Copy kindly provided by the author in exchange for an honest review
TW: Murder, sexual assault, verbal abuse
What a great way to start off the spooky season than with a ya paranormal book. I must admit, when the author first reached out to me, I thought the book was a contemporary but I was pleasantly surprised when I read the synopsis on Goodreads.
I Don't Belong Here follows main character, Charlotte, a clairvoyant with the ability to see and communicate with ghosts. When she witnesses the murder of a young woman, Charlotte is thrown into a world of danger with a ghost determined on seeking revenge and getting justice for her killing.
Charlotte needs to be brave and strong in order to confront her actions and her past mistakes to help Mia Brooks pass on.
Starting off with characters, I thought all of them seemed a little bit immature and juvenile, even the adults in this book. The characters I had a few issues with were Charlotte's parents who didn't feel developed enough for me to like. Their fights with Charlotte seemed kind of out of nowhere and while they did have good reason e.g., parental concern etc, their arguments for being overprotective seemed a little over the top at times. The only adult I liked was Grandma May, she seemed really cool and I wished she got more time on page.
The main character, Charlotte was probably the one I had the most difficulty connecting with. From the start, I was waiting for me to like her, for me to relate or connect with her and her feelings, but I simply couldn't. There were so many references to "nobody understands me," "I'm a loner, I prefer to be by myself, at home and with my books" and it got to the point where it was repeated so often I was trying to find other elements to her character apart from those aforementioned. I wanted more from her characterisation, I wanted more character depth and more backstory but I felt like I never got it which was why she felt quite surface level to me.
The only characters that I really liked a lot and I thought were developed well were Ethan and Dimitri. Dimitri honestly had more backstory than Charlotte, he had a tough family life, his mother was an alcoholic and his brother was dealing with a terrible form of cancer. You could see how much Dimitri cared for his family and how those family side-stories have influenced him and his relationship to Charlotte and the world as a whole. I also liked how the author described and showed us Ethan's cancer and how that affected everyone in the family. I thought that was shown respectfully and thoughtfully.
Romance wise, this book was really quick with the insta-love. I'm personally not a fan of insta-love, for me it ruins what could've been a really great slow burn romance which is what my personal preference is with fictional works. Charlotte instantly fell in love with Dimitri from the moment he stepped inside the DVD shop she worked at. The speed of it really stumped me, I wanted more development instead of instant infatuation. Dimitri walked into the store, asked for a movie recommendation from Charlotte and then he gave her his phone number. I thought that was really quick and I was constantly questioning why she followed up with that and called him even though she didn't really have a proper conversation with him.
Even as the book continued on, I wanted to see more chemistry between Charlotte and Dimitri. At the end I got more of it however, towards the middle, Charlotte's sister, Yuan asked why she liked Dimitri so much to which she said "He understands me" and that she feels real around him. I could've believed those lines but at that point, I wanted to see how much he understood her rather than being told that he does. I wanted to see that connection we were told about but in the middle part of the book, I didn't really see it, even though I really wanted to. I think that was because of the writing style, I couldn't really get into it which may have been why it was hard for me to connect with the characters and see the chemistry between Dimitri and Charlotte.
My favourite thing about this book though was the relationship between Yuan and Charlotte, I really liked seeing their relationship and how it developed over the duration of the book. I also liked the mystery elements with the Red-eyed Lady and how the plot got resolved at the end. The ending was fast paced and tense and I found myself asking "wait–what?!" so many times, especially in the last 10 or so pages. I still can't believe I didn't pick up on that plot twist. How all those clues and cleverly placed hints went over my head is beyond me.
Overall, this was a short read with a lot of paranormal elements. I would recommend it as a spooky, Halloween read but I must admit, I was left wanting more at times with the chemistry and the characters.
ACTUAL RATING: 2.3 STARS