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Published July 5, 2021
“If it was going anywhere, he wouldn’t be with another woman right now.”
I was ready to do the same and came close to me signing this kid’s life away before I realised what a selfish bitch I was being. I forgot to take the pill . . . numerous times . . . so now I have to face the consequences.
“Something is going on, and he’ll know when he sees the newspaper,” says Jacob. “You honestly think Lake reads newspapers?” I ask. “Good point.”
(SEZ OW) I’m relaxed but hard as hell. My sub for the evening is satisfied and sleeping beside me, curled in a ball. Her ass is too sore for her to lay on her back. I admire the red marks across her peachy skin. Sara’s face enters my mind, and I glance at my phone. It’s three in the morning and there’s still nothing.
Lying on her back, I can see the outline of a small, neat bump. Fuck, how the hell did I miss that? Shit, we must have only hooked up a month ago and I never even felt a swelling.
(OM) “Don’t wake up the boyfriend, I’m not in the mood for a fight.” I slowly remove my hand, and she glares up at me.
“I was going to get rid of it,” she says, and I scoff at her lies. “I was,” she insists. “Ask Tillie, she was with me. I was about to sign the paperwork and I couldn’t do it.” “You should have taken me, I would have signed it for you!” I hiss, and she recoils slightly. “You know I don’t want kids.”
“I didn’t either,” she snaps. “I’m still not sure I do, but I couldn’t go through with a termination, so here we are. I don’t want anything from you. Not money, not contact. You can go on like this never happened.”
“It’s why I use gags,” I admit. “Avoid the talking.”
(OM) “I might have to go to Six tonight and get this out of my system.” Jacob glares at me. “No,” he says firmly. He hates Six. It’s a place where like-minded people can go and safely take part in kink. It’s where we both began our journey as a Dom/sub.
(OM) “Are you going off to play?” I ask. “I’m here to watch you,” he says, glaring at me with those stern eyes. I raise my eyebrows suggestively, and he scowls. “I mean to keep an eye on you because your head’s not in the right place, which is the exact reason I’m not taking your bait.”
(SEX OW) I turn slowly and stare into Lake’s eyes. Beside him stands a pretty, little, short-haired blonde. She’s dressed in a leather bodice, making me shudder. I hate leather. Her head remains bowed, and he’s holding her hand.
“What are you doing here?” “Same as you, I should imagine,” I retort, resisting the urge to roll my eyes.
“Sara, he’s gonna be having sex with someone else. Are you ready for that?” I shake my head. “No, but maybe it’ll help me move on.”
(SEX OW) Maisy is new to this game and new to the club. She’s a club girl that Raven introduced because she needed a place to stay. We had a night together and she enjoyed some of my fucked-up shit, which is rare to find these days.
“Are you in a relationship with him?” I growl, slamming the door. “A Dom/sub thing or real?” she asks. “Either . . . both,” I snarl. “No. He’s my friend.” That eases my jealousy a little, and I nod. “You fuck him?” “Yes,” she admits, and I’m straight back to raging.
“Like you fuck me?” I snap. “You weren’t that memorable, so I can’t compare,” she says with a smirk.
She’s fucking hot. I withdraw and push back in, feeling the orgasm building. I slow my thrusts as I burst into her mouth, filling it with cum.
“Now, go back to your Master,” I growl in her ear before pushing her towards the door.
She might say she don’t want you involved, but I saw the way she used to watch you when she stayed at the club with Tillie. Brother, don’t you wanna take care of this kid?” I shift uncomfortably. “I never wanted kids,” I admit.
She’s still new to it while I have years of experience, but I could train her to be my perfect sub. Then, when I think of a baby thrown into the mix, my blood runs cold. Two-point-four children was never what I had planned for my life.
“I’m good with her decision,” I admit, and she stares at me open-mouthed. “I’ve never wanted kids.”
(SEX OW) Maisy: Please, Sir, I need you now. You promised me a whole night and you said to be here by 6:30.
He isn’t even mine, so how can it be cheating? My situation with Lake doesn’t compare to my parents.
I pick up his phone just to torture myself some more. Lake: Be there in 20 minutes. Be naked and in position or you’ll pay.
A picture message then comes up, and I want to throw the phone. It’s a selfie of her, the same girl he was with at Six . . . in leather underwear . . . on her knees. She must be his sub, and stupid me for not asking if he was free and single.
“No problem. I’ll come back later,” he says. I shake my head. “No, it’s fine. I was gonna tell you that Jacob is staying with me tonight, so it’s worked out good.” “You’ll need cream on your wounds. I’ll come back later.”
“You checked my phone,” he says suspiciously. “You saw she’d texted me.” I feel my cheeks redden, but I don’t bother to deny it. “You promised her a night, so spend it with her. I’ll be fine,” I say, adding a smile.
“So, you’re together?” he asks. I shake my head sadly. “The worst thing is, it hurts me way more than I want it to. Tonight, he’s with a woman, the same one from Six.” “He’s her Dom?” “I think so, although he told me he wasn’t looking for a sub right now.”
“Maybe he isn’t looking cos he has one already!” I nod. “I never thought of that.”
Jacob smiles sadly before pulling me into his arms. “Oh, Sara,” he whispers. “He took care of you, clearing up another Dom’s mess. If it was going anywhere, he wouldn’t be with another woman tonight.”
Maisy was not impressed when I wouldn’t have sex with her earlier tonight. I left her satisfied, but for some reason, I couldn’t bring myself to fuck her.
“Friends?” repeats Lake, raising a brow. I wince at his pissed expression and try to convey my feelings through my eyes. “Ouch. And after I turned down Maisy so I could come back here and tend to your back.”
“Let’s be honest, it’s not like we were exclusive. You had other partners.” I shake my head. “No, I didn’t. It was just you, Lake. For a long time, it’s been just you.”
My heart rate speeds up at the thought of having Sara here at the club. I glance over at Maisy, who’s watching the kids for the ol’ ladies. Most club girls earn their keep by doing shit like that. She catches me watching and smiles. “What did Pres say?” I ask.
Charlotte marches over to me. “Who the hell is Connor?” she snaps, and I groan.
Pity he doesn’t accept the kid is his.
It’s almost ten in the evening when Lake crashes into the club blind drunk. I’ve never seen him like that, and I can’t take my eyes off him as he stumbles towards the bar with that same girl stuck to his side.
(OW) He takes a bottle of whiskey from behind the bar and grabs the girl’s hand, dragging her over to the nearest free couch. He pulls her down on top of him and they both laugh before eating each other’s face off.
(OW) “I’m stating a fact,” she argues. “He told the other guys they couldn’t fuck Maisy.” “I really don’t think Sara needs to hear this,” mutters Tillie. “Agreed,” snaps Anna, glaring at Leia.
(OW) “But he warned the brothers off her. Usually how it starts,” says Leia.
(OW) “And why would he keep fucking her if he wasn’t planning on claiming her? The brothers never fuck the same club girls over and over.”
(OW) Maisy sits up, straddling Lake and riding him fully clothed. His hands reach for her neck, and I look away. “She’s always in his room,” adds Leia.
“I’m just telling Sara, so she knows what kind of man he is,” she argues. “It ain’t your business,” Chains snaps.
My day went from having a man try to claim me to being homeless and losing said man to a club girl.
“Can you take that to your room,” barks Anna. “We don’t all need a show.” Lake glances up over the back of the couch. “You don’t wanna watch, go upstairs,” he snaps.
(OM) Lake sneers. “Not what Master Dom told me when I spoke to him.”
(OM) “He told me you begged to be beaten like that. That you enjoyed it.” “Fuck you,” I whisper, feeling exposed in front of the girls.
(SEX OW) I wake with a start. My head pounds and I feel sick. I glance next to me, and find Maisy is lying naked, deep in sleep. Fuck, I let her sleep with me.
(SEX OW) There’re four empty condom packets on the bedside table. Thank fuck, I remembered that part. No wonder I ache.
(OW) “Morning,” she whispers. “Why are you in my bed?” I ask. “You know the rules.” “Because you asked me to stay,” she answers innocently.
“Judging by the noises coming from his room all night, and I mean all night, his head ain’t the only thing feeling sore today.” Blu grins, rocking his baby son. “Gia is after your blood this morning, she hardly slept.”
“Hard not to hear the cries of ecstasy,” snaps Tillie coldly.
(OW) “Maisy is my sub. We’re not together,” I say. “Not for real.” “Well, that’s okay then,” she says sarcastically. “Please, don’t flatter yourself and think I give two shits about you and her.”
“Maybe Master Dom was right in some ways. Maybe I needed someone to beat the shit outta me so I’d stop thinking about you. It worked because I don’t. Not like that. Not anymore.”
(OW)Maisy is waiting for me outside the office. She pouts and runs a pointed finger over my kutte. “I miss you,” she whispers.
(OW) “I need to unwind,” I hiss in her ear, and her mouth runs kisses along my jaw bone until her lips find mine. “Are you ready for me?”
It’s like torture, lying here listening to cries of ecstasy coming from the room next door. When I hear Lake’s growl, I throw the sheets back angrily and go down to the kitchen to make myself a warm drink. I can’t take any more of their sex noises.
“Hey, a man’s still gotta . . .” he says, smirking. It’s not a joke to me, not when I’ve grown feelings for this inconsiderate arsehole. “Besides, you’re not usually here. If you were in your own place, you wouldn’t know anything about this.”
“He’ll have parents. Maybe not blood ones, but he’ll be cared for and loved just as much as any other child.” “You don’t know that,” he argues. “I can’t do this right now. Get back to Maisy, enjoy the strawberries.”
(OM) “You think I don’t know a submissive woman when I see one? Get the fuck out. Make the time up after work.”
“But you don’t care that they could discover Dad’s affairs and your sham marriage?” I ask. “That when he fucks his secretary, he’s risking it all. How will you look if that comes out?” I gasp, placing a hand to my chest and faking shock.
(OM) “What’s your safe word?” “Boss,” I say, adding a smirk. He grins back. “I think you should go and lie face down on the bench,” he whispers, a gleam in his eye.
“I’m just glad that you ain’t the mother of my kid. I don’t want my son being raised by a whore.”
Tears threaten to fall again. “You sound just like my mum,” I mutter. “Judging me without ever really getting to know me. I’ll be better off without any of you in my life. Now, please, get out.”
“I told him the baby wasn’t his anyway.” Tillie stares at me wide-eyed for a long minute. “You did what?” “It was for the best. It was tearing him up inside. He was trying to commit to me when deep down, it’s not what he really wanted. My dad offered to pay him off, and I thought it’d be best if he took the money and ran. It’s not often my dad gives money away like that.”
“For what it’s worth, I think you and Maisy go good together,” says Riggs. I nod, even though inside my heart aches. I hate to say it, but I like Sara way more than I wanna admit. “Sara asked me for your bank details. I gave her the club’s cos I knew you’d return the money. Look, brother, this ain’t what you had planned, but don’t look a gift horse in the mouth. This money is what we need.”
(OW) I use my flirty smile, but Kathleen, the nurse on the neonatal ward, just glares at me. “I should have called,” I admit. “I regret it.
(SEX OW) “Morning, tiger,” purrs a female voice. I wince, not daring to put a face to the voice. “You were insatiable last night.” “Maisy?” I ask in a dry, croaky voice. “Who else would it be?” she asks, sounding instantly pissed.
“You’ve seen him?” I ask. “Sometimes it pays to fuck a nurse,” he sneers, and my heart skips a beat.
(OW) “I can get you the licence,” says Maisy. We all turn to her. “‘Scuse me?” asks Riggs. “I know him. He’s sleeping with one of my friends, Aliyah.”
I don’t feel as comfortable around Leo’s nurses as I once did. I’m eyeing each one suspiciously, wondering which one fucked Lake and gave him access to my child.
I carefully open the door just enough for me to look inside. “Oh my god!” I screech before I can stop myself. Alaric stops mid thrust, and Mum looks over in surprise. “You two?” “I-I-I can explain,” stutters Alaric, tucking himself back into his shorts and stumbling off the bed.
(OW) After lunch, I head to the hospital to spend some time with the one person I can trust right now, Leo. I’m surprised when I see the Irish nurse chatting with Lake outside Leo’s room. I didn’t expect him to be here.
(OW) I watch for a few minutes while she twiddles her hair around her finger and smiles wide at something he’s saying. I knew it’d be her, she’s his type. I take a deep breath and walk past them, going straight into Leo’s room.
“She’s the nurse?” I ask. “She was updating me on Leo,” he says innocently. “I mean the nurse you fucked to get access to Leo.” “Right,” he mutters. “Yeah, we have history.”
“I caught Alaric having sex with my mum yesterday,” she blurts out. I almost spit my beer out. “Shit!”
(OW) “Is everyone ready for the club opening?” asks Maisy, and we all stare at her blankly. “Lake just told me it’s opening in a week,” she adds smugly.
(OW) “I can’t wait. I’ve made Lake promise to take me,” Maisy gushes. “You know he’s with Sara now,” states Tillie. Maisy glances at me and shrugs her shoulders. “He ain’t laid claim.” “So,” I snap.
(OW) “He’s taking me out tonight,” Maisy says. “What?” I snap. “He told me he’d be home around six and we’re gonna have a talk. Usually, when he says that, it ends with me choking on his cock.”
(OW) “Because she died?” She sees my reaction and smiles wider. “I know all about her and what she did to Lake. He tells me things too. You’re not the only whore in his bed.”
My hand slaps her so hard, it stings my palm, and she hisses as it makes the briefest contact. “Truth hurts,” she growls.
(OW) “Maisy, you’re a club girl. You’re here for the men when they need you. Let it go,” says Leia.
(OW) “He told all the other brothers to stay away from me,” snaps Maisy. “He said I was his!” “Most of the guys do that shit,” snaps Raven. “You’re nothing special, Maisy.”
“Is that your problem?” asks Sara. “That he told the other brothers to stay away?” Sara turns to me. “So, tell them she’s back on the table.” Everyone’s attention is on me.
(OW) “Told you,” says Maisy, smugly. She’s ruining my plan and it’s pissing me off.
“What the hell’s going on?” “Now, now, sweetness, don’t make a scene,” warns Alaric. He moves the folder up, revealing a gun in his waistband. “I need you to come with me.” “Like hell—” I begin, cut off by Maisy moving her hand to the base of my hair and grabbing a handful.