem was such a strong character who had been dealt a rough hand but still strived to come out on top, Beckett had a privileged childhood but with that came restrictions and expectations that he struggled with. Ayden had a really tough time and his demons were much harder to fight. They were three very strong characters I I adored.
This was such a good book and I really wish I’d read it sooner! Can’t believe it was a debut for Jess! Amazing 💫
Many congratulations to the author for her debut book, 'When I'm Gone'. As a fellow Brit I am so proud of you, of this, for representing. She gives us a unique take on the vicious cycle of drug abuse and unsustainable it brings.
Her trio starts with a child's friendship that is untarnished by sexual tension and the unattainable. As they mature, feelings get messy, dynamics change and love is unrequited. Three's a crowd. Years of childish memories are only what bind them.
Jessica, this book brought out such raw emotion. I was so wrapped up in Ayden, I found myself on the precipice how his story would end.
I look forward to what else you bring and how you evolve as an author.
Jessica Grace wrote characters that are embedded in your heart after you finish the first chapter. It was a glimpse into my teenage years and I loved how she got me invested so quickly. They make stupid choices, like teenagers do, and I love them for it even more. And like for almost every teenager, they have their own situations to deal with when life throws them a few curveballs over the summer. At the end of the rollercoaster ride she will have you in tears of happiness and sadness at the same time. I can't really say anything without spoiling it all, but I just hope we will see more of these characters in the future!
'When I'm Gone' is a love triangle story. It involves three friends two from the wrong side of the tracks Clementine and Ayden, and one rich kid Beckett. As they grow into adulthood the boys both fall in love with Clem, but Clem only loves the forbidden one Beck. The three struggle with abandonment issues from their childhood with a fear of not being enough. The angsty story will pull on your emotions as it is tumultuous, and heartbreaking in multiple ways. It has a poignant h.e.a. ending. It was an excellent read from this first time author.
I received a free copy of this book via Booksprout and am voluntarily leaving a review.
An absolutely amazing debut novel by Jessica Grace! Packed with all the angsty goodness I love in a book, I was immersed from beginning to end! Seriously, it was really hard to put this one down!
Clementine, Ayden and Beckett were all best friends growing up; however, there was a slight wrinkle in their friendship because Ayden was in love with Clementine, but Clementine was in love with Beckett, and so the love triangle began!
Well-written love triangles are probably my favorite trope, and this one is now one of my all-time favorites! I absolutely loved it, and I will definitely be reading more books by this author! Highly recommended with more than five stars!
When I'm Gone by Jessica Grace is Grace's first novel and what a great piece of work it was! I loved the authors writing and the multiple POV's that is a risk from this author but a mighty good one. This was an emotional read with lots of ups and Dows/ twists and turns which all came together to form a lovely story. This was a page turner that I read within a couple of days.
I received a free copy of this book via Booksprout and am voluntarily leaving a review.
I cannot believe this is the first book written by this amazing author. While it’s her debut, I’m certain there is much more to come from her.
Beautiful angst from page one, the book had me yearning for more with every flip of the page. It’s insightful and gripping. True character development had you feeling the depth of their personal struggles and tumultuous relationships.
If you love Angsty Romance - this book is full of it!
A beautifully written book with flawed characters who unfortunately can’t save each other from themselves. I love the childhood flashbacks. They draw the reader into the friendship.
WHEN IM GONE is the kind of story that you think you know. Clementine, Ayden and Beckett had me invested in the rollercoaster that they built, it's deep and takes you through things that pull, break and mend your heart and soul.
No spoils but hard to believe that the writing is from a debut author. I received an ARC for an honest and voluntarily review.