Kate is a successful young teacher in north London who is living her dream and looking forward to her wedding day. That is until she experiences a rude awakening when her former life rears it’s ugly (well actually quite stylish) head. Kate hasn’t seen this face in years, so why has it chosen now to come back into her life?
My Best Friend’s Secret (working title “Closure”) is the first novel to be published from new author Emily Freud, but you certainly wouldn’t know it from the quality of the writing. A psychological thriller which will grip you start to finish, whilst also shining a light on some very real and sadly taboo topics. Emily Freud paints an honest, authentic picture of a young teacher in London, who through much hard graft perseverance seems to have it all. The loving fiancé, a fulfilling job, a gorgeous flat in a trendy neighbourhood. However it hasn’t always been this way for Kate and as we soon discover, she has built her seemingly charmed life upon the sandy foundations of a troubled past that haunts her to this day. Foundations which, whilst hidden out of sight under the idyllic construction of Kate’s present-day life, threaten to once again become visible when they crumble away and raze her dream home life to the ground.
Previously a tearaway teen with a penchant for partying and drinking into oblivion, Kate has now managed to put that life behind her and build a life for herself. 6 years sober and in a loving relationship, Kate has worked for so long to reform herself and build a life for herself, and the thought of that ever going away (understandably) terrifies her.
Speaking in her Instagram posts Emily Freud ( @emilyfreud_ ) revealed how she drew on her real-life past experiences and her own struggles with alcohol to help her write Kate’s story in My Best Friend’s Secret. Emily was struck with the idea for the book on her own wedding day, after 5 years sober, when it occurred to her how different it could have all been for her if she hadn’t overcome her addiction. What if just as she was about to get her happily ever after, it all fell apart? You’ll be pleased to hear that Emily’s own happily ever after remains intact and filled with a husband, beautiful children, and a new writing career! There are however more twists in Kate Sullivan’s tale.
It is a brave thing to be so honest and vulnerable about struggles so close to home as Emily has been in discussing the topic of alcoholism in My Best Friend’s Secret. Her bravery has been rewarded though, as it has enabled Emily Freud to write a very authentic feeling account of a very realistic, flawed but likeable protagonist in Kate Sullivan. From the very beginning, I felt an affinity to her and her sense of humour, whilst also sympathising with her and her all too common fears of losing it all. Freud also successfully shines a light on an all too commonplace but nevertheless taboo issue of alcoholism. It’s refreshing to see alcoholism and alcoholics portrayed as they truly are and can be. Not just the stereotypical tramp in the gutter, but as people of all ages, from all walks of life, struggling against a very real, very dangerous disease. Thankfully as Emily Freud herself is testament to, it is a treatable illness and one can only hope that this book and Emily’s own personal story will provide a source of hope and inspire others to seek out help for their problems with alcohol.
The seemingly fragile state of Kate’s blissful life, and the fear of this unknown threat that could obliterate it at any given moment, means every chapter has a lurking sense of tension. The threat could strike at any moment, or it may not strike at all. We are kept on the edge of our seat with every page, as we join Kate in analysing, or perhaps over analysing every detail.
In contrast to some other hugely successful books like Gone Girl and The Woman In The Window, where the protagonist is another intelligent but flawed female struggling with her own paranoia and self-doubt, My Best Friend’s Secret is written in the third person. Early on in my reading, I wondered if My Best Friend’s Secret could have benefitted from a first-person perspective at times, to allow the reader to be more immersed in the central character’s experiences and train of thought (both rational and irrational). However as the story progressed I felt the third person viewpoint worked fantastically, and was a more versatile choice, as it lent the story a sense of objectivity that may have been missed in a first-person narrative. One of the aspects of Freud’s writing I enjoyed most was the beautiful imagery and poetic metaphors which she employs through the book, particularly in it’s calmer and more thoughtful moments:
“The evenings have become longer, the sky bright and hazy with a low-hanging sun. The white moon is already visible. It hangs there dormant, like an uncomfortably early guest.”
“She hadn’t tried anything that tested her boundaries for years, stuck in a state of perpetual similitude, like a wasp trapped under a glass. Banging against the same wall, able to view the outside world but incapable of finding a route out to join it.”
It is imagery and writing like this which may have felt out of place had we been reading out Kate’s own internal monologue, as people seldom think in such poetic prose when faced with times of such stress and threats to their existence.
The tension ebbs and flows in waves as the book progresses, as Kate and the reader flit between being lulled into a sense of security and ease before being yanked out of it again as the next turn of events or revelation (or non-revelation) unfolds. Like so many of my favourite books, our protagonist is gaslit on numerous occasions, causing both Kate and the reader to question, is there really anything sinister afoot, or is it just her fear talking? The looming ghost of her addiction and secrets of her former life means Kate is terrified of losing grip of everything she holds dear, as she is helpless to stop it from happening. Although she may now be sober, Kate is increasingly falling under the influence of something that can ruin a life just as easily as alcohol can. As soon as the thought of a possible threat to her happiness arrives on the scene, Kate becomes ever more intoxicated by her most primal fears combined with her sadly all too familiar tendency to worry and fret over every interaction and consider every possible frightening scenario that could play out. Freud cleverly plays on our innate fear of the unknown leaving us to fret and worry along with Kate whilst we nervously will her to come out unscathed as we count down the days towards her wedding and her happy ending.
With this stunning debut, Emily Freud has served us a truly intoxicating thriller. I hope there is more to come from this author and I look forward to her next release!
4*
My Best Friend’s Secret is available on July 22, 2021.
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**I would like to offer a trigger warning, as this fantastic book does deal with some themes including addiction, suicide and assault which some readers may find distressing to read.**