The uncertainty in his voice pricked at me. He deserved better than me, deserved someone who would hold his hand on the way to the car, someone who would proudly share food with him back home, someone he could introduce to his friends with no awkwardness.
Well, I know it's not the first time this author has made me cry, and maybe I'm extra susceptible because of hormones, but I think this is the first of Albert's books to have me fighting tears at three different points in the story. Three.
"Why is the world always trying to tell me what sort of man to be?"
Closet stories are always difficult to read about. Compound that by the fact that Nash Flint is not only the Chief of Police of Rainbow Cove but that Rainbow Cove is also exactly what it sounds like : a small town. Half populated by a younger and more progressive community, wanting to capitalize on their coastal location and be known as LGBTQ+ friendly, there's still the very present traditionalist generation who like things the way they are and are full of judgment for those who don't conform. Which is just one of the many reasons Nash has kept his orientation hidden under the radar.
I surely did love living in this town where everyone knew my business, right down to the fact that I was dining alone again on a meal targeted to weight-conscious older women.
Enter Mason Hanks, youngest son of a local family who tend to be troublesome or in trouble, he's come back to the Cove after the death of his mother to be closer to his family and in an attempt to help revamp a local tavern into a queer-friendly hotspot. He's fighting against his family's reputation, fighting to start up a business, and fighting his attraction to the older Nash who, quite unexpectedly, seems willing to support the Rainbow Tavern.
"That Sheriff Sexy?"
"Adam told you that ridiculous nickname?"
"That he did. Forget my Bonobos shirt fetish. Next time I'm here I'm wearing my 'I'd bottom you so hard' t-shirt."
I really really really am loving all these age gap stories, especially when it's older characters with a decade or two between them, and TRUST WITH A CHASER was no exception. Nash was constantly cracking jokes at himself, in a rather resigned defeatist kind of way, for pushing forty and how Mason's twenty-seven was too young for him, but while the dancing around they did in the early stages of their relationship was fun, I loved the slow, hesitant, burn of their friendship more than anything else.
On my disastrous last trip to Portland, I'd worn my usual off-duty wardrobe of a polo and Wranglers. The first guy I'd worked up the nerve enough to approach had called me grandpa and laughed. Apparently, I was officially near death by gay standards and no longer prime hookup material.
That isn't to say their flirty and sexytime wasn't topnotch. It was. Albert knows what she's about. The added element of the cooking lessons was just too adorable for words, too. But there was one particular scene between these two that was just.. yeah, hot, but pulsing with emotion and honestly the tenderness between these two was so great. But it was hard, too, for them to keep their interactions secret and on the downlow and that obviously had repercussions but the connection between them was wonderful and watching them know it had to end, know they didn't want to, and try and hold on anyway.. heartbreaking.
"I am so glad that man isn't my type. Sexy as hell, but he's going to make you go gray, Mase."
"I'm not hung up on him."
"Dude. If you were a deer, you'd be up on a roof rack, shit out of luck. That kind of hung up."
It wasn't all rainbows and secret-hookups, though. This story felt a bit more subdued than Albert's norm and honestly that's not a bad thing at all. There were still a lot of funny little moments scattered throughout the story but it was far less quippy than her other stories. Probably because these are older characters with a different set of responsibilities than owning a bakery or being in the military (not that either of those aren't worthy or important responsibilities, of course). But I liked the change up. I liked the new faces, Mason's friends specifically, and while the town was basically cleaved in two between those who were accepting and those who were not so much willing to wave the flag, it was realistic. Sadly, as a society, we aren't all there yet.
It had been far, far too long since I'd been simply Nash, the slightly confused, more than a little turned-on man, and not Flint the figurehead.
There was another element to this story, however, that I feel.. less than satisfied over. Events kind of bottleneck for a certain member of Mason's family and while I definitely like that he got what he deserved after having to tolerate reading about his behaviour and disregard for his family (all of which made me very uncomfortable, I hate these kind of family dynamics, but it's so well done on Albert's part to make me feel it so viscerally) I was also kind of confused about the vandalism. I'm still not really sure why it was happening or what the point was. Maybe there wasn't one. I just wish something had been said to kind of explain it.. even if only to acknowledge there hadn't been a reason.
"My principles are all I have--"
"Fuck that. You had me."
That said, back to our leads, I really enjoyed Nash's struggles; not only on a personal level but professionally, too. I thought that was such an important aspect to touch on, to address, and while it does cause some angst and heartache, he stuck to it, and I loved that. Mason's unexpected situation both broke my heart and put it back together again and the end.. well, remember the tears? Yeah, those.
I wasn't so far gone with my own troubles that I couldn't sense his sadness or see the regret in his eyes. He was giving me this, giving me tonight, but part of him was saying goodbye.
I can't wait for more from this series, I can't wait to see the next pairing (I see you crazy wood carver and pretty chef!), and, well, it's obvious there will never not be a book that Albert writes that I won't read. As always : recommended.
4 "I waited too long for someone like you. I don't want to wait anymore for a life with you" stars
** I received an ARC from the author (thank you!) in exchange for an honest review. **