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My First, My Last: A Friends-To-Lovers Novel

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What if you found the love of your life at an age most believed was too young for you to know for sure?

Ayla Samuels and Hassani Franklin met at fourteen-years-old. They became fast friends and at a time in Ayla’s life when she needed a friend the most. The trust cultivated through their friendship influenced a decision that would alter their platonic relationship years later. That decision also becomes the catalyst behind a series of occurrences that push Ayla and Hassani to make choices out of fear instead of with hope.

Ayla Samuels has two loves - a love of math and photography. She didn’t think she had room to love anything or anyone else. Despite seeing her parents in love during her formative years, Ayla grew up viewing romantic love as a weakness. When she finds something special in her friend Hassani, she restricts the desires of her heart, believing if she gave into those feelings, she’d lose him or worse… herself.

Hassani Franklin, an academic track star, had always kept himself inundated in activities. His true loves were track and architecture, and girls of course. But when he meets Ayla Samuels, he feels something he never felt before with any other girl. And despite how hard he tries, his feelings for Ayla never subside years later. He suppresses those desires though at the insistence of someone he looks up to, believing that person is never wrong, especially in matters of the heart.

Hindsight is 20/20 and things are often clearer when we reflect on the past; a fact all too familiar to Ayla and Hassani. But will hindsight provide insight and move blocks unintentionally placed in Ayla and Hassani’s path by the people closest to them? Or will hindsight haunt a love destined but stunted, and that could have thrived if allowed to grow from the start?

266 pages, Kindle Edition

Published June 25, 2021

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Brookelyn Mosley

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Brookelyn wrote her first short story when she was a sophomore in high school. Back then she discovered how using her experience as a teen living in Brooklyn to create romantic shorts was just as exciting to her as retail shopping and going on dates. After starting her first semester of college two years later, Brookelyn’s creative writing became more of a hobby and something to do to escape the stress of midterms and finals. Now in her 30s as a freelance writer, penning short stories and novellas is her everything. While her experience with writing has evolved for the better, her undying love for creating fiction remains unchanged. Brookelyn's focus is on creating contemporary women's fiction with characters based in urban settings. Her stories chronicles the emotional journeys and erotic experiences of women today through her characters and the scenarios they're thrown into.

The motivation behind her brand of writing has a lot to do with what she discovered storytelling provided for her - an escape. Her goal with her work is to create characters and urban worlds that offer a great escape for fiction readers looking for a break from the daily grind of adulting and who prefer to relax with good books and short stories. When she’s not freelancing, doing yoga, or showing her husband and toddler lots of love, she can be found sitting at her computer desk, with her legs folded, and a cup of coffee (or a glass of wine) at arm’s reach as she types or edits her latest short or novella.

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Profile Image for Erin Rae.
373 reviews25 followers
July 22, 2025
This was so so so so so good. Stayed up until 3am to finish. “My First, My Last” was THEE best friends to lovers story I’ve read this year. I wish I would’ve read it when it first came out 4 years ago 😩 There is a spin off to this titled “My Only” that was just released. I will be reading that to get more from this couple.

We get to see how Hassani & Ayla navigate through their friendship (which started when they were just 14 years old) and to watch them grow and blossom into adults while dealing with their feelings for each other.

They both frustrated the hell out of me. Ayla hanging on to her Aunts words 🙄 and Hassani listening to his Dad’s advice. I wish they would have opened up about their feelings towards each other sooner BUT they were just destined to be together. Kismet fate or whatever you call it lol

Marcus was no friend of Hassani. Broke the bro code!
Sienna was just a placeholder 🤷🏽‍♀️
Profile Image for Ayanna First of BourbonStreetBookers.
495 reviews21 followers
July 20, 2021
Saved by the cheater

Whewww this was a great read! BK is a NTMA and she blew me away immediately on impact. The foundation of the main characters childhood was so well developed and defined that the anticipation of their growth had me invested! I was ready for all the smoke with anybody that stood in the way of their HEA! I am looking forward to reading more of her work & I highly recommend this novel!🎊🎉💐
Profile Image for Jasmin Watson.
1,367 reviews
February 11, 2022
My first, my last

This book was everything and held my attention from the very first page. I love Hassani and Ayla friendship. I kept screaming just tell him. I'm happy in the end they figure it out.
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747 reviews23 followers
October 10, 2022
This Love

***SPOILER ALERT***

Boy, was that a winding road of all the things. Talk about two people so deserving of love, yet couldn't quite get it together to see that the love they had for each other could sustain an everlasting bond. Although the journey was long, it happened as it should've.

As hard of a time as it was for many people, I'm glad that the author took us back to September 11, 2001 and the tragedy of that day. I can remember that day as if it was yesterday and oddly, I was heading into my high school classroom, much like Hassani and Ayla were, when things started to become clear to us all what that day would hold for us for the rest of our lives. While somber, I'm glad all the feels from that time were in this storyline.

Ayla and her parents were so loving to read about. The love and bond she had with her dad was one I wish I had. He was a real man, whom showered his wife with affection and doted on his daughter too. Although she only had him for 14 years, the times they shared would stay with her forever. I like that he liked Hassani for her and that he was able to express that to her before he passed. Hassani was her rock in the aftermath of her dad passing. Even when he didn't know what to say or do, he was there. That young love hit them hard and I was here for it. Being each other's first and how they went about it was intriguing. These two surely had some very good people giving and showing them very bad examples of how to be in love young. Although she looked up to her Aunt Laurie, I hate that seeing her Aunt so free and unattached and her mom losing the love of her life, set her up for a life of fear of being hurt and it almost cost her, her forever love.

Hassani was alright in my book. He loved Ayla from day 1 of them meeting yet took the horrible advice of his father and didn't explore anything besides friendship with Ayla, until she presented they be each other's first. While I love that he respected his dad's opinion, he knew he should've been with Ayla the whole time. Their love for each other was inevitable. I like that even though he could've bragged about his first time with Ayla, that he kept it between them, unlike his friends and their conquest. What I wasn't ready for was him "practicing" with his newest girl so he could please Ayla the way he really wanted to. I didn't care for them doing it while both with their prom dates, yet I like that he knew what he had to do😏.

Hassani was looking for what he wanted with Ayla in every girl he was with. She friend zoned him constantly and while he was searching, so was she. Her fear kept her from truly being open in relationships; fear and the fight to realize that Hassani was the only man she loved and wanted. To be young and in love.

I didn't like Marcus, Hassanis' high school friend from jump. He seemed to be jealous of Hassani and I wasn't feeling his vibes at all. Then to find out that he not only knew and helped plan the trip for Hassani to be away to get an engagement ring for his college fling turned girlfriend turned fiance, Sienna, but that he snuck in and slept with her too. I think had Ayla not shown up, Sienna would've never told Hassani about that time with Marcus. Neither of them deserved Hassani or his loyalty to them and I'm glad he didn't make the mistake of tying himself to Sienna, even if she was his plan b.

I need more on these two asap. I'm sure after I look more into Brookelyn Mosley's catalog or site, I'm bound to find an update. These two deserve a splendid HEA with lots of babies and even more Love.

Such a great read. Highly recommend.
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1,861 reviews
August 14, 2021
Ayla + Hassani

A coming to age story AND a friends to lovers trope!! I was so here for this book. Ayla and Hassani gave me all the feels ✨😭Ayla pretty much gave up on love after losing her father and watching her aunt go through a horrific marriage. She is content with not having commitment. Her inability to admit that she loved Hassani and not in a, “friends” way was a lot but I completely understood her reluctance. Hassani was such a ladies man, even as a teen. But, the way that he loved Ayla in spite of her hesitance to offer more than friendship really said a lot about his character. I feel like these two had to go through different relationship scenarios before finding their way back together. It built their urge to have and love one another wholeheartedly. The author did a great job with this storyline. I went from saying, “awe”, to having tears, then being upset, then back to loving these two. Lol. WHEW! The storyline flowed so well and the realistic aspect- 9/11 portion and even the conflict of being in love but not wanting to ruin the friendship was so good. This book ended as I would have liked and I was left completely satisfied. Awesome job! I’m hoping this isn’t the end for these two!❤️
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128 reviews38 followers
February 5, 2022
Give me all the H.S., teen, cool kid, nerdy kid angst, and friendship vibes! This story made me laugh, cry, smile, and reminisce about pre-2001 life in NYC.
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350 reviews63 followers
July 12, 2021
Ayla and Hassani are high school friends, best friends to be exact. Some of their best moments are spent together, including losing their virginity. Hassani wants to give Ayla his all. But tragedy and hurt has Ayla keeping a tight guard over her heart. Life happens...people grow apart... but love... real love... It never dies.

This was an amazing friends to lovers series!! These characters worked on my nerves, but that didn't take away from the love you could feel emanating off of the pages.
Profile Image for 'The Book Queen'.
6,014 reviews111 followers
June 27, 2021
Loved this friend to lovers story

I don't usually get too wrapped in young love stories since I have young adult grandchildren. However, the way this storyline framed each story, I was okay,even their first time together. The delicate way the intimate action was described was touching. The chemistry between Hassani and Ayla was nothing to sneeze at, or overlook. The advise the adults gave the teens kinda scared them and stymied their development emotionally. The length of time it took Hassani and Ayla to come to their senses felt like too much time wasted. Sienna rubbed me wrong for some reason, as did Marcus. Keep an eye out for one, or both of them. Overall, the tale was totally awesome. It would be amazing to see Ayla and Hassani a few years later with their little family.
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838 reviews18 followers
June 27, 2021
This story was frustratingly fantastic!

I could not put this book down until I was done. From the moment Hassani laid eyes on Ayla at 14 years old, I was sold on the storyline. To bring in the elements of September 11, 2001 was hauntingly beautiful and heartbreaking. It made the storyline even richer. I loved everything about the story even though those two frustrated me to no end with their inability to truly express from their hearts. The author held nothing back in showing how adults can unfortunately influenced the landscape of love for young people. We have to be careful of the seeds we sow into their lives because we could be hindering the love of our children's lives. If the author decides to have a part II of Hassani and Ayla, I will be there with bells and whistles. Please check out this read, you will not regret it. I absolutely loved it!
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50 reviews4 followers
July 20, 2022
This book was everything!

Yes, please do a follow-up story.

I love a friends to lovers story and this book right here DELIVERED! It was absolutely one of my favorite books to lovers story. Soooo incredibly beautiful!
Profile Image for Kwastina Jackson.
651 reviews6 followers
July 23, 2021
Tear jerker

It was beautiful to watch this love root itself and marinate over time. Of course it was frustrating because you wanted them to get it together, but the journey the author took us on was one to remember. I loved every page of it.
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632 reviews3 followers
November 26, 2025
I didn’t want it to end!

This is how friends to lovers is done! This was a new to me author and I am sold! I enjoyed the build up and the growth of the characters. Ayla and Hassani were destined, even if at first it wasn’t clear. Ayla held in a lot as a result of losing someone dear to her and grieving in a way that was unhealthy in the sense of refusing to let love in, etc. surface is what she was willing to settle for if it meant not experiencing the heartache and pain of losing someone. Sometimes it ends up being a little too late…. but clearly the angels were on both Hassani’s and Ayla’s side! The yearning, the swoon worthy moments, and the moments that made me sad, all made this ride so enjoyable! I felt ALL of the feels! There were also so many gems dropped that were thought provoking. One that stuck long after was, “being filled with fear is purposefully putting yourself in a box you can never get out of”.
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232 reviews
April 20, 2024
This was a decent story. In the first few chapters of this book I thought “hm.. this is well written. I’ll have to check the rest of the authors catalog.” But, as I continued reading, little things snowballed and ultimately affected my read.

I think this is the first time I’ve ever picked up a book based on the synopsis only for it to not be the plot of said book. I thought this would start with the wedding as the inciting incident and then some flash backs of their history woven between the them figuring it out present tense. This is not that at all. The inciting incident doesn’t even happen til 80-something percent through. The inconsistent tense is what I struggled with the most. It initially reads as first person POV while they are teenagers but every now and then there would be a random sentence saying ‘back then’ as if the present tense character is telling the story.

“Under the setting sun the evening after my first day as a high school freshman, my father and I were outside in our driveway working on his truck. My father drove a Range Rover back then, still does to this day.”

This happened roughly 30 times throughout the story with both characters’ POV.

Aside from that, I kind of figured the story was heading in the direction it did. Hassani’s emotional affair is probably worse than the other thing but that’s his business. I appreciated the full circle moment at the end.
Profile Image for MJ Barrette.
330 reviews5 followers
August 15, 2021
This story was great, in the way you'd want a romcom story line to be. And it would be the best romcom. I'd watch it, I'd own it on DVD in this day and age.

Although miscommunication isn't my favorite trope, this definitely didn't have the same pitfalls how miscommunication is usually handled. It was routed in emotional responses, and yeah, sometimes I wanted to slap both them up the head and get their shit together (Hassani more so), but at least the reasoning behind the miscommunication had a solid foundation. (No wishy washy people up in this book).

And bless be you Brookelyn, who has one line to end all lines in a character being self-aware. I legitimately wanted to end my kindles life because of that instance and one other, and those murderous emotions don't come out very often. Like crying, or laughing, I like it when books make me feel things, even if it was to light something on fire.
Profile Image for Adriane Griggs.
129 reviews2 followers
September 24, 2021
Growing through pains

Ayla and Hassani meet at a pivotal time in a teenagers life. Puberty and freshman year in high school. To make things a little more interesting, they are thrown together when Aylas' dad starts a new job working for Hassanis' dad. Ayla has had a summer of changes, beginning with moving to a new neighborhood and now this. To further complicate things, just as she is adjusting to a new neighborhood and school, 9/11 comes to her doorstep. Ayla has Hassani to lean on during this time and the friendship between them deepens, so much so that people think they are a already couple. But voices and forces around them cause so much confusion and frustration that the lines are filled with static.
Ms Moseley weaves a beautiful story of young love delayed by tragedy, miscommunication and the unfortunate influence of outsiders. I hope there is more to come from this couple. I feel like they are just about to get started.
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1,511 reviews32 followers
February 24, 2022
Oh my goodness freaking awemazing!!

Well this read was phenomenal just like I knew it would be because Brookelyn never fails on such an amazing love story with plenty of depth...I swooned, cried and had to catch my breath Hassani and Ayla was everything together and apart. Deeply frustrating when you know love but fear and bad advice keeps you in a chokehold from your destiny. I'm glad they we're able to break the chains and gain the love they both deserved with each other. But that dang on Sienna and Marcus just trifiling. Brookelyn is such a great writer and I love her style so much I have to saver every read because it so deeply rooted in detail and depth I must take my time to let it resonate in my soul. Amazing job ANF I definitely can't wait for what's next
Profile Image for Salene Whyte (thee_book_connoisseur_).
419 reviews4 followers
December 7, 2022
Excellent read
Well, this book was fantastic, as I had expected it to be because Brookelyn always writes such a beautiful, in-depth love tale. I sobbed, had to catch my breath, and swooned. Everything was both together and apart for Hassani and Ayla. It is extremely difficult when you are aware of love, yet fear and bad advice prohibit you from achieving your goals. I'm happy they were able to free themselves from the bonds and find the love they both deserved in one another. However, Sienna and Marcus are simply uugh. Brookelyn's writing is so excellent and I adore it so much, I have to save every passage I read because I have to give it time to sink into my soul.
298 reviews
July 10, 2021
This was my first time reading a novel by this author and I was not disappointed. I appreciated the growth of the relationship between Ayla and Hassani but for the most part... I wanted to punch Ayla in the throat. Hassani was the man! I just wish there was a scene written between him and Marcus after the cancellation - that would have been awesome. I hope Ms. Mosley, at some point, decides to continue their story into the land of adulthood; I want to see Ayla's mom and aunt get their HEA. Great introduction to this author's work... Looking forward to reading more.
883 reviews8 followers
July 31, 2021
Fight for your love!

That was definitely one of the lessons in this story. Ayla and Hassani's biggest flaw was lack of communication. But maybe their love just wasn't meant to be...until it was! This was my first read from the author, and I couldn't put it down. I needed closure immediately, and the emotions and depth of love portrayed throughout this race was heartbreaking, soul-stirring, and in the end a true reflection of what love should be. Can't wait to read more! Brookelyn Mosley has been on my radar! But I'm glad I finally dove in with this release!
266 reviews
September 13, 2022
I liked this!

Out of all the books I read from this author, I liked this one the most. I would love to see more from these characters as long as neither of them dies or cheats on each other. I didn't bother reading another book from this author because the follow up of the characters in another book, the guy died. I hope that won't be the case with these characters. I read books for HEA not for sad endings and the main characters cheating on each other and having outside babies but still try to fix it. We see enough of that in real life and tv.
84 reviews
June 26, 2021
Memories

This was absolutely beautiful and heart wrenching at the same time. I really wanted their happily ever after to happen sooner…but God’s timing is perfect. The last few pages was just everything….Brooklyn my friend, you’ve done it again! Well worth the wait! Click buy and be happy
38 reviews
June 26, 2021
My favorite trope

Friends to lovers is one of my favorite tropes. Ayla and Hassani frustrated me beyond belief in this story. I was screaming at both of them (in my head) to just communicate and be honest about their feelings. Although it took them a while, I’m glad they finally got it together and admitted how they felt. I’m curious to see what else is in store for them.
637 reviews
July 5, 2021
Amazing journey 🥰

This author keeps amazing me with her work! I truly enjoyed Hassani and Ayla love journey and was just in awe how they found their way to true and forever love with each and for each other ❤️. The twist and turns of their love story will make anyone dream of their first love and long for their forever love. Beautiful story Ms. Mosley!
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3,447 reviews26 followers
July 7, 2021
Friends♥️Lovers

I understand how the influences led to Ayla and Hassani making the choices they did but it was frustrating to watch. When the love falls into place later you can’t help but feel sorry for the Sienna’s and the fellas who never truly had a chance. They were destined!
375 reviews2 followers
July 24, 2021
Finally!

I loved the idea of Ayla and Hassani’s story. It was so frustrating to read because they loved each other from the start, but let outside forces keep them apart. I wish the story could have had more time with them together.
Profile Image for Michelle Crenshaw.
124 reviews1 follower
July 27, 2021
Whew!!

I cried!! I shed actual tears during on your marks. I can't say what i want because i don't want to spoil anything but i truly enjoyed this book. I loved Hassani & Ayla but i want to smack them both at times too. Shows the writing was excellent
Profile Image for Shatoya Roberson.
217 reviews15 followers
August 6, 2021
Loved It

I loved these storyline and I loved Ayla and Hassani’s love. It took them a min to get it together but they finally got it together. I kept yelling at the pages like “Ayla, get our man” lol, so I’m glad they got their happy ever after. Great Read!
94 reviews5 followers
August 14, 2021
Best friends

I loved Ayla n hassans vibe from the beginning. The progression of discovering love in its purest form friendship. You should always have the experience of friends before lovers.
630 reviews1 follower
December 25, 2021
Loved it!

I really loved this book. I usually don't like reading about kids but this was a progression across different aged and was really good. I will definitely read more from this author.
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1,483 reviews17 followers
September 26, 2022
OMG

I love a good friend to lovers story so you gotta know I’m checking it you whole catalog lol. I absolutely loved their story. I’m so glad they got it together in the end. This was a beautiful story. You’ve gained a reader for life.
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