Soo glad our boys are back! Ugh, and poor Malcolm! McCade was not joking when he said he was going to wreck him. D:
So far I am liking how it is playing out with the baby. However, we shall see how it'll go once she is in the picture more. But I love Seong-Jae's support here and all the loving/reassuring things he says to Malcolm to help keep him together. Not only that type of support, but also the way he makes Malcolm laugh is wonderful. They get each other so well, and I love their banter.
I wasn't really a fan of the flashbacks. They were new and felt off - confusing at first. I can also see how they might be needed, though, and did not detract my enjoyment since there were so few.
Very interested in seeing what happens next, and worried for Carlo! Those officers are trash; exactly who needs to be taken out of the BPD. Waiting for the sweet moment when Matheson is taken down and Anjulie takes his place! She is amazing.
I just... won't get into Juliette besides this: I get it, but talk about cruel. Malcolm should have been involved from the beginning.
And I'll leave y'all with some quotes. <3
"Slowly, those thick, burly arms drifted up to slip around Seong-Jae's waist - and then Malcolm seemed to come back to life again, just a little, as his arms suddenly locked tight, clutching on to Seong-Jae for dear life, squeezing the breath out of him.
Seong-Jae did not care.
He let Malcolm hold him as tight as he needed, and pressed his lips to Malcolm's hair, and stroked his fingers through the long, rippling, silver and gray strands again and again.
"No one actually wants to hear the honest truth when they ask what's wrong, or how you're feeling," Malcolm answered. [...] "They only want to hear what makes them feel safe looking the other way, escaping as quickly as possible, not acknowledging it, making it not their business. They only want to hear what lets them continue to feel comfortable. And honesty...well." He creased his lips, but it didn't really feel like a smile. "The fastest way to make someone uncomfortable is to be honest."
This is so true for most people. I don't even know how long I've thought this way, but for Malcolm to say this is heartbreaking. He's such a sweet, giving man.
[...] Malcolm conceded, then tilted his head, studying the man sprawled in his lap like he owned it. Sometimes Seong-Jae was a wild crow, but more and more with Malcolm he was just a lazy, prideful cat. "Why are you so cute?"
Instant scowl, dark and ferocious and borderline murderous. Seong-Jae bared his teeth in a hiss. "Of all the four-lettered C-words in the English language, you choose the most offensive one possible."
"...I think there are a few more offensive ones that than."
"You are struggling with something difficult, and I am worried for you, but you are not hurting me. I promise, Malcolm. I am not something you need to be concerned with."
"I...okay." With a heavy sound, Malcolm buried his face into Seong-Jae's hair. "Was this how you felt...? That...by needing you this way, by feeling so completely broken...I'm taking something from you. Something I don't deserve."
Closing his eyes, Seong-Jae butted his head gently under Malcolm's chin, rubbing into his thick, wild beard. "Every time," he admitted softly. "And yet every time...you made me feel as if I deserved your love, and your support, until it no longer felt like taking...it simply felt like being with you. And I am here with you now...and you deserve everything I have to give you, Malcolm. So if you feel broken...let me help you hold the scattered pieces."
Seong-Jae did not need to share the experience to simply hold his omr, and care for him, and love him through the pain.
"Being with you, feeling this with you, is never using me," Seong-Jae promised. "I can only endure sex because it is you. Because with you, it is not simply enduring." [...] "It is an intimacy so terrifying that I can only share it with someone I trust. As I trust you. As I will always trust you." [...] "It is not using me, Malcolm - because you love me, because I love you, and because I want you just as much. It may, perhaps, be for different reasons...but I always feel unquestioningly right with you, as well. And for me, that is a comfort."
This! Thank you.
"Do you ever shut off?" Seong-Jae demanded.
"...at least I can't get you pregnant?"
Crow-black eyes widened. "Malcolm!"
Too soon, Malcolm. Too soon. Lmao.
"I cannot say, at the moment, that I have any particular defined feelings toward your potential miniature human," he said, then offered, "She is...very small?"
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Initial thoughts:
Of course...! Knew that was going to happen! D:
Review to come. It is late and I need to gather my thoughts. So many good quotes from this... Also great afterword and acknowledgements.
Glad they're back and eagerly awaiting the next book!