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Pieces of You
They could’ve been perfect.
In another time. Another world.
Where his wasn’t falling apart.
And hers wasn’t already in pieces.
-
High school senior Holden Eastwood only has one fear in life: growing up.
He spends his days unmotivated, moving from one game to the next, searching for his next challenge.
He never expected that challenge to come in the form of a girl…
A girl with zero fashion sense, a filthy mouth, and a bullsh*t attitude.
Unlike Holden, Jameson Taylor had no choice but to grow up.
Neglected, isolated, and forced to raise herself, Jameson only has one goal in life: graduate and move on.
The last thing she needs is some guy she can’t stand suddenly declaring her as his new hobby.
Their lives couldn’t be more opposite.
Their pasts a complete paradox.
But in each other, they find the unexpected…
They find solace.
Fragments of forever…
A forever that might tear them to pieces.
In another time. Another world.
Where his wasn’t falling apart.
And hers wasn’t already in pieces.
-
High school senior Holden Eastwood only has one fear in life: growing up.
He spends his days unmotivated, moving from one game to the next, searching for his next challenge.
He never expected that challenge to come in the form of a girl…
A girl with zero fashion sense, a filthy mouth, and a bullsh*t attitude.
Unlike Holden, Jameson Taylor had no choice but to grow up.
Neglected, isolated, and forced to raise herself, Jameson only has one goal in life: graduate and move on.
The last thing she needs is some guy she can’t stand suddenly declaring her as his new hobby.
Their lives couldn’t be more opposite.
Their pasts a complete paradox.
But in each other, they find the unexpected…
They find solace.
Fragments of forever…
A forever that might tear them to pieces.
246 pages, Kindle Edition
First published July 1, 2021
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About the author
Jay McLean
44 books8,183 followersJay McLean is an international best-selling author and full-time reader, writer of New Adult and Young Adult romance, and skilled procrastinator. When she’s not doing any of those things, she can be found running after her three little boys, investing way too much time on True Crime Documentaries and binge-watching reality TV.
She writes what she loves to read, which are books that can make her laugh, make her hurt and make her feel.
Jay lives in the suburbs of Melbourne, Australia, in her dream home where music is loud and laughter is louder.
She writes what she loves to read, which are books that can make her laugh, make her hurt and make her feel.
Jay lives in the suburbs of Melbourne, Australia, in her dream home where music is loud and laughter is louder.
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June 30, 2021
5+ stars
This book absolutely positively slayed me. It was everything I wanted and more, and I was completely blown away. Jay McLean always hits me right in my feels but also gives me the perfect amount of humor, angst, and romance. This gave me the best kind of old school mature YA/NA vibes and I was so here for it!
Holden is a character I've loved since I first met him in Leo. Holden has a lot going on right now. He's a senior in high school, but school isn't the only thing on his mind. He's carrying a lot on his shoulders. Jameson Taylor is new to school and Holden is taken with her. If you think Holden is carrying a lot of weight, meet Jamie.
Jamie's life has been so incredibly hard. It's incomparable to most teenage struggles and I felt for her. I had so much respect for her and I wanted more than anything for her to be okay. I adored Holden so much. I mean, Jay McLean writes these special kind of heroes that have the biggest hearts, but are also alluring and you really can't help to love them. That is Holden.
Honestly, I could say so much about this book but the main take away is that you need to read it and experience it for yourself. It was completely compelling from start to finish. And that ending.... that ending left me in a state of shock. I need to know what happens from here and I would do just about anything to get my hands on part two of this duet. Thankfully, I'm fairly certain these two won't be releasing too far apart and I'm sure it will be worth the wait. But seriously.. that ending!
Pieces of You was one of my most anticipated books of 2021 and it's turned into one of my favorite books of 2021. Jay McLean never disappoints. This one put me through the ringer and gave me all the feels and I couldn't have loved it more! Highly recommended for anyone looking for that old school NA angst feel!
Jameson Taylor is a masterpiece, and I’m in way, way over my head.
This book absolutely positively slayed me. It was everything I wanted and more, and I was completely blown away. Jay McLean always hits me right in my feels but also gives me the perfect amount of humor, angst, and romance. This gave me the best kind of old school mature YA/NA vibes and I was so here for it!
Holden is a character I've loved since I first met him in Leo. Holden has a lot going on right now. He's a senior in high school, but school isn't the only thing on his mind. He's carrying a lot on his shoulders. Jameson Taylor is new to school and Holden is taken with her. If you think Holden is carrying a lot of weight, meet Jamie.
Jamie's life has been so incredibly hard. It's incomparable to most teenage struggles and I felt for her. I had so much respect for her and I wanted more than anything for her to be okay. I adored Holden so much. I mean, Jay McLean writes these special kind of heroes that have the biggest hearts, but are also alluring and you really can't help to love them. That is Holden.
Maybe Holden Eastwood isn’t the flame to my moth. Maybe he’s the moon. The light. Guiding me out of my darkness.
Honestly, I could say so much about this book but the main take away is that you need to read it and experience it for yourself. It was completely compelling from start to finish. And that ending.... that ending left me in a state of shock. I need to know what happens from here and I would do just about anything to get my hands on part two of this duet. Thankfully, I'm fairly certain these two won't be releasing too far apart and I'm sure it will be worth the wait. But seriously.. that ending!
Pieces of You was one of my most anticipated books of 2021 and it's turned into one of my favorite books of 2021. Jay McLean never disappoints. This one put me through the ringer and gave me all the feels and I couldn't have loved it more! Highly recommended for anyone looking for that old school NA angst feel!
“You’re not here to be average, Jamie,” he scoffs. “You’re here to be extraordinary.”
July 5, 2021
– 2.5 stars
I'm trying to piece together what I remember about this book to write this review and honestly... it's not much. Therefore, it's going to be a pretty short review.
The biggest reason why I'm rounding up is THAT CLIFFHANGER EPILOGUE. That scene hit me out of nowhere and I didn't see it coming. Bonus point for the shock value + surprise element, even though the more I think about it, the funnier it gets.
When it comes down to it, there wasn't anything wrong with this book. Jay McLean is known to write books that tug on your heartstring and are one the more emtional side and when I was reading Pieces of You, I felt nothing. I couldn't connect to Holden, Jamie or the romance. I'm having a hard time writing this review, because I don't have anything good or bad to say about Pieces of You.
Okay wait... I do have something what annoyed me about this book: Dean.
Dean is Holden's friend and a guy Jamie has history with. Dean was pretty much chasing Jamie the whole book, trying to talk to her about how they ended. That OM drama was annoying, because of it Holden was very wishy-washy with his feelings for Jamie, cause after all he is still Dean's friend and didn't want to break some guy code yada yada. The more Dean appeared the nastier he gets. I hope his face connects with a fist in the next book.
CONCLUSION
At the end of the day, a year from now, when someone would ask me about Pieces of You, the only thing I will remember for sure is the epilogue. Since it's more of a "it's not the book, it's me" problem, pick this duet up when it's finished and see for yourself. 💫
I'm trying to piece together what I remember about this book to write this review and honestly... it's not much. Therefore, it's going to be a pretty short review.
The biggest reason why I'm rounding up is THAT CLIFFHANGER EPILOGUE. That scene hit me out of nowhere and I didn't see it coming. Bonus point for the shock value + surprise element, even though the more I think about it, the funnier it gets.
Maybe Holden Eastwood isn't the flame to my moth. Maybe he's the moon. The light. Gudiing me out of my darkness.
When it comes down to it, there wasn't anything wrong with this book. Jay McLean is known to write books that tug on your heartstring and are one the more emtional side and when I was reading Pieces of You, I felt nothing. I couldn't connect to Holden, Jamie or the romance. I'm having a hard time writing this review, because I don't have anything good or bad to say about Pieces of You.
"I don't think you went through what you did and survived what you have so you could come out of it and be normal." He pauses a beat. "You're not here to be average, Jamie. You're here to be extraordinary."
Okay wait... I do have something what annoyed me about this book: Dean.
Dean is Holden's friend and a guy Jamie has history with. Dean was pretty much chasing Jamie the whole book, trying to talk to her about how they ended. That OM drama was annoying, because of it Holden was very wishy-washy with his feelings for Jamie, cause after all he is still Dean's friend and didn't want to break some guy code yada yada. The more Dean appeared the nastier he gets. I hope his face connects with a fist in the next book.
It would've been perfect.
We could've been perfect.
In another time.
Another world.
Where mine wasn't falling apart.
And hers wasn't already in pieces.
CONCLUSION
At the end of the day, a year from now, when someone would ask me about Pieces of You, the only thing I will remember for sure is the epilogue. Since it's more of a "it's not the book, it's me" problem, pick this duet up when it's finished and see for yourself. 💫
July 1, 2021
It’s strange. When I’m not with her, I barely think of her. But when she is around, and she’s this close, she consumes every thought, every breath, every heartbeat.
Ahhh, you guys. This freaking book. I want to say SO MANY THINGS, but also I feel that this book should be experienced with just about every word being brand new to your mind and your eyeballs. What I will say is that Jay McLean has once again provided a young love story where you can’t help but root for the characters. A story where so many forms of love are happening, and where you will feel that broad range of emotions and heart that Jay is a master of.
Holden is someone that you’ve probably already half fallen for if you’ve read Leo (freaking go read Leo, right now!) and in ‘Pieces of You’ you will fall the rest of the way if you haven’t already. He’s the fun and carefree Holden we met in Leo, but he’s also so much more. We get another layer of him that we didn’t get to experience fully in Leo. Jameson. Sigh. Jameson. She is just such an easy character to fall for. Her strength, her wit, her reluctant softness. She has so much going on and really she is such a different person and has lived such a different life than Holden. All that said, I love the way these two are so effortlessly at ease with each other and how they come to be. It was trope-y greatness and just you wait.
Anyway. I could talk about this book all day, but I’m trying to keep it spoiler free and only really give general things. I loved this story, it’s only part one of two so yes there is more to come, and yes I am already itching for their story to continue. While you do not HAVE to read Leo in order to read this book, I HIGHLY recommend that you make time to. There are few things in this story that will spoil some plots in Leo, because the heroine of that book is Holden’s childhood best friend.
If you’re looking for a book that has the feels and vibe of those early 2000s WB teen shows, then you NEED to read this book. Jay gives us that with her own signature style of found family, angst, and heart.
AVAILABLE NOW!
*ARC
Ahhh, you guys. This freaking book. I want to say SO MANY THINGS, but also I feel that this book should be experienced with just about every word being brand new to your mind and your eyeballs. What I will say is that Jay McLean has once again provided a young love story where you can’t help but root for the characters. A story where so many forms of love are happening, and where you will feel that broad range of emotions and heart that Jay is a master of.
Holden is someone that you’ve probably already half fallen for if you’ve read Leo (freaking go read Leo, right now!) and in ‘Pieces of You’ you will fall the rest of the way if you haven’t already. He’s the fun and carefree Holden we met in Leo, but he’s also so much more. We get another layer of him that we didn’t get to experience fully in Leo. Jameson. Sigh. Jameson. She is just such an easy character to fall for. Her strength, her wit, her reluctant softness. She has so much going on and really she is such a different person and has lived such a different life than Holden. All that said, I love the way these two are so effortlessly at ease with each other and how they come to be. It was trope-y greatness and just you wait.
Anyway. I could talk about this book all day, but I’m trying to keep it spoiler free and only really give general things. I loved this story, it’s only part one of two so yes there is more to come, and yes I am already itching for their story to continue. While you do not HAVE to read Leo in order to read this book, I HIGHLY recommend that you make time to. There are few things in this story that will spoil some plots in Leo, because the heroine of that book is Holden’s childhood best friend.
If you’re looking for a book that has the feels and vibe of those early 2000s WB teen shows, then you NEED to read this book. Jay gives us that with her own signature style of found family, angst, and heart.
AVAILABLE NOW!
*ARC
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July 3, 2021
5 stars, but what the fuck was that ending? ☆
"What's with the compass?"
"It's right above your heart," she says simply, as if that's answer enough. It's not.
And I know I'm digging myself a hole I might not be able to get out of. Still, I ask, "But why a compass?"
She's quiet for a beat. And then: "Because it's where I feel the most found."
i've read most Jay McLean books at this point (i think the only ones i have yet to read are the Combative duet and Where the Road Takes Me) and it's safe to say she's one of my favorite authors. the way she's able to put so much emotions into her writing leaves me in awe bc i think i've cried once, if not more, in all her books (yes, i do get easily emotional but there's something about her writing that hits different). since i'm going into spoilers, all i'm going to say here is: if you're thinking of reading this, i would recommend at least reading Leo first bc that's where Holden (H) is introduced. it would help put the pieces together (no pun intended sjdjgs), but you'd probably still be fine even if you don't.
‼️ SPOILERS AHEAD + some things that happened in Leo ‼️
"Nothing. It's just the last thing Zeke said to me was to take out the trash," I tell him, moving to the dumpsters. "Who knew the trash was already waiting for me out here."
Jamie (h):
QUEEN. i loved Jamie so much. she was badass, strong, funny (she had the best comebacks, i swear), vulnerable. i honestly just wanted to protect her, particularly when it would switch to a flashback and show what she went through while living with her mom and Beaker. i could understand why it took awhile for her to warm up to Holden - especially when her ex who did her dirty was Holden's closest friend. i loved how, once her first impression of Holden began to change, it was through spending time with him and realizing his actions towards people around him says it all. one of my (many) favorite Jamie scenes was when she didn't jump to conclusions when Dean sent her a picture of Holden and Bethany (even tho nothing literally happened, we don't like Dean in this household) bc she knows what Dean is like and can obviously tell Holden is only whipped for her. 😌 i love a good miscommunication every now and then bc it brings the drama, but i feel like it's rare for the heroine to usually believe the hero in these kinds of situations so it was refreshing to know Jamie trusted Holden that much?? especially since we all know it's hard for her to trust bc everyone leaves her behind. :( i could gush about Jamie all day bc i love her sm but here's one last Jamie scene that i loved before i talk about Holden:
Dean scoffs as he examines all the tools on the wall. "Sounds like a great relationship."
"Hey, guess what?"
He turns to me. "What?"
"Fuck off. Like, all the way off."
He rolls his eyes.
But I'm not done. "And when you get all the way fucked, you should keep going."
HOW CAN YOU NOT LOVE JAMIE? SHE'S MY SPIRIT ANIMAL. 😭😭
"I mean, just look at her...and look at me."
"I am." And then I clear my throat, steady my voice, filling it with enough clarity, so she never has to question what I say next. "And there's not a single piece of me that sees you the way you see yourself."
Holden (H):
MY BBY. <3 Holden was introduced in Leo as Mia's (h of Leo) best friend and ngl, i thought he would be one of those "h's best friend who secretly likes the h" characters when i read it so y'all have no idea how happy i felt when they really just had a platonic friendship. i mean- Mia did mention here in PoY that she had a little crush on Holden when they were young, but it's more of a you're my best friend, let's get married vibe i felt rather than an actual crush and why can't we have more platonic friendships in these romance books anyways? why does the best friend need to have a crush on the H or h? :/ so, Holden. i was already attached to him bc of Leo and i loved him even more here. do i love him more than Jamie tho? debatable. Holden had his ups and downs for me but, in the end, even during the times he fucked up, i truly believed he never had the intention of hurting anyone in the process. he's just the type of H who would do anything to protect those he loves and cares about and i love that about him. his nicknames for Jamie? i liked some and others were plain cringe LOL but i know he meant well so i can't fault him for anything, lmaoo. i love how he's kind of a flirty playboy but it's obvious, once Jamie entered the picture, his ho ways ended (love the scene when he had planned to fuck this one girl but cancelled on her bc he realized his interest in Jamie, YES).
the romance:
Jay McLean writes the most emotional love stories and this was srsly no different. i loved how Jamie and Holden were total opposites but, imo, they just somehow worked. THE FIRST KISS, AAAH. i screamed bc it was Jamie who did the first move and it was super cute since, during that time, she kissed him bc he wanted to protect her and i can't even blame her. the scenes when it would seem like Holden kinda just used Jamie bc he's having a difficult time and she's like his lifeline, my heart would break for Jamie bc it's those moments when he would make her seem insignificant but tbh, aside from those, i adored their romance overall!! their back and forth banters, i loved how Jamie was able to go on his level with her comebacks and idk, i just loved them. 😭
now, onto that mindfuck of an ending ...
me after reading ch 45 + the epilogue:
WTF IS GOING ON. i'm confused. so, in ch 45, it felt like Jamie and Holden were tryna resolve things (or i guess it was more of a bittersweet goodbye) but what was that random attack? i knew shit was gonna go down bc, before picking up the book, everyone kept talking about the epilogue so i was prepared for it but, in reality, i was still shook, haha. it just came out of nowhere AND THE EPILOGUE WITH JAMIE AND DEAN? EXCUSE ME? wtf happened in the five-year span that led to Jamie going back to him? 🥴
i have a couple theories (i don't usually do this but bc i can't get over the ending, i just have to):
1) Beaker was the mastermind behind that attack. why? well, aside from being just a shitty human being, maybe he wants to cause trouble in Jamie's life? i'm pretty sure he's still alive and it was just her mom that died.
2) Zeke might be Jamie's biological dad? i honestly don't know if this theory is far off or not, but he's already like a father figure to Jamie so i feel like that could be a nice twist. i just hope, hope that he's not involved in that attack pls. i would cry bc Jamie doesn't deserve this. :(
3) HOLDEN IS A FAKE HO. okay, from what i remember in Leo, Mia just assumes that Holden has girls around during that time skip, but i don't believe it was confirmed (feel free to correct me if i'm wrong!) so i hope that, even tho he's been by Mia's side this whole time bc she needs that support, he's never actually been with anyone after meeting Jamie. 🤞
ah, i guess that's pretty much it. :') this book took me on a rollercoaster ride of feels but, even through some frustrating moments, i still loved every second of this book - the good and the bad. <3 i can't wait for book 2, hoping it comes out soon bc i need answers now pls.
oh, how can i forget? last but not least, @Dean and Beaker:
⊱ ──────ஓ๑♡๑ஓ ────── ⊰
update (june 2021):
JULY 1?? HOLDEN, MY BBY.
"What's with the compass?"
"It's right above your heart," she says simply, as if that's answer enough. It's not.
And I know I'm digging myself a hole I might not be able to get out of. Still, I ask, "But why a compass?"
She's quiet for a beat. And then: "Because it's where I feel the most found."
i've read most Jay McLean books at this point (i think the only ones i have yet to read are the Combative duet and Where the Road Takes Me) and it's safe to say she's one of my favorite authors. the way she's able to put so much emotions into her writing leaves me in awe bc i think i've cried once, if not more, in all her books (yes, i do get easily emotional but there's something about her writing that hits different). since i'm going into spoilers, all i'm going to say here is: if you're thinking of reading this, i would recommend at least reading Leo first bc that's where Holden (H) is introduced. it would help put the pieces together (no pun intended sjdjgs), but you'd probably still be fine even if you don't.
‼️ SPOILERS AHEAD + some things that happened in Leo ‼️
"Nothing. It's just the last thing Zeke said to me was to take out the trash," I tell him, moving to the dumpsters. "Who knew the trash was already waiting for me out here."
Jamie (h):
QUEEN. i loved Jamie so much. she was badass, strong, funny (she had the best comebacks, i swear), vulnerable. i honestly just wanted to protect her, particularly when it would switch to a flashback and show what she went through while living with her mom and Beaker. i could understand why it took awhile for her to warm up to Holden - especially when her ex who did her dirty was Holden's closest friend. i loved how, once her first impression of Holden began to change, it was through spending time with him and realizing his actions towards people around him says it all. one of my (many) favorite Jamie scenes was when she didn't jump to conclusions when Dean sent her a picture of Holden and Bethany (even tho nothing literally happened, we don't like Dean in this household) bc she knows what Dean is like and can obviously tell Holden is only whipped for her. 😌 i love a good miscommunication every now and then bc it brings the drama, but i feel like it's rare for the heroine to usually believe the hero in these kinds of situations so it was refreshing to know Jamie trusted Holden that much?? especially since we all know it's hard for her to trust bc everyone leaves her behind. :( i could gush about Jamie all day bc i love her sm but here's one last Jamie scene that i loved before i talk about Holden:
Dean scoffs as he examines all the tools on the wall. "Sounds like a great relationship."
"Hey, guess what?"
He turns to me. "What?"
"Fuck off. Like, all the way off."
He rolls his eyes.
But I'm not done. "And when you get all the way fucked, you should keep going."
HOW CAN YOU NOT LOVE JAMIE? SHE'S MY SPIRIT ANIMAL. 😭😭
"I mean, just look at her...and look at me."
"I am." And then I clear my throat, steady my voice, filling it with enough clarity, so she never has to question what I say next. "And there's not a single piece of me that sees you the way you see yourself."
Holden (H):
MY BBY. <3 Holden was introduced in Leo as Mia's (h of Leo) best friend and ngl, i thought he would be one of those "h's best friend who secretly likes the h" characters when i read it so y'all have no idea how happy i felt when they really just had a platonic friendship. i mean- Mia did mention here in PoY that she had a little crush on Holden when they were young, but it's more of a you're my best friend, let's get married vibe i felt rather than an actual crush and why can't we have more platonic friendships in these romance books anyways? why does the best friend need to have a crush on the H or h? :/ so, Holden. i was already attached to him bc of Leo and i loved him even more here. do i love him more than Jamie tho? debatable. Holden had his ups and downs for me but, in the end, even during the times he fucked up, i truly believed he never had the intention of hurting anyone in the process. he's just the type of H who would do anything to protect those he loves and cares about and i love that about him. his nicknames for Jamie? i liked some and others were plain cringe LOL but i know he meant well so i can't fault him for anything, lmaoo. i love how he's kind of a flirty playboy but it's obvious, once Jamie entered the picture, his ho ways ended (love the scene when he had planned to fuck this one girl but cancelled on her bc he realized his interest in Jamie, YES).
the romance:
Jay McLean writes the most emotional love stories and this was srsly no different. i loved how Jamie and Holden were total opposites but, imo, they just somehow worked. THE FIRST KISS, AAAH. i screamed bc it was Jamie who did the first move and it was super cute since, during that time, she kissed him bc he wanted to protect her and i can't even blame her. the scenes when it would seem like Holden kinda just used Jamie bc he's having a difficult time and she's like his lifeline, my heart would break for Jamie bc it's those moments when he would make her seem insignificant but tbh, aside from those, i adored their romance overall!! their back and forth banters, i loved how Jamie was able to go on his level with her comebacks and idk, i just loved them. 😭
now, onto that mindfuck of an ending ...
me after reading ch 45 + the epilogue:
WTF IS GOING ON. i'm confused. so, in ch 45, it felt like Jamie and Holden were tryna resolve things (or i guess it was more of a bittersweet goodbye) but what was that random attack? i knew shit was gonna go down bc, before picking up the book, everyone kept talking about the epilogue so i was prepared for it but, in reality, i was still shook, haha. it just came out of nowhere AND THE EPILOGUE WITH JAMIE AND DEAN? EXCUSE ME? wtf happened in the five-year span that led to Jamie going back to him? 🥴
i have a couple theories (i don't usually do this but bc i can't get over the ending, i just have to):
1) Beaker was the mastermind behind that attack. why? well, aside from being just a shitty human being, maybe he wants to cause trouble in Jamie's life? i'm pretty sure he's still alive and it was just her mom that died.
2) Zeke might be Jamie's biological dad? i honestly don't know if this theory is far off or not, but he's already like a father figure to Jamie so i feel like that could be a nice twist. i just hope, hope that he's not involved in that attack pls. i would cry bc Jamie doesn't deserve this. :(
3) HOLDEN IS A FAKE HO. okay, from what i remember in Leo, Mia just assumes that Holden has girls around during that time skip, but i don't believe it was confirmed (feel free to correct me if i'm wrong!) so i hope that, even tho he's been by Mia's side this whole time bc she needs that support, he's never actually been with anyone after meeting Jamie. 🤞
ah, i guess that's pretty much it. :') this book took me on a rollercoaster ride of feels but, even through some frustrating moments, i still loved every second of this book - the good and the bad. <3 i can't wait for book 2, hoping it comes out soon bc i need answers now pls.
oh, how can i forget? last but not least, @Dean and Beaker:
⊱ ──────ஓ๑♡๑ஓ ────── ⊰
update (june 2021):
JULY 1?? HOLDEN, MY BBY.
July 2, 2021
-2.5 stars-
the epilogue 😂😂😂 i'm wheezing
the epilogue 😂😂😂 i'm wheezing
July 4, 2021
4.5 stars ⭐️
When i started this book my first update was “Ready to suffer the heartbreak”. Well, famous last words. I was not ready. Not at all. If this review doesn’t make sense it’s because i just finished this book just right now and I’m not in the right mind-space to write review but i also wanna pen down my actual unfiltered feelings atm so I’m writing one 🤦🏼♀️.
THIS FUCKING BOOK😭😭. Only being read her heartache duet (which still remains one of my fav duet of all times), I knew that Jay is the author with the talent of bringing out your emotions - she makes you feel what she wants you to feel but I wasn’t really expecting THIS. I love how she writes her characters - how they’re broken but still have hope and honestly this is what I love reading. I know its fiction but it can’t help but give me hope that you don’t have to be okay to be okay and that you can have a traumatised past or a hard time but that isn’t the end of you.
Ngl, i had a hard time in the beginning of the book but once it hit the 75% mark it felt impossible to give it a low rating cause the way Jay writes emotions?? Out-of -the-fucking-world. This book was everything I wanted, needed and more.
Jameson Taylor is the girl who deserves the world. When we meet her in the starting of the book- she really intrigued me and made me curious to read more and more about her. As the H said that Jamie was a puzzle and along with the H, I wanted to solve her too. I wanted to know what had happened to her and what she was scared of. Jamie is an enigma. She lives in a park trailer and wears granny clothes and she’s obsessed with drawing (to the fact that if she doesn’t have any tissue or paper she starts drawing on her legs). I couldn’t understand her at all first and that made me wanna read more but then when we get to know about her, her past and her insecurities, I just wanted to kill everyone and make sure she’s safe and knows that she’s loved.
I loved every single thing about her- how she would spill out random facts about flowers while drawing, how she would banter w Holden and specially how strong she was.
Holden played with my feelings- sometimes he made me wanna kill him and sometimes he made me wanna hug him. I loved how he was with Jamie and I loved how he made her feel safe and wholesome😭😭
I didn’t read the book “leo” and when i saw people freaking out over getting his book i was confused and dying to see why everyone loved him and now i see it. You can’t help but fall for Holden- his looks, his feelings, his caring nature and his “i-dont-give-a-fuck-what-others-think” attitude had me love him so bad. I loved how he treated her and how patient he was with her.
I understood what he did and the end but I’m still lowkey mad at him?? I hope he redeems himself in the next book 🤞🏻
I still have so much to say, i still have so much to talk about but I won’t cause this book needs to be felt. There are so many scenes I want to talk about but I will try to bury it in and wait for y’all to read this masterpiece. I can easily see rereading this book again in a week and crying over it again. If you need a sign to pick this one up or add it to your tbr here it is- DO IT.
Also wtf was that cliffhanger?🤯🤯 I WANT BOOK 2 NOW. please.🥺🥺
***ARC provided in exchange for honest review.***
“And maybe I had it wrong.
Maybe Holden Eastwood isn’t the flame to my moth.
Maybe he’s the moon.
The light.
Guiding me out of my darkness.”
When i started this book my first update was “Ready to suffer the heartbreak”. Well, famous last words. I was not ready. Not at all. If this review doesn’t make sense it’s because i just finished this book just right now and I’m not in the right mind-space to write review but i also wanna pen down my actual unfiltered feelings atm so I’m writing one 🤦🏼♀️.
”It would’ve been perfect. We could’ve been perfect. In another time. Another world. Where mine wasn’t falling apart. And hers wasn’t already in pieces.”
THIS FUCKING BOOK😭😭. Only being read her heartache duet (which still remains one of my fav duet of all times), I knew that Jay is the author with the talent of bringing out your emotions - she makes you feel what she wants you to feel but I wasn’t really expecting THIS. I love how she writes her characters - how they’re broken but still have hope and honestly this is what I love reading. I know its fiction but it can’t help but give me hope that you don’t have to be okay to be okay and that you can have a traumatised past or a hard time but that isn’t the end of you.
Ngl, i had a hard time in the beginning of the book but once it hit the 75% mark it felt impossible to give it a low rating cause the way Jay writes emotions?? Out-of -the-fucking-world. This book was everything I wanted, needed and more.
“She’s like… a riddle. A paradox. An incomplete picture. It’s as if she only gives people fragments of herself. Pieces. I can’t help but smile. Jameson Taylor is like a puzzle.”
Jameson Taylor is the girl who deserves the world. When we meet her in the starting of the book- she really intrigued me and made me curious to read more and more about her. As the H said that Jamie was a puzzle and along with the H, I wanted to solve her too. I wanted to know what had happened to her and what she was scared of. Jamie is an enigma. She lives in a park trailer and wears granny clothes and she’s obsessed with drawing (to the fact that if she doesn’t have any tissue or paper she starts drawing on her legs). I couldn’t understand her at all first and that made me wanna read more but then when we get to know about her, her past and her insecurities, I just wanted to kill everyone and make sure she’s safe and knows that she’s loved.
I loved every single thing about her- how she would spill out random facts about flowers while drawing, how she would banter w Holden and specially how strong she was.
“I’d pretty much do anything Holden Eastwood asks of me.
It’s a dangerous feeling. Terrifying, really. And it’s safe to say that I’m officially a goner for the green-eyed boy sitting beside me, leading me blindly into what he calls “an adventure.”
It’s strange how things can change in a blink of an eye. Or a single kiss.”
Holden played with my feelings- sometimes he made me wanna kill him and sometimes he made me wanna hug him. I loved how he was with Jamie and I loved how he made her feel safe and wholesome😭😭
I didn’t read the book “leo” and when i saw people freaking out over getting his book i was confused and dying to see why everyone loved him and now i see it. You can’t help but fall for Holden- his looks, his feelings, his caring nature and his “i-dont-give-a-fuck-what-others-think” attitude had me love him so bad. I loved how he treated her and how patient he was with her.
I understood what he did and the end but I’m still lowkey mad at him?? I hope he redeems himself in the next book 🤞🏻
“I am privileged and honored to have been loved by Holden Eastwood. Even for a couple of months. A few weeks. A single day. Even if I didn’t know it at the time. People have the ability to change you, and I’d been so wrapped up in the way my mother was changed that I never thought that something good could come out of it.
And I understand it now.
I understand that the whole of him belongs to her, but I can still hold on to pieces of him.
I still have so much to say, i still have so much to talk about but I won’t cause this book needs to be felt. There are so many scenes I want to talk about but I will try to bury it in and wait for y’all to read this masterpiece. I can easily see rereading this book again in a week and crying over it again. If you need a sign to pick this one up or add it to your tbr here it is- DO IT.
Also wtf was that cliffhanger?🤯🤯 I WANT BOOK 2 NOW. please.🥺🥺
“It’s just that… I don’t think you went through what you did and survived what you have so you could come out of it and be normal.” He pauses a beat. “You’re not here to be average, Jamie. You’re here to be extraordinary.” I stare at him. At a boy lost in his own thoughts, in his own world, and he has no idea the effect he has on me. Or the change he’s creating inside me.
***ARC provided in exchange for honest review.***
June 30, 2021
'PIECES OF YOU' is the first full length 'New Adult' book in Jay McLean's 'Pieces' duet. Spoken in 'Dual Perspectives.'
This author fast became one of my unicorn writers, one I would recommend over and over again, one I would #oneclick in a heart beat, one I would read whatever she wrote, and this book right here cements exactly that. This book was so beautifully raw, so beautifully real, so beautifully heartbreaking.
Jameson Taylor made me feel so much, she's so easy to connect with, you just want to wrap her up in cotton wool and yell enough, she slayed my heart, all the broken pieces laid at her feet, she has an unusual dress sense which is way older than her years, she swears like a sailer, and has so many layers to her which I got swept up in as the story progressed. Independent and more grown up than she gives herself credit for, art is one of her coping mechanisms and can create masterpieces on napkins in minutes.
“𝐈𝐭’𝐬 𝐬𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐞. 𝐖𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐈’𝐦 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐡𝐞𝐫, 𝐈 𝐛𝐚𝐫𝐞𝐥𝐲 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐤 𝐨𝐟 𝐡𝐞𝐫.
𝐁𝐮𝐭 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐬𝐡𝐞 𝐢𝐬 𝐚𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐝, 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐬𝐡𝐞’𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐜𝐥𝐨𝐬𝐞,
𝐬𝐡𝐞 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐬𝐮𝐦𝐞𝐬 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲 𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡𝐭, 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲 𝐛𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐡, 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐛𝐞𝐚𝐭.”
Holden Eastwood had me cringing more times than not with his cheesy name rhyming, the boy who doesn't want to grow up, who took so much of his life for granted until he met a girl who opened his eyes and made him appreciate what he had.
“𝐀𝐧𝐝 𝐦𝐚𝐲𝐛𝐞 𝐈 𝐡𝐚𝐝 𝐢𝐭 𝐰𝐫𝐨𝐧𝐠.
𝐌𝐚𝐲𝐛𝐞 𝐇𝐨𝐥𝐝𝐞𝐧 𝐄𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐰𝐨𝐨𝐝 𝐢𝐬𝐧’𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐟𝐥𝐚𝐦𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐲 𝐦𝐨𝐭𝐡.
𝐌𝐚𝐲𝐛𝐞 𝐡𝐞’𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐦𝐨𝐨𝐧.
𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐥𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭.
𝐆𝐮𝐢𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐦𝐞 𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐦𝐲 𝐝𝐚𝐫𝐤𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐬.”
These two were complete opposites but had so much in common, they were both imperfect, but perfectly perfect. I wouldn't change these two at all.
A double whammy with the last chapter then you hit the 'Epilogue' and then your left in limbo disbelieving what you'd just read, a cliffy like no other, reading it again doesn't change the fact that what's to come will tear us all apart before we're put back together.
January 12, 2022
This book is literally a metaphorical beauty. I swear the metaphors in this book has me in a chokehold.
Not everyone may agree with this but I do, very much so:
Age being your teenage years. Despite reading YA books, I don't believe in love at this age or at any age to be honest.
Metaphors that I never thought that I would obsess over. Jay knows her way with words and I think it's beautiful.
Jamie(h) and Holden(H) are pieces of each other. Their banters are hilarious. They have problems of their own that needs to be dealt and dealt together but that cliffhanger at the end? Oof! Can't wait for the next book!
There was one thing in the entire world I knew to be true: my silence would kill us both.
Not everyone may agree with this but I do, very much so:
Love… love, at this age, is bullshit. It’s deceitful and vicious and cruel, and it exposes the weakest parts of the strongest people.
Age being your teenage years. Despite reading YA books, I don't believe in love at this age or at any age to be honest.
She’s like… a riddle.
A paradox.
An incomplete picture.
It’s as if she only gives people fragments of herself.
Pieces.
I can’t help but smile.
Jameson Taylor is like a puzzle.
And I’ve always liked puzzles.
Metaphors that I never thought that I would obsess over. Jay knows her way with words and I think it's beautiful.
Jamie(h) and Holden(H) are pieces of each other. Their banters are hilarious. They have problems of their own that needs to be dealt and dealt together but that cliffhanger at the end? Oof! Can't wait for the next book!
January 20, 2022
Awesome but now the wait for book 2 begins and I hate waiting and cliffies!!!!
January 22, 2022
4 stars
This is an actual image of me starting this book thinking it was going to be a sweet, little high school romance
Books like this are the reason it's so much better to just jump into a book blind because you truly have no damn idea what might happen. And in this case, the craziest shit.
I love the heroine. I like the hero, but I didn't love him. Some of the things he said and did were super questionable. Like excuse me bitch, say that again
Then OBVIOUSLY the epilogue is what everyone is talking about with this book because it's absolutely insane. I had a few theories after finishing it, but now I have a million possible theories about what it means and what will happen in the next book.
At first I thought the epilogue was for sure nefarious, but now I’m thinking it might not be??
Full review after the 2nd book comes out
My initial reaction to reading the epilogue:
WHAT THE MOTHERFUCK JUST MOTHERFUCKING HAPPENED
I CANT EVEN RATE THIS RIGHT NOW IM SO CONFUSED
WHAT. THE. FUCK. WAS THAT EPILOGUE
I THOUGHT THIS WAS A CUTE LIL HIGH SCHOOL ROMANCE
SIKE BITCH
book 2 review
This is an actual image of me starting this book thinking it was going to be a sweet, little high school romance
Books like this are the reason it's so much better to just jump into a book blind because you truly have no damn idea what might happen. And in this case, the craziest shit.
I love the heroine. I like the hero, but I didn't love him. Some of the things he said and did were super questionable. Like excuse me bitch, say that again
Then OBVIOUSLY the epilogue is what everyone is talking about with this book because it's absolutely insane. I had a few theories after finishing it, but now I have a million possible theories about what it means and what will happen in the next book.
At first I thought the epilogue was for sure nefarious, but now I’m thinking it might not be??
Full review after the 2nd book comes out
My initial reaction to reading the epilogue:
WHAT THE MOTHERFUCK JUST MOTHERFUCKING HAPPENED
I CANT EVEN RATE THIS RIGHT NOW IM SO CONFUSED
WHAT. THE. FUCK. WAS THAT EPILOGUE
I THOUGHT THIS WAS A CUTE LIL HIGH SCHOOL ROMANCE
SIKE BITCH
book 2 review
Read
July 1, 2021I’m not rating this book because that prologue left me scared for what’s to come on the 2nd book.
I don’t want this duet to become a whole mess like Say I'm The One did 😭
But as always, this author writing is amazing and her way to deal with hard topics is what makes me love her books every time.
“My trauma is my problem, and it’s my responsibility to heal from it. I can’t expect the rest of the world to work around me.”
I don’t want this duet to become a whole mess like Say I'm The One did 😭
But as always, this author writing is amazing and her way to deal with hard topics is what makes me love her books every time.
“My trauma is my problem, and it’s my responsibility to heal from it. I can’t expect the rest of the world to work around me.”
Read
January 20, 2022While I had the best intentions for this story, neither the characters nor the plot were able to keep me engaged. I felt no connection with neither of them and the story flow was not one of the greatest.
Dnf @ 40%
Dnf @ 40%
February 1, 2022
Can we throw Holden out? Cuz my girl Jamie was spilling her guts and this dude be like “yeah” “sucks” 💀 throw him in the garbage. Jamie deserves the world.
Want to read
September 20, 2020Jay McLean breaks my heart with every single book in the best possible way ❤
And I just say Thank u 😁
Who's excited 😍????
Coming in Late November or December 😍
I hope It will be November because can't wait!!
Hopefully we will be getting glimpse of Mia and Leo too ☺
And I just say Thank u 😁
Who's excited 😍????
Coming in Late November or December 😍
I hope It will be November because can't wait!!
Hopefully we will be getting glimpse of Mia and Leo too ☺
avoid
June 28, 2022Self note avoid🤮
Lots of Ow drama and descriptive sex scene with said ow in book 2!
At one point in book 2, the H yells at the h to go home, then has the hottest deceptive sex scene with the ow at a party…then on their way back from the party, he sees the h, touches her face, and the h pulls away because she could smell the ow pussy on his fingers- remember he just had that hot sex with he ow….🤢Omg I wanted to vomit after reading this scene described from a reviewer.
Lots of Ow drama and descriptive sex scene with said ow in book 2!
At one point in book 2, the H yells at the h to go home, then has the hottest deceptive sex scene with the ow at a party…then on their way back from the party, he sees the h, touches her face, and the h pulls away because she could smell the ow pussy on his fingers- remember he just had that hot sex with he ow….🤢Omg I wanted to vomit after reading this scene described from a reviewer.
July 7, 2021
4 Stars ⭐️
February 16, 2022
with Jay's books, I expect emotional damage but I forgot how funny she is, I mean the witty dialogue
10 out of 10
now this has a cliffhanger and just be glad that the next book is already out because
August 6, 2021
ALL THE STARS, AGAIN!! Pieces of You is everything your reader heart asks for in a romance and more. I don't know how Jay McLean does it, but with every book comes my new favorite. This one comes in STRONG due to the fact that I love the Jamie just as much or more than I love Holden. Her strength, perseverance, and softness makes me want to bundle her up and hug the hell out of her. Holden is more than your typical teenage, hormonal boy. He has this depth to him that seals his soul to you in an instant. His slick talk, womanizing ways aside, he has a heart of gold just waiting for the right person to take care of it. Beyond anything this book captured a true friendship, a connection so quick and instant you could not stop reading. Their banter, the trust, knowing that they had found the person that would understand and not judge who and what they are underneath it all...Jay McLean again, captured it all. Her ability to crawl right into your heart with her words is overwhelming and let's be honest, kinda freaky. Simple words, simple actions, with such powerful results, more than romance...Just McLean-ed. If you don't know what that is, PLEASE PLEASE for love of all that is holy, pick up this book, or any of her books and live it. Real romance, the kind that is angsty, and real and can completely consume you, it's all here. You're welcome. xo
January 17, 2022
Jay McLean once again delivered a story packed of emotions and art.
We have become acccustomed to her writing who punchs us in the heart, leaving us hanging, putting every piece of our souls back together at the end.
Pieces Of You tells the story of a lonely and grieving girl, Jamie, and a guy that isn't ready ro take responsibilities, Holden. Maybe it would have been better they never met but fate had other plans for them, and being in each other lives made them grow and understand themselves better.
I'm glad the second book realeases in a few weeks because I need to know what happens after that epilogue.
Copy kindly provided by the Publisher/Author.
June 26, 2021
**ARC provided in exchange for an honest review**
Jay McLean has become my favorite New Adult romance author. She always knows how to draw me in with her amazing storytelling and intriguing characters. Pieces of You was another great story with intricate characters. I was hooked to the story from the start and was able to fully connect to the characters Holden and Jamie. Holden was a character who we meet in Jay’s previous book as one of the main characters best friend and I was really looking forward for him to get his own book. Jamie had been through so much in her life already, and Holden has a lot on his plate as well.
They have to work together when they are paired up for a type of community service program. At first glance they are the complete opposite of each other, Holden is very outgoing and just an overall happy guy, while Jamie is more broody and hesitant in letting people into her life. However, she’s unable to resist Holden’s charm. He is just such a great guy and I enjoyed getting to know him better in this book. Jamie had to grow up fast and her maturity shows. The character development was amazing, and I also enjoyed seeing Jamie and Holden grow closer together. This book had its sweet and funny moments, but it also was very emotional. There were a couple of heartbreaking moments for which I shed tears. I really enjoyed this book and I can’t wait to get my hands on the final book in this duet.
Jay McLean has become my favorite New Adult romance author. She always knows how to draw me in with her amazing storytelling and intriguing characters. Pieces of You was another great story with intricate characters. I was hooked to the story from the start and was able to fully connect to the characters Holden and Jamie. Holden was a character who we meet in Jay’s previous book as one of the main characters best friend and I was really looking forward for him to get his own book. Jamie had been through so much in her life already, and Holden has a lot on his plate as well.
They have to work together when they are paired up for a type of community service program. At first glance they are the complete opposite of each other, Holden is very outgoing and just an overall happy guy, while Jamie is more broody and hesitant in letting people into her life. However, she’s unable to resist Holden’s charm. He is just such a great guy and I enjoyed getting to know him better in this book. Jamie had to grow up fast and her maturity shows. The character development was amazing, and I also enjoyed seeing Jamie and Holden grow closer together. This book had its sweet and funny moments, but it also was very emotional. There were a couple of heartbreaking moments for which I shed tears. I really enjoyed this book and I can’t wait to get my hands on the final book in this duet.
do-not-read-cheating
June 30, 2022I can’t even believe I’m writing this but…
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If you don’t mind the H touching the h’s face and his fingers smelling like the OW’s p*$$y since he descriptively f*ck€d her, then this book is for you. Personally, I don’t like my H’s touching other women, ESPECIALLY when his fingers smell like her and he forgets and the h smells the OW on him 🤮
ETA- the ow scene is apparently in book 2. But there’s loads of owd
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If you don’t mind the H touching the h’s face and his fingers smelling like the OW’s p*$$y since he descriptively f*ck€d her, then this book is for you. Personally, I don’t like my H’s touching other women, ESPECIALLY when his fingers smell like her and he forgets and the h smells the OW on him 🤮
ETA- the ow scene is apparently in book 2. But there’s loads of owd
January 25, 2022
DUET REVIEW: 4.5 STARS
"My breath halts, and I realize now...I have no fucking clue who the girl sitting in front of me is."
SPOILER FREE DUET REVIEW:
I know...I know. Another glowing, lovey-dovey, mushy review for Jay McLean YET AGAIN. Well, if she would just stop writing angsty, stomach-clenching, toe-curling, amazing YA books that melt my heart, I wouldn't be forced to write these ooey-gooey gross reviews, but here I am. We'll blame her.
*sigh* I am in love with yet another couple from McLean's books. I love love love how she writes them and gives me characters that I can relate to, storylines that anger me but simultaneously smooth me over, and a love worth shouting about. And shouting I did!!! Holy moly!! Did I ever...
I think my favorite things about her writing is that not only does she make me feel like I'm part of her characters' world, living their emotions and working my way through everyday normal situations that are a little more heightened just because it's a teenager going through it - but McLean puts me in their heart; in their mind. It’s the fact that I can remember those emotions because her words bring me back and reminded me of what I was feeling when I went through it. I suppose it's the ease in which she brings it out of me is what truly amazes me.
I felt every emotion on multiple occasions throughout. I loved the pangs I felt. The pain I felt. The elation I felt. I felt it all and was so thankful for another heavy, gut-punch of a read. I did, however, want to yell at Jameson to say "Peace the f*ck out!!!" quite a few times. I don't know how she did it, but she did. She’s a much better person than me because I hold grudges. Loudly. How she had the space in her heart for the forgiveness she bestowed upon those unworthy of her heart, I will never, ever know, but I certainly admired her for it. I'm still shaking my head but I admire her.
I will say this much: I did not make it through this book with a willing smile. There were so many points in this duet that I wanted to give up. I wanted to put my kindle down and seriously walk around while screaming at Holden!!! Mind you, I fell in love with him in Leo's book and knew I wanted his story. He was a cocky, very confident high schooler - the kind with the eyes that dance and the smirk that melts hearts. He wasn't mean - but he was a smartass. Sarcastic and cocky, providing all the smiles - perfectly sums him up. I knew he was a ladies man, always hittin' and quittin' it. But, I was straight up shocked with everything that happened in this duet - BUT, I also understood the WHY of it coming from a teenaged point of view!! Argh!! Damn you, Jay! Soooooo good. Sooooo grrrrr, but so good. This is definitely one of those stories to be discussed multiple times, with multiple people. Opinions will vary, but this emotion will not - EXASPERATING.
McLean made me aaaaaangry but expertly slid in some very valid reasons to understand all the happenings - not drama, but rationalizing everything with truth. She forced me to take a step back and analyze the WHY. All this while leaving room for me to mull over my emotions with purpose. My heart definitely hurt reading this one. Even though there was so much pain within the confines of their journey to happiness, the comedic relief was sprinkled in juuust right - enough to make me yearn for more of Jameson and Holden growing together. Their exploration alone was what heart-eyes and smiles are made of.
“I’m pretty sure the first word out of my mouth was shit, and I sure as fuck didn’t get it from Sesame Street.”
Jameson and Holden held my heart (until the verrrrrry end) and I don’t know how anyone could’ve withstood or handled that cliffhanger after the first book and not died 100 separate deaths waiting for this conclusion!! I know, I'm whining. Coming from a professional cliffhanger aversionist, even I had a hard time waiting to jump into this first book - but. I'm. so. glad. I. did. It was an intricate web of pain and sorrow, mixed with heartache and love. It also redefined the definition of family and the truest meaning of it. My heart was so heavy, but oh so happy.
Embarrassing fact: I don’t know why a volatile exchange with pent up lust leading to sex is my kryptonite - but it is. Not a hate f*ck, but an actual explosion of raw emotion that pushes them to do something they don’t (in theory) want to do, but HAVE to...NEED to do because they're done fighting it. That’s Holden and Jamie. That’s what I loved seeing. Button pushing, anger revealing lust. I ate that up!!! It was deeeeelishus.
I honestly think my only gripe was that I don’t feel like I got closure out of the quick acceptance of the apology and so it felt a little rushed or unreal/untrue. I know, I know - "This isn't your story, Bee." {{insert eye roll}} I knooooow. But, I felt I could relate to a lot of the story emotion-wise and life-wise, so I definitely connected on a more intimate level with it - which is probably why I had such a hard time accepting the quick resolution. But if that's my only complaint....? I shan't complain.
This was an emotional book. A wake up call for three. I loved how McLean incorporated Holden's world with Mia into his universe with Jameson. Relationships that have and will continue to withstand the tests of time. And my most favorite part of this book: I loved finding out the reality behind the title. I love when I am finishing up a book an aha! moment catches me because the title makes perfect sense after it's all said and done.
“Either she knows exactly who she is and what she’s doing, or I’m way, way off my game.“
~BEE
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"My breath halts, and I realize now...I have no fucking clue who the girl sitting in front of me is."
SPOILER FREE DUET REVIEW:
I know...I know. Another glowing, lovey-dovey, mushy review for Jay McLean YET AGAIN. Well, if she would just stop writing angsty, stomach-clenching, toe-curling, amazing YA books that melt my heart, I wouldn't be forced to write these ooey-gooey gross reviews, but here I am. We'll blame her.
*sigh* I am in love with yet another couple from McLean's books. I love love love how she writes them and gives me characters that I can relate to, storylines that anger me but simultaneously smooth me over, and a love worth shouting about. And shouting I did!!! Holy moly!! Did I ever...
I think my favorite things about her writing is that not only does she make me feel like I'm part of her characters' world, living their emotions and working my way through everyday normal situations that are a little more heightened just because it's a teenager going through it - but McLean puts me in their heart; in their mind. It’s the fact that I can remember those emotions because her words bring me back and reminded me of what I was feeling when I went through it. I suppose it's the ease in which she brings it out of me is what truly amazes me.
I felt every emotion on multiple occasions throughout. I loved the pangs I felt. The pain I felt. The elation I felt. I felt it all and was so thankful for another heavy, gut-punch of a read. I did, however, want to yell at Jameson to say "Peace the f*ck out!!!" quite a few times. I don't know how she did it, but she did. She’s a much better person than me because I hold grudges. Loudly. How she had the space in her heart for the forgiveness she bestowed upon those unworthy of her heart, I will never, ever know, but I certainly admired her for it. I'm still shaking my head but I admire her.
I will say this much: I did not make it through this book with a willing smile. There were so many points in this duet that I wanted to give up. I wanted to put my kindle down and seriously walk around while screaming at Holden!!! Mind you, I fell in love with him in Leo's book and knew I wanted his story. He was a cocky, very confident high schooler - the kind with the eyes that dance and the smirk that melts hearts. He wasn't mean - but he was a smartass. Sarcastic and cocky, providing all the smiles - perfectly sums him up. I knew he was a ladies man, always hittin' and quittin' it. But, I was straight up shocked with everything that happened in this duet - BUT, I also understood the WHY of it coming from a teenaged point of view!! Argh!! Damn you, Jay! Soooooo good. Sooooo grrrrr, but so good. This is definitely one of those stories to be discussed multiple times, with multiple people. Opinions will vary, but this emotion will not - EXASPERATING.
McLean made me aaaaaangry but expertly slid in some very valid reasons to understand all the happenings - not drama, but rationalizing everything with truth. She forced me to take a step back and analyze the WHY. All this while leaving room for me to mull over my emotions with purpose. My heart definitely hurt reading this one. Even though there was so much pain within the confines of their journey to happiness, the comedic relief was sprinkled in juuust right - enough to make me yearn for more of Jameson and Holden growing together. Their exploration alone was what heart-eyes and smiles are made of.
“I’m pretty sure the first word out of my mouth was shit, and I sure as fuck didn’t get it from Sesame Street.”
Jameson and Holden held my heart (until the verrrrrry end) and I don’t know how anyone could’ve withstood or handled that cliffhanger after the first book and not died 100 separate deaths waiting for this conclusion!! I know, I'm whining. Coming from a professional cliffhanger aversionist, even I had a hard time waiting to jump into this first book - but. I'm. so. glad. I. did. It was an intricate web of pain and sorrow, mixed with heartache and love. It also redefined the definition of family and the truest meaning of it. My heart was so heavy, but oh so happy.
Embarrassing fact: I don’t know why a volatile exchange with pent up lust leading to sex is my kryptonite - but it is. Not a hate f*ck, but an actual explosion of raw emotion that pushes them to do something they don’t (in theory) want to do, but HAVE to...NEED to do because they're done fighting it. That’s Holden and Jamie. That’s what I loved seeing. Button pushing, anger revealing lust. I ate that up!!! It was deeeeelishus.
I honestly think my only gripe was that I don’t feel like I got closure out of the quick acceptance of the apology and so it felt a little rushed or unreal/untrue. I know, I know - "This isn't your story, Bee." {{insert eye roll}} I knooooow. But, I felt I could relate to a lot of the story emotion-wise and life-wise, so I definitely connected on a more intimate level with it - which is probably why I had such a hard time accepting the quick resolution. But if that's my only complaint....? I shan't complain.
This was an emotional book. A wake up call for three. I loved how McLean incorporated Holden's world with Mia into his universe with Jameson. Relationships that have and will continue to withstand the tests of time. And my most favorite part of this book: I loved finding out the reality behind the title. I love when I am finishing up a book an aha! moment catches me because the title makes perfect sense after it's all said and done.
“Either she knows exactly who she is and what she’s doing, or I’m way, way off my game.“
~BEE
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July 1, 2021
5 ‘Jay McLean holds my heart in her hands’ stars
I’ve been sitting here staring at a blank page for way too long trying to figure out how to put my feels onto paper, and I just don’t know where to start. This book is an angsty, heartwrenching, dramatic and emotional ride. It’s messy and heartbreaking, yet I couldn’t put it down, and I have so much love for these damaged yet incredible characters, and their complicated story.
I fell in love with Holden Eastwood when I read Leo (Preston Brothers, #3). He is Mia’s wild, carefree, but deeply devoted best friend, and was just begging to have his story told, and I loved this opportunity to get to know him. Holden is 17-years-old, a fun-loving playboy who doesn’t really take anything too seriously, and who is embracing his lack of responsibility, hating the idea of having to grow up. But there is depth there too, and so much more to this boy than you see on the surface.
Jameson Taylor is Holden’s completely opposite. Forced to grow up way before she should have, she has been through hell, and though she is heartachingly alone, she is smart and hilariously sassy, and driven to graduate high school, get out of town and move on from her past.
It’s snark at first site for these two. Holden teases Jamie’s plainness and lack of fashion sense, Jamie has no time for an arrogant, good-looking playboy. But when they are teamed up to work on an after-school project, they get to know each other more, and a tentative friendship develops. It’s effortless between them, and they joke, they tease, they are open and honest with each other, and the and banter is fantastic as they open up to each other, and of course, the feelings aren’t far behind.
It’s not exactly straightforward, but their coming together is so natural, and I loved seeing them find their way to each other and discover something so incredibly special – something that they both needed, and that starts to heal their damaged hearts.
The love story is beautifully emotional, and I fell right alongside Holden and Jamie as they openly and eagerly explore everything between them. It’s fun, sweet, passionate and super freaking sexy (seriously - these are two of the most sexually mature and confident 17-year-olds that I’ve ever read, and as a mother to teenagers, I was slightly horrified), and they are just gorgeous together.
But life hasn’t been easy for these two, and there is more angst ahead. They both know they’ve been emotionally scarred by what they’ve been through, but they are damaged in ways they aren’t even aware of yet, and their story is full of twists and turns that they aren’t sure how to navigate. It’s heartbreakingly raw, and so many times I wanted to reach into my kindle and shake and/or hug these characters, but they’re so young, they still have so much to figure out, and they are dealing with their situation the best way they know how. It’s an emotional rollercoaster, and I can’t even put into words how much I ached for them both.
McLean writes the best tortured characters, and Holden and Jamie have been through so much. Yes, they’re a bit broken, but they show incredible depth, strength and resilience, and I felt so much for them. They both deserve the world, and I desperately wanted them to hold on to their happy, but life is not always fair, their story is complex, their choices are limited, and their emotions are confusing and overwhelming. I didn’t like the way their story played out, but I could understand the why and the how, and I was completely swept up in the intensity of it all.
This story takes place at the same time as the later part of Leo, so Holden is partly involved in Mia’s drama while he’s going through his own (beware spoilers for Leo in this book). Watching his pain over everything that his best friend is going through, again brings the feels, and I wanted to give the kid a hug so badly.
It’s not all heartbreak and angst though, Holden and Jamie’s banter and wit is fantastic, and there are so many scenes that made me laugh. McLean has a wicked sense of humour, and she managed to inject that into cheeky Holden and feisty Jamie, and I love them as characters.
The book ends on a nasty cliffhanger and honestly, that epilogue left me devastated. I’m kind of terrified for the next book because I’m already feeling unhappy at some of the story directions, but I will put my broken heart in Jay’s hands and trust that she will give me the happy ending that I, and these characters need so badly.
5 emotionally overwhelmed stars.
An Advanced Reader Copy of this book was provided by the author in exchange for an honest review.
I’ve been sitting here staring at a blank page for way too long trying to figure out how to put my feels onto paper, and I just don’t know where to start. This book is an angsty, heartwrenching, dramatic and emotional ride. It’s messy and heartbreaking, yet I couldn’t put it down, and I have so much love for these damaged yet incredible characters, and their complicated story.
I fell in love with Holden Eastwood when I read Leo (Preston Brothers, #3). He is Mia’s wild, carefree, but deeply devoted best friend, and was just begging to have his story told, and I loved this opportunity to get to know him. Holden is 17-years-old, a fun-loving playboy who doesn’t really take anything too seriously, and who is embracing his lack of responsibility, hating the idea of having to grow up. But there is depth there too, and so much more to this boy than you see on the surface.
Jameson Taylor is Holden’s completely opposite. Forced to grow up way before she should have, she has been through hell, and though she is heartachingly alone, she is smart and hilariously sassy, and driven to graduate high school, get out of town and move on from her past.
It’s snark at first site for these two. Holden teases Jamie’s plainness and lack of fashion sense, Jamie has no time for an arrogant, good-looking playboy. But when they are teamed up to work on an after-school project, they get to know each other more, and a tentative friendship develops. It’s effortless between them, and they joke, they tease, they are open and honest with each other, and the and banter is fantastic as they open up to each other, and of course, the feelings aren’t far behind.
Jameson Taylor is like a puzzle.
And I’ve always liked puzzles.
Searching for the right piece to fit perfectly in just the right place… it’s time-consuming and challenging, but it brings a kind of order to the chaos, and if you put in the effort, the end result is always rewarding. And that’s why I do it: for the reward.
And now… sitting opposite Jamie, watching her, I feel like I need to somehow piece her together.
It’s not exactly straightforward, but their coming together is so natural, and I loved seeing them find their way to each other and discover something so incredibly special – something that they both needed, and that starts to heal their damaged hearts.
Maybe I had it wrong.
Maybe Holden Eastwood isn’t the flame to my moth.
Maybe he’s the moon.
The light.
Guiding me out of my darkness.
“You’re the only fucking thing that makes sense to me right now.”
The love story is beautifully emotional, and I fell right alongside Holden and Jamie as they openly and eagerly explore everything between them. It’s fun, sweet, passionate and super freaking sexy (seriously - these are two of the most sexually mature and confident 17-year-olds that I’ve ever read, and as a mother to teenagers, I was slightly horrified), and they are just gorgeous together.
She’s everything I thought she’d be and nothing at all like I’d imagined … Jameson Taylor is a masterpiece, and I’m in way, way over my head.
But life hasn’t been easy for these two, and there is more angst ahead. They both know they’ve been emotionally scarred by what they’ve been through, but they are damaged in ways they aren’t even aware of yet, and their story is full of twists and turns that they aren’t sure how to navigate. It’s heartbreakingly raw, and so many times I wanted to reach into my kindle and shake and/or hug these characters, but they’re so young, they still have so much to figure out, and they are dealing with their situation the best way they know how. It’s an emotional rollercoaster, and I can’t even put into words how much I ached for them both.
McLean writes the best tortured characters, and Holden and Jamie have been through so much. Yes, they’re a bit broken, but they show incredible depth, strength and resilience, and I felt so much for them. They both deserve the world, and I desperately wanted them to hold on to their happy, but life is not always fair, their story is complex, their choices are limited, and their emotions are confusing and overwhelming. I didn’t like the way their story played out, but I could understand the why and the how, and I was completely swept up in the intensity of it all.
We could’ve been perfect.
In another time.
Another world.
Where mine wasn’t falling part.
And hers wasn’t already in pieces.
This story takes place at the same time as the later part of Leo, so Holden is partly involved in Mia’s drama while he’s going through his own (beware spoilers for Leo in this book). Watching his pain over everything that his best friend is going through, again brings the feels, and I wanted to give the kid a hug so badly.
It’s not all heartbreak and angst though, Holden and Jamie’s banter and wit is fantastic, and there are so many scenes that made me laugh. McLean has a wicked sense of humour, and she managed to inject that into cheeky Holden and feisty Jamie, and I love them as characters.
The book ends on a nasty cliffhanger and honestly, that epilogue left me devastated. I’m kind of terrified for the next book because I’m already feeling unhappy at some of the story directions, but I will put my broken heart in Jay’s hands and trust that she will give me the happy ending that I, and these characters need so badly.
5 emotionally overwhelmed stars.
An Advanced Reader Copy of this book was provided by the author in exchange for an honest review.
July 6, 2021
❝She was frustratingly defeating, and devastatingly desolate. Completely unforgiving. And beautiful. God, was she beautiful. Even when shattered to pieces.❞
more bookish edits HERE :-)
Tropes: right person wrong time, but also angst, pain and a lot of frustration!
Trigger Warnings:
If you've read anything by Jay McLean then you know she can write hilarious scenes in her books, but that's just a breath before the heartbreak train hits you, and I have to say I love that for me.
This right here is a high school romance between two people with a lot of burdens, their own and others, who are trying to survive them while also discovering this love, but sometimes the time isn't just the right one and they will have to meet in the future to see if that special connection that they felt from the first minute is still there 😭
I had a bit of trouble trying to connect with Holden's character because yes, he has a lot on his plate, but some of his thoughts and ways weren't justified when you compared him to Jamie and sometimes he could be quite selfish, but then looking at the bigger picture, it was obvious how he cared and protected his loved ones, and he never did anything malicious. And Jamie... I'm not going to lie, Jamie' story broke me a little and I shed more than a couple of tears for her, everything she had to live up to that point, the perception she had of herself, her fears and how she dealt with her childhood traumas really touched me and made me feel for this character, whom I want to protect from everything bad because seriously give her a break!
And that ending... I just found out that the second installment doesn't have a release date yet and what am I supposed to do with my life now? I already have a theory and I feel like I need a screaming session!!
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January 24, 2022
I've been wanting to read this book since it came out but because it was only part 1, I held off until the duet was complete. Thank goodness I waited because WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT EPILOGUE!!! 😫😭 I would not have been ok waiting this long for book 2!
As much as I loved this story, I will say there were some things I hated that had nothing to do with the writing itself. I get Mia is Holden's best friend, but I don't think I could ever be ok with being second in his life. He just drops everything, including Jamie, when it has anything to do with Mia. He's also really bad at communication. Like, this boy told Jamie absolutely nothing about his life but then expected her to tell him everything. He couldn't even send her a simple text, but he remembers to call/text/check in with Mia atleast 2times a day!?? I would definitely feel some type of way about that. Also, I couldn't really figure out Holden's issues and what he's struggling with. I mean, compared to the shit Jamie went thru, he's had it pretty easy.
Also, Dean is such a dick! Why he pretends to be sweet around Jamie, Im not sure but she was literally his side chick for the summer and they had some summer romance. I'm a little confused at how quickly she trusted him considering her issues.
This book dives right into alot of things that already happened in the previous book in a different series (Leo, Preston Brothers) so I definitely recommend reading that first or else some of it will be confusing.
As much as I loved this story, I will say there were some things I hated that had nothing to do with the writing itself. I get Mia is Holden's best friend, but I don't think I could ever be ok with being second in his life. He just drops everything, including Jamie, when it has anything to do with Mia. He's also really bad at communication. Like, this boy told Jamie absolutely nothing about his life but then expected her to tell him everything. He couldn't even send her a simple text, but he remembers to call/text/check in with Mia atleast 2times a day!?? I would definitely feel some type of way about that. Also, I couldn't really figure out Holden's issues and what he's struggling with. I mean, compared to the shit Jamie went thru, he's had it pretty easy.
Also, Dean is such a dick! Why he pretends to be sweet around Jamie, Im not sure but she was literally his side chick for the summer and they had some summer romance. I'm a little confused at how quickly she trusted him considering her issues.
This book dives right into alot of things that already happened in the previous book in a different series (Leo, Preston Brothers) so I definitely recommend reading that first or else some of it will be confusing.
July 22, 2021
✨ 4.5 stars ✨
Also a crown for the ending because wtf was that.
Okay I just finished this and I have to rant about this because why not.
Before I started reading I was told to just tighten the seatbelts because "you're not ready for what's to come". I thought it'll be another twist about some trusting character being a dick. But oh my my lord I was NOT ready for what I read.
She’s like… a riddle.
A paradox.
An incomplete picture.
It’s as if she only gives people fragments of herself.
Jameson Taylor. Oh my god what I wouldn't do to give you the world. Okay this woman gripped me from the very start because she's such a tough nut to crack and surprisingly she's so...soft at the same time.
She knows life is shit and she hopes for a better one at the same second.
She's straight with her words and hides from her own head.
She draws things she dreams of seeing because it makes her feel safe. She draws to escape. Paper napkins, random pages,...her thigh and on Holden. She draws.
She's got evils. But they're not hers. It's all what she's seen all her life. It's trauma.
Jamie lives in a trailer park, wears grandma clothes (because it connects her to Gina , a woman who held her up when everyone let her down) , has all her trailer painted white and loves to be clean because she's been the 'dirty girl in the class' people make fun of. She makes sure she doesn't smell because she was the 'bad smelling kid of the class'
I loved how she would speak random ass facts about flowers and how she wasn't afraid to cuss someone down.
And the fact that she almost had a upper hand in the banter because of her snappy cute lil mouth.
I cannot be crushing on Holden Eastwood. That would be ludicrous. And dangerous.
Holden Eastwood.
Okay hmmmmm okay so yeah
I LOVED how he said what he wanted to at all times.
Open book we say? He was that.
You cannot help but swoon on him with his wit and his ability to joke around.
I love how he said yes to the 'no sex' policy Jamie put out before having her even explain why.
And he would drive her and how the his thoughts seeing her damn trailer door was "why didn't dean fix this?"
ALSO
Truth be told ?
I didn't like his decisions
He was being a total dick.
With the ghosting and shit
He ran away because he was scared.
Okay I feel and understand that but pls no.
If he doesn't up his game in book 2 I'm having a talk.
“I give it three weeks until you’re begging me to bend you over this workbench and bone you from behind.”
As if I’d come because of you.”
He smirks, leans in closer. And I really should’ve known what was coming before he even opens his mouth. “Give it time, Trudy. We’ve barely even kissed.”
“If you want to drop to your knees in front of me, you’ll have to get in line.”
I’d rather swallow razor blades than have his dick anywhere near me.
The playful banter between Holden and Jamie is something I live for lmao
GIVE ME THE SECOND BOOK AS SOON AS FUCKING POSSIBLE pls
“And I understand that that’s what it is: an addiction. A disease. And I think that’s what scares me the most about this whole thing.”
“You call your daughter when you feel as though you’re about to relapse?”
“Don’t do that anymore . Don’t you have a sponsor? Isn’t that what this is? It’s not up to your daughter to fix you. We’re your goddamn kids.You’re all doing this for them, right? But please, for the love of God, don’t tell them that, because if you relapse—Your kids are going to think it’s their fault. That they weren’t enough."
Things to think about really.
And saying this was the brightest light of them all, Jamie.
Jamie is so pure but holds the whole fucking world up over her.
There's a light at the end of the tunnel.
And it there burning white and bright.
Things don't always be a certain way.
Everyone shows how their kids made them stronger. How they are there because somehow the kid saved them or their relationships. But....this was a perspective to read which changes things for the good (or so I hope)
I am privileged and honored to have been loved by Holden Eastwood. Even for a couple of months. A few weeks. A single day.
Even if I didn’t know it at the time.
“You’re the only puzzle I couldn’t complete, Jameson Taylor.”
Also a crown for the ending because wtf was that.
Okay I just finished this and I have to rant about this because why not.
Before I started reading I was told to just tighten the seatbelts because "you're not ready for what's to come". I thought it'll be another twist about some trusting character being a dick. But oh my my lord I was NOT ready for what I read.
She’s like… a riddle.
A paradox.
An incomplete picture.
It’s as if she only gives people fragments of herself.
Jameson Taylor. Oh my god what I wouldn't do to give you the world. Okay this woman gripped me from the very start because she's such a tough nut to crack and surprisingly she's so...soft at the same time.
She knows life is shit and she hopes for a better one at the same second.
She's straight with her words and hides from her own head.
She draws things she dreams of seeing because it makes her feel safe. She draws to escape. Paper napkins, random pages,...her thigh and on Holden. She draws.
She's got evils. But they're not hers. It's all what she's seen all her life. It's trauma.
Jamie lives in a trailer park, wears grandma clothes (because it connects her to Gina , a woman who held her up when everyone let her down) , has all her trailer painted white and loves to be clean because she's been the 'dirty girl in the class' people make fun of. She makes sure she doesn't smell because she was the 'bad smelling kid of the class'
I loved how she would speak random ass facts about flowers and how she wasn't afraid to cuss someone down.
And the fact that she almost had a upper hand in the banter because of her snappy cute lil mouth.
I cannot be crushing on Holden Eastwood. That would be ludicrous. And dangerous.
Holden Eastwood.
Okay hmmmmm okay so yeah
I LOVED how he said what he wanted to at all times.
Open book we say? He was that.
You cannot help but swoon on him with his wit and his ability to joke around.
I love how he said yes to the 'no sex' policy Jamie put out before having her even explain why.
And he would drive her and how the his thoughts seeing her damn trailer door was "why didn't dean fix this?"
ALSO
Truth be told ?
I didn't like his decisions
He was being a total dick.
With the ghosting and shit
He ran away because he was scared.
Okay I feel and understand that but pls no.
If he doesn't up his game in book 2 I'm having a talk.
“I give it three weeks until you’re begging me to bend you over this workbench and bone you from behind.”
As if I’d come because of you.”
He smirks, leans in closer. And I really should’ve known what was coming before he even opens his mouth. “Give it time, Trudy. We’ve barely even kissed.”
“If you want to drop to your knees in front of me, you’ll have to get in line.”
I’d rather swallow razor blades than have his dick anywhere near me.
The playful banter between Holden and Jamie is something I live for lmao
GIVE ME THE SECOND BOOK AS SOON AS FUCKING POSSIBLE pls
“And I understand that that’s what it is: an addiction. A disease. And I think that’s what scares me the most about this whole thing.”
“You call your daughter when you feel as though you’re about to relapse?”
“Don’t do that anymore . Don’t you have a sponsor? Isn’t that what this is? It’s not up to your daughter to fix you. We’re your goddamn kids.You’re all doing this for them, right? But please, for the love of God, don’t tell them that, because if you relapse—Your kids are going to think it’s their fault. That they weren’t enough."
Things to think about really.
And saying this was the brightest light of them all, Jamie.
Jamie is so pure but holds the whole fucking world up over her.
There's a light at the end of the tunnel.
And it there burning white and bright.
Things don't always be a certain way.
Everyone shows how their kids made them stronger. How they are there because somehow the kid saved them or their relationships. But....this was a perspective to read which changes things for the good (or so I hope)
I am privileged and honored to have been loved by Holden Eastwood. Even for a couple of months. A few weeks. A single day.
Even if I didn’t know it at the time.
“You’re the only puzzle I couldn’t complete, Jameson Taylor.”
August 26, 2023
⭐3.5 stars⭐
I've always liked puzzles.
Searching for the right piece to fit perfectly in just the right place. It's time-consuming and challenging, but it brings a kind of order to the chaos, and if you put in the effort, the end result is always rewarding.
I've always liked puzzles.
Searching for the right piece to fit perfectly in just the right place. It's time-consuming and challenging, but it brings a kind of order to the chaos, and if you put in the effort, the end result is always rewarding.
October 19, 2021
i need answers about that epilogue like right fucking now
January 8, 2022
te amo holdenjamie <3
July 1, 2021
OH MY GOSH! THIS BOOK! I’m a newbie to Jay Mclean, but I’m about to ravish her backlist because this story wrecked me and consumed me entirely. WOW- what a beautiful, complicated, angsty, and heartfelt story of young love. My emotions were all over the place, but I do know this- this story MOVED me. Touched my heart and soul in ways I didn’t expect, in ways I may never have adequate words to articulate.
On paper, Jamie and Holden couldn’t be more different- Holden’s the golden boy- popular, athletic, sexy, and a ladies man while Jamie is the indivisible outcast- oddly dressed, artistic, guarded, and a loner. Unexpected circumstances draw them together, forces them to see each other and learn that there is more to each other. Because in truth, they are so similar - creating a bond so deep that at times it scares them. Both are lost in themselves, mired in their guilt, trapped in the trauma and mistakes of those they love, broken by it. Jamie’s cracks may be deeper, because she’s well and truly alone- but Holden’s are widening under the pressure of caring for those he loves.
And that’s where this story becomes so profound. As they try puzzle together who they each are, and who they are to each other, they try to understand one another’s broken pieces- and that forces them each to do something that neither has truly allowed themselves to do-to examine their OWN pieces, an introspection that challenges both their maturity and their fragile but deep emotional connection. Because loving each other isn’t easy or light- because of their baggage, it's heady and heavy, complicated and intense-a weight that is equal parts restorative and terrifying for each of them.
Jay is clearly a master of character writing-Jamie and Holden are two of the most compelling characters I’ve read. Both beautifully constructed, nuanced and dynamic- they are just so vividly captured, I felt their every word. Holden is fantastically unexpected- nothing like the jock trope. He’s a pure and sweetheart- he loves his mom, cares for his friends, and opens his heart. Bravo and charm meets compassion and kindness- it’s a beautiful elixir in a hero. And like Holden, Jamie is full of beautiful contrasts- broken but somehow unbreakable, guarded but vulnerable. Both characters have such a profound gravitas to them- a soulful weight that literally pressed on my heart.
There is so much heartbreaking beauty in this story- hope paired with helplessness, pain paired with healing, acceptance paired with fear. This is everything I love about the new adult genre- two characters coming of age trying to reconcile the very adult feeling of loving another while still trying to figure out who you are yourself. But this one is special- it feels deeper than that, more profound than that- and Jay somehow captures a shocking level of maturity and complexity while also embracing their youth. The result is that I connected with both characters so deeply- and admired how gently and graceful they were with each other and they tried to figure themselves out.
Every moment- sweet, sexy, tender, heartbreaking, and shocking- are rendered with such ease and purpose. The puzzle is complex, and still in the process, but I just know that the pieces fit- but now I’m wondering just how. The ending alone tore me in two, but then the epilogue- I gasped, I cried. I am not okay. Needless to say, my heart sits scattered in tiny pieces, and I need Jay to put them back together again, because my heart is now forever with Holden and Jamie.
On paper, Jamie and Holden couldn’t be more different- Holden’s the golden boy- popular, athletic, sexy, and a ladies man while Jamie is the indivisible outcast- oddly dressed, artistic, guarded, and a loner. Unexpected circumstances draw them together, forces them to see each other and learn that there is more to each other. Because in truth, they are so similar - creating a bond so deep that at times it scares them. Both are lost in themselves, mired in their guilt, trapped in the trauma and mistakes of those they love, broken by it. Jamie’s cracks may be deeper, because she’s well and truly alone- but Holden’s are widening under the pressure of caring for those he loves.
And that’s where this story becomes so profound. As they try puzzle together who they each are, and who they are to each other, they try to understand one another’s broken pieces- and that forces them each to do something that neither has truly allowed themselves to do-to examine their OWN pieces, an introspection that challenges both their maturity and their fragile but deep emotional connection. Because loving each other isn’t easy or light- because of their baggage, it's heady and heavy, complicated and intense-a weight that is equal parts restorative and terrifying for each of them.
Jay is clearly a master of character writing-Jamie and Holden are two of the most compelling characters I’ve read. Both beautifully constructed, nuanced and dynamic- they are just so vividly captured, I felt their every word. Holden is fantastically unexpected- nothing like the jock trope. He’s a pure and sweetheart- he loves his mom, cares for his friends, and opens his heart. Bravo and charm meets compassion and kindness- it’s a beautiful elixir in a hero. And like Holden, Jamie is full of beautiful contrasts- broken but somehow unbreakable, guarded but vulnerable. Both characters have such a profound gravitas to them- a soulful weight that literally pressed on my heart.
There is so much heartbreaking beauty in this story- hope paired with helplessness, pain paired with healing, acceptance paired with fear. This is everything I love about the new adult genre- two characters coming of age trying to reconcile the very adult feeling of loving another while still trying to figure out who you are yourself. But this one is special- it feels deeper than that, more profound than that- and Jay somehow captures a shocking level of maturity and complexity while also embracing their youth. The result is that I connected with both characters so deeply- and admired how gently and graceful they were with each other and they tried to figure themselves out.
Every moment- sweet, sexy, tender, heartbreaking, and shocking- are rendered with such ease and purpose. The puzzle is complex, and still in the process, but I just know that the pieces fit- but now I’m wondering just how. The ending alone tore me in two, but then the epilogue- I gasped, I cried. I am not okay. Needless to say, my heart sits scattered in tiny pieces, and I need Jay to put them back together again, because my heart is now forever with Holden and Jamie.
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