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Love Kills #2
You Said You Wouldn't
TWO BROKEN HEARTS, SEPARATED BY DISTANCE.
SHATTERED DREAMS AND TERRIFYING TRUTHS.
A CHOICE BETWEEN LIFE AND DEATH.
When I met Judah Colt, I knew it would be a whirlwind.
Swept up into his intoxicating presence, I fell hard for the man behind the music, only to discover there were skeletons hidden in his designer closet.
Together, we were madness and ruin, loud beauty and vibrant chaos.
But apart, we both had a choice.
While I chose brittle happiness and hope for a brighter future, he pissed all over my hope-filled parade every chance he got, and just when I thought we had it all together…
I found out the heart-stopping truth.
Promises were broken, damage was done, and everyone in our lives felt the aftershocks of our earthquake.
I told him he was worth it, and I was put to the test.
We are Phoenix and Judah.
TheColt and his Baby Bird.
…or are we?
SHATTERED DREAMS AND TERRIFYING TRUTHS.
A CHOICE BETWEEN LIFE AND DEATH.
When I met Judah Colt, I knew it would be a whirlwind.
Swept up into his intoxicating presence, I fell hard for the man behind the music, only to discover there were skeletons hidden in his designer closet.
Together, we were madness and ruin, loud beauty and vibrant chaos.
But apart, we both had a choice.
While I chose brittle happiness and hope for a brighter future, he pissed all over my hope-filled parade every chance he got, and just when I thought we had it all together…
I found out the heart-stopping truth.
Promises were broken, damage was done, and everyone in our lives felt the aftershocks of our earthquake.
I told him he was worth it, and I was put to the test.
We are Phoenix and Judah.
TheColt and his Baby Bird.
…or are we?
542 pages, Paperback
Published June 6, 2021
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Brianna Jean
8 books836 followersBrianna Jean is a book loving, donut eating, vodka drinking, kind of human. Born and raised in Buffalo, NY, she thinks pizza and chicken wings are a food group and the Buffalo Bills are a way of life (even if they lose).
She has a daughter named Harley, two fur babies, and an incredibly supportive other half. She writes modern dark romance, set in both fantasy and contemporary worlds, and lives everyday with characters wrecking havoc in her brain. Writing is her passion, books are her favorite pastime, and music soothes her soul.
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Loud, sassy, and a little embarrassing, Brianna lives to love herself and those around her. Being an author was the dream, and now that dream is coming true—one book at a time.
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June 10, 2021
5 stars ⭐️
My heart has been torn to pieces. I wish I could give this book even more stars cause Brianna Jean outdid herself. If i could give my heart to any couple it would be Judah and Phoenix which makes it clear how much I love them and what they mean to me. I would do anything to make them happy. In any book you read, there’s always one MC who is well put-off and it’s the other who needs help but here? No one is perfect. No on has their shit pulled off. No one has no issues. And this? It makes them fucking real.
This book is real. I thought the first one was good and damn i had no idea what was coming for me.
Judah Colt is a rapper who writes real music. He doesn’t write the music people will love or be a major hit or what his label wants, he writes what is real. He writes about broken hearts,broken dreams, toxicity, drugs and which might make people hate him it also makes people adore him cause we all are survivors. Ngl, i was mad at him so much in this book. He had everyone there who wanted to help him, who wanted him to be just better than drugs but he was pushing everyone away and relying on drugs but at the same time,I felt for him. We all are always scared of the unknown as to what’s gonna wait on the other side and Judah was too. He was scared he couldn’t handle anything without drugs and being addicted to it since childhood was whole another issue. My whole heart called out for Judah, for how he was suffering, how he couldn’t chase his demons away and my heart was mad at how he had support of everyone but he was so much dependent on drugs he couldn’t see that.
Phoenix Royal totally lived up to her first name.
She rose up from the ashes, she left her old life and decided she wanted to be better. She worked for herself, on herself. I admire her strength and her courage and how she wanted to be her better self- be happy and live to the fullest. I loved how she stood up for herself and loved her friendship with the side characters. She is a fighter through and through.
I love this fucking book,y’all. Even while I’m going through my highlights rn, i cant stop crying over this book.
I cant stop crying thinking that this is real- people actually go through this shit and some people lose their way while some people find it. Some people have the support system, some people have no one. Some people are struggling in silence while some are speaking but not being heard. It shatters my heart.
This book is not a happy or pretty or beautiful. This book is twisted, it deals with addiction and how people deal through trauma (fr), how they need someone to hear them out, how they suffer in silence. This book is raw, honest and real. I’m in awe of this book and Brianna. I can’t wait for the next book cause I’m so invested and can’t wait to see what happens next.
“Addiction was messy, lies were deafening, and I couldn’t stand it.
I wouldn’t stand for it.”
“It had me wondering what else we could do together. If there was more for us beyond just this moment in time, the artist and the fan. Something in me wanted to create more with her. A legacy. An empire. There was a new dream forming in my head, one I could hold on to in the darker moments, because I knew now that she had me.
We were TheColt and Baby Bird.
We were solid fucking gold.”
My heart has been torn to pieces. I wish I could give this book even more stars cause Brianna Jean outdid herself. If i could give my heart to any couple it would be Judah and Phoenix which makes it clear how much I love them and what they mean to me. I would do anything to make them happy. In any book you read, there’s always one MC who is well put-off and it’s the other who needs help but here? No one is perfect. No on has their shit pulled off. No one has no issues. And this? It makes them fucking real.
This book is real. I thought the first one was good and damn i had no idea what was coming for me.
“The man I loved was a farce, a fake version of Judah. The real version was running from his problems, hidden underneath synthetics and suppression, and looking for me to be his solution, unwilling to change his behavior, even if it was killing him. Now that he was home…it didn’t look like he had any fucking plans on changing that.”
Judah Colt is a rapper who writes real music. He doesn’t write the music people will love or be a major hit or what his label wants, he writes what is real. He writes about broken hearts,broken dreams, toxicity, drugs and which might make people hate him it also makes people adore him cause we all are survivors. Ngl, i was mad at him so much in this book. He had everyone there who wanted to help him, who wanted him to be just better than drugs but he was pushing everyone away and relying on drugs but at the same time,I felt for him. We all are always scared of the unknown as to what’s gonna wait on the other side and Judah was too. He was scared he couldn’t handle anything without drugs and being addicted to it since childhood was whole another issue. My whole heart called out for Judah, for how he was suffering, how he couldn’t chase his demons away and my heart was mad at how he had support of everyone but he was so much dependent on drugs he couldn’t see that.
“I loved him in a way that threatened to suffocate me, but I didn’t love him more than I loved myself, and that was growth. That was proof that coming back to LA, leaving my shitty life behind, was the best decision I’d ever made.
I would hope for the best but prepare for the worst.
It was time to rebuild my life.”
Phoenix Royal totally lived up to her first name.
She rose up from the ashes, she left her old life and decided she wanted to be better. She worked for herself, on herself. I admire her strength and her courage and how she wanted to be her better self- be happy and live to the fullest. I loved how she stood up for herself and loved her friendship with the side characters. She is a fighter through and through.
“ “I want your signature under mine, because there will never be a moment in time where TheColt isn’t with his Baby Bird. No matter how many times I fuck up, how long we spend apart, you’re with me and I’m with you. Spiritually, emotionally, mentally, even if it’s not physically, we’re together.” I planted a kiss to her hair. “You won’t let me fall, and I’ll always keep crawling back. So sign the damn wall.”
I love this fucking book,y’all. Even while I’m going through my highlights rn, i cant stop crying over this book.
I cant stop crying thinking that this is real- people actually go through this shit and some people lose their way while some people find it. Some people have the support system, some people have no one. Some people are struggling in silence while some are speaking but not being heard. It shatters my heart.
This book is not a happy or pretty or beautiful. This book is twisted, it deals with addiction and how people deal through trauma (fr), how they need someone to hear them out, how they suffer in silence. This book is raw, honest and real. I’m in awe of this book and Brianna. I can’t wait for the next book cause I’m so invested and can’t wait to see what happens next.
“Addiction was messy, lies were deafening, and I couldn’t stand it.
I wouldn’t stand for it.”
September 14, 2022
**Major Love Triangle Alert**
This will be more of a long and rant-y review because I’m conflicted. Let me start off by saying that this is an incredibly well written book and the author is extremely talented. Let me also say that I LOVE tortured anti-heroes. I love flawed, messed up heroes who push the boundaries of what is morally ‘ok’. Hell, I love downright villainous heroes. BUT… and this is a major but… they also have to have a certain quality for me to look past their issues and catch feelings for their unstable self. Perhaps devotion, or even obsession, with the heroine, etc. I can love even the most unlovable heroes if they are written just right and I believe their feelings for the heroine are deep despite the relationship being unhealthy by most people’s standards.
Unfortunately, I didn’t find one single likable thing about Judah between the first book and this one. I wanted to like him so badly. His addiction, his abusive childhood, his need for love… I’m usually a sucker for broken heroes like this. But his character was a huge disappointment for me. In the first book, there was no buildup to their “twin flame” whirlwind romance. They literally locked eyes in a room and boom, that was all it took for them and everyone around them to declare that their relationship was an epic one. There were a couple of scenes where we got to see the good side of their relationship, but for the most part it was just them having sex and talking about how they are twin flames before the toxicity began. It came across as a case of insta-lust masquerading as something grander. I think a better build up to their romance would have fixed this. And more genuinely romantic scenes between the two on-page prior to the shit storm happening would have made their fallout that much more heartbreaking and intense. I just didn’t see enough of Judah that I liked before it went downhill and he started hurting Phoenix. Then in the second book, Phoenix encouraged him to better himself and truly loved him, but because she didn’t to give up her life and career to go on tour with him, he: left her, fucked countless other women and threw it in her face just to be a dick, and broke her nose (on “accident”). Also, for someone who talked about how desperate he was for her love, he pretty easily let her go and half the time didn’t even seem bothered by her growing closeness with other men. I do understand that he was under the influence of drugs, but his feelings for her just felt weak in my opinion.
Another huge issue for me? I can tell that the author really wanted Phoenix to come across as being mature and trying to grow and change her life around, but in my opinion she was just a doormat. The first half of the book was Judah doing everything he could to hurt her and get a rise out of her. Mostly by partying and hooking up with other women and blasting it all over social media for her to see. So what does she do? She flies to Europe to surprise him for his birthday, has sex with him immediately, forgives him immediately, and goes back to being happily in love with him like nothing happened. Now, I don’t mind when the MCs of a romance have an on-page breakup, but what I do mind is when the H sleeps around a lot during the breakup while the h stays faithful. Why should the H get to have his cake and eat it too while the h stews in jealousy and remains loyal? I don’t know why the latter is so popular in books. And given how stubborn, strong, and sex-positive Phoenix’s character is SUPPOSED to be, it seemed unrealistic that she was basically a nun most of the time while Judah was manwhoring his way through Europe on his tour. 90% of this book was Judah hurting Phoenix over and over, and Phoenix just taking it and pining after him. In my opinion, if the H of a story messes up as badly as Judah has then there had better be some epic groveling. But basically she would rather bang his brains out the second she got the chance and then all was forgotten (until the next incident happened).
On to the biggest issue for me, and that is the love triangle. Despite my not being his biggest fan, I did spend all of book one getting to know Judah and reluctantly accepting him as the H of this romance. I will admit that his past did endear me to him a bit, and by the end of first book I found myself invested in the romance between Phoenix and Judah.
I feel that the author pushed so hard for us to buy into this almost otherworldly connection between Phoenix and Judah, only for it to be slowly unraveled in the second book and practically replaced by an entirely new love interest for Phoenix. Yes, I’m talking about Pharaoh (Judah’s lifelong best friend). This wasn’t a simple attraction, either. Phoenix and Judah barely interacted at all in this book, whereas Phoenix and Pharaoh slowly developed a strong bond and attraction over the course of the book. We get to know a bit about Pharaoh the same way we got to know Judah in the first book. I personally do not like when a romance has more than one H like this.
In fact, 1/3 of this book was actually Pharaoh’s POV. All of a sudden Frankie and Phoenix talk about a “false twin flame” and how maybe Judah hasn’t been it all along, and then the author starts dropping hints that pharaoh could be the TRUE twin flame. In the last part of the book the two of them “make love” and this otherworldly connection has now been transferred to Phoenix and pharaoh. All the while Judah is spiraling out of control leading up to the ending. I don’t mind some om drama, but I don’t like when there isn’t a true H. I don’t see how this could possibly be resolved in book 3 as I spent the entire first book thinking Judah was the H and the entire second book thinking of pharaoh as the H. So whoever she ends up with, for me it will be unsatisfying after being sold on her “intense” connection with each of them separately. I typically loathe stories with sharing, but in this case I’d honestly almost prefer a scenario in which the 3 of them live happily ever after.
Despite all the major issues I had with this book, I couldn’t rate it less than 3 stars for the writing and creativity. I hate continuing on not having a main couple to root for, but I will be reading the third to see how it all plays out.
This will be more of a long and rant-y review because I’m conflicted. Let me start off by saying that this is an incredibly well written book and the author is extremely talented. Let me also say that I LOVE tortured anti-heroes. I love flawed, messed up heroes who push the boundaries of what is morally ‘ok’. Hell, I love downright villainous heroes. BUT… and this is a major but… they also have to have a certain quality for me to look past their issues and catch feelings for their unstable self. Perhaps devotion, or even obsession, with the heroine, etc. I can love even the most unlovable heroes if they are written just right and I believe their feelings for the heroine are deep despite the relationship being unhealthy by most people’s standards.
Unfortunately, I didn’t find one single likable thing about Judah between the first book and this one. I wanted to like him so badly. His addiction, his abusive childhood, his need for love… I’m usually a sucker for broken heroes like this. But his character was a huge disappointment for me. In the first book, there was no buildup to their “twin flame” whirlwind romance. They literally locked eyes in a room and boom, that was all it took for them and everyone around them to declare that their relationship was an epic one. There were a couple of scenes where we got to see the good side of their relationship, but for the most part it was just them having sex and talking about how they are twin flames before the toxicity began. It came across as a case of insta-lust masquerading as something grander. I think a better build up to their romance would have fixed this. And more genuinely romantic scenes between the two on-page prior to the shit storm happening would have made their fallout that much more heartbreaking and intense. I just didn’t see enough of Judah that I liked before it went downhill and he started hurting Phoenix. Then in the second book, Phoenix encouraged him to better himself and truly loved him, but because she didn’t to give up her life and career to go on tour with him, he: left her, fucked countless other women and threw it in her face just to be a dick, and broke her nose (on “accident”). Also, for someone who talked about how desperate he was for her love, he pretty easily let her go and half the time didn’t even seem bothered by her growing closeness with other men. I do understand that he was under the influence of drugs, but his feelings for her just felt weak in my opinion.
Another huge issue for me? I can tell that the author really wanted Phoenix to come across as being mature and trying to grow and change her life around, but in my opinion she was just a doormat. The first half of the book was Judah doing everything he could to hurt her and get a rise out of her. Mostly by partying and hooking up with other women and blasting it all over social media for her to see. So what does she do? She flies to Europe to surprise him for his birthday, has sex with him immediately, forgives him immediately, and goes back to being happily in love with him like nothing happened. Now, I don’t mind when the MCs of a romance have an on-page breakup, but what I do mind is when the H sleeps around a lot during the breakup while the h stays faithful. Why should the H get to have his cake and eat it too while the h stews in jealousy and remains loyal? I don’t know why the latter is so popular in books. And given how stubborn, strong, and sex-positive Phoenix’s character is SUPPOSED to be, it seemed unrealistic that she was basically a nun most of the time while Judah was manwhoring his way through Europe on his tour. 90% of this book was Judah hurting Phoenix over and over, and Phoenix just taking it and pining after him. In my opinion, if the H of a story messes up as badly as Judah has then there had better be some epic groveling. But basically she would rather bang his brains out the second she got the chance and then all was forgotten (until the next incident happened).
On to the biggest issue for me, and that is the love triangle. Despite my not being his biggest fan, I did spend all of book one getting to know Judah and reluctantly accepting him as the H of this romance. I will admit that his past did endear me to him a bit, and by the end of first book I found myself invested in the romance between Phoenix and Judah.
I feel that the author pushed so hard for us to buy into this almost otherworldly connection between Phoenix and Judah, only for it to be slowly unraveled in the second book and practically replaced by an entirely new love interest for Phoenix. Yes, I’m talking about Pharaoh (Judah’s lifelong best friend). This wasn’t a simple attraction, either. Phoenix and Judah barely interacted at all in this book, whereas Phoenix and Pharaoh slowly developed a strong bond and attraction over the course of the book. We get to know a bit about Pharaoh the same way we got to know Judah in the first book. I personally do not like when a romance has more than one H like this.
In fact, 1/3 of this book was actually Pharaoh’s POV. All of a sudden Frankie and Phoenix talk about a “false twin flame” and how maybe Judah hasn’t been it all along, and then the author starts dropping hints that pharaoh could be the TRUE twin flame. In the last part of the book the two of them “make love” and this otherworldly connection has now been transferred to Phoenix and pharaoh. All the while Judah is spiraling out of control leading up to the ending. I don’t mind some om drama, but I don’t like when there isn’t a true H. I don’t see how this could possibly be resolved in book 3 as I spent the entire first book thinking Judah was the H and the entire second book thinking of pharaoh as the H. So whoever she ends up with, for me it will be unsatisfying after being sold on her “intense” connection with each of them separately. I typically loathe stories with sharing, but in this case I’d honestly almost prefer a scenario in which the 3 of them live happily ever after.
Despite all the major issues I had with this book, I couldn’t rate it less than 3 stars for the writing and creativity. I hate continuing on not having a main couple to root for, but I will be reading the third to see how it all plays out.
May 29, 2021
I wish I could give this book all the stars. Seriously, the wiritng is flawless, the emotions are off the charts, the devastation so palpable I felt my own heart breaking over and over again. Just when I thought I knew what was going to happen, BAM, B hit us with an emotional attack and I just could not stop reading. This is hands down my favorite reads of the year, and one of my favorite books ever.
So full disclosure, I reread book one, WAYH, earlier today to prepare for this book, and I'll admit to anyone out there how much of a masochist I am, but the combined back to back angst & heartbreak just decimated me. I don't think this thing in my chest is actively beating right now - that's how fucking raw this couple is.
Be warned, this is not a light hearted read. Book one just scratched the surface on P & Judah's toxicity and cranks it up to 10000 here. I legit hated Judah for most of the book because of what he was doing to P, to all those who loved him, to himself.. But then on the other hand he's just in so much freaking pain that he's drowning, and just can't see all the good he has in his life. Growing up around an addict, I connected with this book in ways I'm not sure are healthy, but i loved every second of it.
And P? She is a fucking Phoenix. She rose from the ashes of utter heartbreak and complete betrayal and made herself stronger, more honest & open to the good in the world, to make her WANT to live for each day. She has Frankie (who is a complete psycho, but we all love her for it😂) she has this amazing support system around her, and I just loved seeing her stand up and fighting for herself, her dreams, protecting her heart, even when Judah was hellbent on destroying it all. She is my inspiration through and through.
There was a surprising twist at the end that I need SO BADLY to talk about because I'm just so over the moon with how amazing/delicate/beautifully B handled the situation and I just can't get enough. So I need you all to read this asap so you can vent with me. Ok? Ok.
I just can't stress this enough: this is not a pretty book. It takes a hard look at addiction and just how thoroughly trauma from being raised by addicts (or just truama from the people who were supposed to protect you in the first place) can lead you down a path you never expected. B isn't glorifying drug abuse here like I've seen in the past, but she's giving us the honest, raw, ugly side of loving someone who is slowly killing themselves. And there is nothing you can do for that person until they themselves want help. It's fucking heartbreaking on everyone involved, and B just embodied that perfectly.
I am just in awe of this book, and of this wonderful woman who wrote it. I hope to god she never stops writing because we all need her words. And I'm a greedy bitch and I need book three right now😂😂
Please, and I just can't stress this enough, go one click this book when it goes live. This is hands down and absolute MUST read.
**Just remember that this is book two in the Love Kills series and they are not stand-alones. You have to read them in order and feel the pain with the rest of us!
**I received an ARC of this book and these are my honest opinions!**
So full disclosure, I reread book one, WAYH, earlier today to prepare for this book, and I'll admit to anyone out there how much of a masochist I am, but the combined back to back angst & heartbreak just decimated me. I don't think this thing in my chest is actively beating right now - that's how fucking raw this couple is.
Be warned, this is not a light hearted read. Book one just scratched the surface on P & Judah's toxicity and cranks it up to 10000 here. I legit hated Judah for most of the book because of what he was doing to P, to all those who loved him, to himself.. But then on the other hand he's just in so much freaking pain that he's drowning, and just can't see all the good he has in his life. Growing up around an addict, I connected with this book in ways I'm not sure are healthy, but i loved every second of it.
And P? She is a fucking Phoenix. She rose from the ashes of utter heartbreak and complete betrayal and made herself stronger, more honest & open to the good in the world, to make her WANT to live for each day. She has Frankie (who is a complete psycho, but we all love her for it😂) she has this amazing support system around her, and I just loved seeing her stand up and fighting for herself, her dreams, protecting her heart, even when Judah was hellbent on destroying it all. She is my inspiration through and through.
There was a surprising twist at the end that I need SO BADLY to talk about because I'm just so over the moon with how amazing/delicate/beautifully B handled the situation and I just can't get enough. So I need you all to read this asap so you can vent with me. Ok? Ok.
I just can't stress this enough: this is not a pretty book. It takes a hard look at addiction and just how thoroughly trauma from being raised by addicts (or just truama from the people who were supposed to protect you in the first place) can lead you down a path you never expected. B isn't glorifying drug abuse here like I've seen in the past, but she's giving us the honest, raw, ugly side of loving someone who is slowly killing themselves. And there is nothing you can do for that person until they themselves want help. It's fucking heartbreaking on everyone involved, and B just embodied that perfectly.
I am just in awe of this book, and of this wonderful woman who wrote it. I hope to god she never stops writing because we all need her words. And I'm a greedy bitch and I need book three right now😂😂
Please, and I just can't stress this enough, go one click this book when it goes live. This is hands down and absolute MUST read.
**Just remember that this is book two in the Love Kills series and they are not stand-alones. You have to read them in order and feel the pain with the rest of us!
**I received an ARC of this book and these are my honest opinions!**
May 31, 2021
My heart has been pulled from my body-torn to shreds-stepped on-and put in an emotion destroying blender. 💔
To say that I loved every second of it wouldn’t be the truth, because it wouldn’t be true to say that I liked to see all my babies feel the emotional and physical that they do would be a lie because it hurt it was painful to witness and at some parts so so hard to read.
before I go any further I have to layout something warnings about this badboys content, because whew it was an intense read, not at all intended for the faint of heart. This book deals with heavy drug abuse, with overdoses, using drugs as a form of self harm, suicide-suicidal thoughts, and toxic relationships, also if exclusivity is a must for you, well then this book isn’t for you. (that’s just everything I can think of off the top of my head honestly it’s an intense/painful af read and I might even be spacing other triggers)
Now on to my review. I loved it. I really really loved it. It was painful, but it was beautiful in a way (you’ll understand if you read it, it’s honestly so hard to explain especially spoiler free 😅) while drugs are a huge part of this book B in no way romanticized them, instead she showed us a real and raw relationship with drugs.
Phoenix Royal mother fucker I adore her queen ass. My favorite FMC of all time. She. Is. So. Strong. It’s genuinely inspiring to read about a character like her. To watch her mature from book one to book two was an experience all in itself. For the most part She knows what she wants, not to say that she doesn’t experience the same level of confusion and conflicted thoughts and feelings. Which just adds to making her feel so real and relatable. The way she handles herself and refuses to react the way that Judah pushes her to shows how she’s grown so much. And all in all I love her with my entire soul. She owns me.
Judah Colt. Oh my sweet tortured baby. Almost every chapter from his POV... fuck they hurt. They hurt so bad. Judah is hurting so badly in this book, and as they say you usually have to hit rock bottom before you can start climbing back up. And oh boy was that true our baby J hits Rock Bottom so hard in this book, and I can’t wait to see how he handles himself from here.
Side Characters such as Frankie, Pharaoh, Silas, and the rest of the Crew I won’t say much about them in order to avoid spoilers, but as always Frankie is an absolute light in everyone’s lives, but we also get to see more of her character in this book we get to see her open up about her own feelings and thoughts.
Kav and Ricco were such a happy supportive surprise and like wow I literally loved them and with the addition of Trixie🥺
Pharaoh, well I won’t lie and say I was surprised, because I saw it coming from the beginning of this book if not before 😅, and I wont lie I liked it👀.
Seriously though I can’t wait to see what B does with all of these Side Characters in the future 🖤
All and all this book was amazing, brutal, but amazing. And I Can’t wait for EIWF 😭
To say that I loved every second of it wouldn’t be the truth, because it wouldn’t be true to say that I liked to see all my babies feel the emotional and physical that they do would be a lie because it hurt it was painful to witness and at some parts so so hard to read.
before I go any further I have to layout something warnings about this badboys content, because whew it was an intense read, not at all intended for the faint of heart. This book deals with heavy drug abuse, with overdoses, using drugs as a form of self harm, suicide-suicidal thoughts, and toxic relationships, also if exclusivity is a must for you, well then this book isn’t for you. (that’s just everything I can think of off the top of my head honestly it’s an intense/painful af read and I might even be spacing other triggers)
Now on to my review. I loved it. I really really loved it. It was painful, but it was beautiful in a way (you’ll understand if you read it, it’s honestly so hard to explain especially spoiler free 😅) while drugs are a huge part of this book B in no way romanticized them, instead she showed us a real and raw relationship with drugs.
Phoenix Royal mother fucker I adore her queen ass. My favorite FMC of all time. She. Is. So. Strong. It’s genuinely inspiring to read about a character like her. To watch her mature from book one to book two was an experience all in itself. For the most part She knows what she wants, not to say that she doesn’t experience the same level of confusion and conflicted thoughts and feelings. Which just adds to making her feel so real and relatable. The way she handles herself and refuses to react the way that Judah pushes her to shows how she’s grown so much. And all in all I love her with my entire soul. She owns me.
Judah Colt. Oh my sweet tortured baby. Almost every chapter from his POV... fuck they hurt. They hurt so bad. Judah is hurting so badly in this book, and as they say you usually have to hit rock bottom before you can start climbing back up. And oh boy was that true our baby J hits Rock Bottom so hard in this book, and I can’t wait to see how he handles himself from here.
Side Characters such as Frankie, Pharaoh, Silas, and the rest of the Crew I won’t say much about them in order to avoid spoilers, but as always Frankie is an absolute light in everyone’s lives, but we also get to see more of her character in this book we get to see her open up about her own feelings and thoughts.
Kav and Ricco were such a happy supportive surprise and like wow I literally loved them and with the addition of Trixie🥺
Pharaoh, well I won’t lie and say I was surprised, because I saw it coming from the beginning of this book if not before 😅, and I wont lie I liked it👀.
Seriously though I can’t wait to see what B does with all of these Side Characters in the future 🖤
All and all this book was amazing, brutal, but amazing. And I Can’t wait for EIWF 😭
June 2, 2021
(AINDA TO DIGERINDO ESSE LIVRO)
O.M.F.G
Sério que livro mais intenso , tô sem palavras , sem expressão. Esse livro foi mais que eu esperava , é tão forte tudo, principalmente os POV do Judah que (na minha humilde opinião) são os melhores, tudo gira em torno dele nesse livro e existe taaaaanto dor.
Brianna tu arrasou demais , tem tanta emoção nesse livro que no fim estava sem palavras, e que final hein.
Eu realmente amo o personagem do Judah, acho que pelo fato dele ser mais pesado , gosto muito do que a Brianna construiu nele, tipo muito mto. (Judah te amo S2)
Sobre o Pharaoh eu esperava o que aconteceu, mas fiquei chateada (mais do que quero admitir), porém não quero dar spoiler sobre isso, esse foi meu único ponto baixo do livro . (Pharaoh não te amo, Sorry not sorry)
Anciosa pro livro 3 já, sim ou com certeza?
Eu recomendo ler esse livro com uma boa xícara de chá de marcela pra ir acalmando os nervos.
(Eu recebi um ARC desse livro e essa é minha honesta opinião.)
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O.M.F.G
Seriously, more intense book, I'm speechless, expressionless. This book was more than I expected, everything is so strong, especially Judah's POV are (in my humble opinion) the best, everything revolves around him in this book and have so much pain.
Brianna you rocked, there's so much emotion in this book that in the end I was speechless, and what a ending huh.
I really love Judah's character, I think because it's the heaviest one, I really like what Brianna built on him. (Love u Judah S2)
About Pharaoh I was wanting , but I was upset, and i don't want to spoil it, soooo that was my only low point in this book. (Don't love u Pharaoh, sorry don't sorry buh buh)
Looking forward to book 3 already, yes or for sure?
I recommend reading this book with a good marcela tea on the side, to calm down. :P
(I received an arc of this book and these are my honest opinions.)
O.M.F.G
Sério que livro mais intenso , tô sem palavras , sem expressão. Esse livro foi mais que eu esperava , é tão forte tudo, principalmente os POV do Judah que (na minha humilde opinião) são os melhores, tudo gira em torno dele nesse livro e existe taaaaanto dor.
Brianna tu arrasou demais , tem tanta emoção nesse livro que no fim estava sem palavras, e que final hein.
Eu realmente amo o personagem do Judah, acho que pelo fato dele ser mais pesado , gosto muito do que a Brianna construiu nele, tipo muito mto. (Judah te amo S2)
Sobre o Pharaoh eu esperava o que aconteceu, mas fiquei chateada (mais do que quero admitir), porém não quero dar spoiler sobre isso, esse foi meu único ponto baixo do livro . (Pharaoh não te amo, Sorry not sorry)
Anciosa pro livro 3 já, sim ou com certeza?
Eu recomendo ler esse livro com uma boa xícara de chá de marcela pra ir acalmando os nervos.
(Eu recebi um ARC desse livro e essa é minha honesta opinião.)
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O.M.F.G
Seriously, more intense book, I'm speechless, expressionless. This book was more than I expected, everything is so strong, especially Judah's POV are (in my humble opinion) the best, everything revolves around him in this book and have so much pain.
Brianna you rocked, there's so much emotion in this book that in the end I was speechless, and what a ending huh.
I really love Judah's character, I think because it's the heaviest one, I really like what Brianna built on him. (Love u Judah S2)
About Pharaoh I was wanting , but I was upset, and i don't want to spoil it, soooo that was my only low point in this book. (Don't love u Pharaoh, sorry don't sorry buh buh)
Looking forward to book 3 already, yes or for sure?
I recommend reading this book with a good marcela tea on the side, to calm down. :P
(I received an arc of this book and these are my honest opinions.)
June 13, 2021
I don't even know where to begin with, I just know that i don't know how I feel lol.
AGAIN this was such an emotional roller coaster all over again.
I love Judah so much, my poor baby 🤧
CAN'T WAIT FOR BOOK 3.
AGAIN this was such an emotional roller coaster all over again.
I love Judah so much, my poor baby 🤧
CAN'T WAIT FOR BOOK 3.
June 15, 2021
Jesus Christ, I was not prepared to be absolutely devastated by You Said You Wouldn’t, but here we are and I am not ok 😭😭
First off, massive trigger warnings for this book. It’s heavy and intense, and holds nothing back when it comes to drug abuse, suicide, self harm, toxic/abusive relationships, and cheating.
With that out of the way, YSYW picks up right where we left off, with Judah and Phoenix parting ways before he goes on the European leg of his tour. It’s pretty much all down hill from here for Judah, cause homeboy really hit rock bottom. His demons have come out to play and they don’t care if they destroy him in the meantime.
I can’t even lie to you, I fucking HATED Judah for most of this book—all the lashing out, the drugs, the other women… Phoenix didn’t deserve his bullshit & he was just too fricking dumb to realize that until it was too late.
On the other hand, Phoenix’s character growth in this book is fucking immaculate. Like the mythological being she’s named after, this bitch rose from the ashes of her heartache and Judah’s betrayal. P held her ground no matter how many times Judah tried to drag her down with him. This bitch is a gd Q U E E N, ok?! She chose to put herself, her career, and her mental health first and I have never been so proud of a fictional character before in my life.
YSYW was fucking rough to get through, it was 10000 times more intense and dark than WAYH was, but ohhh boy what a ride. I hated it and loved it all at the time time, and still can’t process that ending. I need book 3 ASAP!!!!
First off, massive trigger warnings for this book. It’s heavy and intense, and holds nothing back when it comes to drug abuse, suicide, self harm, toxic/abusive relationships, and cheating.
With that out of the way, YSYW picks up right where we left off, with Judah and Phoenix parting ways before he goes on the European leg of his tour. It’s pretty much all down hill from here for Judah, cause homeboy really hit rock bottom. His demons have come out to play and they don’t care if they destroy him in the meantime.
I can’t even lie to you, I fucking HATED Judah for most of this book—all the lashing out, the drugs, the other women… Phoenix didn’t deserve his bullshit & he was just too fricking dumb to realize that until it was too late.
On the other hand, Phoenix’s character growth in this book is fucking immaculate. Like the mythological being she’s named after, this bitch rose from the ashes of her heartache and Judah’s betrayal. P held her ground no matter how many times Judah tried to drag her down with him. This bitch is a gd Q U E E N, ok?! She chose to put herself, her career, and her mental health first and I have never been so proud of a fictional character before in my life.
YSYW was fucking rough to get through, it was 10000 times more intense and dark than WAYH was, but ohhh boy what a ride. I hated it and loved it all at the time time, and still can’t process that ending. I need book 3 ASAP!!!!
June 5, 2021
My head and heart can't take it. They both hurt after reading this.
If you've read book 1, WAYH, then you already knew we were in for a ride... An emotional, soul crushing, heartbreaking, painstakingly beautiful ride that you can't get off until you've turned the last page.
Judah 😭 In book 1 we only got a smidge of the toxicity that is Judah when he is on a downhill spiral. We got it in full fckn force here. I wasn't prepared. I didn't realise how far he would go. At times when reading, I hated him. Then I hurt for him. He was drowning.
Phoenix. Oh how I fckn love this girl. To say she's put through the wringer is the understatement of the year. Her growth on this journey, discovering what she needs to put first, her health, her well being, her friendships... whilst dealing with all the pain and the trauma of past and present was inspiring to read.
And can I just mention the 3rd POV here... Pharoah. I'm not gonna lie, I was kinda cheering his ass on in the end, I liked it 👀 Frankie is amazing as always, ride or fckn die if I ever saw one. All of the side characters are an integral part of this story and I'm excited to get more out of all of them!
This is an intense read guys, dealing with issues including mental health, heavy drug abuse and suicidal thoughts. It's raw and it's real and I'm telling you now, you feel it. You FEEL it.
⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ All the stars.
If you've read book 1, WAYH, then you already knew we were in for a ride... An emotional, soul crushing, heartbreaking, painstakingly beautiful ride that you can't get off until you've turned the last page.
Judah 😭 In book 1 we only got a smidge of the toxicity that is Judah when he is on a downhill spiral. We got it in full fckn force here. I wasn't prepared. I didn't realise how far he would go. At times when reading, I hated him. Then I hurt for him. He was drowning.
Phoenix. Oh how I fckn love this girl. To say she's put through the wringer is the understatement of the year. Her growth on this journey, discovering what she needs to put first, her health, her well being, her friendships... whilst dealing with all the pain and the trauma of past and present was inspiring to read.
And can I just mention the 3rd POV here... Pharoah. I'm not gonna lie, I was kinda cheering his ass on in the end, I liked it 👀 Frankie is amazing as always, ride or fckn die if I ever saw one. All of the side characters are an integral part of this story and I'm excited to get more out of all of them!
This is an intense read guys, dealing with issues including mental health, heavy drug abuse and suicidal thoughts. It's raw and it's real and I'm telling you now, you feel it. You FEEL it.
⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ All the stars.
June 9, 2021
I'm....well I have no idea what to say about this book
BRILLIANT
5 ⭐ AIN'T ENOUGH
People were everywhere, and there wasn’t a sober person in the place.
Just how I like it.
My demons had control of the reigns, and we were having a great fucking time
Okay so where do I even start with this man.
Actually this is the thing I love the most about this book
REAL.RAW.UNFILTERED
Overdose was a possibility I wasn’t scared of because I almost wanted it to happen, just to see who would be in the room when I woke up. If I woke up at all.
These days, I wasn’t sure anyone would be there.
Because this is what it is, living life on a high that you think the high you're in is your life.
This man had demons. His demons owned him. Were too fucking loud in his head that the safest thing to him was feeling nothing. He hated his demons and went into a cycle that made HIM the monster. Not afraid to die. Instead waiting for it. Because it just seemed....better.
“You were supposed to be my boyfriend, my best friend, a partner to me! Not someone who faced a problem, turned around, and made it my fault, then hurt me repeatedly as payback for having a backbone. I’m not required to deal with that shit just because we were together, Judah. Come on now, don’t be that fucking guy.”
PHOENIX FUCKING ROYAL. You queen. I have never read about a heroine more mentally strong than this bish. The little bird is ... incredible. She got better. She WANTED better. She knew she had to do what she did to try and fix everything around her even if it hurt like a bitch to her.
“Happy Birthday, Skyscraper.”
My forehead met hers.
Despite my flaws, despite the monster I didn’t hide well…she loved me.
Broken, battered, double fucked and always faded, she still loved me.
Thank you, Little Bird.
[ THIS CHAPTER DESERVES EVERYTHING I HAVE IN ME]
It's funny how they're just a perfect fucking fit. They're just straight up fucked up but they just ...fit. Twin flames? I guess yeah. It's fire when they're together and a whole world gets lit up when they're not
I wrapped my fingers around her wrist, needing the contact. “But I’m glad it was me you called and not Frankie.”
“Me too,” she whispered.
Pharoah.
The one and only. I will exchange my soul for this man. The control. The... being in the right mind. The way he actually SEES people around him. He's just as fucked dealing with his...issues but goddamn this man is an angel.
(Ps. Him and little bird : I kinda ship *winkwink*)
Plus after reading the end of this book. THIS MAN IS A GODSEND. if I see ONE bitch talking shit about this man. I WILL THROW HANDS.
Scared.
I was fucking scared.
I was trapped, alone, broken, useless, wasted, and so high, I couldn’t see straight anymore.
I'll be thinking a lot about this book and tbh I think we should. Addiction is bad. It drives you to places you might not be able to return from. It's fucking raw.
Not only for the addict but also for people around them.
It drags you to hell and back. Okay I will NEVER stop talking about this book. Hit me right in the mf feels.
Dream loud and unapologetically, dream about getting out and sharing your story with the world in whatever way you choose to. It’ll be incredible however you decide to do it. I believe in you.
I’ll see you on the other side.
P
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“What do you want, Judah?”
-“I want to be free.”
“Then, that’s what you’ll be.”
BRILLIANT
5 ⭐ AIN'T ENOUGH
People were everywhere, and there wasn’t a sober person in the place.
Just how I like it.
My demons had control of the reigns, and we were having a great fucking time
Okay so where do I even start with this man.
Actually this is the thing I love the most about this book
REAL.RAW.UNFILTERED
Overdose was a possibility I wasn’t scared of because I almost wanted it to happen, just to see who would be in the room when I woke up. If I woke up at all.
These days, I wasn’t sure anyone would be there.
Because this is what it is, living life on a high that you think the high you're in is your life.
This man had demons. His demons owned him. Were too fucking loud in his head that the safest thing to him was feeling nothing. He hated his demons and went into a cycle that made HIM the monster. Not afraid to die. Instead waiting for it. Because it just seemed....better.
“You were supposed to be my boyfriend, my best friend, a partner to me! Not someone who faced a problem, turned around, and made it my fault, then hurt me repeatedly as payback for having a backbone. I’m not required to deal with that shit just because we were together, Judah. Come on now, don’t be that fucking guy.”
PHOENIX FUCKING ROYAL. You queen. I have never read about a heroine more mentally strong than this bish. The little bird is ... incredible. She got better. She WANTED better. She knew she had to do what she did to try and fix everything around her even if it hurt like a bitch to her.
“Happy Birthday, Skyscraper.”
My forehead met hers.
Despite my flaws, despite the monster I didn’t hide well…she loved me.
Broken, battered, double fucked and always faded, she still loved me.
Thank you, Little Bird.
[ THIS CHAPTER DESERVES EVERYTHING I HAVE IN ME]
It's funny how they're just a perfect fucking fit. They're just straight up fucked up but they just ...fit. Twin flames? I guess yeah. It's fire when they're together and a whole world gets lit up when they're not
I wrapped my fingers around her wrist, needing the contact. “But I’m glad it was me you called and not Frankie.”
“Me too,” she whispered.
Pharoah.
The one and only. I will exchange my soul for this man. The control. The... being in the right mind. The way he actually SEES people around him. He's just as fucked dealing with his...issues but goddamn this man is an angel.
(Ps. Him and little bird : I kinda ship *winkwink*)
Plus after reading the end of this book. THIS MAN IS A GODSEND. if I see ONE bitch talking shit about this man. I WILL THROW HANDS.
Scared.
I was fucking scared.
I was trapped, alone, broken, useless, wasted, and so high, I couldn’t see straight anymore.
I'll be thinking a lot about this book and tbh I think we should. Addiction is bad. It drives you to places you might not be able to return from. It's fucking raw.
Not only for the addict but also for people around them.
It drags you to hell and back. Okay I will NEVER stop talking about this book. Hit me right in the mf feels.
Dream loud and unapologetically, dream about getting out and sharing your story with the world in whatever way you choose to. It’ll be incredible however you decide to do it. I believe in you.
I’ll see you on the other side.
P
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“What do you want, Judah?”
-“I want to be free.”
“Then, that’s what you’ll be.”
April 11, 2022
D.N.F
This was an absolute trainwreck. I guess in a way it was raw and real because real life isn't always just rainbows and butterflies, but damn..I'm done with Judah and Phoenix's drama. I could still be okay with him sleeping around after their separation and her choosing not to do the same because she's learnt healthier coping habits. But you can't expect me to be okay with her jumping right onto his dick soon after they reunite. Don't even get me started on the possible STDs on that motherfucker after he pretty much fucked his way through his tour (oh guess I'm not okay with it). I hate how J has become in this book. It's physically painful to read his POVs. I can't believe these two were the so-called Twin Flames! Everything is just ruined.
Everyone needs to go to therapy. ASAP.
This was an absolute trainwreck. I guess in a way it was raw and real because real life isn't always just rainbows and butterflies, but damn..I'm done with Judah and Phoenix's drama. I could still be okay with him sleeping around after their separation and her choosing not to do the same because she's learnt healthier coping habits. But you can't expect me to be okay with her jumping right onto his dick soon after they reunite. Don't even get me started on the possible STDs on that motherfucker after he pretty much fucked his way through his tour (oh guess I'm not okay with it). I hate how J has become in this book. It's physically painful to read his POVs. I can't believe these two were the so-called Twin Flames! Everything is just ruined.
Everyone needs to go to therapy. ASAP.
June 5, 2021
“𝐈 𝐜𝐚𝐧 𝐛𝐞 𝐦𝐚𝐝 𝐚𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮, 𝐈 𝐜𝐚𝐧 𝐡𝐚𝐭𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮, 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐈 𝐚𝐛𝐬𝐨𝐥𝐮𝐭𝐞𝐥𝐲 𝐜𝐚𝐧𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐩 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐲𝐨𝐮.”
Twin flames are said to be two halves of one whole; two pieces of one soul split into two bodies. A connection of the deepest level. The problem with twin flames is they can be toxic, destructive, chaos... beautiful carnage.
In Why Are You Here? Judah and Phoenix story is only just beginning. A chance encounter on a rooftop, an intense soul connection, and a whole lot of drama. You Said You Wouldn’t is the middle of their story. The tough, painful, soul crushing middle. I’m not going to say anything else about the plot because obviously, it’s the second book and any details would spoil the story. But buckle up, because you truly have no idea what you’re in for with this one.
“𝐘𝐨𝐮’𝐫𝐞 𝐨𝐧 𝐚 𝐟𝐚𝐬𝐭 𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐨 𝐡𝐞𝐥𝐥, 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐝𝐞𝐫 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐩𝐮𝐬𝐡, 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐝𝐞𝐫 𝐲𝐨𝐮’𝐥𝐥 𝐟𝐚𝐥𝐥.”
This book is HEAVY. Heavy, heavy, heavy. I can’t say that enough. WAYH was a walk in the park compared to this instalment. I truly felt both characters pain, heartache and struggles through the pages and it was tough but it was so worth it. I think it’s necessary to their story. This story is incredibly well written and I loved every second of it. My love for Phoenix grew a lot stronger and I really admired her strength. As expected, the side characters were AMAZING. We’ve got Frankie, Ricco, Kavan, Silas and Pharaoh. If you loved book 1, I am certain you will enjoy this ride, however much it might hurt.
I am so excited for the final book in Love Kills and I have full trust in Brianna about how she will wrap up this story!
“𝐈’𝐯𝐞 𝐚𝐥𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐲 𝐬𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐡𝐞𝐥𝐥. 𝐈’𝐯𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐢𝐭, 𝐈’𝐯𝐞 𝐝𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐞𝐝 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐝𝐞𝐯𝐢𝐥 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐡𝐚𝐝 𝐚 𝐠𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐞, 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐬𝐚𝐯𝐞𝐝 𝐦𝐲 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞. 𝐘𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐟*𝐜𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐦𝐮𝐬𝐢𝐜, 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐥𝐲𝐫𝐢𝐜𝐬.”
ARC Provided in exchange for an honest review.
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CW: heavy drug and alcohol use, violence, PTSD, mental illness, talks of suicide, toxic relationships.
Twin flames are said to be two halves of one whole; two pieces of one soul split into two bodies. A connection of the deepest level. The problem with twin flames is they can be toxic, destructive, chaos... beautiful carnage.
In Why Are You Here? Judah and Phoenix story is only just beginning. A chance encounter on a rooftop, an intense soul connection, and a whole lot of drama. You Said You Wouldn’t is the middle of their story. The tough, painful, soul crushing middle. I’m not going to say anything else about the plot because obviously, it’s the second book and any details would spoil the story. But buckle up, because you truly have no idea what you’re in for with this one.
“𝐘𝐨𝐮’𝐫𝐞 𝐨𝐧 𝐚 𝐟𝐚𝐬𝐭 𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐨 𝐡𝐞𝐥𝐥, 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐝𝐞𝐫 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐩𝐮𝐬𝐡, 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐝𝐞𝐫 𝐲𝐨𝐮’𝐥𝐥 𝐟𝐚𝐥𝐥.”
This book is HEAVY. Heavy, heavy, heavy. I can’t say that enough. WAYH was a walk in the park compared to this instalment. I truly felt both characters pain, heartache and struggles through the pages and it was tough but it was so worth it. I think it’s necessary to their story. This story is incredibly well written and I loved every second of it. My love for Phoenix grew a lot stronger and I really admired her strength. As expected, the side characters were AMAZING. We’ve got Frankie, Ricco, Kavan, Silas and Pharaoh. If you loved book 1, I am certain you will enjoy this ride, however much it might hurt.
I am so excited for the final book in Love Kills and I have full trust in Brianna about how she will wrap up this story!
“𝐈’𝐯𝐞 𝐚𝐥𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐲 𝐬𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐡𝐞𝐥𝐥. 𝐈’𝐯𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐢𝐭, 𝐈’𝐯𝐞 𝐝𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐞𝐝 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐝𝐞𝐯𝐢𝐥 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐡𝐚𝐝 𝐚 𝐠𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐞, 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐬𝐚𝐯𝐞𝐝 𝐦𝐲 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞. 𝐘𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐟*𝐜𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐦𝐮𝐬𝐢𝐜, 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐥𝐲𝐫𝐢𝐜𝐬.”
ARC Provided in exchange for an honest review.
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CW: heavy drug and alcohol use, violence, PTSD, mental illness, talks of suicide, toxic relationships.
June 9, 2021
You.Are.Not.Ready
The most painstakingly, gut wrenching, heartbreakingly beautiful journey I’ve ever read.
First off I will repeat You.Are.Not.Ready, you cannot prepare yourself enough for the immense feelings and emotions and the journey your about to embark on. I’m left in awe and bit speechless and lot more emotionally messed up then I thought I was going to be. P and J my twin flames, my fire and gasoline couple,will draw you in so hard and so fast you lose all thought and only then can you try to hold on while weathering this category 5 hurricane.
Get ready to feel more then you ever felt before with a book, get ready for a journey that is going to test your strength and resolve and tear your heart open with no warning. I’ve never been so emotionally invested and so caught up in a book that I had to make sure I was still In real life.
These two and their relationship literally carve themselves into your heart and soul, one bloody jagged cut at a time.Their love and journey is one for the books, one that will never be topped and never be touched. Every word and every step in this beautifully twisted journey literally bleeds off the pages as you read along. These two are raw and real and have demons, but don’t we all? And after everything you will read and feel you’ll root for them even more because they are that powerful.
My girl Frankie oh how I missed you and the beautiful addition you add to the story. You and P gave me hope and made me cheer when I thought I was just a broken mess. The dynamic you bring is on a whole different level. The friendship/sisterhood you have with P, makes me feel so much, so gosh darn much. Reminds my why it’s so great to have a person that will always have your back even when you don’t have your own.
We all knew this ride was going to rock us to our cores, but boy did I never expect to be like this in a million years. You know those books that you’ll never forget, that basically steals apart of you forever without even asking? This book is all that and more. As I stated above it’s heartbreakingly beautiful. I feel lost already without them. This book will impact you so deeply you won’t know what’s up from down. And always remember your a survivor and stronger then you believe you are. By far the greatest book of 2021.
The most painstakingly, gut wrenching, heartbreakingly beautiful journey I’ve ever read.
First off I will repeat You.Are.Not.Ready, you cannot prepare yourself enough for the immense feelings and emotions and the journey your about to embark on. I’m left in awe and bit speechless and lot more emotionally messed up then I thought I was going to be. P and J my twin flames, my fire and gasoline couple,will draw you in so hard and so fast you lose all thought and only then can you try to hold on while weathering this category 5 hurricane.
Get ready to feel more then you ever felt before with a book, get ready for a journey that is going to test your strength and resolve and tear your heart open with no warning. I’ve never been so emotionally invested and so caught up in a book that I had to make sure I was still In real life.
These two and their relationship literally carve themselves into your heart and soul, one bloody jagged cut at a time.Their love and journey is one for the books, one that will never be topped and never be touched. Every word and every step in this beautifully twisted journey literally bleeds off the pages as you read along. These two are raw and real and have demons, but don’t we all? And after everything you will read and feel you’ll root for them even more because they are that powerful.
My girl Frankie oh how I missed you and the beautiful addition you add to the story. You and P gave me hope and made me cheer when I thought I was just a broken mess. The dynamic you bring is on a whole different level. The friendship/sisterhood you have with P, makes me feel so much, so gosh darn much. Reminds my why it’s so great to have a person that will always have your back even when you don’t have your own.
We all knew this ride was going to rock us to our cores, but boy did I never expect to be like this in a million years. You know those books that you’ll never forget, that basically steals apart of you forever without even asking? This book is all that and more. As I stated above it’s heartbreakingly beautiful. I feel lost already without them. This book will impact you so deeply you won’t know what’s up from down. And always remember your a survivor and stronger then you believe you are. By far the greatest book of 2021.
June 9, 2021
Spoiler free 5 star review for this beauty
I usually devour books and this was no exception. On my first sitting I was 50% in and it was 2am. Now normally I would of kept going and said f*ck it to sleep but the mental health representation in this is draining to the point that it actually makes you take a break. Why is this a good point? Because living with mental health problems is motherf*ck*ng draining!
B’s writing is so damn accurate that if you have mental health or addiction struggles you feel it in your soul, some might find it even hard to read or want to skip through. I would actually implore people that don’t understand mental health to read these books because it is explained and captured so well it could teach people some things.
This book starts right where we left off in book 1 and adds in a third POV for us to explore the madness that goes on through the months this book covers. We not only get inside the minds of Phoenix and Judah more but we spend a lot more time with the side characters which I loved. If Frankie is the ultimate girl best friend and supporter, Ricco and Kav are the shinning lights of the book. They offer comic relief but are so much more in their protective and loving natures and a perfect example of girls having guy best friends with no sexual undertones and found family. Honestly, they have my whole blackened heart and I want the world for them.
This book is entertaining - which may sound strange considering the topics it covers. But I really couldn’t put it down and it’s all down to the characters. You spend the whole time crying for them, laughing with them, wanting to scream at them or take them to a safe space. This is by no means an easy read and you can get frustrated if you are looking for a simple linear story of boy meets girl and they get a HEA. This book takes our favourites to the lowest of the low. Because they need to go there to find their endings.
I normally know what I want from a book series - whether that’s a plot point, characters ending up together etc but with this one so much happens and they all go through so much I don’t even know how I want book 3 to end other than I want them all to find their happy... what ever that looks like
*Arc provided for an honest review
I usually devour books and this was no exception. On my first sitting I was 50% in and it was 2am. Now normally I would of kept going and said f*ck it to sleep but the mental health representation in this is draining to the point that it actually makes you take a break. Why is this a good point? Because living with mental health problems is motherf*ck*ng draining!
B’s writing is so damn accurate that if you have mental health or addiction struggles you feel it in your soul, some might find it even hard to read or want to skip through. I would actually implore people that don’t understand mental health to read these books because it is explained and captured so well it could teach people some things.
This book starts right where we left off in book 1 and adds in a third POV for us to explore the madness that goes on through the months this book covers. We not only get inside the minds of Phoenix and Judah more but we spend a lot more time with the side characters which I loved. If Frankie is the ultimate girl best friend and supporter, Ricco and Kav are the shinning lights of the book. They offer comic relief but are so much more in their protective and loving natures and a perfect example of girls having guy best friends with no sexual undertones and found family. Honestly, they have my whole blackened heart and I want the world for them.
This book is entertaining - which may sound strange considering the topics it covers. But I really couldn’t put it down and it’s all down to the characters. You spend the whole time crying for them, laughing with them, wanting to scream at them or take them to a safe space. This is by no means an easy read and you can get frustrated if you are looking for a simple linear story of boy meets girl and they get a HEA. This book takes our favourites to the lowest of the low. Because they need to go there to find their endings.
I normally know what I want from a book series - whether that’s a plot point, characters ending up together etc but with this one so much happens and they all go through so much I don’t even know how I want book 3 to end other than I want them all to find their happy... what ever that looks like
*Arc provided for an honest review
June 3, 2021
I have typed out three reviews so far, and deleted all of the words I wrote because they really don’t feel enough to sum up what happens in this book and how it makes you feel.
Book one was hard. This book almost killed me.
The evolution of these characters from book one is mind blowing, everything that they go through is horrifically traumatic yet incredibly real and watching this friendship group navigate notoriety and all the problems that comes along with it was a rollercoaster.
Please do take the trigger warning serious with this book. Substance abuse is no joke and it is most certainly not portrayed in this way or romanticised at all. This book goes into the real life issues and toxicity that is based around addiction and substance abuse so please do bare that in mind.
As always, Brianna Jean has written a masterpiece, her words are poetic and reach in to you in a completely different level to anything else I have read.
Book three is going to be a whole new level of crazy, but with the way things ended in You Said You Wouldn’t, I couldn’t be more excited for it.
Book one was hard. This book almost killed me.
The evolution of these characters from book one is mind blowing, everything that they go through is horrifically traumatic yet incredibly real and watching this friendship group navigate notoriety and all the problems that comes along with it was a rollercoaster.
Please do take the trigger warning serious with this book. Substance abuse is no joke and it is most certainly not portrayed in this way or romanticised at all. This book goes into the real life issues and toxicity that is based around addiction and substance abuse so please do bare that in mind.
As always, Brianna Jean has written a masterpiece, her words are poetic and reach in to you in a completely different level to anything else I have read.
Book three is going to be a whole new level of crazy, but with the way things ended in You Said You Wouldn’t, I couldn’t be more excited for it.
June 1, 2021
This book has me completely shattered! Damn, Brianna Jean, you definitely did not hold anything back with this story. This book was as raw, real and gritty as they come. If you’re expecting some romantic story full of love and laughter, this is not the book for that.
This story was beyond emotional and I’m not ashamed to admit that I most certainly did cry. Judah and Phoenix’s story is definitely not an easy one. Addiction, trauma, anxiety, are all very real and very prevalent in this story. Brianna Jean made you pay attention with her words but even more importantly to the the rough, unromantisized truth of addiction.
**Please heed the trigger warning! It is there for a very important reason!
This book is not for the faint of heart. It will pull at every emotion, every heartstring, every nook a cranny of your psyche and make you feel. The toxicity between Judah and Phoenix comes to a raging explosion in this book. If you thought anything in WAYH was heavy, that just scratched the surface. Judah takes an even more tumultuous ride to chaos and destruction.
The one shining light in this tunnel of darkness was the absolute strength of Phoenix. Her desire to and motivation to love herself first. To put her life, her dreams, her healthy relationships first. The growth of Phoenix in this story is absolutely beautiful and inspiring. She quite simply, rises from the ashes. She learns to work through the trauma, the pain, the anxiety and build a better life for herself. And with that comes true, loyal friendships that love her unconditionally. I definitely need to give a shout out to Frankie, her loyalty and love to Phoenix (and vice versa) is truly awe-inspiring. Their friendship is beyond special.
This book completely shattered me. I truly cannot put into words how raw this story was. It felt like Brianna Jean was reaching into my soul and squeezing it in a vice grip. Forcing me to face the truth without rose tinted glasses.
This story was heart-wrenching and beautiful and I never wanted it to end. Brianna Jean gave me a story that had me absolutely rooted to my seat from beginning to end feeling all the feels!
This story was beyond emotional and I’m not ashamed to admit that I most certainly did cry. Judah and Phoenix’s story is definitely not an easy one. Addiction, trauma, anxiety, are all very real and very prevalent in this story. Brianna Jean made you pay attention with her words but even more importantly to the the rough, unromantisized truth of addiction.
**Please heed the trigger warning! It is there for a very important reason!
This book is not for the faint of heart. It will pull at every emotion, every heartstring, every nook a cranny of your psyche and make you feel. The toxicity between Judah and Phoenix comes to a raging explosion in this book. If you thought anything in WAYH was heavy, that just scratched the surface. Judah takes an even more tumultuous ride to chaos and destruction.
The one shining light in this tunnel of darkness was the absolute strength of Phoenix. Her desire to and motivation to love herself first. To put her life, her dreams, her healthy relationships first. The growth of Phoenix in this story is absolutely beautiful and inspiring. She quite simply, rises from the ashes. She learns to work through the trauma, the pain, the anxiety and build a better life for herself. And with that comes true, loyal friendships that love her unconditionally. I definitely need to give a shout out to Frankie, her loyalty and love to Phoenix (and vice versa) is truly awe-inspiring. Their friendship is beyond special.
This book completely shattered me. I truly cannot put into words how raw this story was. It felt like Brianna Jean was reaching into my soul and squeezing it in a vice grip. Forcing me to face the truth without rose tinted glasses.
This story was heart-wrenching and beautiful and I never wanted it to end. Brianna Jean gave me a story that had me absolutely rooted to my seat from beginning to end feeling all the feels!
August 25, 2022
“I just don’t understand how you can go on living knowing I’m not willing to.”
I really liked this book better than the first. Having people in my life that suffer from addiction this story really hit home. Although I didn't agree with the way the H/h handled certain situations.. I get it! I get that everyone handles things differently. I get they are damaged and have gone through it. Addiction is hard for everyone involved. It's a battle and it's something that never goes away whether it's yourself or someone you care about. It's a constant worry.
If you're wondering why I gave it 4 stars read the somewhat spoiler below......
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I'm perplexed by what happened with Pheonix and Pharaoh. I love Pharaoh! If the story goes how I think it will in book 3 I'm begging the author to give us his story because I'm invested. I need to know that he gets his HEA. But I think it was a bit out of character for either of them to turn to each other. To betray Judah especially because they are all he has. I know Judah is being a jerk (putting it lightly) but REALLY! I know he takes them for granted. I also know he's very sick. Now I also see their side.. they both are going through this. They turn to each other because no one else understands. They've gotten close. In a way, Judah has pushed them together.
I'm sorry for my rambling. The subject matter in this book is very complex. Especially after what happened towards the end. It took it up a notch! I'm moving on to book 3 and can't wait to see what is going to happen!
I really liked this book better than the first. Having people in my life that suffer from addiction this story really hit home. Although I didn't agree with the way the H/h handled certain situations.. I get it! I get that everyone handles things differently. I get they are damaged and have gone through it. Addiction is hard for everyone involved. It's a battle and it's something that never goes away whether it's yourself or someone you care about. It's a constant worry.
If you're wondering why I gave it 4 stars read the somewhat spoiler below......
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I'm perplexed by what happened with Pheonix and Pharaoh. I love Pharaoh! If the story goes how I think it will in book 3 I'm begging the author to give us his story because I'm invested. I need to know that he gets his HEA. But I think it was a bit out of character for either of them to turn to each other. To betray Judah especially because they are all he has. I know Judah is being a jerk (putting it lightly) but REALLY! I know he takes them for granted. I also know he's very sick. Now I also see their side.. they both are going through this. They turn to each other because no one else understands. They've gotten close. In a way, Judah has pushed them together.
I'm sorry for my rambling. The subject matter in this book is very complex. Especially after what happened towards the end. It took it up a notch! I'm moving on to book 3 and can't wait to see what is going to happen!
June 1, 2021
HOLY FUCKING PERFECTION! FRCS
November 20, 2022
This book was brutal and hurt so fucking much. I can’t explain how mentally drained I am but in the best possible way. You know how I said book 1 was toxic and messy? Well strap in for book 2 people because some how it got a whole lot worse.
Judah just blew up his whole entire world and every one in the blast zone too. I hated him this book. He’s struggling with addiction and has truly hit rock bottom. I’m so happy that Phoenix has chosen herself though. That girl’s growth has been phenomenal since the start of the series.
Why isn’t this a five star you ask? Well, Brianna Jean thought she throw a curve ball into the mix at 75% and I’m pissed. Why not throw a love triangle in too, right? But not just any love triangle, one with the heroes best friend 🤦🏼♀️ I couldn’t have hated that decision more. But I trust the process and when I’ve had a brain break I’ll be jumping into book 3 because Judah and his baby bird are end game and I will except nothing less. So watch this space because I may have a broken kindle by the end of book 3 if things don’t go my way! 😭
Judah just blew up his whole entire world and every one in the blast zone too. I hated him this book. He’s struggling with addiction and has truly hit rock bottom. I’m so happy that Phoenix has chosen herself though. That girl’s growth has been phenomenal since the start of the series.
Why isn’t this a five star you ask? Well, Brianna Jean thought she throw a curve ball into the mix at 75% and I’m pissed. Why not throw a love triangle in too, right? But not just any love triangle, one with the heroes best friend 🤦🏼♀️ I couldn’t have hated that decision more. But I trust the process and when I’ve had a brain break I’ll be jumping into book 3 because Judah and his baby bird are end game and I will except nothing less. So watch this space because I may have a broken kindle by the end of book 3 if things don’t go my way! 😭
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
June 3, 2021
Hi Friends! Let me tell you about this book I just read!
𝕐 𝚘𝚞 𝕊𝚊𝚒𝚍 𝕐𝚘𝚞 𝕎𝚘𝚞𝚕𝚍𝚗’𝚝 is continuation of the 𝕃𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝕂𝚒𝚕𝚕𝚜 series that follows ℙ𝚑𝚘𝚎𝚗𝚒𝚡 & 𝕁𝚞𝚍𝚊𝚑 after the event fallout of book 1. So, if you haven’t read 𝕎𝚑𝚢 𝔸𝚛𝚎 𝕐𝚘𝚞 ℍ𝚎𝚛𝚎, I highly recommend you catch up on that before diving into this beast of a story!
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ℙ𝚑𝚘𝚎𝚗𝚒𝚡 makes the incredibly hard decision to stay in LA when 𝕁𝚞𝚍𝚊𝚑 leaves to go on his European tour. Before leaving, 𝕁𝚞𝚍𝚊𝚑 begins a downward spiral into drugs and avoidance cementing ℙ’𝚜 choice to stay. What unravels is a tumultuous ride through some of the most dizzying and inspirational events I have had the absolute honor of reading.
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Brianna does a careful and stylized job highlighting an accurate view of the effects of drug use in the music industry and the people it touches. I’m not gonna lie or sugar coat it, this was heavy and messy, but also beautiful and passionate. Again she has hit a new level in her writing capabilities and I am in awe of her. There are few authors that are capable of ripping these emotions from me and Brianna has cemented her spot on that list.
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ℙ𝚑𝚘𝚎𝚗𝚒𝚡 & 𝕁𝚞𝚍𝚊𝚑 are so woven into my soul, my nerves are rattled but I am cheering for them loudly with no shame! Don’t get me wrong, ℙ & 𝕁 have a highly toxic relationship that may hit close to home with a lot of people struggling with similar issues. Addiction affects more people today than it should, and this story sheds light on that. But the reality is, villains, screw ups, addicts and bad people deserve love just like everyone else! This is in no way something to romanticize in the real world, but that is why I love dark & gritty stories so much!
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Hats off to Brianna who once again held my mind HOSTAGE! I am so invested in these characters, not limited to ℙ&𝕁! Frankie Skyes, best friend extraordinaire and literal ride or die side chick to ℙ. Pharaoh Roman, who is SO MUCH MORE than just 𝕁’s drummer. I am so obsessed with this beautiful boy. This world is all the best and worst of life in La La Land, and these characters are with me forevermore 🤍
𝕐 𝚘𝚞 𝕊𝚊𝚒𝚍 𝕐𝚘𝚞 𝕎𝚘𝚞𝚕𝚍𝚗’𝚝 is continuation of the 𝕃𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝕂𝚒𝚕𝚕𝚜 series that follows ℙ𝚑𝚘𝚎𝚗𝚒𝚡 & 𝕁𝚞𝚍𝚊𝚑 after the event fallout of book 1. So, if you haven’t read 𝕎𝚑𝚢 𝔸𝚛𝚎 𝕐𝚘𝚞 ℍ𝚎𝚛𝚎, I highly recommend you catch up on that before diving into this beast of a story!
☯︎︎
ℙ𝚑𝚘𝚎𝚗𝚒𝚡 makes the incredibly hard decision to stay in LA when 𝕁𝚞𝚍𝚊𝚑 leaves to go on his European tour. Before leaving, 𝕁𝚞𝚍𝚊𝚑 begins a downward spiral into drugs and avoidance cementing ℙ’𝚜 choice to stay. What unravels is a tumultuous ride through some of the most dizzying and inspirational events I have had the absolute honor of reading.
☯︎︎
Brianna does a careful and stylized job highlighting an accurate view of the effects of drug use in the music industry and the people it touches. I’m not gonna lie or sugar coat it, this was heavy and messy, but also beautiful and passionate. Again she has hit a new level in her writing capabilities and I am in awe of her. There are few authors that are capable of ripping these emotions from me and Brianna has cemented her spot on that list.
☯︎︎
ℙ𝚑𝚘𝚎𝚗𝚒𝚡 & 𝕁𝚞𝚍𝚊𝚑 are so woven into my soul, my nerves are rattled but I am cheering for them loudly with no shame! Don’t get me wrong, ℙ & 𝕁 have a highly toxic relationship that may hit close to home with a lot of people struggling with similar issues. Addiction affects more people today than it should, and this story sheds light on that. But the reality is, villains, screw ups, addicts and bad people deserve love just like everyone else! This is in no way something to romanticize in the real world, but that is why I love dark & gritty stories so much!
☯︎︎
Hats off to Brianna who once again held my mind HOSTAGE! I am so invested in these characters, not limited to ℙ&𝕁! Frankie Skyes, best friend extraordinaire and literal ride or die side chick to ℙ. Pharaoh Roman, who is SO MUCH MORE than just 𝕁’s drummer. I am so obsessed with this beautiful boy. This world is all the best and worst of life in La La Land, and these characters are with me forevermore 🤍
June 19, 2021
Ever feel like you need time to process what you read and all the emotions it caused before writing a good review? Yeah, that was me this week after reading the second book in the Love Kills series. I feel like I'm still processing things but overall this book was a flat out emotional beating.
"It's what we do, him and I. We ruin the people around us, slowly killing each other at the same time."
Well, Phoenix & Judah certainly ruined me with this book... mostly Judah.
I don't know that I can go into much detail without revealing too much of the book so I'll do my best to keep it vague. The first book in the series was good and it was also emotional but that was truly just the beginning. In this second book, we see what happens when two people with hard pasts fall in love. What happens when they haven't necessarily dealt with past hurts or childhood trauma and what it's like to love someone who's struggling.
This book is pretty intensely about addiction and what it's like to not want to live. The self destruction and in turn destruction of relationships when you're at your end and just don't give a f*ck anymore. But it's also about friendships. Friendships that are so strong, they're much more like family.
It's really heavy but so realistic the way Phoenix feels as she watches Judah self destruct. Loving an addict is insanely difficult and Phoenix's character is strong and resilient. Judah is so broken and not the man he was in the first book (even then he was broken but he's in shambles this go around). All of the characters have evolved a bit in this book and it was great to see their friendships strengthen. It was especially nice to have the 3rd POV of Pharaoh in this book and I am extremely excited and anxious to see what happens next in the series.
Brianna Jean has written a truly heartbreaking and raw book that I won't soon forget!
"It's what we do, him and I. We ruin the people around us, slowly killing each other at the same time."
Well, Phoenix & Judah certainly ruined me with this book... mostly Judah.
I don't know that I can go into much detail without revealing too much of the book so I'll do my best to keep it vague. The first book in the series was good and it was also emotional but that was truly just the beginning. In this second book, we see what happens when two people with hard pasts fall in love. What happens when they haven't necessarily dealt with past hurts or childhood trauma and what it's like to love someone who's struggling.
This book is pretty intensely about addiction and what it's like to not want to live. The self destruction and in turn destruction of relationships when you're at your end and just don't give a f*ck anymore. But it's also about friendships. Friendships that are so strong, they're much more like family.
It's really heavy but so realistic the way Phoenix feels as she watches Judah self destruct. Loving an addict is insanely difficult and Phoenix's character is strong and resilient. Judah is so broken and not the man he was in the first book (even then he was broken but he's in shambles this go around). All of the characters have evolved a bit in this book and it was great to see their friendships strengthen. It was especially nice to have the 3rd POV of Pharaoh in this book and I am extremely excited and anxious to see what happens next in the series.
Brianna Jean has written a truly heartbreaking and raw book that I won't soon forget!
July 10, 2021
I don’t even know where to begin, this book completely shattered me my heart actually hurts. I cannot put into words how real, raw and heartbreaking this book truly is. I was not expecting such an emotional rollercoaster here and it definitely put me through the wringer. This is not an easy book to read so really take the tw seriously. It really showcases how trauma can affect you and the domino effect addiction has on a person and everyone around them.
All I have to say is that I love Judah so much, and I really felt for him even though I just wanted him to stop and get help. My poor baby. Every single chapter from his POV was hard to read because you can honestly feel his pain and he is hurting and just wants to be numb. I want him to be free and truly get to know who he is outside his addiction. I am rooting for my him.
I also really need book three like yesterday, I am so on edge because I need to know how everyone will get their happy ending more specifically Judah.
All I have to say is that I love Judah so much, and I really felt for him even though I just wanted him to stop and get help. My poor baby. Every single chapter from his POV was hard to read because you can honestly feel his pain and he is hurting and just wants to be numb. I want him to be free and truly get to know who he is outside his addiction. I am rooting for my him.
I also really need book three like yesterday, I am so on edge because I need to know how everyone will get their happy ending more specifically Judah.
June 10, 2021
‘Judah couldn’t see the people that loved him, that his fans loved him, that I loved him, he only saw the people that hated him.’
Honestly, I finished this book two days ago and have been trying to think of the words to say ever since.
I absolutely loved it. It crushed me in the worst way, but also in the best way. Ever since the ARC dropped on my kindle I’d been putting it off, worried that my heart couldn’t take it.
Did Phoenix irritate me at times? Sure.
But overall, I could overlook that, as my baby boys Judah and Pharaoh saved it all.
Once again, Brianna Jean has put such raw and real energy on to the page, and I applaud her for that. It’s a hard book to read, and I can only imagine how difficult it must have been to write.
I am super excited for the final book, and can’t wait to see how it all unfolds. I just want Judah to be happy; he deserves it.
I received an ARC in exchange for a review.
Honestly, I finished this book two days ago and have been trying to think of the words to say ever since.
I absolutely loved it. It crushed me in the worst way, but also in the best way. Ever since the ARC dropped on my kindle I’d been putting it off, worried that my heart couldn’t take it.
Did Phoenix irritate me at times? Sure.
But overall, I could overlook that, as my baby boys Judah and Pharaoh saved it all.
Once again, Brianna Jean has put such raw and real energy on to the page, and I applaud her for that. It’s a hard book to read, and I can only imagine how difficult it must have been to write.
I am super excited for the final book, and can’t wait to see how it all unfolds. I just want Judah to be happy; he deserves it.
I received an ARC in exchange for a review.
June 9, 2021
I don't think I have ever read a book that felt so real -- so true to things I've experienced -- as this one. I'm amazed and love that their story is told here. Can't wait for book 3.
This book is amazing! Book two of the Love Kills series is an emotional, hard-hitting, and very real journey. Can't recommend this enough. It will break your heart and make you cry. It will also make you smile sometimes. But it's a whole lot of truth wrapped up with a pretty fiction bow.
𝐓𝐑𝐈𝐆𝐆𝐄𝐑 𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆: this book contains extremely triggering topics—including addiction and suicide—and is not recommended for anyone under the age of 18.
This book is amazing! Book two of the Love Kills series is an emotional, hard-hitting, and very real journey. Can't recommend this enough. It will break your heart and make you cry. It will also make you smile sometimes. But it's a whole lot of truth wrapped up with a pretty fiction bow.
𝐓𝐑𝐈𝐆𝐆𝐄𝐑 𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆: this book contains extremely triggering topics—including addiction and suicide—and is not recommended for anyone under the age of 18.
June 13, 2021
You Said You Wouldn't! is one of the most emotionally powerful books I've read.
The author blew me away with her direction with this book. She stayed true to Judah and his reckless way of living. After the devastating end of Why Are You Here?, I longed to pick this one up to settle my bruised heart, but like Phoenix had no idea how deep and dark the turmoil of Judah's addiction to drugs was, neither did I.
Their nerves seemed frayed and hanging on by a thread. I felt myself being drawn in and actually had to put the book down to calm my own nerves. And I admit, I was so angry at him sometimes, I deliberately focused on Phoenix and her path to peace. Not only did she do that, she made progress with herself and truly treasured the time she had with her friends.
This story touched me in a way that is absolutely unexplainable! It has me left me devestated, yet hopeful. I'm looking forward to see further actions from both Judah and Pharaoh.
Breathtakingly beautiful!
The author blew me away with her direction with this book. She stayed true to Judah and his reckless way of living. After the devastating end of Why Are You Here?, I longed to pick this one up to settle my bruised heart, but like Phoenix had no idea how deep and dark the turmoil of Judah's addiction to drugs was, neither did I.
Their nerves seemed frayed and hanging on by a thread. I felt myself being drawn in and actually had to put the book down to calm my own nerves. And I admit, I was so angry at him sometimes, I deliberately focused on Phoenix and her path to peace. Not only did she do that, she made progress with herself and truly treasured the time she had with her friends.
This story touched me in a way that is absolutely unexplainable! It has me left me devestated, yet hopeful. I'm looking forward to see further actions from both Judah and Pharaoh.
Breathtakingly beautiful!
June 1, 2021
This book was incredible. The much needed chaos before hopefully resolution for Skyscraper and P.
“I know I’m being a fucking asshole right now, but I’m just as fucked as you are , except I don’t have all of you and you have all of me.”
This quote .. for me tells you all about YSYW.
I will be unpatiently waiting for the 3rd book.
“I know I’m being a fucking asshole right now, but I’m just as fucked as you are , except I don’t have all of you and you have all of me.”
This quote .. for me tells you all about YSYW.
I will be unpatiently waiting for the 3rd book.
July 11, 2021
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY OTHER THAN THAT THIS BOOK UTTERLY DESTROYED ME BUT CATCH ME BUYING THE THIRD INSTALLMENT THE SECOND IT RELEASES
September 11, 2021
First, the title of this book is obvs and pretty clever! You Said You Wouldn't! L͟E͟A͟V͟E͟, familiar? Yes!
𝗼𝗻𝘁𝗼 𝗺𝘆 𝗿𝗲𝘃𝗶𝗲𝘄...
This book picks up right where we left off at the ending of the first book 𝐖𝐀𝐘𝐇? Judah's continuously spiralling out of control and his demons are very happy with it.
I like more 𝐏𝐡𝐨𝐞𝐧𝐢𝐱 in this book, she proves that she'd got backbone and is very determined to straighten her life and obtain her objectives. But where does Judah place in all of this? His behaviour is mirroring co-dependency, jealousy and toxicity.
It's good when it's good, you know but when it is bad it's fucking nasty, immaturity, insecurity, self-deprecating you name it, that demeanour is the perfect recipe for catastrophe.
This book almost reminded me of 𝗥.𝗞. 𝗟𝗶𝗹𝗹𝗲𝘆'𝘀 - 𝘽𝙖𝙙 𝙏𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜𝙨 𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙡𝙤𝙜𝙮 𝙗𝙤𝙤𝙠 2 (𝘙𝘰𝘤𝘬 𝘉𝘰𝘵𝘵𝘰𝘮), though the MC in that trilogy is a 𝒓𝒐𝒄𝒌𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒓 wherein in this is a 𝒓𝒂𝒑𝒑𝒆𝒓.
Yet the vibe and all the use of addiction and substance as a plot device is sort of similar. I feel like this book was 𝘃𝗲𝗿𝘀𝗶𝗼𝗻 2.0 of that trilogy since this one got more drama and shits.
I don't necessarily mean it in a bad way, since the author's writing style and storytelling is very much enthralling and will fuck up your emotions.
If you wanna read a book that truly attests to the meaning of "𝒉𝒊𝒕𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒓𝒐𝒄𝒌 𝒃𝒐𝒕𝒕𝒐𝒎" and a portrayal of 𝑑𝑦𝑠𝑓𝑢𝑛𝑐𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛𝑠𝑙 𝑢𝑛ℎ𝑒𝑎𝑙𝑡ℎ𝑦 relationships then you gotta 𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗱 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝘀!
I think I have a lot more to say, but I just couldn't get my thoughts coherently. Just finished this one, and I'm so depleted right now.
With all the drama and the train wreck of this narrative represented, I have mixed feelings...
And oh! how can i forget reading a whole chapter of Pharaoh (Judah's best friend) and Phoenix having descriptive sex, yikes?🙃
With all that being said, I'm still excited to see how book 3 will play out.
𝗼𝗻𝘁𝗼 𝗺𝘆 𝗿𝗲𝘃𝗶𝗲𝘄...
This book picks up right where we left off at the ending of the first book 𝐖𝐀𝐘𝐇? Judah's continuously spiralling out of control and his demons are very happy with it.
I like more 𝐏𝐡𝐨𝐞𝐧𝐢𝐱 in this book, she proves that she'd got backbone and is very determined to straighten her life and obtain her objectives. But where does Judah place in all of this? His behaviour is mirroring co-dependency, jealousy and toxicity.
It's good when it's good, you know but when it is bad it's fucking nasty, immaturity, insecurity, self-deprecating you name it, that demeanour is the perfect recipe for catastrophe.
This book almost reminded me of 𝗥.𝗞. 𝗟𝗶𝗹𝗹𝗲𝘆'𝘀 - 𝘽𝙖𝙙 𝙏𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜𝙨 𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙡𝙤𝙜𝙮 𝙗𝙤𝙤𝙠 2 (𝘙𝘰𝘤𝘬 𝘉𝘰𝘵𝘵𝘰𝘮), though the MC in that trilogy is a 𝒓𝒐𝒄𝒌𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒓 wherein in this is a 𝒓𝒂𝒑𝒑𝒆𝒓.
Yet the vibe and all the use of addiction and substance as a plot device is sort of similar. I feel like this book was 𝘃𝗲𝗿𝘀𝗶𝗼𝗻 2.0 of that trilogy since this one got more drama and shits.
I don't necessarily mean it in a bad way, since the author's writing style and storytelling is very much enthralling and will fuck up your emotions.
If you wanna read a book that truly attests to the meaning of "𝒉𝒊𝒕𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒓𝒐𝒄𝒌 𝒃𝒐𝒕𝒕𝒐𝒎" and a portrayal of 𝑑𝑦𝑠𝑓𝑢𝑛𝑐𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛𝑠𝑙 𝑢𝑛ℎ𝑒𝑎𝑙𝑡ℎ𝑦 relationships then you gotta 𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗱 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝘀!
I think I have a lot more to say, but I just couldn't get my thoughts coherently. Just finished this one, and I'm so depleted right now.
With all the drama and the train wreck of this narrative represented, I have mixed feelings...
And oh! how can i forget reading a whole chapter of Pharaoh (Judah's best friend) and Phoenix having descriptive sex, yikes?🙃
With all that being said, I'm still excited to see how book 3 will play out.
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
June 14, 2021
‘I’d broken his heart when I left him on the tarmac, and I doubted he had enough empathy in him to realize he’d broken mine first.’
You Said You Wouldn’t by Brianna Jean is a dark new adult music romance that’s is told from multiple POVs, and is the second book in the Love Kills series. Book one must be read first in order to understand the storyline.
There’s no words to describe how incredible his book is !
Judah and Phoenix’s relationship is raw, intense, soul shattering and swoon worthy in the most toxic way. The supporting characters are so effortlessly intertwined within the story, I loved the insight the third characters POV gave us and how the story flowed easily with the right amount of depth and detail.
If you love a book couple that has an all consuming love that’s downright toxic then this is the book for you !
Please note: This book does contain scenes that some readers may find triggering and/or disturbing. It also contains infidelity. If you would like any clarification please don’t hesitate in contacting me.
Thank you to Brianna Jean for providing me with an ARC in exchange for an honest review.
You Said You Wouldn’t by Brianna Jean is a dark new adult music romance that’s is told from multiple POVs, and is the second book in the Love Kills series. Book one must be read first in order to understand the storyline.
There’s no words to describe how incredible his book is !
Judah and Phoenix’s relationship is raw, intense, soul shattering and swoon worthy in the most toxic way. The supporting characters are so effortlessly intertwined within the story, I loved the insight the third characters POV gave us and how the story flowed easily with the right amount of depth and detail.
If you love a book couple that has an all consuming love that’s downright toxic then this is the book for you !
Please note: This book does contain scenes that some readers may find triggering and/or disturbing. It also contains infidelity. If you would like any clarification please don’t hesitate in contacting me.
Thank you to Brianna Jean for providing me with an ARC in exchange for an honest review.
December 4, 2022
꒰ㅤʚĭɞㅤ۪ㅤ۫ ੭ dnf 25%ㅤ۪ㅤ♡
The constant slut shaming just got to me i’m sorry. We get it every single woman in this book besides those two are just a bunch of backstabbing skanky hoes who don’t deserve anything thats why they’re guys girls. It’s like women in this book ( actually this series because I picked up on it in the first book too ) are not people they’re just holes and backstabbers. Who cares if they’ve slept with a lot of people, Judah is sucking, fucking and licking every drug and girl known to men yet they don’t slutshame him nearly as much. And please let her play dirty, enough with this doormat shit. Cause thats what she is.
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“I hate girls,” Franks bitched, smearing red lipstick all over her mouth before artfully smudging it to look like she just got finished smashing some guy in the bathroom of a club. “Pretty to fuck but awful to deal with.”
The constant slut shaming just got to me i’m sorry. We get it every single woman in this book besides those two are just a bunch of backstabbing skanky hoes who don’t deserve anything thats why they’re guys girls. It’s like women in this book ( actually this series because I picked up on it in the first book too ) are not people they’re just holes and backstabbers. Who cares if they’ve slept with a lot of people, Judah is sucking, fucking and licking every drug and girl known to men yet they don’t slutshame him nearly as much. And please let her play dirty, enough with this doormat shit. Cause thats what she is.
June 10, 2021
You said you wouldn’t has to be one of those books that I find in my whole time in reading to be a book that I find it hard to review for. I don’t know where to begin but I am going to anyway.
This is a book that moments, seconds, minutes, hours and days later has me reeling from the aftermath that this book exploded at us readers. It’s days later that I am feeling the aftershocks of its eruption throughout my body physically, mentally and emotionally.
Just thinking about this book, has my eyes filling with tears. Tears that when I blink hoping they will go away, they just fall rapidly down my face showcasing the hurt, pain, and heartbreak I felt throughout this book.
This book isn’t an easy book by any means, I am going to be complete honest. It’s fucking brutal. It’s a book that will demand your attention to late hours of the morning and holds your body and heart hostage until the last word has been said.
Every story in this series, will bring this couple one step forward to their happily ever after even if it looks like they are going backwards and feels like their is no hope after all that’s happened. This book in particular will slaughter him because it takes you on such an emotional roller coaster.
Love Kills is a true representation of Judah and Phoenix, because their love, past and history has the ability to kill their love. Their story is twisted, but more importantly it’s the realest book I’ve ever read because it tackles real life situations that so many people deal with in their personal lives. One situation in particular being addiction, and how that can ruin people’s, friends and their families lives. This book showed us a real in depth, honest and raw play by play of what it’s really like. Seeing all this unfold, it was like it was happening right before my eyes.
I am going to be honest, I was addicted to Judah and Phoenix and their all so consuming toxic love. They are so passionate and all consuming. They are each other’s one true love, and their souls are intertwines. They truly are a set of twin of flames.
Not all good things come with toxic loves especially this one, Judah and Phoenix in this book go through so so so much heartbreak, pain, and hurt. At one point I was like when is it going to be enough, how much more can these characters handle but that’s the thing about addictions. Their story telling, their pain was so relatable and quite literally I felt like I could feel their pain physically like I was enduring it. Their was certain points in this book where I grabbed at my chest to feel if my heart was still attached because it felt like it had been ripped out and stepped on. The morning after finishing this book, you could tell I had been put through the ringer. The bags under my eyes, the lack of sleep, I was emotionally drained because this book is one of a kind and is so real, raw and honest.
Prepare yourselves to be so frustrated, angry and hurt by the actions of the man himself, THECOLT. Also known as Judah aka Skyscraper. As much as I say prepare yourselves nothing could prepare you for what’s to come from him. You won’t know what’s going to happen until it’s too late. As much as I am angry at him, I am also so so sad for all his been through, the pain his harbours. The suffering he deals with on a day to day basis. His drowning, sinking and just staying alive.
But what happens when you hit rock bottom?
P, really shined in this book. Her whole vibe changed in this book and I absolutely was living for it. Her state of mind is really put to the test in this book and it’s not easy to witness. Watching her happiness disappear and instead we are left with a girl who is heartbroken, in pain and is suffering. With all that, she still stayed true to herself and rose above it all as she became stronger day by day and I am just in awe of her.
I don’t know what else to say other then, go completely blind in this book but also adhere to the warnings for this book because it’s not easy. It’s so completely brutal.
You need to go and one click this book straight away, although make sure you read book one first. This is hands down a favourite of mine and one of my top reads. I can’t wait to see what’s next in Judah and Phoenix path to their happily ever after.
This is a book that moments, seconds, minutes, hours and days later has me reeling from the aftermath that this book exploded at us readers. It’s days later that I am feeling the aftershocks of its eruption throughout my body physically, mentally and emotionally.
Just thinking about this book, has my eyes filling with tears. Tears that when I blink hoping they will go away, they just fall rapidly down my face showcasing the hurt, pain, and heartbreak I felt throughout this book.
This book isn’t an easy book by any means, I am going to be complete honest. It’s fucking brutal. It’s a book that will demand your attention to late hours of the morning and holds your body and heart hostage until the last word has been said.
Every story in this series, will bring this couple one step forward to their happily ever after even if it looks like they are going backwards and feels like their is no hope after all that’s happened. This book in particular will slaughter him because it takes you on such an emotional roller coaster.
Love Kills is a true representation of Judah and Phoenix, because their love, past and history has the ability to kill their love. Their story is twisted, but more importantly it’s the realest book I’ve ever read because it tackles real life situations that so many people deal with in their personal lives. One situation in particular being addiction, and how that can ruin people’s, friends and their families lives. This book showed us a real in depth, honest and raw play by play of what it’s really like. Seeing all this unfold, it was like it was happening right before my eyes.
I am going to be honest, I was addicted to Judah and Phoenix and their all so consuming toxic love. They are so passionate and all consuming. They are each other’s one true love, and their souls are intertwines. They truly are a set of twin of flames.
Not all good things come with toxic loves especially this one, Judah and Phoenix in this book go through so so so much heartbreak, pain, and hurt. At one point I was like when is it going to be enough, how much more can these characters handle but that’s the thing about addictions. Their story telling, their pain was so relatable and quite literally I felt like I could feel their pain physically like I was enduring it. Their was certain points in this book where I grabbed at my chest to feel if my heart was still attached because it felt like it had been ripped out and stepped on. The morning after finishing this book, you could tell I had been put through the ringer. The bags under my eyes, the lack of sleep, I was emotionally drained because this book is one of a kind and is so real, raw and honest.
Prepare yourselves to be so frustrated, angry and hurt by the actions of the man himself, THECOLT. Also known as Judah aka Skyscraper. As much as I say prepare yourselves nothing could prepare you for what’s to come from him. You won’t know what’s going to happen until it’s too late. As much as I am angry at him, I am also so so sad for all his been through, the pain his harbours. The suffering he deals with on a day to day basis. His drowning, sinking and just staying alive.
But what happens when you hit rock bottom?
P, really shined in this book. Her whole vibe changed in this book and I absolutely was living for it. Her state of mind is really put to the test in this book and it’s not easy to witness. Watching her happiness disappear and instead we are left with a girl who is heartbroken, in pain and is suffering. With all that, she still stayed true to herself and rose above it all as she became stronger day by day and I am just in awe of her.
I don’t know what else to say other then, go completely blind in this book but also adhere to the warnings for this book because it’s not easy. It’s so completely brutal.
You need to go and one click this book straight away, although make sure you read book one first. This is hands down a favourite of mine and one of my top reads. I can’t wait to see what’s next in Judah and Phoenix path to their happily ever after.
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