Rating: 2/5 stars, Did Not Finish (DNF)
TW: sexual harassment, student-teacher romantic relations
I received this novel as an ARC from NetGalley. All thoughts and opinions are my own.
I was personally very excited to receive this book as an advanced reader's copy. It seemed like a cute, refreshing contemporary that I honestly needed in my life. However, the execution of this story was not the breath of fresh air I was hoping for.
Our main character Grace goes to a private boarding school, although she questions her status there quite often as a lower class member of society whose mother lives in a mobile home. She's reclusive, stuck up, and has a bite that matches her bark. While struggling with her own stance at school as well as life, she ends up saving new kid Wade from some school bullies. Through this supposedly not selfless act, Grace starts to understand herself and develop friendships she wouldn't have had before.
This book was extremely hard to sit through. I read about 40 percent and had to force myself to stop because of the writing style and choice of inclusions.
The first major issue I had was the whole unrequited side romance we are introduced to at the very first page, which is Grace crying because she is in love with her biology teacher and just found out that he has a fiancé. I have extremely strong opinions about this kind of romance, so to have it thrown into your face in the very first chapter did not set the bar high for this book. I feel it would have been worse if the biology teacher actually reciprocated this love, but he doesn't. Grace tries to play it off as saying all boys are immature and that she needs someone man enough, but it never sat well with me.
Speaking of Grace, I hated her. She was so rude to everyone she met, especially to Wade and her roommate Georgina. It seemed so unnecessary and immediately made me disconnect from her as a main character. There are also some weird tidbits about her that we find out that seem... extremely out of place. For example, during the scene where she saves Wade from bullies, she uses a slingshot that she somehow always has on her and uses it to shoot a pebble at the bully, somehow stopping the whole showdown. Then later, when confronted about it, she played it off as her not liking the bully's face, all to keep her bad girl image.
All of the dialogues throughout the book made me cringe and rendered it hard to read. Here are a few examples of how cringe it was:
- There was a whole discussion on the purpose of having to pee, and why it needed to be done (I think that most of us probably know why we do it)
- One person that comes onto Grace explains the boy science behind the shape of a girl's calves and how it turns them on (I almost gagged reading it)
- IN THIS SAME SCENE the individual coming onto Grace literally has to EXPLAIN how to kiss someone, with extremely descriptive words. It was... so uncomfortable and disgusting.
One last thing of note is probably Wade, probably the most likeable character in this whole book, which is saying something. He's supposed to be the bad boy who has been kicked from four different schools before arriving at this one. Yet, we see him a majority of the time being nice or super considerate to Grace. We're told he punched someone at school, and that he and Grace skipped once, but that's it. His personality seemed a bit all over the place.
I had to convince myself to stop this book because of how much the writing, as well as the actions of the characters, made me feel uncomfortable or disgusting. I personally do not like DNFing books unless there are some serious problems, but this was something I could not force myself to sit through any more. It may be for others but unfortunately this was not the book for me.
EDIT: It has come to my attention after writing this review and posting it on NetGalley that the author, along with several of her friends, have made what are known as "sock puppet" accounts as a means to flood the book with positive 5-star reviews. Some of these reviews are very similar in that they praise the novel for being the next To Kill a Mockingbird and things of the sort. As an aspiring author, this disgusts me to hear. On top of this, apparently some of these accounts have been attacking those who have left negative reviews. I myself have not been a victim of this yet, but I want to make anyone aware to not support this author. Anyone who does this is sleazy and clearly does not think too highly of their own work.