Revealing the strangeness of other lives, other choices: Mothers and Mountains
Non-fiction books which are both some kind of autobiography or memoir well written, and can take me into areas and experiences which are alien to my own, intrigue me.
And this is one.
Helen Mort is one of those beings who has felt the urge to push beyond physical limits into dangerous, exhilarating, possibly lethal territory. The payback being an absolute sense of tingling aliveness, focus and presence. She climbs mountains. Proper high altitude stuff where a false step might, and does, lead to fatalities.
I suffer from vertigo. I also have quite a well developed imagination, and also (if the writing is good enough – and it is, here) will subjectively enter into the experience the writer is describing.
Mort did not fill me with desire to go rockclimbing, though I do yearn for the experience (and sometimes get it) of being completely alone in ‘wild’ and surrendered to the natural world.
Instead, I felt quite sick, terrified, and panicky as she described her climbs – my imagination perennially making me dizzy as I thought about standing on the roof of the world looking down.
Mort is also a mother. I am not, but this is an experience, and a choice which awes me, that other women make. One I chose not to.
She writes equally transformationally, revealingly and vulnerably about the violent changes to her sense of self which pregnancy, childbirth, mothering gave and gives – the sense of her body and identity no longer being quite her own. The who she is of her, changed. The surrender demanded and taken by that helpless, powerful new life.
I am as much in awe of that generosity as at the fearlessness of surrender to the implacability of the high peaks.
This is also, in very large part, a celebration of other women mountaineers, of that community, and the engagement in an activity which has been, to a large degree, a manly club. And particularly a celebration of Alison Hargreaves, a fellow trailblazing mountaineer, and mother. Hargreaves and, indeed, a generation later, her adult son, both bitten by mountain fastnesses in their bloodstreams, despite being experienced, and skilful, died in this pursuit.
What I did viscerally understand, and have some personal engagement with, is Mort’s feminism. This territory I could access from my own experiences.
I was moved, engaged, humbled, exhilarated by this book. It is thought – and feeling – provoking and I am proof that a reader does not need to be either a mountaineer or a mother to be enriched by the read.
Ultimately, BOTH pursuits, scaling peaks, and bringing new beings into the world, absolutely life affirming
I received this as a digital ARC from the publishers, via Net Galley. To both of whom, thanks