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354 pages, Kindle Edition
Published September 9, 2021
Without the bowtie, Rhett had zeroed in on my throat. He sucked my Adam’s apple, making me jolt. “Say it, Ethan. I promise I want to hear it.”
“Did you know alligators are always erect?” I blurted. Rhett lifted his head to look at me.
Jesus, why did I say that?
“Really?”
“They keep it tucked inside their body, but yeah. Always ready to go.”
Then I said, gently, “You’re beautiful too.” He started to shake his head and I kissed him more insistently.
“Yes,” I said again.
“You’re enough. Say it for me.”
“I’m enough,” he mumbled.
“Again, and louder.”
He huffed and glanced up at me. “I’m enough,” he said, sounding irritated but more confident. It would do.
I smiled. “Better. Now get your sexy body in the shower, and I’ll show you just how much I like it.”
Ethan twined his fingers with mine, and my heart swelled. We fit together. We always had.



My arrangement with Rhett had never been casual at all. I’d only been able to do it because I’d already felt connected to him. I didn’t look at him one day and think he was hot; it was a slow evolution of getting to know him, genuinely liking him, and then starting to notice how beautiful he was.
People pushed me, and most of the time, I bent. I hated conflict. It tied my stomach up in knots, had done so ever since I was a young child watching my parents yell at one another. There wasn’t a week that went by that they didn’t fight bitterly, calling one another names, slamming doors. Yet, they stayed together, feeding on one another’s misery
“Quid pro quo, right?” I said lightly. “You scratch my back, and I’ll scratch yours.”
Ethan’s relief was visible. He slumped, elbows braced on the kitchen counter between us. “Okay, thanks. But I think I should warn you. Tess is…not easy to deal with. It won’t be pleasant.”
“So this is more about moral support and less about my incredible arm strength in hauling boxes for you?”
He cracked a tense smile. “Something like that.”
“Don’t worry, Ethan. I’ve got your back.”
“Then I’ve got yours,” he said, reaching out to shake my hand. “Quid pro quo.
Ethan chuckled. It was a weak laugh, but it was a laugh. Anything was better than the defeated expression he’d worn since our visit to his evil ex’s house. “Okay. But don’t expect much. It’s pretty geeky.”
“I’ll be the judge of that,” I said decisively, as if I knew anything about fashion. All I really knew was that if Ethan had a way of expressing himself, he shouldn’t let a vile human like Tess squash that. Even if he did look geeky, so what? Ethan was a geek. And geeky could be hot.
Ethan was methodical, always doing his research before he acted. I’d once watched him read reviews for nearly an hour before settling on a Chinese restaurant for take-out. I smiled at the memory, though at the time I’d been starving and pissed off. Who the hell does that? I’d wondered.
Rhett patted the futon. “Yep. How about one of the Godzilla movies you own?”
That surprised me out of my stupor. I dropped down beside him. “You don’t want to watch that. It’ll bore you.”
“Good.” He waited until I’d turned to look at him—then waggled his brows. “We can make out during the boring parts.”
My heart lurched. “There’s a lot of boring parts. At least, that’s what other people tell me.”
“You like it though?”
“Yeah.”
“That’s good enough for me. Turn it on.”
Ethan hadn’t been hesitant or shy about putting his mouth on my dick. He’d been into it.
And he hadn’t been some messy, eager guy gobbling my dick either, but incredibly thoughtful and focused. He’d tried a lot of different moves, some of them things I’d done, and he’d assessed the results and then tried again. It was very Ethan. He was the type of guy to blow you smarter, not harder. That thought was enough to make me grin.
“I bet if you wanted to kiss someone, you’d just do it, right? You wouldn’t be afraid.”
“I’d ask first,” I said.
“Oh. Right.”
“I’d say…Ethan, can I kiss you?” His lips parted.
“And I’d say yes?”

