All is well that ends well! And my heart is soothed and I now wonder what I will read with love and impatience and desire to know More.
Ah, I will truly miss this universe. It's only been three days of reading this saga, but stars did it feel like forever. And I don't say that like, 'urgh, this took f.o.r.e.v.e.r to read', but as in, I was caught up in the ride, in Ren's world, and I felt like I was there as time passed. As he went through things and grew. As he was kidnapped, and then as he escaped, with Asher, as they fled Erden, as they came back, as they explored it then Crei, as he rescued Asher and then things wrapped up. It's been three days, for my physical self. It's been a long time, for my heart (and eyes that lay their gaze on each word painting this saga). And I just know I'm gonna miss it.
Where do I start with this? How do I leave a proper review when I just wrapped this saga up and now have to file it away? It is a tough thing, but I shall try.
This was, just like the second one, a different tone than the first (and second!) books. This was a rescue mission, and then another, and then saving the world. It was a lot. It was fast (and I thought second book had a lot of action...!) and it was Packed, and yet! Still very well-paced. Events unfolded and unfolded (and Ren and Asher's relationship settled into the start of a definite shape ♡) and I could not put this book down. I had to know. Had to read more. In case you aren't aware at this point -- I cogging loved it.
It's just so unique!! Even here, following in the footsteps of the two precedent books, borrowing from them and of course remaining in the same framework, the same universe -- this remains a unique read, something special, unlike no other. The humour, amped up by Darby -- who becomes such an endearing character as time goes by. Annoying at first, a simple rascal, she becomes lovely when faced with the possibilities of scamming and general sketchy business -- as time goes by, and the crew, just like the reader, adopts her with her flaws and qualities.
Speaking of which!! Found Family!!!!!!!!!!! I'm sure I'm not pointing out anything new (when it comes to tropes, I believe it takes one to know one), but, still. I'd like to point out I'm amazed at the pacing of the found family trope in this saga. In book one I was warming up to the crew, and though they were all endearing, Ren wasn't fully attached to them -- and thus, neither was I. But as words went by... As I turned pages and then opened this book, turned its pages too, it really sunk in that the crew was family. I knew, of course -- book two had left a mark on me, the knowledge that Ren was safe and truly loved, cared for there. But ach nae, this book... Found family galore. And I could not be more happy (emotti spaghetti). The group hug after Ren, Ash, Ollie and Darby leave for like two minutes and Rowan comes back for them!! The constant hugs and care they all have for each other!!!!! How Ollie decided to go with Ren and Asher to rescue Liam (I love Ollie so much. My gentle giant 😭🖤). How they took Liam in immediately. And Rowan 🥺🥺🥺 Oh, Rowan. 'She had a bruise on her cheek and a smear of blood along her jawline, but otherwise she was an avenging angel as beautiful as she had been when Ren first saw her on Nineveh.' This took me back! And wow, did it remind me of her journey, and my journey with her character. She first appeared likeable, already ready to defend Ren and take him aboard her ship -- but she had doubts, along the way (which are pretty natural considering the whole freaky science-magic situation she was put in). Doubts that sometimes had me frowning -- but that made her human, a fully-fleshed character. And to see her get along so well with Ren, to see her ready to do So Much for him -- it warms the heart. She would burn the world down for Asher -- for family, and I believe it is truth to say Ren is counted in it.
I was surprised to encounter the big bad of this book. There were many throughout the saga (VanMeerten and the Phoenix Corps, Vos and his minions, creepy af Abiathar), of course, but finding out Millicent was going to be the one giving us a showdown this time was surprising. It was cool, it was neat, it was unexpected in a way not every book is. Lovely. I love that part of her ability is injuring Ren. Not the strongest, indeed, but a twisted skill to have, still.
I do wish, perhaps, this showdown, its buildup, had lasted a bit more -- that we'd gotten more of the whole Vos vs. Phoenix Corps conflict, and the sides Ren & Cie. were trying to take as they decided to take down Millicent. It was such a beautiful feast of grey area, as neither side fit them! Very lovely. I guess I wish I'd gotten more of it, along with every side of the aftermath, but - I understand why there isn't. The pacing was perfect until the end, and I feel like these wishes of mine could have make the book a little , less of what it is (which is, definitely this author's product, something that stands out and shines brightly).
I guess I'm also not that keen on farewells; on closing a book and leaving the world it took me to -- which is probably why I favoured the rescue missions plots, too -- especially Asher's. I'm getting into it (it being Ren and Asher's relationship), of course I am, but - this mission really was Ren sending the lift back to Asher (as the french say), and it was such a lovely thing. If there is one thing this goodbye has given me, it is the beauty of their relationship throughout the book. Growth! So much growth. (So much domesticity... Every scene of them being domestic had me putting the book down and taking a break like come on!! This is what I love to see!!!) Them standing on equal grounds, and now having rescued each other, showing the other a million ways he matters to the other. Them telling each other they love eo, and walking the talk, protecting, caring, loving eo in a billion ways. Them communicating, always, and sticking to eo's side, always. Them still fighting from time to time, but communicating, always, and as the epilogue states, always trying to make up. So many lines I could quote, so many times Ren looked at Ash and saw the world -- so many time Ash held Ren like he was the most precious thing in the universe, and you know what, star aside, only taking Ash's heart into account -- he is. They are in love and end up, still in love, healing, happy, and it is a beautiful thing. First book felt like slow burn, an impatient wait for an actual reveal of feelings, of kisses -- looking back on it, it turns out the slow burn was longer: it took two books, and a rescue, for these two to settle into something truly tangible, that finally connected them through conflicts and mishaps. It took time, and in the end, I am glad for it. Building relationships, bonds in general, isn't easy, and there often isn't any charm to rushed ones -- but here, author took their time, and yet gave the reader clues, moments -- steps of a stairs, which, as time went on, became sturdier and sturdier. Something beautiful, which can not only be applied to Ren and Ash, but to Ren and the crew, other characters as well. Things took time -- closing the book, they are where we wished them to be as we read the saga -- they will evolve, still, and become even better. They are far from what I imagined when I started reading the first book -- but they are, in the end, what my heart needed -- and I am pleased with them.
I fear this review being too long, therefore I will make sure to wrap it up soon, but only after I mention the atmospheres and descriptions, settings of this book. Just like with the two precedent books, things were easy to imagine. They were unique, like I keep saying, and each place, each scene had an atmosphere, a lighting, an angle, a cinematography of its own. The Bara scenes were a delight -- how lovely the scenes were in my mind! Blues, so much blues -- rain, as Asher got beaten -- and a bright red, as Darby blew things up. Out of all planets, Bara might be my favourite -- the descriptions of the sights it offered, its climate, its tropicalness, settled in my imagination and thus, my heart.
Another sequence that has my heart, is the debris moments. The ghosts, talking to Ren. Guiding him and wishing him luck, protecting him and helping him. I was genuinely touched when they first appeared -- when Ren put them over the comm, and everyone could hear them -- when the crew left Perilous Space, and 'He sent his goodbyes out into space./ Goodbye, Ren.' -- here is now eternal beings; losers, victorious, immortal, perilous -- remnants of the past, proof of the tales we hear at the very beginning of the saga. Here are ancient, mythical, legendary beings -- here is Ren's kind, and it humbles one, to meet them, even as a reader. The atmosphere with them was so haunting, so beautiful. Like feeling like a gone loved one lingers around, around one -- at the very least in their heart, and helps them carry on, forward. It was sincerely so lovely, absolutely beautiful, and this too, has my heart.
All in all, this is so far from where we started. This is the furthest from what I'd expected when I started these books, but then again - I was focusing on the ride, and only hoping for things to end well -- I was enjoying the books, and nothing more. This is indeed the furthest thing from the start -- but it is lovely, to read a book and be taken to places you couldn't even imagine -- to be grabbed by the hand, and led through ways you hadn't even considered. To be introduced to characters, and to watch them evolve, to see them grow. It is something, something very dear, an indescribable feeling, and I am glad it exists in these books. I would have never known, I would have never guessed -- this saga beats every guess I could ever had, and for that -- I am happy. I say thank you. There is pleasure in closing your eyes and enjoying the sensations of the ride -- there is pleasure, in taking a star host's hand, and letting him lead the way, letting him show you many, many worlds. This was a superb ride, and I'd like the author to know, I'm very grateful for it.
A special mention to mental illness being tackled, and recovery, seeing a therapist, being mentioned as well. Ren and Asher (and the others, too, but the pair is our mcs) have gone through things, and indeed have to work through them. I forgot to point it out in my review on the second book, but I genuinely enjoyed seeing Ren struggling with what had happened in the first book. Not because I like to see characters suffer -- but because it is nice, to be realistic about such events, and to take into account that adventures like these would take a toll on people irl. Of course, these two have support -- but it is what's good, too: where there is suffering, there is recovery -- and if one has a pillar as they try to swim up to the surface, if they have wood and floaters and a hand, hands reaching towards them -- then efforts can seem less tiresome, less stressful. The light may be less blinding, and it may be easier, to lie underneath it.
I liked the nod to Ren's nightmares at the end, and I liked the nod to Asher's uniform. We never were in Asher's head, but he suffered, too -- and it is nice to see this being acknowledged. These two have each other, these two have family -- these two walk forward, and will get better. Together. And for that, I am thankful.
All is well that ends well. Things are wrapped up nicely, and everything is good, everything is well. The universe Ren belongs to is at peace, and he has just what he wished for: 'a soft place to land at the end of the day, Asher right beside him, and all the domesticity and routine and happiness of a life filled with love and certainty'. Ren, it Was possible, and you've made it.
And the rest? It is stardust.
Thank you, dear author, for bringing this saga to life. You've made my world a little bluer, a little blue and purple and red black around the edges. I like these shades -- I shall treasure them. Thank you.🖤