This Might Hurt was such a crazy read for me! At times I felt this was a story about a cult and its’ egomaniacal leader, then I thought it might develop into a murder mystery, then I thought it was a tale of revenge, then I swore it was just about a pair of sisters who experienced a very turbulent family upbringing, resulting in a very strained relationship as adults…eventually I realized it was just a little bit of everything, all wrapped up into one BEAUTIFUL green hardback! Was this a good thing, or was it too much? I’m probably still deciding!
As we begin this story Natalie has received a very cryptic and threatening email from an anonymous source, leading her to track down her little sister Kit, who has been off the grid at an island retreat called Wisewood for the past six months. Is Kit in danger? This is something Natalie is determined to find out as she makes the journey to the isolated and very private island off the coast of Maine. Almost immediately it’s made very clear that she is unwanted, and the retreat is available by invite only, and outsiders are not to be trusted. But why? All this does is naturally increase Natalie’s anxiety over Kit’s welfare.
This suddenly led to the first shift in perspectives. This unknown perspective is told from years earlier and is that of a young woman who is raised in a very unconventional household in which her father forces her and her older sister to endure several tests of bravery to gage her level of fear. She is either granted or deducted points based off her performance, leading to an unhealthy and frankly hard to read at times coming of age side story.
The next perspective is that of Kit’s, told from six months earlier leading up to present day, as she first arrives at Wisewood, meeting the retreat’s charismatic leader Rebecca, also referred to as Teacher. Kit is insecure and unhappy with her life and has come to Wisewood looking for a way to make her mundane existence more fulfilling. Almost immediately she gravitates to Teacher and becomes one of her most dedicated disciples in route to achieving what is called her ‘Maximized Self.’ As Teacher’s favorite, Kit is forced to endure what I would simply call a variety of mind games (called Q1 & Q2), but is she really as damaged, vulnerable and naïve as she appears?
Last, but definitely not least, we get a few very brief but informative glimpses into Teacher's perspective. Is she truly as delusional, vain and unlikable as she comes across for the majority of the novel, or is there another more amiable side to her? Is she in fact simply misunderstood and a victim of her circumstances? Yes, she encourages her WW disciples to continually strive to overcome their deepest fears and shame in order to be invincible and in turn 'truly maximized,' but is that all? What are her true motivations??
When Natalie arrives, the proverbial sh*t hits the fan, and secrets new and old are unearthed, resulting into a climactic ending… or did it? In a way I was satisfied with the ending, but at the same time I was kind of left craving more. To me it felt like there was a fair amount of build-up for not as much pay-off, depending on your expectations. I can certainly appreciate the polarizing reviews now that I’ve finished this one. One thing I can confidently say is that this read much differently than Wrobel’s debut, Darling Rose Gold, and for the most part I really did enjoy it. I was intrigued throughout, not knowing which direction this one would take. If the ending had been a bit more embellished (that may not be the best word), I would have left this one feeling like it was a definite 5-Star Read, instead of the 4-Stars I gave it. All in all, I would definitely recommend this to those looking for a suspense/mystery that covers a variety of different themes!