Dosage of Serotonin

by inksteady

Whenever I am with her, I could hear the unfamiliar sound of my laughter. I could see the nostalgic glint in my eyes. I could feel the warmth that illuminated my heart.

For the first time in a long time, I was free. I was happy. She was the one who kept me going---my dosage of serotonin.

Genres: Romance

ebook

Published April 27, 2021

About the author

FACTS ABOUT INKSTEADY
📌 "I'm Idy, and I started writing on [Wattpad] on September 9, 2020".
📌 She's born on July 16, 2000.
📌 BS Psychology, Class of 2022
📌 She's from Luzon, in the Philippines
📌 She likes cats.
📌 She has over 600K followers on Wattpad

Reviews

[justine | novelsandpanda · Rating 2 out of 5]

Dosage of Serotonin was unnecessarily long, spelling and some grammatical error, overall, poorly edited. I do understand it, I took the brave face and head on. And I get it.

It built that momentum to sympathize with the MC, but still really wordy… I appreciate the trigger warnings most. I get the precautions, since it dealt with such a delicate matter, there were parts that gave inconsistencies with what applications or rather showed contradictory to what the MC is saying to the reader and the actions she has done through the book.

The romance vibe it gave was forced; but I do admit the steam level is up the scale hot plus it is consenting. I did tear up a lot through what the MC was dealing with her family especially when a certain character dies. I was silently rooting for that person and doi, it hurt. If you are looking for a feel good read, nope not here. Reading Dosage of Serotonin may be a whole lot heavy than what you thought. Bring tissues if you will.

[TG · Rating 5 out of 5]

I'll edit this review once I gathered my thoughts about this book. I just know na magang maga ang mata ko and I appreciate how well-executed this story is.

Dati, ang definition ko ng comfort story is yung light lang, wala masyadong plot twist but now, parang iba na.

This is probably my new comfort story because not only I was comforted all throughout the reading process but it embraced and validated what I was feeling before I decided to read it. I never knew her words were what I needed at this moment.

So far, this is my favorite book that Ms. Inksteady has written and I can't wait for her next one.

[jazzyyreads_ · Rating 5 out of 5]

Calix :((

[lexi ୨୧ · Rating 4 out of 5]

"I was his answered prayer."

For a moment, I was against Wattpad stories just because of how cringy it is sometimes. However, this novel was the total opposite. The way it was written is amazing. I wanted a good book to cry on, and this book didn't disappoint. I love this! I realized that communication is important when it comes to relationships. I've read some of Inksteady's other novels, The plots are always the same - they fall in love, break up for some reason, and fall in love again. I've read a lot of Wattpad that has the same theme as this, but this story is just different. I adore this book. Calix and Vina will always have a special place in my heart. This might be my new favorite Wattpad novel - so close to beating Chasing in the Wild.


Edit:
Kahit ilang beses ko ‘to basahin umiiyak parin ako sa sobrang sakit HAHAHA. Grabe!!! I finished reading it at 1am while knowing I have my midterms exam tomorrow. Wala eh, ang ganda ng story gustong gusto ko na tapusin. 😭

Calix is my standard grabe talaga!! AAAAAAA basta wala ako masabi BASAHIN NYO NALANG PARA MALAMAN NYO :))

Badly want the physical copy now 🥲 I hope maalala ko lahat ng nireview ko cause all I could think about is how Calix prayed for Vina, and how Vina still cherished Calix after all those years.

Ganda sobra! 100/10 sobrang sarap 🤓🤓

[Sai theengineerisreading · Rating 2 out of 5]

Finished this one last weekend.

Since this is the first in a set of six local books I'm reading before 2022 ends, I set no expectation at all.

However, the inconsistency in writing style (informal in dialogues and formal in narration) is noticeable and I really had a hard time taking the MC seriously.

I enjoyed Vina's voice, to be honest, but sometimes she says things that are actually red flag (i. e. casually thinking that she and her nephew can be considered couple with the way they look)

The love interest is expected to be angsty and I think the author overwrote him.

There are kilig moments of course but most of the time, it's a snoozefest.

2 stars for now. Will try to adjust once I read the other books.

[Charm (⁠◕⁠ᴗ⁠◕⁠✿⁠) · Rating 4 out of 5]

Sa totoo lang, nahihirapan ako mag-isip kung ano bang review ang ibibigay ko sa story na 'to. Maganda naman ang plot. Dami lang trigger warnings kaya read at your own risk. Kaso hindi lang ganoon naging kalakas ang impact sa akin. Medyo na-bored ako sa ilang parts sa totoo lang. Pero kahit ganoon, okay ang writing style ng author. Alam mo talagang she did her research very well. Okay rin ang character development.

[raya · Rating 3 out of 5]

CALIX AND VINA MY KIDS I LOVE U

[Angeli Belo · Rating 5 out of 5]

Maganda

[hails 辉丽 · Rating 4 out of 5]

soo heavyy, but it was really fast paced with how their relationship started 😭 sorry i love a good slowburn BUT DAMN I LOVEEE LOVE LOVE CALIX AND VINA AAAA

[eugene miguel · Rating 4 out of 5]

“For the first time in a long time, I was free. I was happy. She was the one who kept me going—my dosage of serotonin.”

[dionne · Rating 5 out of 5]

5⭐

(Long review ahead; contains spoilers)

“She was the one who kept me going—my dosage of serotonin.”

Prepare yourself for a rollercoaster ride as this book will make you giggle, invoke anger, break your heart and then heal it after. The story begins as Vina is reunited with her college crush, Calix during a birthday celebration she has attended. However, their meeting was cut short—due to an emergency call—but fate found a way to have their paths cross again; with Calix ending up as her tenant. But this is not just a cute forced proximity trope romance that we are expecting; this book offers more. It tackles heavy themes such as mental health, toxic family, grief and trauma.

Reading this book is not an easy ride. Vina is a lovable character, that loud friend who always makes funny jokes and is a steadfast person. But aside from that, she is also a breadwinner. And despite her best efforts to please her family, Vina’s efforts were still unappreciated and even deemed as insincere and selfish. It was a tough household and it reminded me of how common Filipino families view their children—a retirement plan; someone who’s obliged to help no matter what—and this saddens me how it consumes someone that they start to lose themselves. Toxic household indeed creates a domino effect; hence for Vina losing her nephew from suicide, affects her productivity at work, deep regrets and declining mental health. On top of that, she was experiencing a rocky relationship with Calix as their miscommunication regressed

Calix, on other hand, is an earnest, sweet partner and a principled man. He championed childhood trauma, protects his grandparents, adores his dog a lot and keeps a positive perspective in life. He’s the kind of character that will make you feel safe and have a soft spot on. But he also has insecurities for goals he failed to meet and so he feels unworthy of Vina. But as the continuous reassurance from Vina arises, so are the conflicts of the story. While reaching for great heights of his career—while being away from Vina—he has experienced sexual harassment and rape from a woman. This beats the stereotypes that men gets sexually abused or raped too, not just women. This created a ripple effect on how low he views himself as a person (thus thinking of himself as “dirty”), developing a new trauma, difficulty of communicating with his partner that has slowly put a crack on their relationship and eventually leading up to their break up.

Those conflicts were definitely heavy and hard to swallow. I couldn’t imagine this to someone and yet, this happens everyday and just reflects the cruelty in this world. It is shown with great irony that Vina, who is a psychiatrist, wasn’t able to see the signs and save her nephew from giving up. She wasn’t able to help her boyfriend either. But let’s keep in mind that Vina was going through a difficult setback too. So this made me realise that there are no exceptions for a deteriorating mental health.I especially like how this book gives importance to taking care of our mental health; it brought awareness and showed how we should show empathy to people who are going through different conditions and disorders. This book just taught us how to combat stigma and I really appreciate that.

Idy has written this book in a beautiful way; setting the atmosphere and mood in every scene that I vividly pictured everything. It wasn’t rushed and I found it really long but because of that, a proper build-up was built, each question was answered, the emotional depth was captured perfectly and the character's feelings were handled with care. The spiritual healing was enlightening and comforting. I think everything is in perfect pace. There were minor typographical errors but that’s understandable since the version I read was unedited.

The story was wrapped up in a satisfying conclusion; every loose end was tied, justice was served, apologies were accepted—although I personally won’t forgive Vina’s family that easily but I think that’s what her spiritual journey taught her so I won’t judge her for that. I really hope Yesha gets her own happy ending too (a separate book for her please, author 🙏). I am so glad that Vina and Calix found their happy ending after everything they went through; they deserve it so much.

Dosage of Serotonin is perfect for those who want to experience deeply emotional books who are comfortable with sensitive topics. Trigger warnings include: toxic household, abuse (physical, mental, verbal, emotional, sexual), suicide, suicide ideations, child abuse, death, mental disorders and conditions. It’s certainly not an easy read—I had to take a lot of breaks—but it’s definitely worth it.

[Mariah Grace · Rating 5 out of 5]

THIS BOOK GOT ME EMOTIONAL DAMAGE. MY EYES ARE SWOLLEN AFTER I READ THIS.

[leal · Rating 5 out of 5]

If you're looking for a book that will make you feel giddy all throughout the story, this is not the book for you. Dosage of Serotonin is for the middle child, the breadwinners, for those who love others more than themselves, who give more to others than what they give to themselves, for those who are feeling lost, and fights alone. It's for those who see themselves in the shoes of Vina, Calix, and Mark.

At first, I thought I was reading about how romance blooms between Vina and Calix, but no, I am reading a book about how these two are surviving with their inner battles, and how love makes or breaks them... Love is not always enough. A thought that lingered with me, not just with the relationship between Vina and Calix, but also applied to the people around them. Hindi sapat na mahal mo kaya hahayaan mong abusuhin ka nito, hindi sapat na porket mahal mo ang isang tao, mananatili ka sa tabi nito. There could be love in leaving too, in parting ways, and in saying goodbyes. Pinakita yun sa'kin ni Vina at Calix. It could be said that it's a case of loving the right person in the wrong time. However, I feel they met and loved each other in the right time. Feel ko tama lang; tama lang na naging tenant ni Vina si Calix. Tama lang na sinubukan nila despite their individual battles and trauma. We do not meet people by chance; we meet people because we needed them in certain points in our lives. Ganun ang nangyari kila Vina and Calix... There are battles we must face alone, so that we can be braver when facing another, even with someone by our side. Kailangan natin maging malakas na mag-isa, bago tayo maging malakas na may kasama. It doesn't mean we need to fight alone, but the first move of courage starts with you.

I like how justice is served for both main characters and how their character develops. Personally, I will not forgive Vina's parents, pero hindi ako si Vina. Si Vina hindi siya madadaanan sa pera, kaya kahit bayaran siya nang buo ng pamilya sa utang nito sa kanya, a part of her heart will never be at peace. Kailangan lang niya makita na nagsisisi ang mga ito at nakikita siya ng pamilya as Vina, hindi yung kapatid na mahihingan nila ng pera sa tuwing tag-hirap.

The story feels painfully realistic because it doesn’t shy away from issues such as mental health, toxic family dynamics, societal pressure, and stereotypes. That’s what makes it hit so hard—what the characters go through are struggles you might relate to or even be experiencing yourself. The decisions of the characters might frustrate or annoy you, but those who truly knows them will understand them.

This book is such an experience. Also, I like how the theme of mental health is portrayed here. My heart hurts for Vina, Calix, Mark, and Yesha. Dosage of Serotonin left me with lot of messages and moral lessons—some parts I resonated with. Definitely a recommend, read at your own risk though.

[ayareadz · Rating 5 out of 5]

Happiness is about appreciating small things—the way someone will pray for you, comfort you without even realizing it, buy you food, ensure your safety, and just... love you.

At that moment, I realized something that would change my life. I wanted to begin the year with him. I wanted to spend all my days getting to know him. He couldn't give me the entire universe, but I didn't even need a single planet. He was the one I wanted... the one who could make me feel like I owned everything.

"Hindi ko kayang makipaglaban sa mga naging... manliligaw mo. Hindi ako kasing yaman nila... hindi kasing successful... hindi kasing talino. Pero, Vina, 'yung pagmamahal ko sa 'yo, kaya kong ipanalo."

"Always remember that the man at the cross is the true epitome of love. Nothing could ever compare to Him. A man's love fades. A man's love in conditional. A man's love is limited. But if you love a man of God, his love for you will be radical. Why? Because his love comes form the provider of love itself."

As someone na kagaya ni Vina na agnostic, unti-unti akong bumabalik at mukhang lalong tumitibay ang relihiyon ko. Mahirap at alam kong mahaba-haba pang proseso iyon, pero, salamat sa librong 'to dahil kahit papaano ay iminumulat niya ang mata ko sa pagmamahal na mayroon Siya.

1. Plot / Storyline: Nang dahil sa librong ito, ninanais ko na sana Psychology na lang din ang course ko. Mas napapamahal ako sa mundo na mayroon ang psychology ngunit alam ko na mat-trigger lang ako rito. Akala ko masakita na ang TTW, mas masakit pala ito. Hindi lang kay Vina pero mas nasaktan ako para kay Calix dahil hindi niya deserve ang mga taong nakapalibot sa kaniya. Nakakaawa siya at nakakagalit silang lahat pero kung si Calix nga kaya silang patawarin, paano pa kaya ako? Pero, hindi. Hindi ko sila papatawarin. My Vina & Calix deserves the best and the best is what they found with one another. Masakit ang storyang ito. Nakailang iyak ata ako rito at may hugot pa na: "hindi nila deserve 'yon!"

2. Characters: Mahal na mahal ko sila. Iba 'yung mindset na mayroon sila na dala na rin siguro ng edad nila. Mas masakit pala maglet go ng tao kapag nasa ganitong edad ka na at sobra akong kinakabahan sa future ko nang dahil doon. Nakakainis ang mga ibang character at alam kong alam nila sa sarili 'yon. Hindi ko sila mapapatawad sa lahat ng sakit, bigat, at doubt na ibinigay nila kanila Vina at Calix.

3. Writing Style: Maayos pa rin naman. Madaling sundan.

4. Emotional Impact: GRABE! Iyak ako nang iyak dito. Sobrang attached ako sa kanila to the point na ayaw ko pang tapusin ang book nila pero at the same time ay ayaw ko na rin maramdaman ang pain sa pagbabasa.

5. Ending: THE BEST!

[Franz Paul Cabuquit · Rating 3 out of 5]

widening my reading by trying out a book from wattpad! why not diba

this is a contemporary ya (?) romance that centers on this 30-something years old woman who is a well-esteemed psychiatrist. one day, during a event, she is unexpectedly reunited with a 30-something years old man (very handsome one), and she just knew that she already fell for him. and then we just basically follow the story of their relationship together. the book is mainly told based on the perspective of the woman. but at the end, for the prologue, we get to see, tho not equally in length, the perspective of the man.

i believe the strongest asset of this book, is its ability to present fragile topics very well. the book contains conflicts such as family problems, financial frustration, rape, suicide, domestic abuse, depression, death, and more. when we come to the parts where such topics are discussed, it's just so well-done. you really get to feel the anger and the frustration of our mc because of the arguments presented. i also think that the other strong point of this book, is how it really gives the reader a chance to judge the characters in full context, because the book never missed to give the two sides of a story. even though one may potentially be mislead of character judgement on the first few pages, the rest of the book still managed to provide what is adequate to really explore the characters. the integration of psychology and psychiatry onto the very plot is also a very good initiative. mental health is a very heavy and fragile subject, and since such field of medicine was incorporated into the book, it lead to a more satisfying study and representation of mental health.

but still, even though there were many parts that i thought were very well-done, there were also some that i thought weren't that polished. first, the writing i thought was not amazing. it was just okay. coming from only having read international books, to this—i definitely felt the change in prose, style, and language of course. moreover, i thought that some of the dialogues of the characters were too unrealistic and unlikely at times. next, i felt that the book was quite predictable, not totally tho, just quite. to be clear, the values, morals and the topics covered in the book were amazing. it's more on the execution that I had problems with. but overall, i thought this was still good! definitely a starter to reading more of what wattpad has to offer!

[Yricka Somcio · Rating 5 out of 5]

I needed a good cry, and this book not only brought me to tears, but it swallowed me whole and literally destroyed me. It was such a smooth pain, and I cried for 30 minutes straight while reading, and I loved it. I absolutely love books that can make me feel things, and if a book is emotional and makes me cry, that's even better. It is automatically rated 5 stars.

This book did more than just make me so emotionally invested and mentally exhausted that I was almost numb to continue reading. This book had such an impact on me that I finished it in such a short period of time. It's fascinating, beautifully composed and structured, and it's both painful and romantic, which is exactly what I wanted from this book.

Reading it made me fall in love with Calix Fujimoto, the greenest green flag ever. He was written in such a beautiful, refreshing, and flawless manner. I admire him for being himself, loving God, showing and showering Vina with love, and teaching her to love God as well. To be honest, that scene with God in the book made me cry the most.

The romance in this book is also a serotonin boost. It was heartwarming and not as cringe-worthy as some of the books I've read. Because of how flirtatious the two are, I was literally kicking my feet out of happiness. It's really amazing how much they managed to grow and went through. They both deserve each other so much.

This book was fantastic for discussing specific topics, particularly trauma and family abandonment and responsibilities. It's a healthy and toxic discussion about certain topics that may be triggering to a few, so read the trigger warnings carefully. This book, in my opinion, flows a little too fast, but it truly shatters and consumes the heart. Definitely worth reading. I wish I could read it again for the first time.

Personally, I would never forgive Vina's family. Despite the fact that some of the themes of the book are redemptive and finding it in your heart to forgive, I would never forget.

[Aliya · Rating 5 out of 5]

Ito yung book na hindi ko pa nababasa pero nagiging comfort ko na...

Woww... Just woww this book was so full of plot twist, plot twist na sobrang unexpected at unthinkable talaga. I first thought that no one deserved Vina esp Calix, hindi ko kayang maatim lahat ng pinagdaanan niya then somebody will just claim her? Na parang wala lang? But after knowing what Calix been going through, his ultimate reason to unintentionally hurt Vina? It made me believe otherwise. I think they both deserved each other.

But let me have this clearer way of how this book made me ugly-cry. My tears won't stop from falling, I just can't take jt when Mark urghhh I don't wanna spoil u guys.

Kinda nabitin lang ako sa epilogue I was expecting for more details about Calix's struggles when he was still a kid. But I love how ate inksteady focus on the healing part of both protagonist of the story.

This books was so full of worship words. It talks about mental, and emotional health, abusive content so If you're not comfortable with that kind of book better not let this book get through you. What I love about this book is how the author spread God's word. I love how she made God be the who made them believe that "to believe is to see" . It also talks about faith, faith with yourself, faith with your own race in life, faith with your dreams most esp faith with God.

[xoxoveron · Rating 5 out of 5]

Thank you, Inksteady, for this book. It truly opened my eyes to struggles that often go unseen. This may not be for everyone, as it’s quite heavy, and I highly recommend checking the trigger warnings beforehand. Still, it helped me reflect deeply on my relationship with Him. The past few days have been difficult for me—I found myself crying while reading, yet at the same time, it healed something within me.

Their love story felt so genuine. They both have their flaws, but at the core, they are simply people who are hurting and trying to find their way. Calix Fujimoto is the ultimate green flag—does someone like him even exist in real life? A man of God who prays for you. I love how he became an instrument in helping Vina see God more clearly. Their love for each other is comforting, especially knowing they’ve both experienced loss through Carol and Mark, yet still chose to keep going with God’s guidance.

The ending was beautiful. Vina may have forgiven her family, but I believe she will never forget. This book took me on an emotional journey—it broke me, made me happy, gave me butterflies, and most importantly, taught me a lesson I needed: to strengthen my relationship with God.

Would I read it again? I’m not sure, given how heavy it was. But this book and its characters have already found a special place in my heart.

[Cosmo Reads · Rating 3 out of 5]

I picked this book up out of curiosity because of the hype, and now I get why people are drawn to it.

The FMC's story hit close to home for me. Coming from a toxic household, there were times I had to pause while reading because it brought back painful memories. It wasn't an easy experience, but it made the book feel more personal.

The romance, though, didn't fully work for me. It felt a little forced, and I was expecting more angst. The MMC also came off a bit overdone. The book was longer than it needed to be, and some parts could have been trimmed down, but my main issue was with the execution.

Still, I'd call it a good read. Not the best, but it has its strong moments and it made me want to check out more Wattpad books. This isn't a light or feel-good story, Dosage of Serotonin is heavier than it looks, mixing love with the harsh realities of life.

Please check the trigger warnings before reading. It deals with sensitive topics like suicid3 and rap3, and I hope future physical copies will have detailed trigger warnings for readers.

Love,
Cosmo ♡

[Lilsiszie · Rating 3 out of 5]

Reminder: a heavy sensitive scenes.

I'm so excited to read this book because of all the hype and a friend recommend advising me to read this one—as it's better than the College Series. But, "This story is too long for no good reason." And here's why.

Vina and Calix opens up the true reality of a family who has a low understanding of mental health issues, and selfishness, that they sadly adopted and reflected on their relationship. Another miscommunication and trust problem that the author sadly didn't improve (from College Series up into this book), that made me lessen my ratings.

The story have more problematic scenes than romance, which looked forced. Even the reconcile part feels rush and unplanned well (considering it's 460+ pages long). I preferred it shorter and cut some unimportant/unnecessary scenes.

Regardless of that, the hype is worth a shot but not the best read.

[Pjyuu · Rating 4 out of 5]

4.6/5.0 ⭐

Ok, I understand why tons of people like this story. I think it's because it talks about real life problems. The drama is ok and it's not that impressive but the struggle sure is impressive. The male lead is the best part of the story (not that I have any say on how he's a very ideal fictional husband material and super hard to believe type of sht). There were some unexpected twist, but one I can only note (it made sense, but it also didn't? I just had a feeling).

It was nice, however there are times I felt like the side characters had some really important things going on that I clearly don't fully get. I heard those couples also had some stories (Which I'm not interested enough to read? Lmao). So that's it, I did cry (a lot) and I was loading for like a few pages before I realized that... Yeah, it happened, bish. It wasn't a dream lol.

Overall, plot is average (and angsty) with a really godly male lead. Bye.

[Cari · Rating 5 out of 5]

Yet after all that, they remained faithful to God...

It was a lovestory, and a trauma... As of writing this, I've been crying so hard, no worst, weeping my heart out. They don't deserve any of these worst experiences. My poor babies 😭... and YES THEY ALL DESERVE, not just the world, but THE WHOLE UNIVERSE.

Ang lala magyearn, ang lala din manakit.

Song Recommendations:
For Vina 🍰 and Calix ⛩️

Happiness by Rex Orange County

He Has Chose You for Me by Sarah Pipes

Hoplessly Devote to You Cover by Rex Orange County


For the Last Special Chapter :((((

What if I miss you for the rest of my life? by Janine Berdin

Magpahinga by Ben&Ben 


Happy Suicide Prevention Month guys... Please don't be afraid to tell your problems to your friends or family... You are important... You all deserve the UNIVERSE. I LOVE YOU ALL!! 🫶🏻

[Ely · Rating 5 out of 5]

When you think you’ve reach the most painful of them all, inksteady surprises you with “may isasakit pa yan”. I initially thought it would be light (joke time kasi si inksteady nga pala author) because of the dynamics of the character. However, as the story progresses, I kept on balling up on my bed, and eventually crying my eyes out.

This book really made me see the impact of mental health and how sometimes, faith is part of the healing process. Men like Calix are rare finds, and sometimes it’s guys like them that make us see things in a different perspective.

HIGHLY RECOMMEND THIS! However, prepare yourself mentally and emotionally before going into it because it tends to be heavy at times. Don’t pressure yourself to finish it instantly and take it one page at a time.

[Elise · Rating 4 out of 5]

I give this story 4.50 stars because this story made my heart broken. Honestly, mas maganda 'to kung gawing English version. Anyway, the author is too brave for me to write this story. I only saw a few Filipino writers writing stories that have a lot of trigger warnings specially this story has family problems, suicide, rape, self-pity and depression. This is not an easy task to do but I love how Inksteady wrote this.

Somehow, there are a lot of descriptive words that are unnecessary and it makes it repetitive. But I understand she is a rookie writer and she was just expressing herself through her stories.

Thus the story also promotes taking care of ourselves.

P.S.: Though I already read this, I'm not brave enough to read this again.

[whosboredme · Rating 5 out of 5]

This book is my dosage of serotonin! Calix is my inkboy (and Leon🤪) I love Calix very much; he's my soft inkboy. The greenest of all. I love them. That's why I can't forgive Vina's family like they did.

Just like how her other books made me cry, this also broke me. The scene when her parents couldn't accept him, her nephew, her problem with her family, 🍇pe, d3ath, and more—it destroyed me. This book tackles a lot of issues (including your relationship with God), so prepare yourself and your tissues before reading it. (The author's so brave and amazing to write those.)
 
This had me giggling and kicking my feet at 3 a.m. and made me burst out crying at 4 a.m. The book has flaws, but it is definitely worth reading.

[Sharm · Rating 5 out of 5]

This book will forever hold a special place in my heart🥺❤️ The tranquility, the million dozens of painful needles piercing through my heart, the therapeutic timeless love; such a roller-coaster ride. Despite all their circumstances, everything ends up falling into its own places. I wish that one day, I'll find my own Calix that will shower me with endless love🥺❤️ Aside from such a therapeutic romance that gives me serotonin, the lessons about mental health is absolutely something that everyone should know. I cried a river😭 It's been awhile since I've cried from a book before and this just made me so emotional that I had to process everything for days before I can start a new book🥺🫶🏻 I would pay anything and give everything to erase my memory and re-read this again istg🥺

[zelly.ace ۶ৎ ࿔⋆ · Rating 5 out of 5]

I read this story back in 2022, and it's been a year now. I have a physical copy of this book, and I'm trying to re-read it again, little by little. I'm chunking it; I started re-reading it in 2024 and finished it today. Quite a long time, right? I know I can't read it all at once without feeling the pain, so I'm taking it slow. I know that'll break me again, and it did. After reading Vina and Calix's special chapter, I stopped and said to myself, 'I'll read Yesha's POV when I'm ready,' and I don't know when I'm going to be reading it. But after almost 2 weeks of preparing myself to read Yesha's POV, here I am, broken again and missing the story already, even though I finished reading it a few minutes ago. I love this story so much. I'm fine with it breaking me.

[Hannah 𝜗𝜚 ࣪˖ ִ𐙚 · Rating 5 out of 5]

𝐜𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐱 & 𝐯𝐢𝐧𝐚 🥹

if i could rate more stars here i would, this book is written by an angel. it holds so much meaning, love & power that i poured my heart out crying while flipping the pages. truly, you can't be wrong in choosing a man/woman of God and putting Him at the center of the relationship. calix, are you even real? no words, just pure admiration for this guy who has a whole green forest and vina, whom i can relate myself to as well, i don't know if i'll ever know what to do in that situation like hers, but she's the epitome of faith. and mark 💔, thank you for letting me know what unconditional love means, and for loving beyond measures.

[Moonchild · Rating 5 out of 5]

Out of all the wattpad books I have read, inksteady's books are the one I love. The composition of the book, it is well written an well versed. The plot twists - muy bien 🤌🏼

FOR THE DEEP FEELERS ONLY. (not the typical cliche, all easygoing stories) You have a lot of takeaways from each book. For me it made me aware of different mental health issues or disorders and I can't wait to reread all of the books once I have the physical of the book.

Cheers inksteady!
Ease your mind and you take a lot of rest.
We will wait your beautiful mind.

[audrereads · Rating 5 out of 5]

5 stars ⭐

This book hurt me so much. I thought I wouldn’t cry, but I was wrong. The story is full of trauma, heartbreak, and emotional moments that made me tear up. Thankfully, there were also sweet and happy scenes that balanced everything out.

The ending was satisfying, but the special chapters, especially Yesha’s, were still heartbreaking. This book kept me emotional until the very end. It’s not corny at all, and it teaches a lot of valuable life lessons. A truly beautiful and unforgettable read. 💙📖