DNF-ing at 34%... Chapter 8...
You know I often dislike when I find myself needing to bring in outside books [that have no connection to what I am reviewing] in order to drive a bit of my point home.
This book has two choices at a certain point, maybe about Chapter 2-3. Well, scratch that, 3 choices because one of them can be to do exactly what they have done.
The first choice is...keep writing but make this book about the heroine's journey into healing, especially if she considers the same Hero. The second choice would be to stop writing about this particular couple and move on to a New Hero.
This book did something early on and brought the couple together at a meet-cute moment, and then the Hero dropped the ball and ghosted our Heroine. So, you know what? It showed the Heroine she could not trust the Hero, nor was he AS INTERESTED as he was making himself out to be.
I call it Wrong Place, Wrong Time, so let's allow the Heroine to breathe and figure her shit out.
But apparently, that is not what this story wants to do. So, we are simply gonna jam this particular Hero into this Heroine's face, put them in the same spaces at very coinkydink moments of time...granted it is a small town, but STILL!! I wish the Hero knew what NO MEANS NO means.
I spent two books prior continuing to read books where an author had, literally, "trapped" their heroines in the same space/spaces as the men, or Heroes, who had brought past trauma onto them. In one heroine's case, it was the moment in her life that bent and shaped whom she was today. The other heroine had time and space to find other ways and means to better her life, but the decisions she made for herself and her marriage kept her in a state of perpetual ruttness--never allowed to break out of that rut to find a new place to exist.
Now, I find myself in the midst of a story where a heroine has not only rejected our Hero, but she took his phone number [written on paper] and eventually Deleted it out of her phone. She is not just bitter about how he, himself, rejected her months ago...she had gone home to learn toxicity permeated her life to an emotional and mental state of anguish and upheaval...and she HAD TO BAIL out of her life, and then out of town.
Mainly, the Hero makes her constantly recall THAT VERY DAY her life turned to utter shit and she learned she was all alone in this world.
Now, the Heroine is IN the same town as that Hero who tried to come onto her in a bar in New York City. Since this is a small town bar [Speakeasy]...she will get a job here and then eventually BUMP into the Hero again.
I stopped counting how many times she rejected him, even when he gave her HIS number, HIM saying she could call him any time. And, well, since he gave her the option and she had not called? Would this not simply be yet a 2nd or 3rd rejection, so, ya know. STOP!
What ends up happening is...she goes to have her oil changed in a local mechanic shop...and GUESS WHO is having his four wheels changed/rotated? So, yeah... here comes rejection 3rd or 4th...so, somehow the Hero finally gets a bit upset...and mangry [man-angry because he is being rejected more times than he expected but is still a NICE GUY] and pouts about not getting his own way. Or even another chance to be with her.
Here's the thing at this point in time...I don't care how sympathetic or empathetic you try to make the Hero's personal life be...he has been using his own savings in the bank to pay off his parent's debt as his alcoholic father allows bills to lag and go past due, so now The Hero cannot even get a measly bank loan since his account always fluctuates so unsteadily, month to month. And in some way, I am supposed to find my heart yearning for this young man to get cut a freakin' break in romance?
By the way, it's not working.
I am now in Chapter 8...the author is giving us little Header titles and this one is called, Taking a Chance. It's a scene where the Hero stumbles upon the Heroine having a solo picnic, reading a book and once he has his "lunch" in hand, he wanders over to plop down and is determined to make her not just suffer his presence again, but then try to tempt her to deny she will like this personal pizza he has...
By the way...it's a "gross" artisanal pizza that has, like, APPLES on it--kind of like the shaming of Pineapple on pizza.
...and I feel like DNF-ing at this point because this is not a romance when the woman is denying the man at every turn, for her own sanity because she knows she doesn't have her shit together yet, and he will not allow her to breathe without him being near.
The writer is doing something I dislike a lot with heroines and it is giving her an opportunity, in her private POV thoughts to second guess herself and then keep second-guessing her second guesses. Because of ALL OF THE REJECTIONS and the fact that this last one at the mechanic shop seemed to hurt harder where the Hero actually FELT rejected... she now feels like maybe she was TOO HARSH and hurt his feelings or something. Like she is chattering in her head about how NICE, SWEET of a guy he seems and this is just a bad time to be considering a relationship.
This will culminate into her churning and churning those feelings of having liked the guy--she called him Handsome, he calls her Firefly because of a tattoo on her nape/neck... because somehow this is now HER FAULT that he won't leave her alone. AND that the Author keeps pitting her heroine in the same breathing spaces the Hero so now the Heroine has to keep being combative and upset...re-churning and re-traumatizing her over and over...and I am flabbergasted in wonderment.
This is not romantic nor Romance. I find none of this sexy or endearing, nor do I want to be given an opportunity to "see" into the Hero's life, nor his POV anymore.
Playing hard to get is not what she is doing, so this "waiting shit out" and "trying to be her friend" so he can be in her space 24/7 and still in her life so he can coerce her to BE something more, eventually as he wears her down...it feels like a revolving record skip.
Perseverance is fine elsewhere. Not in pursuit of a woman who does not want to be caught and has rejected you several times.
I need heroines who have better resolve and can stick to their inner guns where they keep saying a mantra of "I NEED NO MAN" and kind of, ya know, mean it...until she is good and ready.
Yeah, okay, 34% in, Chap 8...and this whole piece is exactly why this book is Red Flag City and a buttload of toxicity waiting to happen...
He does not even want to be a "friend"... he thinks they already have "something brewing" and they are just gonna take it NICE AND SLOW...???
I seriously do not know where this manchild gets any idea there is A THING... a DRIP... a DROP of anything between them, and yet he will sit there and put his number in her cell, calls himself so now he has HER NUMBER...and makes a unilateral decision of...
“I know you’re afraid of what this might be, but you shouldn’t let the fear rule you. We’ll take things slow and easy.”
Heroine says this to end her portion of the chapter...
Who am I kidding?
The man is determined to have me, so he won’t let me get away.
Thanks to my upbringing, I’ve always felt like less of a person. It all changed the moment Trevor called me Firefly. He rattles me like no other man has before, making me want more than I deserve. At this point, I’m not sure I want to run from him anymore.
RUN, FIREFLY, RUN!!!!!