DNF at 45%
I'm not going to finish this one. It's not for me.
The book is about Austin, a cancer survivor who falls for his oncologist Malcolm, a guy who's twice his age (22/42) and in general this could've been a good one, but the story doesn't give any kind of romantic build-up from the previous years when Malcolm was Austin's doctor and got him through the worst of times.
He's been treating him since he was 15 years old, although at present Austin is in remission.
“How long?”
“Have I wanted you?”
“Yeah, I always had a crush on you, but it was never serious. Until I turned eighteen and I came in for my checkup. Something changed. I saw the man you are. Not just the doctor who saved my life.”
So, suddenly when Austin was exactly 18, he got a crush on Malcolm.
Right.
After Austin and his boyfriend break up, there's supposed to be long-term pining on both ends for Austin and Malcolm and we didn't really get anything in the story that would tell you Malcom and Austin liked each other. It came out of nowhere and not only that, with one sentence they somehow agreed they wanted a full-blown relationship, took it to the board before anything even happened and then started seeing each other, weeks going by with them occasionally doing something intimate.
The age gap and the power dynamic were addressed terribly.
“You and Dr. Greer?” She slapped her hand over her mouth. “Oh my god. What did he do? How long has this been going on? Did he abuse you? Oh my god, my poor baby, what did that man do to you?” She crushed me into her arms.
"I let out a frustrated growl and fell to my knees at Mom’s side. I took her hand into mine and held on to it, not letting her pull away. “He’s not my doctor anymore. He cares about me in other ways too.”
“Have you slept with him?”
“No, he’s a good man. He wants us to get to know each other first.”
She scoffed. “What more does he need to know about you? Doesn’t he know everything already?”
“Not all things. Please, Mom, will you be okay with this? He’s a doctor. Shouldn’t you be proud that I chose well?”
They're all talking about this relationship that's about to happen like it's a done deal already. But nothing really happened yet at that point, literally nothing. Even when they start seeing each other, it's just testing each other out and the whole story runs towards Austin losing his virginity step by step and then a daddy is thrown in there somewhere, apparently.
If the story had proper build up since Austin was beginning his treatments with Malcolm and him already liking the guy, this would've been something different. The supposed chemistry and emotions behind Austin's pursuit of Malcolm weren't well written, the whole thing just seemed awkward, especially since Austin was in such a vulnerable position, being that younger than Malcolm, inexperienced, betrayed by his long-term boyfriend and in remission.
I didn't like it.
Not this author's best work.