✰ 3.25 stars ✰
“People are complicated. The ones who don’t have many friends are usually the ones who need them the most.”
With hints of a compelling mystery and learning to cope with grief and loss Every Missing Piece is a middle grade coming-of-age story that touches upon subjects of grief and loss, while also navigating the efforts and lengths people do to protect the ones they love. 🫂
“When your father dies unexpectedly, people don’t forget. The tragedy is always there, hovering like a ghost in their words. When they look at you, they see the same person, but inside, you’ve changed.
They can’t see the change inside of you, but they can feel it. And it feels wrong to them. They wear their concern on their faces, the questions they want to ask but never will. Do you remember him? Do you miss him?”
After losing her father in a horrible tragic accident, eleven-year-old Maddy Gaines has always taken precautionary steps to the extreme - seeing potential danger in literally everything that exists, she's always prone to do the utmost care in everything. 'Some people have a talent for things like hair and clothes, but my skills lie more in stubbornness and determination.' But, when the new kid in her class, Eric bears striking similarities to Billy Holcomb, a recently reported missing child, Maddy will have to put aside her own fears and concerns in order to find out what truths lie hidden behind closed doors. ❤️🩹❤️🩹
The mystery part of the story was very compelling for me; I was genuinely intrigued and curious to see how it would play out and how much of Maddy's detective skills would get her closer to the truth about Eric - 'he looked like a kid who could use a friend.' I liked how passionate she was in her resolve and even more about how she didn't allow the nature of her extreme need to be overly cautious outweigh her good sense of judgment. 👍🏻 I liked how the clues were presented in sparse detail with just enough intrigue to keep me guessing about whether or not there was some truth to Maddy's speculations. And when all was revealed, it delved into a much more serious and darker tone of the story, which I admit, did catch me by surprise.
And I think, because of that - the story wasn't quite well developed in that regard; to address a subject as heavy as domestic abuse would make for a more touching story, but I felt that it was a bit underdeveloped, here. 'Abuse isn’t about love. It’s about control. And it’s wrong.' It was something that was quickly brought to light, but not enough of a strong connection to Maddy to make it impactful. The build up was gripping and excellent, but the latter half didn't quite appeal to me as much as I would have expected it to have. The ending, while unexpected, still felt a bit rushed and rather a little too convenient for my liking. 🙁
“But some losses keep coming back, the way a shout echoes long after it’s gone. I still text him sometimes. The messages don’t go through, but writing them helps.
Sometimes I just say, “I love you.”
He never answers back.”
Aside from uncovering the mystery behind Eric, I appreciated how the story also focused on Maddy's grief about her father; the story behind it was quite heart-breaking, when you think about how it was just an unfortunate accident - one that could have been easily avoided. 'All it takes is one little mistake, and your world can change forever. For example, you can end up without a dad.' 🥺 The text messages to her father were such a heart-breaking touch, but one that was equally touching. I don't blame Maddy for being zealous in her precautions; it pained me to read it, but at the same time, I appreciated the way in which the author allowed Maddy to find closure in it - how she learned not to hold tight to the responsibility of guilt for what happened. I know, it'll never quite be enough, but seeing her get closure from her family - the words of comfort that she so desperately needed was treated with a lot of kindness, which I appreciated. ❤️🩹❤️🩹
“‘For small creatures such as we, the vastness is bearable only through love,’” Stan says with a smile. “Carl Sagan said that. He was a fellow star nerd. You’d like him.”
One aspect of the story I really enjoyed was her relationship with her stepfather, Stan. He was a really solid guy - one of those good guys, who really did care for her, but never pushed her into accepting him, no matter how much he wanted her to be welcoming to him. 'We talk, but I don’t know much about his life before us. And he doesn’t know much about my life before him.' I liked that Maddy was finally willing to give him a chance - learn more about him - see how much they shared in common than she realized. 😢 Even if he was a bittersweet reminder to the father she had lost, I appreciated how the author allowed Maddy a chance to grieve, while also accepting the changes in her life. That love doesn't go away, but she can make room in her heart for more of it. He proved time and time again how supportive and receptive he was to her fears and concerns, and in the end, even, really shined as a father.
“Love seemed like some kind of mysterious force that traveled invisibly between people. It didn’t seem right that you couldn’t see it or control it, and that it could strike at any time.”
And most importantly, friendship and family is the heart of this story. Maddy's relationship with her mother and her friends helped her grow and adjust to her sadness and also shed light on how she viewed life, in general. They were there for her, even when she felt that she was alone and wanted to be alone. It was also this very figurative look that much like how we can assume things are safe just by their appearance, so too, can people not be judged solely on their appearance - good or bad. And when I think about it, I think that was something that really shined the most for me, and one that is worth mentioning as a positive of this story. 🤍🤍